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Bobby Schuller hosts Mandisa.

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Praise | June 16, 2017

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  • - TONIGHT FROM LOS ANGELES, CALIFORNIA,
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  • GRAMMY AWARD WINNING CONTEMPORARY CHRISTIAN
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  • ARTIST MANDISA.
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  • - MOST PEOPLE CAME TO KNOW ME ON THE 5TH SEASON
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  • OF AMERICAN IDOL.
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  • THE BEST OF TIMES, AND IF I'M BEING HONEST I
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  • THOUGHT THAT GOD TRICKED ME BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT
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  • ANYTHING TO DO WITH JESUS OR JESUS PEOPLE.
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  • - FIND OUT MORE ABOUT MANDISA'S JOURNEY OF
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  • FAITH WITH HOST PASTOR OF HOUR OF POWER, BOBBY
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  • SCHULLER, NEXT ON PRAISE!
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  • [ MUSIC ]
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  • [ MUSIC ]
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  • [ APPLAUSE ]
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  • - BOBBY SCHULLER: WELCOME TO PRAISE.
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  • WE'RE SO GLAD YOU'RE JOINING US TONIGHT.
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  • MAN, WE HAVE A GOOD AUDIENCE TONIGHT, AND WE
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  • HOPE YOU'RE AS ENERGETIC AS OUR STUDIO AUDIENCE IS
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  • AND WE JUST WANT TO SAY TO YOU LOOK, IF YOU'RE
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  • WATCHING TONIGHT AND YOU HAD A ROUGH DAY TODAY OR
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  • YOU HAD A ROUGH WEEK OR A ROUGH YEAR AND YOU JUST
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  • ARE FEELING LIKE YOU'RE GOING THROUGH A TOUGH
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  • TIME IN YOUR LIFE, MAYBE YOU'RE STUCK IN A RUT,
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  • TONIGHT'S MESSAGE IS FOR YOU.
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  • AND I'M GOING TO ENCOURAGE YOU TONIGHT TO
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  • BE SORT OF PATIENT AND OBEDIENT IN LISTENING TO
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  • THIS STORY WE'RE ABOUT TO HEAR.
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  • I BELIEVE IF YOU DON'T CHANGE THE CHANNEL AND
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  • YOU STICK WITH THE STORY, YOU'RE GOING TO LEAVE A
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  • DIFFERENT PERSON.
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  • THE MAIN THING WE WANT YOU TO HEAR TONIGHT IS
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  • THE POWER, THE POWER OF GOD.
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  • YOU KNOW, WHEN WE'RE GOING THROUGH A DARK TIME
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  • IN LIFE, THE POWER OF GOD TO PULL US OUT OF THOSE
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  • TOUGH TIMES.
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  • I WANT YOU TO KNOW WHATEVER IT IS YOU'RE
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  • GOING THROUGH YOU'RE NOT WHAT YOU DO.
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  • YOU'RE NOT WHAT YOU'VE DONE.
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  • YOU'RE NOT YOUR PAST.
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  • YOU'RE NOT WHAT'S BEEN DONE TO YOU.
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  • YOU'RE NOT WHAT YOU HAVE.
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  • YOU'RE NOT WHAT'S BEEN TAKEN FROM YOU.
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  • YOU'RE NOT WHAT PEOPLE SAY ABOUT YOU.
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  • YOU ARE BELOVED.
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  • YOU ARE A BELOVED CHILD OF GOD.
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  • AND EVEN NOW IN THE MIDST OF ALL YOUR IMPERFECTIONS
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  • AND FLAWS AND ALL THINGS, GOD JUST SPEAKS OVER YOU
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  • LOVE AND POWER, AND HE WANTS YOU TO KNOW YOU AND
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  • HIM ARE GOING TO GET THROUGH THIS.
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  • AND THAT'S WHAT WE'RE HERE TO TELL YOU TONIGHT.
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  • TONIGHT'S STORY IS FROM ONE OF THE GREATEST
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  • CHRISTIAN SINGERS IN THE WORLD, MANDISA.
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  • [ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ]
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  • WE'RE JUST SO THRILLED TO HAVE YOU HERE TONIGHT.
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  • - MANDISA: THANK YOU.
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  • - YOU'VE GOT A LOT OF FANS NOT ONLY IN THE
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  • HOUSE TONIGHT BUT A LOT OF FANS IN THE STUDIO.
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  • FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO DON'T KNOW YOU, I'M SURE
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  • THERE'S NOT MANY OF THOSE, BUT TELL US A
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  • LITTLE BIT ABOUT YOUR STORY.
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  • - WELL, I THINK MOST PEOPLE CAME TO KNOW ME ON
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  • THE 5TH SEASON OF AMERICAN IDOL, BUT YEAH,
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  • I SPENT A LOT OF TIME BEFORE AMERICAN IDOL,
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  • TOO, YOU KNOW.
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  • - WHAT WAS AMERICAN IDOL LIKE?
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  • - IT WAS THE ROLLER COASTER OF MY LIFE.
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  • I MEAN, THE BEST OF TIMES, AND IF I'M BEING
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  • HONEST SOME OF THE WORST TIMES AS WELL.
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  • BUT I FEEL LIKE -AND ACTUALLY THE LESSON I
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  • LEARNED THE LAST THREE YEARS I FEEL LIKE GOD
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  • REALLY STARTED TEACHING ME THAT LESSON DURING
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  • THAT SEASON ON AMERICAN IDOL BECAUSE IT'S HARD.
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  • ANY TIME THAT YOU ARE WALKING WITH JESUS AND
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  • YOU'RE WALKING IN ON A NATIONAL PLATFORM, YOU'RE
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  • GOING TO HAVE SOME STUFF COMING UP AGAINST YOU,
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  • AND SO I DEFINITELY DID, BUT I'M STILL HERE, AND
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  • GOD IS STILL USING MY STORY.
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  • [ APPLAUSE ]
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  • - THAT'S RIGHT.
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  • THAT'S GREAT.
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  • AND YOU DIDN'T WIN AMERICAN IDOL, BUT YOU
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  • WERE ONE OF THE CROWD FAVORITES AND YOUR CAREER
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  • REALLY TOOK OFF AFTER THAT, DIDN'T IT?
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  • - YEAH.
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  • YOU KNOW, IT'S FUNNY WHEN I THINK OF EVERYTHING
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  • THAT HAS HAPPENED SINCE AMERICAN IDOL BECAUSE I
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  • CAME IN 9TH PLACE, AND TO BE HONEST YOU DON'T
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  • USUALLY HEAR A WHOLE LOT FROM PEOPLE WHO CAME IN
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  • 9TH PLACE, BUT THE FACT THAT SO MANY DOORS HAVE
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  • BEEN OPENED.
