Letters from Jan Crouch

September 25, 2003

Hello my sweet, precious, wonderful, beautiful TBN Family!

I love you . . .
love you . . .
love you . . .
I thank you . . .
thank you . . .
thank you . . .

for ALL your love, cards, letter, e-mails, prayer cloths, gifts — but most of all for your prayers.

Sweet Family — we have had a miracle — I am HEALED of cancer! All I can do is PRAISE, WORSHIP, REJOICE, SHOUT, and CRY. Psalm 116: 1-6 (selected verses) in the Living Bible says it so beautifully:

“I love the Lord because He hears my prayers and ANSWERS THEM! Because He bends down and listens, I will pray AS LONG AS I BREATHE! DEATH STARED ME IN THE FACE . . . then I cried, LORD, SAVE ME! How kind He is! How good He is! So MERCIFUL, this GOD of ours! The Lord protects the simple and the childlike. I was facing death and then HE SAVED ME . . . The Lord has done this WONDERFUL MIRACLE FOR ME.”

GOD’S WORD LIVES! These words written 3,000 years ago are ALIVE and WELL and I have LIVED them these past 4 months. I just want to get your sweet little face in my hands and look into your precious eyes and say —

“Sweetheart, Jesus is ALIVE TODAY. He Heals TODAY. He loves you today. He wants you to talk to Him today. He wants you to ASK Him to heal you today — and He will. He HEALED me. I am 1,000,000% CANCER FREE — ONLY because of my Jesus!"

Sweet precious Partners – please read Isaiah 52:15 (selected verses) and 53:5 with me:

“They shall see my Servant BEATEN and BLOODIED — SO DISFIGURED ONE WOULD SCARCELY KNOW it was a person standing there.” Please listen to these life giving words: “He was WOUNDED and BRUISED FOR OUR sins. He was chastised that WE might have peace. HE WAS LASHED — and WE ARE HEALED!”

Oh thank you precious Jesus, I love you so so so very much.

See him raise His eyes toward you and hear Him SILENTLY SCREAM — “I LOVE YOU. I took your sins — I took your sicknesses. I DID THIS FOR YOU!”

Partners — the Holy Spirit just came all OVER me while I was just writing those words: “HE WAS LASHED AND WE ARE HEALED.” Ohhhhhhhhhh . . .

Thank you Father . . .
Thank you Jesus . . .
Thank you Holy Spirit!

There is healing flowing as you are reading this. Just see our Jesus — beaten —bruised — bleeding. See your sickness on Him right now: Your HIV/aids . . . your diabetes . . . your MS . . . your heart disease . . . your fever. HE DIED on the cross and went to HELL with your sins and sickness. See Him BURST TRIUMPHANTLY out of death, HELL and the grave on the third day, and with this act JESUS PAID FOR — ATONED FOR — your sins and sickness. Now He sits triumphantly at the right HAND of GOD the Father, EVER interceding for you to believe and receive what He did for YOU 2,000 years ago!

Healing is simple — Talking to our loving Father, in the name of Jesus –
Healing is — Asking with your mouth for the miracle
Healing is — So wonderful!
Healing is — For a kingdom purpose (don’t ask if you don’t have a kingdom purpose)

Now — let’s get the JOB of telling the world about a LOVING, HEALING JESUS!
I’ve had my miracle to:

1. Share it with everyone I meet
2. Get my “Smile of a Child” projects done
3. See that everything GOD shares with me to do — I DO IT!

I can ask daily, “Hello, sweet Jesus – what’s our job today?” Wow! Sometimes very small — sometimes MIND BLOWING BIG — it’s OK! I have the greatest Partner in the world and He and I together can do anything!


I love you . . .
love you . . .
love you . . .

Believe with me that everyone in the whole wide world can be HEALED —
and believe with me that Jesus’ name will be GLORIFIED around the world as the

He healed my chicken, He has healed my family and He has healed me. Hear
Him saying “I love you enough to bear it all for you; love Me enough to believe and receive it.”

We’ll talk again soon.

I love you,


July 18, 2003

My sweet, precious family and friends,

It’s been too long since I’ve written to you — and I must again start by saying —

I love you . . .
Love you . . .
Love you . . . with all my heart!

And —

I thank you . . .
Thank you . . .
Thank you . . . for your prayers!

I am doing so, so, so well. I have really just thrown myself into Jesus’ precious arms and I can’t let go — it’s so safe there! I love Him so! I never knew how much Jesus loved me, and I didn’t know how much I could love Him, until my “light” affliction passed my way.

Jesus and I start the day talking — some in tongues — some just about any and everything — lot’s of “I love you’s and thank you’s for what you’ve done for me.” And sometimes He makes me laugh! Ohhhhhh, I wouldn’t trade that morning time for anything. He’s soooo REAL!

I don’t ask questions — I don’t really think I care why it happened. I’m alive and I am completely pain free and happy as one person can be in this world. And, ohhhhh the PEACE — I’m in love with the Prince of Peace and He is my LORD — and I have absolutely NO FEAR — NONE WHATSOEVER!

I have made a “prayer garden” and I take all of my sweet family and friends there. It has flowers — lady bugs — butterflies — praying angels — benches and it has the precious Holy Spirit in a POWERFUL way.

