It happened last Wednesday.
“Jan,” I heard a voice say. “Yes,” I
responded, looking around…. “Hello.”
I heard nothing. “Hello, is someone
there? Did someone call me?” Working
in my office about 4:00 p.m., I heard it
again from down the hall: “Jan.” I
answered, “Yes, I heard you…hello?
Did someone call me?”
With people coming and going
during the day, I didn’t think that much
about it. But, when it was 10:30 p.m. — and I was
still in my office finishing up late faxes — I heard it
again. “Jan.” I froze in my chair. I said, “Is someone
there?” and got up quickly and went to the back door.
I called out, “Pinky, Baby, Jazzie, come in here and sit
with mommy while I finish working.” The dogs gladly
came running in and smelled everything in the
house. With an 80 pound German shepherd by my
side and her two side kicks, two toy poodles, I felt
safe and sound and forgot about the voice calling.
I quickly finished up and got everyone ready for a
wonderful night’s sleep.
I’m getting Holy Ghost goose bumps now just
writing about this, because what was to happen in a
few hours was truly heavenly! I suppose it was about
three in the morning — I’ve been awakened a lot in
the past year and when it happens I just talk to Jesus a
while and usually fall back asleep — but this was
different. I felt as if I was lifted up off my bed — not
far, maybe one foot or so — but I felt as if I were
floating and hands were holding me. I had no fear
whatsoever — only peace, only joy — and all I could
do was “listen with my heart…and in my mind.”
I suddenly had “a knowing” that it was the
Father and He was holding me in His arms just to
remind me of things He had asked me to do, and of
things I had promised Him I would do for Him. It was
not audible. I did not open my eyes. In His arms, I
was reminded of Haiti: I saw peace, joy, everyone
happy, parks, bicycles, Jesus on everyone’s lips —
the GLORY of the LORD radiating from everyone
everywhere — in every home, every building. I saw
the hospital “alive,” with the people being ministered
to, and I saw myself there leaning over beautiful
people doing all I could do. I saw Jesus everywhere
— in faces, on the walls, in hearts.
Then, the absolute knowledge in my heart and
mind flooded me:“that my body was healed.” I felt
assured that the miracle was complete, and PEACE,
JOY, TEARS, HOPE, COMFORToverwhelmed
me. I don’t know how long this lasted. I just know the
next morning there was a NEW SONG in my heart, a
new joy on my face — that my vision, my purpose,
my Kingdom destiny had been renewed in my heart
and I now still feel the uplifting in my spirit. There is a
place right around your middle that lifts, when you draw
a breath — that is where the joy, the peace radiates
from — I believe this is where the
precious Holy Spirit abides. You can
just be lifted in your sweet precious spirit
now. Breathe in His love. Breathe in
His peace. Breathe in His joy. Put your
sweet hands over your tummy and
breathe and lift. “Jesus, Oh Sweet,
Precious Jesus, FILL that emptiness.”
Let Him lift your heavy burdens away.
Let Him love you the way He wants to
every single moment. Breathe in His Life.
Tears are in my eyes just writing this. I hope you
are feeling His presence NOW. He loves you. He
wants to renew that dream you had as a teen to do
something sooooo special for Jesus — but the dream
was “snatched away” by the burdens of this world.
But, that was a Jesus dream and He picked you especially
to do that wonderful Kingdom thing for Him.
Think about that dream — it would tickle your heart
and spirit when you were young. You would see the
dream finished and flourishing — you knew that it
was a Jesus thing. He’s renewing your mind and your
dream now as you read — you see yourself again at
12, 15, 18 years old, dreaming BIG for Jesus, and you
will this moment declare it “out loud” to Jesus: “Lord,
I know that was your dream for me and I declare now
I will begin TODAY to renew your Kingdom purpose
for my life and I will startTODAY — LIVING MY
DREAM. Do you feel the joy? Are tears in your
eyes? Are you seeing Jesus? Are you two getting the
job started? This is your moment, sweet Partner.
“How could Jan build a hospital?” One year ago
I was dying with colon cancer, with a blood count of
6. But, oh sweet Jesus. Ohhhhhhhhh, precious, beautiful,
wonderful, loving, healing, caring Jesus came
and because HE was willing to be beaten, whipped,
scourged, marred for me — because He was willing
to bear cancer for me — because He went to the cross
for me — because He took sin and sickness to HELL
for me, and because He defeated SATAN for me, and
because He took the keys of Death, Hell and the
Grave for me, and because He arose Triumphantly on
the third day holding those keys high above His beautiful,
victorious head, and because He now GIVES
those keys to me and to you and says,
“I have defeated Death, Hell and the Grave for you,
Jan Crouch, and I have given you, Jan Crouch, My
authority — I have given you, Jan Crouch, My Name
— NOW, you go — you be healed — you be whole
and you do in My Name, in My authority and release
this world from SATAN’s power in My Name.” Now,
precious TBN Partner, YOU be healed so the job can
be done! Here I am — one year later, with the report
from the latest PET scan: “NO visual evidence of
DISEASE.” Only Jesus - Only Jesus - Only Jesus -
So — in Jesus’ Name: “Haiti Hospital — be finished.
Toys around the world, GO in Jesus’ Name.
Children’s books, be printed. Jesus toys, be manufactured.
Island of Haiti, be free in Jesus Name! Bloom.
Blossom. Produce. Live. Children of the world,
‘SMILE’— Jesus loves you!” We as TBN Partners
declare it, because as we do it, we have the Name and
the power and the authority to do it.
We love you, World, and Jesus loves you —
I Love you — In Jesus’ Name,