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  • I HONESTLY, I'M NOT BLOWING SMOKE HERE, I
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  • REALLY DO ATTRIBUTE IT TO THE GRACE OF GOD AND NOT
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  • MY OWN GIFTING WHICH HE GAVE ME.
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  • I'M VERY THANKFUL FOR THAT, BUT IT REALLY IS
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  • SIMPLY BECAUSE GOD IS GOOD AND HE'S GOOD AT
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  • USING THE FOOLISH THINGS OF THIS WORLD.
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  • - YEAH.
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  • WAS THIS A DREAM YOU HAD IN YOUR LIFE?
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  • [ APPLAUSE ]
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  • THAT'S A GOOD WORD.
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  • AND IS THIS A DREAM YOU HAD IN YOUR HEART TO BE
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  • ABLE TO BRING YOUR MUSIC TO THE WORLD?
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  • IS THAT AN OLD DREAM OR A NEWISH DREAM?
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  • - IT'S SOMETHING I ALWAYS WANTED TO DO.
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  • I REMEMBER BEING A LITTLE GIRL IN MY BATHROOM AND
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  • MY CURLING IRON WAS MY MICROPHONE.
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  • AND I'M ABOUT TO SHOW MY AGE, BUT IT WAS CASSETTE
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  • TAPES BACK IN MY DAY.
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  • - ME, TOO.
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  • - SO I REMEMBER LISTENING TO MY WHITNEY
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  • HOUSTON CASSETTE TAPES, AND I PUT A TOWEL ON MY
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  • HAIR AND I HAD MY CURLING IRON AND I PRETENDED THAT
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  • I WAS A SUPER STAR.
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  • BUT WHEN I CAME TO KNOW JESUS AT 16, MY DREAMS
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  • SORT OF, IT STARTED SHIFTING A LITTLE BIT.
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  • AND IT DIDN'T HAPPEN ALL AT ONCE.
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  • I STILL WANTED TO BE A SUPER STAR, BUT AFTER
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  • AMERICAN IDOL MY DREAM REALLY CHANGED, AND I
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  • WANTED TO NOT JUST DO MUSIC BUT MAKE PEOPLE DANCE.
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  • I LIKE DOING MUSIC THAT MAKES PEOPLE DANCE, BUT I
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  • WANTED THEM TO BE DANCING BECAUSE THEY WERE SET
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  • FREE, BECAUSE IT'S GLORIFYING GOD AND
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  • EDIFYING PEOPLE.
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  • [ APPLAUSE ]
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  • - AND WE'RE GOING TO GET INTO THIS IN JUST A
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  • LITTLE BIT BUT PEOPLE ARE GOING TO HAVE AN
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  • OPPORTUNITY TO HEAR YOUR STORY ABOUT HOW SOMETIMES
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  • SUCCESS CAN DO THIS, SOMETIMES A LACK OF SUCCESS.
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  • I KNOW LIKE WAITING FOR YOUR DREAM TO COME TRUE,
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  • A LOT OF THINGS CAN TRIGGER MOMENTS IN OUR
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  • LIFE WHERE WE FEEL LIKE WE'RE STUCK IN A PLACE
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  • WE'RE NEVER GOING TO GET OUT OF.
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  • - ABSOLUTELY.
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  • - AND THE THING THAT YOU WANT PEOPLE TONIGHT TO
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  • HEAR IS GOD'S GOING TO GET THEM OUT.
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  • - ABSOLUTELY.
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  • IF YOU HAVE MADE A DECISION TO SAY I WANT
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  • YOU, JESUS, TO BE MY LORD AND SAVIOR, THAT MEANS
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  • THAT YOU ARE WRITTEN IN THE LAMB'S BOOK OF LIFE,
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  • AND THAT DOESN'T JUST MEAN THAT IT APPLIES TO
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  • WHEN WE GET TO HEAVEN.
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  • THAT ACTUALLY MEANS IT APPLIES TO RIGHT HERE ON
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  • EARTH, SO I'M A LIVING WITNESS, HE DOESN'T SAY
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  • THAT IT'S ALWAYS GOING TO BE EASY AND GOOD.
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  • HE DOES SAY THAT HE WILL USE ALL THINGS TO MAKE IT
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  • GOOD FOR THOSE WHO LOVE HIM AND ARE CALLED
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  • ACCORDING TO HIS PURPOSE.
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  • SO IT WASN'T ALWAYS GOOD BUT HE MADE GOOD OUT OF IT.
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  • - YEAH.
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  • FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO HAVE NOT HEARD HER STORY,
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  • WE'RE GOING TO SHOW YOU JUST A LITTLE BIT ABOUT
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  • HER BIO AND ABOUT HER LIFE.
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  • OH ...
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  • - SHE'S ONE OF AMERICAN IDOL'S SUCCESSFUL ALUMS,
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  • MANDISA.
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  • A TOP FIVE IDOL WITH THE MOST NUMBER ONE HITS IS
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  • AGAIN CLIMBING THE CHARTS WITH UNFINISHED,
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  • THE FIRST SINGLE FROM HER LATEST ALBUM, OUT OF THE DARK.
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  • WITH ONE MILLION PLUS RECORDS SOLD, THE GRAMMY
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  • WINNER IS BACK WITH A RENEWED PASSION FOR HER MUSIC.
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  • AFTER SPENDING MUCH OF THE PAST FEW YEARS
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  • SUFFERING FROM DEPRESSION, MANDISA SILENTLY
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  • WITHDREW FROM HER LIFE AFTER WATCHING HER VERY
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  • CLOSE FRIEND KESHA LOSE HER BATTLE WITH BREAST
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  • CANCER, BUT NOW SHE'S BACK WITH A RENEWED
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  • PASSION FOR MUSIC AND A DETERMINATION TO SHARE
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  • HER JOURNEY OUT OF THE DARK.
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  • MANDISA HERE ON PRAISE!
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  • [ APPLAUSE ]
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  • - GREAT.
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  • I LOVE IT.
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  • I LOVE IT.
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  • HI. I'M BOBBY SCHULLER, HOST OF THE HOUR OF POWER.
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  • WE'RE JUST SO GLAD YOU'RE WATCHING PRAISE WITH US,
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  • AND WE JUST BELIEVE THAT GOD HAS A TREMENDOUS WORD
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  • FOR YOU, AND I WANT YOU TO HEAR THIS AMAZING
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  • STORY FROM MANDISA.
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  • SO YOU HAD THIS INCREDIBLE -- YOUR CAREER
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  • HAS BEEN INCREDIBLE.
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  • YOU MAKE UNBELIEVABLE MUSIC.
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  • PEOPLE LOVE YOUR ALBUMS AND YOUR MUSIC.
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  • YOU'RE TOUCHING HEARTS ACROSS THE COUNTRY, BUT
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  • IT'S NOT ALWAYS SO EASY, IS IT?
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  • - NO.