I have Holy Communion with my Beloved there almost everyday. He says, “Remember me,” and I say “How can we do anything less — everyday — than remember what you did for us!”

I’ve had a few special, wonderful friends come by: my children, my ‘grands,’ my ‘daughters-in-love,’ Pastor Benny Hinn, Steve Brock, Pastor Steve Munsey, Dr. Oral Roberts, and many more precious saints. We have had unbelievable manifestations of GOD’S POWER! We were all praying for each other. It’s incredible!

My “letters and cards” room is right next to my guest room — so every prayer made in that room permeates right through your precious cards and letters, and I know you are feeling exactly what I have been feeling: the uplifting of the “prayers of the saints.” You receive our prayers, too. We pray for one another and GOD DOES THE MIRACLES!

I am so thrilled to let you know that God sent a miracle our way in the form of a beautiful lady — Dr. Pat Bailey — for Haiti! She is a protégé of Dr. T.L. and Daisy Osborn — a powerful, precious, prayer warrior. She is going to Haiti with my precious brother Joel Jeune to “call the nation” of Haiti to fall to its knees and worship our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Please cover her with your love and prayers. “Smile of a Child” is paying for a film crew to accompany them as they go to the very mountain in Haiti where that nation was dedicated to evil, and will DECLARE THAT JESUS IS LORD OVER HAITI!

Over $150,000 has come in to “Smile of a Child” in the last few weeks and the foundation of the hospital is going up as we speak. Thank you from the children of Haiti for their HOSPITAL. It should be finished in one year!

God is soooooooooooooooooooo GOOD! I love Him sooooooooooooooo MUCH! I am absolutely HEALED from the TOP of my head to the TIP of my toes — (and all that is within me!)

I love you — I thank you — I don’t know what the world would be like without YOU YOU are GOD’S CHOSEN — you are GOD’S CHILD — and it is HIS GOOD PLEASURE to give you ALL the desires of your heart — just ask Him!



June 23, 2003

I need to say “I LOVE YOU” to sooooooo many people—and YOU are at the top of my list! So — I love you . . . I love you . . . I love you . . .

I have never had such peace in my LIFE—it truly “passes” my understanding—peace that I KNOW only comes from Jesus.

I have made the decision about my journey and I have done all I’m going to do concerning my “light affliction”! I am healed 1,000,000,000% and I KNOW it! I am on a “Healing in the Leaves” regimen and I cannot tell you how wonderful I feel.

Jesus has been with me every moment of my walk—He talks to me—we fellowship—we share. He is there as I wake up and as I go to sleep. I have never known such LOVE (my tears are flowing now). He is sooooo here and my life will never be the same.

I begin my day with speaking to him in “our language” and have “precious holy communion” (just He and I) every day after breakfast. Wonderful praise and worship music and remembering that my God—my JESUS—took all my sicknesses on His precious body, was beaten for my diseases and by whose precious stripes I am 1,000,000,000% well—and that precious blood that still flows today took ALL my SINS—I love Him so!

Ohhhhhhh, how I love you for your prayers. I feel the prayers. I feel light at times—as if I’m not “of this world”—that has to be the prayers of the saints.

I have my prayer shawl—my anointing oil—my prayer cloths—my daddy’s Bible—my healing Scriptures—and I have prayed over every single card, letter and email that has come to me. “Jesus, please—oh precious Jesus—heal your people. Love your people to health, I pray.”

So this is my little health report to my SWEET, precious family and friends. What would I have done without you! So, let me say again:


Until that day HE calls me home I am healed, living in “heavenly places” now—Happy—at peace—blessed beyond measure!


Your sister,
Jan (I Cor. 13)

June 17, 2003

My precious, WONDERFUL TBN family —

I LOVE you and, oh, how much JESUS LOVES YOU!

How can I ever say “thank you” enough for your LOVE, PRAYERS, CARDS, LETTERS — and most of all — for LOVING my babies around the world through helping me with SMILE OF A CHILD! I am so overwhelmed at your love and your caring. All I can do now — daily — is to pray for you! And, oh, how I pray! Everyday you are in my heart and I’m believing for your miracle too!

I have your cards all over my house, and I cry every time I look around my home and just see armfuls of LOVE! Thank you from one who feels so undeserving of such LOVE; but know it is sooo HEALING and UPLIFTING to know you really, really care!

Jesus’ precious presence has been with me every moment of my unbelievable journey through cancer surgery. He and I talk about this a lot — I’m learning so much. God is so wonderful. I love Him so much!

I’m feeling wonderful today and am working very hard to get our Smile of a Child hospital built in Haiti. This is a 20 year dream and now it’s only about a year away! We own the land (five acres, the doctor’s home and now a nice vehicle) and the hospital is a quarter of the way completed!

I love you, love you, love you with all my heart — what do people do that don’t have friends like YOU, and who don’t know OUR JESUS! Let’s believe that everyone can know Him like we do!

Thank you, again, sweet precious family for loving TBN — loving JESUS— loving the children of our WORLD and loving me. TOGETHER we’ll make a difference. Your love has made me “SMILE” – like a child!

Your sister in Christ,


I Corinthians 13