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  • AND I KIND OF LEARNED THAT THE HARD WAY.
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  • I'VE HAD SEVERAL DIFFERENT ALBUMS.
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  • I DON'T THINK I REALIZED HOW MANY THAT I PUT OUT,
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  • BUT MY ALBUM THAT I THINK I'M MOST KNOWN FOR IS
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  • CALLED OVERCOMER, AND IT WAS INSPIRED AS YOU JUST
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  • SAW BY MY FRIEND KESHA.
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  • SHE WAS PREGNANT WITH HER SECOND CHILD WHEN SHE WAS
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  • DIAGNOSED WITH BREAST CANCER, SO I REALLY
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  • WANTED AN ALBUM, I REALLY WANTED SONGS TO HELP HER
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  • STAY IN THE FIGHT TO THE FINAL ROUND.
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  • THAT'S A LINE FROM THAT SONG, OVERCOMER.
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  • THAT WAS THE PURPOSE, LIKE SHE WAS THE
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  • MOTIVATION BEHIND NOT JUST THAT SONG BUT THE
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  • WHOLE ALBUM. I CALL THAT ALBUM LIKE MY FIGHTING.
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  • IT'S MY WARFARE ALBUM BECAUSE I WAS MAD AT THE
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  • DEVIL AND I WAS SAYING TO HIM, YOU ARE NOT GOING TO
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  • TAKE MY FRIEND.
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  • AND AS I PRAYED, I REALLY BELIEVED THAT GOD WAS
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  • GOING TO HEAL HER, AND I MEAN HEAL HER HERE ON EARTH.
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  • YOU KNOW, I REALIZE THAT ETERNITY IS REAL AND I
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  • REALIZE THAT WHEN WE LEAVE THAT WE GO TO SPEND
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  • ETERNITY IN HEAVEN, BUT WHEN I WAS PRAYING FOR MY
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  • FRIEND I WANTED HER HEALING HERE.
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  • - ON EARTH AS IT IS IN HEAVEN.
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  • - EXACTLY.
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  • I'M NOT SOMEBODY WHO CLAIMS HEALING ALWAYS FOR
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  • ALL PEOPLE, BUT AS I PRAYED I BELIEVED THAT
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  • GOD SAID HE WAS GOING TO DO THAT, SO KESHA
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  • DELIVERED HER SON BRENNAN.
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  • HE WAS BORN PERFECTLY HEALTHY.
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  • HE'LL TURN FOUR IN JUNE SO THAT WAS THE FIRST ANSWER
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  • TO PRAYER, BUT KESHA HAD ONE YEAR WITH BRENNAN
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  • BEFORE SHE WENT HOME TO BE WITH JESUS, AND IT'S
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  • JUST NOT THE WAY I THOUGHT THE STORY WAS
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  • GOING TO END, AND IF I'M BEING HONEST I WAS ANGRY.
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  • I DON'T THINK I REALIZED IT AT THE TIME BUT I WAS
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  • DISAPPOINTED BECAUSE I THOUGHT THAT GOD TRICKED ME.
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  • I THOUGHT THAT HE SAID ONE THING AND THEN I
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  • THOUGHT WELL, MAYBE HE DIDN'T.
  • 00:08:34.240 --> 00:08:36.020
  • MAYBE I JUST CAN'T HEAR FROM THE LORD SO I JUST
  • 00:08:36.040 --> 00:08:37.070
  • SHUT HIM OUT.
  • 00:08:37.090 --> 00:08:38.110
  • I SHUT EVERYBODY OUT.
  • 00:08:38.130 --> 00:08:39.090
  • I DIDN'T ANSWER MY PHONE.
  • 00:08:39.110 --> 00:08:40.210
  • I DIDN'T RESPOND TO TEXT MESSAGES.
  • 00:08:40.230 --> 00:08:43.120
  • AT ONE POINT MY PASTOR AND ANOTHER GREAT FRIEND
  • 00:08:43.140 --> 00:08:46.230
  • OF MINE WERE BANGING ON MY DOOR.
  • 00:08:46.250 --> 00:08:48.090
  • I JUST COMPLETELY IGNORED THEM BECAUSE I DIDN'T
  • 00:08:48.110 --> 00:08:50.000
  • WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH JESUS OR JESUS PEOPLE, SO
  • 00:08:50.020 --> 00:08:53.050
  • IT WAS A REALLY, REALLY DARK TIME FOR ME.
  • 00:08:53.070 --> 00:08:55.020
  • - YEAH.
  • 00:08:55.040 --> 00:08:56.140
  • I FEEL LIKE IT CAN BE REALLY HARD WHEN YOU'RE
  • 00:08:56.160 --> 00:08:58.080
  • IN A SEASON OF GRIEF THAT PEOPLE THAT ARE SUPPOSED
  • 00:08:58.100 --> 00:09:00.170
  • TO COMFORT YOU, IT OFTEN FEELS LIKE THEY'RE TRYING
  • 00:09:00.190 --> 00:09:02.130
  • TO FIX YOU.
  • 00:09:02.150 --> 00:09:04.000
  • WERE YOU FEELING THAT WAY A BIT?
  • 00:09:04.020 --> 00:09:05.200
  • - I LITTLE BIT.
  • 00:09:05.220 --> 00:09:06.260
  • I WILL SAY THIS, I THINK THAT IN THE MOMENTS WHEN
  • 00:09:06.280 --> 00:09:09.150
  • I DID THINK THAT IT WAS LESS WHAT THEY WERE DOING.
  • 00:09:09.170 --> 00:09:13.010
  • IT WAS MORE ABOUT ME LISTENING TO THAT LIE
  • 00:09:13.030 --> 00:09:14.160
  • FROM THE ENEMY.
  • 00:09:14.180 --> 00:09:15.240
  • - WHAT LIE?
  • 00:09:15.260 --> 00:09:16.270
  • - WELL, A LOT OF THEM.
  • 00:09:16.290 --> 00:09:18.030
  • HERE'S WHAT I'VE DISCOVERED ABOUT THE
  • 00:09:18.050 --> 00:09:19.260
  • TACTICS OF THE ENEMY IS THAT HE'S BEEN USING THE
  • 00:09:19.280 --> 00:09:23.040
  • SAME TRICKS FROM THE VERY BEGINNING.
  • 00:09:23.060 --> 00:09:24.290
  • HE KNOWS THE WORD OF GOD AND SO THAT'S THE FIRST
  • 00:09:25.010 --> 00:09:27.110
  • THING WE HAVE TO KNOW IS THAT HE WILL TAKE THE
  • 00:09:27.130 --> 00:09:30.000
  • WORD OF GOD AND HE'LL TWIST IT JUST ENOUGH.
  • 00:09:30.020 --> 00:09:32.150
  • HE'LL PUT JUST A LITTLE BIT OF TRUTH IN THERE TO
  • 00:09:32.170 --> 00:09:34.060
  • MAKE YOU START TO CLING TO IT BUT THEN HE'LL JUST
  • 00:09:34.080 --> 00:09:37.150
  • TURN IT A LITTLE BIT, SO -- - GIVE ME AN EXAMPLE OF THAT.
  • 00:09:37.170 --> 00:09:40.060
  • - SO THE BIGGEST ONE FOR ME WHEN I WAS IN THAT
  • 00:09:40.080 --> 00:09:42.220
  • DARK SEASON AND I WAS SHUTTING OUT EVERYBODY,
  • 00:09:42.240 --> 00:09:44.210
  • THE ONE THING THAT I TURNED TO WAS MY OLD VICE
  • 00:09:44.230 --> 00:09:47.210
  • WHICH WAS FOOD.
  • 00:09:47.230 --> 00:09:49.000
  • I HAD BEEN ON A WEIGHT LOSS JOURNEY EVER SINCE
  • 00:09:49.020 --> 00:09:51.260
  • SIMON MADE FUN OF ME ON NATIONAL TELEVISION
  • 00:09:51.280 --> 00:09:53.140
  • TO BE HONEST.
  • 00:09:53.160 --> 00:09:55.050
  • MY SECOND ALBUM WAS CALLED FREEDOM.
  • 00:09:55.070 --> 00:09:57.030
  • MY THIRD ALBUM THERE'S A SONG CALLED STRONGER, AND
  • 00:09:57.050 --> 00:09:59.140
  • I REMEMBER THE DAY THAT SONG CAME OUT I
  • 00:09:59.160 --> 00:10:02.110
  • STEPPED ON THE SCALE, AND I HAD LOST
  • 00:10:02.130 --> 00:10:03.260
  • 100 POUNDS EXACTLY.
  • 00:10:03.280 --> 00:10:05.040
  • SINCE THEN I HAD LOST OVER 120 POUNDS, BUT WHEN
  • 00:10:05.060 --> 00:10:08.020
  • KESHA DIED AND I BEGAN SHUTTING OUT THE WORLD
  • 00:10:08.040 --> 00:10:10.060
  • AND JESUS, I STARTED TO TURN BACK TO FOOD.
  • 00:10:10.080 --> 00:10:12.260
  • AND SO I GAINED EVERY 120 OF THOSE POUNDS BACK,
  • 00:10:12.280 --> 00:10:16.110
  • AND THEN IN THAT THREE YEAR PERIOD WHERE I WAS
  • 00:10:16.130 --> 00:10:18.140
  • IN THE DARK I GAINED 75 MORE ON TOP OF THAT, SO
  • 00:10:18.160 --> 00:10:20.280
  • ALMOST 200 POUNDS I GAINED IN THREE YEARS, SO
  • 00:10:21.000 --> 00:10:22.080
  • WHEN I STARTED LISTENING TO HERE'S THE LIE THE
  • 00:10:22.100 --> 00:10:25.260
  • ENEMY TOLD ME, MANDISA, JESUS DOES NOT WANT YOU
  • 00:10:25.280 --> 00:10:29.060
  • TO BE IN THIS KIND OF PAIN.
  • 00:10:29.080 --> 00:10:30.180
  • YOU ARE A CHILD OF GOD, AND THIS IS NO WAY THAT
  • 00:10:30.200 --> 00:10:32.170
  • THIS IS THE ABUNDANT LIFE THAT HE WANTS YOU TO
  • 00:10:32.190 --> 00:10:34.060
  • LIVE, SO IF YOU WERE TO TAKE YOUR LIFE RIGHT NOW
  • 00:10:34.080 --> 00:10:37.080
  • YOU COULD BE IN HEAVEN WITH HIM.
  • 00:10:37.100 --> 00:10:39.010
  • DO YOU SEE THERE'S A LITTLE BIT OF TRUTH THERE?
  • 00:10:39.030 --> 00:10:41.230
  • HE DOESN'T WANT ME TO LIVE IN THAT MISERY, THAT
  • 00:10:41.250 --> 00:10:43.030
  • DARKNESS, AND IT'S TRUE THAT WHEN I DO LEAVE THIS
  • 00:10:43.050 --> 00:10:45.270
  • WORLD THAT I AM GOING TO BE IN HEAVEN WITH HIM,
  • 00:10:45.290 --> 00:10:48.090
  • BUT HE IS GOING TO BE THE ONE THAT'S GOING TO
  • 00:10:48.110 --> 00:10:49.260
  • CHOOSE WHEN THAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN.
  • 00:10:49.280 --> 00:10:52.090
  • IT'S NOT GOING TO BE AT MY OWN HAND.
  • 00:10:52.110 --> 00:10:53.100
  • - THAT'S RIGHT.
  • 00:10:53.120 --> 00:10:54.270
  • [ APPLAUSE ]
  • 00:10:54.290 --> 00:10:57.080
  • - SO IT'S WHAT HE DID TO ADAM AND EVE.
  • 00:10:57.100 --> 00:10:59.290
  • IT'S WHAT HE DID TO EVE.
  • 00:11:00.030 --> 00:11:01.150
  • DID GOD REALLY SAY-- IT'S WHAT HE DID TO JESUS, YOU KNOW.
  • 00:11:01.170 --> 00:11:05.150
  • DID GOD REALLY SAY IF YOU WERE TO THROW
  • 00:11:05.170 --> 00:11:07.010
  • YOURSELF OFF THIS BUILDING, YOU KNOW, THE
  • 00:11:07.030 --> 00:11:08.250
  • ANGELS ARE GOING TO LIFT YOU UP?
  • 00:11:08.270 --> 00:11:10.020
  • LIKE IT'S THE SAME TACTIC THAT HE HAS USED
  • 00:11:10.040 --> 00:11:12.270
  • THROUGHOUT ALL OF TIME, AND IT ALMOST WORKED FOR ME.
  • 00:11:12.290 --> 00:11:16.030
  • - YEAH, AND I FEEL LIKE THIS IS SUCH A GOOD POINT
  • 00:11:16.050 --> 00:11:18.270
  • THAT THE FIRST PART YOU SAID THAT IS TRUE, BUT
  • 00:11:18.290 --> 00:11:21.230
  • THEN THERE'S THAT ERGO, THEREFORE THEN YOU TAKE
  • 00:11:21.250 --> 00:11:24.060
  • YOUR OWN LIFE.
  • 00:11:24.080 --> 00:11:25.170
  • AND THAT HORRIBLE -- MAYBE YOU'RE WATCHING TONIGHT
  • 00:11:25.190 --> 00:11:28.150
  • AND YOU'RE HEARING THAT SAME VOICE.
  • 00:11:28.170 --> 00:11:30.090
  • WE JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW MAN, DON'T GIVE UP ON
  • 00:11:30.110 --> 00:11:33.230
  • THIS LIFE.
  • 00:11:33.250 --> 00:11:35.160
  • GOD HAS A CALLING AND A PURPOSE FOR YOU.
  • 00:11:35.180 --> 00:11:37.000
  • LOOK AT WHAT GOD HAS DONE IN MANDISA'S LIFE AND SO
  • 00:11:37.020 --> 00:11:38.180
  • MANY OTHERS.
  • 00:11:38.200 --> 00:11:40.010
  • WE JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW IF YOU'RE HEARING THAT
  • 00:11:40.030 --> 00:11:41.160
  • VOICE, TAKE YOUR LIFE, GO TO HEAVEN NOW, REJECT
  • 00:11:41.180 --> 00:11:43.270
  • THAT BECAUSE YOU DON'T WANT TO MISS OUT ON THE
  • 00:11:43.290 --> 00:11:47.020
  • GREAT PURPOSE THAT YOU HAVE ON YOUR LIFE.
  • 00:11:47.040 --> 00:11:48.260
  • I HAVE TALKED TO SO MANY PEOPLE WHO WERE IN A
  • 00:11:48.280 --> 00:11:52.170
  • PLACE YOU WERE, AND NONE OF THEM -- THEY ALL SAY I
  • 00:11:52.190 --> 00:11:55.240
  • WOULDN'T HAVE REALIZED LATER HOW GOOD MY LIFE
  • 00:11:55.260 --> 00:11:59.000
  • WOULD HAVE BEEN, AND EVERYBODY SAYS WHEN I
  • 00:11:59.020 --> 00:12:02.130
  • LOOK BACK, YOU KNOW, I'M SO GLAD I DIDN'T DO THAT.
  • 00:12:02.150 --> 00:12:03.280
  • EVERYBODY SAYS THAT, YOU KNOW.
  • 00:12:04.000 --> 00:12:05.050
  • - YEAH.
  • 00:12:05.070 --> 00:12:06.190
  • IT'S INTERESTING TO ME HOW DURING THAT SEASON I
  • 00:12:06.210 --> 00:12:09.170
  • THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY ONE.
  • 00:12:09.190 --> 00:12:10.250
  • I THOUGHT NOBODY KNOWS WHAT THIS FEELS LIKE, AND
  • 00:12:10.270 --> 00:12:12.100
  • I LOOK BACK NOW AND IT'S EXACTLY WHAT YOU SAID,
  • 00:12:12.120 --> 00:12:14.230
  • THAT THE ENEMY IS GOING TO TRY -- HE'S COMING AFTER
  • 00:12:14.250 --> 00:12:19.250
  • EVERYBODY, BUT THOSE THAT ARE FOLLOWERS OF JESUS,
  • 00:12:19.270 --> 00:12:23.030
  • THOSE WHO HAVE A CALLING ON THEIR LIVES TO SPREAD
  • 00:12:23.050 --> 00:12:26.040
  • THE GOSPEL AND THE LIGHT, HE'S GOING TO COME AFTER
  • 00:12:26.060 --> 00:12:27.140
  • US EVEN HARDER.
  • 00:12:27.160 --> 00:12:29.020
  • SO WE CAN NOT EXPECT FOR CHRISTIANS TO NOT
  • 00:12:29.040 --> 00:12:30.220
  • GO THROUGH THIS.
  • 00:12:30.240 --> 00:12:32.030
  • WE CAN'T EXPECT FOR CHRISTIANS NOT TO
  • 00:12:32.050 --> 00:12:33.150
  • COMMIT SUICIDE.
  • 00:12:33.170 --> 00:12:34.240
  • IT'S BECAUSE THE ENEMY IS COMING FULL FORCE AFTER
  • 00:12:34.260 --> 00:12:36.290
  • US BECAUSE HE'S SCARED OF US, AND HE SHOULD BE.
  • 00:12:37.010 --> 00:12:39.220
  • SO THAT IS WHAT WE HAVE TO REMEMBER, THAT IF
  • 00:12:39.240 --> 00:12:42.170
  • YOU'RE HEARING THAT VOICE, IT MEANS THE ENEMY
  • 00:12:42.190 --> 00:12:45.010
  • IS TRYING TO TAKE YOU OUT.
  • 00:12:45.030 --> 00:12:46.120
  • SO THE FACT HE'S DOING THAT MEANS HE'S TERRIFIED
  • 00:12:46.140 --> 00:12:47.200
  • OF YOU AND HE SHOULD BE BECAUSE YOU'VE GOT
  • 00:12:47.220 --> 00:12:48.290
  • RESURRECTION POWER LIVING IN YOU.
  • 00:12:49.010 --> 00:12:50.270
  • - THAT'S RIGHT.
  • 00:12:50.290 --> 00:12:51.240
  • THAT'S RIGHT.
  • 00:12:51.260 --> 00:12:52.230
  • THAT'S A GOOD WORD.
  • 00:12:52.250 --> 00:12:54.080
  • [ APPLAUSE ]
  • 00:12:54.100 --> 00:12:56.010
  • YOU KNOW, THAT IS SO RIGHT.
  • 00:12:56.030 --> 00:12:57.250
  • AND IT'S SO IMPORTANT FOR CHRISTIANS TO HEAR THAT
  • 00:12:57.270 --> 00:13:00.080
  • CHRISTIANS GO THROUGH DEPRESSION.
  • 00:13:00.100 --> 00:13:01.230
  • CHRISTIANS STRUGGLE WITH THOUGHTS OF SUICIDE.
  • 00:13:01.250 --> 00:13:04.060
  • CHRISTIANS STRUGGLE WITH ADDICTION.
  • 00:13:04.080 --> 00:13:06.000
  • THESE ARE THINGS THAT THE ENEMY PUTS IN OUR LIFE TO
  • 00:13:06.020 --> 00:13:08.100
  • DELAY OUR PURPOSE AND OUR DESTINY.
  • 00:13:08.120 --> 00:13:10.240
  • IN FACT, I JUST THINK, I HAVE TO THINK WE
  • 00:13:10.260 --> 00:13:13.100
  • SHOULDN'T PRAY FOR AN EASY LIFE.
  • 00:13:13.120 --> 00:13:15.130
  • WE SHOULD PRAY FOR A STRONGER HEART, A
  • 00:13:15.150 --> 00:13:17.030
  • STRONGER MIND, TO BE TOUGHER.
  • 00:13:17.050 --> 00:13:18.240
  • - YEAH.
  • 00:13:18.260 --> 00:13:20.160
  • IT'S AMAZING YOU SAY THAT BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT GOD
  • 00:13:20.180 --> 00:13:22.090
  • HAS BEEN TEACHING ME A LOT LATELY.
  • 00:13:22.110 --> 00:13:23.210
  • I WAS JUST WATCHING A MOVIE.
  • 00:13:23.230 --> 00:13:26.170
  • HAVE YOU HEARD OF JOEY AND RORI?
  • 00:13:26.190 --> 00:13:28.260
  • THEY DID COUNTRY MUSIC.
  • 00:13:28.280 --> 00:13:30.250
  • - NO. I'M SORRY.
  • 00:13:30.270 --> 00:13:33.040
  • - SO THERE'S A MOVIE. IT'S CALLED --
  • 00:13:33.060 --> 00:13:34.080
  • - I'M FROM CALIFORNIA.
  • 00:13:34.100 --> 00:13:35.050
  • - OH, HUSH.
  • 00:13:35.070 --> 00:13:36.030
  • [ LAUGHTER ]
  • 00:13:36.050 --> 00:13:37.000
  • - FROM TENNESSEE.
  • 00:13:37.020 --> 00:13:38.050
  • - WELL, I'M FROM CALIFORNIA TOO, BUT I
  • 00:13:38.070 --> 00:13:39.110
  • LIVE IN NASHVILLE SO THAT EXPLAINS THAT.
  • 00:13:39.130 --> 00:13:40.090
  • - SURE.
  • 00:13:40.110 --> 00:13:41.170
  • - THERE'S A MOVIE CALLED TO JOEY WITH LOVE.
  • 00:13:41.190 --> 00:13:43.170
  • AND JOEY WAS A WOMAN WHO WAS STRONG IN HER FAITH
  • 00:13:43.190 --> 00:13:45.260
  • AND LOVED JESUS WITH ALL OF HER HEART.
  • 00:13:45.280 --> 00:13:48.140
  • SHE WAS DIAGNOSED WITH CANCER, AND THE TREATMENT
  • 00:13:48.160 --> 00:13:51.000
  • WASN'T WORKING, AND SO AS SHE WAS DECIDING THAT SHE
  • 00:13:51.020 --> 00:13:55.120
  • WASN'T GOING TO GO THROUGH CHEMO ANYMORE SHE
  • 00:13:55.140 --> 00:13:57.160
  • ASKED FOR PRAYER, AND SHE DID ASK THAT PEOPLE WOULD
  • 00:13:57.180 --> 00:14:00.080
  • PRAY FOR A MIRACLE, BUT HERE'S WHAT I LOVE THAT
  • 00:14:00.100 --> 00:14:02.110
  • SHE SAID.
  • 00:14:02.130 --> 00:14:03.210
  • SHE SAID YES, PRAY FOR A MIRACLE BECAUSE GOD DOES
  • 00:14:03.230 --> 00:14:05.000
  • STILL DO THAT, BUT SHE SAID EVEN MORE THAN THAT
  • 00:14:05.020 --> 00:14:07.150
  • PRAY THAT GOD WOULD GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO ACCEPT
  • 00:14:07.170 --> 00:14:10.050
  • WHATEVER HIS WILL IS.
  • 00:14:10.070 --> 00:14:11.270
  • AND SO THAT IS WHAT I AM LEARNING IS THAT WE PRAY
  • 00:14:11.290 --> 00:14:17.090
  • A LOT FOR, YOU KNOW, FINANCIAL THINGS AND FOR
  • 00:14:17.110 --> 00:14:18.290
  • HEALING AND AUTHOR THE THORNS TO BE REMOVED.
  • 00:14:19.010 --> 00:14:21.180
  • AS I'M READING THE BIBLE, I'M FINDING THAT GOD
  • 00:14:21.200 --> 00:14:23.260
  • CARES MORE ABOUT WHAT'S HAPPENING INSIDE OF OUR
  • 00:14:23.280 --> 00:14:26.060
  • HEART AS WE FACE THOSE THINGS.
  • 00:14:26.080 --> 00:14:27.250
  • SO I BELIEVE IN ASKING LIKE JESUS DID, ASKING
  • 00:14:27.270 --> 00:14:30.220
  • FOR THE THINGS TO BE MOVED.
  • 00:14:30.240 --> 00:14:33.070
  • I BELIEVE IN ASKING CAN THIS CUP BE REMOVED FROM
  • 00:14:33.090 --> 00:14:35.190
  • ME, BUT I ALSO BELIEVE IN GOD REALLY WANTS TO
  • 00:14:35.210 --> 00:14:39.120
  • ANSWER THE PRAYER, HELP ME TO HAVE THE STRENGTH
  • 00:14:39.140 --> 00:14:41.290
  • AND WILL TO ACCEPT WHATEVER YOUR
  • 00:14:42.010 --> 00:14:43.150
  • PERFECT WILL IS.
  • 00:14:43.170 --> 00:14:44.270
  • SO I'M JUST FINDING THAT MY PRAYERS ARE CHANGING.
  • 00:14:44.290 --> 00:14:46.250
  • I STILL PRAY FOR HEALING, BUT I ALSO SAY LORD,
  • 00:14:46.270 --> 00:14:48.210
  • WHATEVER YOUR PURPOSE AND YOUR PLAN IS FOR THIS,
  • 00:14:48.230 --> 00:14:51.260
  • HELP ME TO HAVE THE STRENGTH TO ACCEPT
  • 00:14:51.280 --> 00:14:53.150
  • WHATEVER THAT IS.
  • 00:14:53.170 --> 00:14:54.230
  • - THAT IS SO GOOD.
  • 00:14:54.250 --> 00:14:56.150
  • I THINK VERY OFTEN WHEN TALKING ABOUT THIS KIND
  • 00:14:56.170 --> 00:14:58.180
  • OF THING ABOUT HOW THE PEOPLE OF ISRAEL LEFT
  • 00:14:58.200 --> 00:15:00.260
  • EGYPT SLAVES BUT NOT ONLY SLAVES BUT WITH A SLAVE
  • 00:15:00.280 --> 00:15:04.220
  • MENTALITY, SO THEY WERE FREE ON THE OUTSIDE BUT
  • 00:15:04.240 --> 00:15:07.140
  • THEY WERE STILL SLAVES ON THE INSIDE.
  • 00:15:07.160 --> 00:15:09.030
  • BUT WHEN THEY ARRIVED TO THE PROMISE LAND, THEY
  • 00:15:09.050 --> 00:15:11.160
  • HAD POWER.
  • 00:15:11.180 --> 00:15:12.200
  • THEY HAD PURPOSE.
  • 00:15:12.220 --> 00:15:14.000
  • THEY HAD CALLING.
  • 00:15:14.020 --> 00:15:15.060
  • BUT THEY HAD TO GO THROUGH A LOT.
  • 00:15:15.080 --> 00:15:16.130
  • IN FACT, ONE OF THE FIRST BATTLES THEY GO THROUGH,
  • 00:15:16.150 --> 00:15:18.260
  • THEY'VE CROSSED THE RED SEA, AND THEY'RE ATTACKED
  • 00:15:18.280 --> 00:15:22.100
  • BY I THINK THEY'RE CALLED THE AMALEKITES, AND MOSES
  • 00:15:22.120 --> 00:15:24.220
  • TELLS JOSHUA, YOU GO DOWN THERE AND YOU FIGHT THEM.
  • 00:15:24.240 --> 00:15:27.190
  • AND HE GOES UP ON THE HILL AND HE HOLDS UP HIS
  • 00:15:27.210 --> 00:15:29.070
  • HANDS WITH AARON AND HUR HOLDING HIS HANDS, AND
  • 00:15:29.090 --> 00:15:31.070
  • WHEN HIS HANDS ARE UP THEY'RE WINNING, AND WHEN
  • 00:15:31.090 --> 00:15:32.180
  • THEY'RE DOWN THEY'RE LOSING.
  • 00:15:32.200 --> 00:15:34.030
  • AND THE STORY OF COURSE IS THAT PRAISE, WORSHIP,
  • 00:15:34.050 --> 00:15:36.230
  • PRAYER AND JUST ESSENTIALLY ENDURING,
  • 00:15:36.250 --> 00:15:38.270
  • LIKE HOLDING YOUR HANDS UP FOR HOURS AND HOURS
  • 00:15:38.290 --> 00:15:40.270
  • AND HOURS IS HARD.
  • 00:15:40.290 --> 00:15:42.120
  • AND SO WHAT WE LEARN FROM THAT STORY IS LIKE IT
  • 00:15:42.140 --> 00:15:46.280
  • ACTUALLY SAYS THAT GOD HATED THE AMALEKITES AND
  • 00:15:47.000 --> 00:15:49.120
  • BLOTTED OUT THEIR NAME.
  • 00:15:49.140 --> 00:15:51.150
  • SO DID GODSEND THAT ATTACK ON THEM?
  • 00:15:51.170 --> 00:15:53.040
  • NO, BUT DID GOD USE IT TO MAKE THEM A PEOPLE OF THE
  • 00:15:53.060 --> 00:15:56.060
  • PROMISE LAND, A PEOPLE OF PURPOSE?
  • 00:15:56.080 --> 00:15:57.250
  • ABSOLUTELY.
  • 00:15:57.270 --> 00:15:59.210
  • - YEAH.
  • 00:15:59.230 --> 00:16:01.080
  • - AND SO THE STUFF THAT WE GO THROUGH GOD DIDN'T
  • 00:16:01.100 --> 00:16:02.150
  • GIVE YOUR FRIEND CANCER.
  • 00:16:02.170 --> 00:16:04.040
  • AND WE CAN FEEL THAT WAY.
  • 00:16:04.060 --> 00:16:05.180
  • WHEN WE GET CANCER OR WHEN WE GO INTO THESE
  • 00:16:05.200 --> 00:16:07.160
  • THINGS WE THINK GOD IS PUNISHING ME BECAUSE OF
  • 00:16:07.180 --> 00:16:08.260
  • THIS THING OR WHATEVER.
  • 00:16:08.280 --> 00:16:12.190
  • WE ALL HAVE STUFF, AND WE GOT TO JUST TELL PEOPLE
  • 00:16:12.210 --> 00:16:14.130
  • LOOK, GOD'S NOT ATTACKING YOU, BUT HE'S GOING TO
  • 00:16:14.150 --> 00:16:17.140
  • MAKE YOU STRONGER, SMARTER, FULLER, DEEPER, RIGHT?
  • 00:16:17.160 --> 00:16:22.140
  • - UH-HUH.
  • 00:16:22.160 --> 00:16:23.230
  • THERE IS SOME THINGS YOU CAN ONLY GET BY WALKING
  • 00:16:23.250 --> 00:16:25.060
  • THROUGH A VALLEY.
  • 00:16:25.080 --> 00:16:26.170
  • WE'RE NOT ALWAYS GOING TO BE ON A MOUNTAIN TOP.
  • 00:16:26.190 --> 00:16:28.230
  • AND THAT'S ANOTHER THING THAT GOD HAS REALLY BEEN
  • 00:16:28.250 --> 00:16:32.150
  • SHOWING ME THAT AS MUCH AS I WOULD LOVE FOR THE
  • 00:16:32.170 --> 00:16:33.250
  • PAIN TO BE REMOVED, IT'S OFTEN IN THE PAIN AND IN
  • 00:16:33.270 --> 00:16:36.130
  • THE FIRE THAT HE'S REALLY SHAPING US AND SCULPTING
  • 00:16:36.150 --> 00:16:39.010
  • US MORE THAN INTO HIS IMAGE.
  • 00:16:39.030 --> 00:16:41.050
  • SO YEAH, I WISH THAT MY FRIEND WERE STILL HERE,
  • 00:16:41.070 --> 00:16:43.200
  • AND YEAH, I THINK ABOUT HER BOYS THAT WERE LEFT
  • 00:16:43.220 --> 00:16:46.290
  • AND HER HUSBAND THAT IS LEFT TO RAISE THEIR BOYS,
  • 00:16:47.010 --> 00:16:51.070
  • BUT HERE'S WHAT I KNOW IS THAT IF WE'RE GOING TO
  • 00:16:51.090 --> 00:16:54.020
  • CALL OURSELVES MEN AND WOMEN OF FAITH, THAT WHEN
  • 00:16:54.040 --> 00:16:57.070
  • WE FACE SITUATIONS THAT REQUIRE FAITH THAT WE
  • 00:16:57.090 --> 00:16:59.120
  • CANNOT BACK DOWN, THAT THAT'S ACTUALLY THE TIME
  • 00:16:59.140 --> 00:17:01.000
  • TO RISE UP AND ACTUALLY BELIEVE WHAT IT IS THAT
  • 00:17:01.020 --> 00:17:03.090
  • WE'RE PREACHING AND SINGING ABOUT.
  • 00:17:03.110 --> 00:17:06.230
  • SO AS MUCH ASS I WOULD LOVE FOR THINGS TO ALWAYS
  • 00:17:06.250 --> 00:17:10.050
  • BE EASY, I AM LEARNING THAT IT'S IN THE
  • 00:17:10.070 --> 00:17:11.270
  • DIFFICULT TIMES THAT GOD IS TEACHING ME THE MOST,
  • 00:17:11.290 --> 00:17:13.210
  • AND IT WAS HONESTLY IN THAT DARK PERIOD WHERE I
  • 00:17:13.230 --> 00:17:16.130
  • THOUGHT THAT THERE WAS NO WAY OUT, I SAW NO HOPE
  • 00:17:16.150 --> 00:17:18.210
  • WHATSOEVER, IT'S ACTUALLY NOW THAT I HAVE THIS NEW
  • 00:17:18.230 --> 00:17:21.270
  • MUSIC, OUT OF THE DARK, THAT I'M SEEING HOW GOD
  • 00:17:21.290 --> 00:17:25.050
  • IS USING EVEN THOSE DIFFICULT THINGS, THE
  • 00:17:25.070 --> 00:17:27.100
  • WEAK THINGS, THE HORRIBLE THINGS I WISH I COULD
  • 00:17:27.120 --> 00:17:29.120
  • TAKE AWAY, HE'S ACTUALLY USING THAT TO MINISTER TO
  • 00:17:29.140 --> 00:17:31.140
  • MORE PEOPLE.
  • 00:17:31.160 --> 00:17:32.240
  • - SO AWESOME.
  • 00:17:32.260 --> 00:17:33.260
  • - THAT'S HOW HE WORKS.
  • 00:17:33.280 --> 00:17:34.230
  • - SO AWESOME.
  • 00:17:34.250 --> 00:17:36.110
  • AND I JUST WANT TO TALK A LITTLE BIT ABOUT THIS
  • 00:17:36.130 --> 00:17:38.040
  • BECAUSE WHEN PEOPLE OF FAITH -- YOU KNOW, YOU'VE
  • 00:17:38.060 --> 00:17:40.250
  • BEEN A CHRISTIAN FOR YEARS, YOUR WHOLE LIFE MAYBE.
  • 00:17:40.270 --> 00:17:43.000
  • MAYBE YOU'RE A PASTOR.
  • 00:17:43.020 --> 00:17:44.120
  • PEOPLE LOOK TO YOU IN SOME FORM OF MINISTRY OR
  • 00:17:44.140 --> 00:17:47.120
  • YOU VOLUNTEER AT YOUR CHURCH, AND PEOPLE ARE
  • 00:17:47.140 --> 00:17:49.030
  • LIKE SHE'S THIS PINNACLE OF FAITH.
  • 00:17:49.050 --> 00:17:51.150
  • AND THEN SHE GOES INTO DEPRESSION OR SHE GETS
  • 00:17:51.170 --> 00:17:54.100
  • CAUGHT UP IN SOME ADDICTION.
  • 00:17:54.120 --> 00:17:56.130
  • DON'T YOU THINK -- TELL ME ABOUT -- WHAT I REALLY WANT
  • 00:17:56.150 --> 00:18:00.020
  • TO TALK ABOUT IS SHAME.
  • 00:18:00.040 --> 00:18:01.060
  • - YES.
  • 00:18:01.080 --> 00:18:02.100
  • OH, I KNOW IT WELL.
  • 00:18:02.120 --> 00:18:04.130
  • - AND THIS IDEA WHEN YOU'RE THERE YOU FEEL
  • 00:18:04.150 --> 00:18:06.150
  • LIKE YOU HAVE TO PRETEND, THIS IDEA THAT IF PEOPLE
  • 00:18:06.170 --> 00:18:08.250
  • KNEW THIS ABOUT ME, THEY WOULDN'T LOVE ME OR
  • 00:18:08.270 --> 00:18:10.280
  • RESPECT ME ANYMORE.
  • 00:18:11.000 --> 00:18:12.200
  • AND THIS FEAR OF BEING EMBARRASSED OR BEING AN
  • 00:18:12.220 --> 00:18:14.270
  • OUTSIDER OR BEING DISRESPECTED OR NOT
  • 00:18:14.290 --> 00:18:17.100
  • HAVING THE SAME ROLE IN MY COMMUNITY.
  • 00:18:17.120 --> 00:18:19.190
  • THESE ARE I THINK BIG BURDENS, AREN'T THEY, WHEN
  • 00:18:19.210 --> 00:18:22.250
  • YOU'RE STUCK IN A PLACE LIKE WHERE YOU WERE STUCK?
  • 00:18:22.270 --> 00:18:25.100
  • - ABSOLUTELY.
  • 00:18:25.120 --> 00:18:26.180
  • SHAME IS WHAT I BATTLE ON A DAILY BASIS.
  • 00:18:26.200 --> 00:18:27.180
  • - ME, TOO.
  • 00:18:27.200 --> 00:18:28.290
  • - SO I FOUND THERE'S A SONG ON THE DELUXE ALBUM
  • 00:18:29.010 --> 00:18:30.210
  • CALLED SHAME OFF BECAUSE I DON'T THINK WE REALIZE
  • 00:18:30.230 --> 00:18:33.190
  • HOW DANGEROUS IT IS WHEN WE SAY THINGS LIKE
  • 00:18:33.210 --> 00:18:36.080
  • SHAME ON YOU.
  • 00:18:36.100 --> 00:18:37.190
  • I WOULD NEVER WISH SHAME ON MY WORST ENEMY.
  • 00:18:37.210 --> 00:18:39.210
  • IT'S NOT JUST FEELING BAD FOR SOMETHING THAT YOU DID.
  • 00:18:39.230 --> 00:18:44.120
  • IT'S ACTUALLY FEELING LIKE YOU ARE SOMETHING BAD.
  • 00:18:44.140 --> 00:18:46.210
  • IT IS TAKING ON THE IDENTITY OF THE MISTAKES
  • 00:18:46.230 --> 00:18:48.100
  • THAT YOU HAVE MADE, AND THAT IS NOT WHAT JESUS
  • 00:18:48.120 --> 00:18:50.080
  • HAS FOR US.
  • 00:18:50.100 --> 00:18:51.220
  • AND SO ONE OF MY GO TO SCRIPTURES IN PSALM 34 IS THAT
  • 00:18:51.240 --> 00:18:56.040
  • THOSE WHO LOOK TO HIM ARE RADIANT AND THEIR
  • 00:18:56.060 --> 00:18:57.270
  • FACES ARE NEVER COVERED WITH SHAME.
  • 00:18:57.290 --> 00:18:59.290
  • SO I HAVE TO ACTIVELY SPEAK OUT THE WORD OF GOD
  • 00:19:00.030 --> 00:19:02.250
  • WHEN I START TO FEEL BAD BECAUSE I MAKE MISTAKES
  • 00:19:02.270 --> 00:19:05.020
  • ON A DAILY BASIS.
  • 00:19:05.040 --> 00:19:06.230
  • WHEN I START TO FEEL LIKE I'M GOING INTO THAT DARK
  • 00:19:06.250 --> 00:19:09.230
  • PLACE AGAIN, I HAVE TO SPEAK OUT THE WORD OF
  • 00:19:09.250 --> 00:19:11.270
  • GOD, AND I HAVE TO CANCEL OUT THAT SHAME BECAUSE IT
  • 00:19:11.290 --> 00:19:14.160
  • IS SOMETHING THAT CAN OVERTAKE ME JUST LIKE THAT.
  • 00:19:14.180 --> 00:19:17.170
  • SO I THINK THE FACT THAT I AM IN SUCH A PUBLIC
  • 00:19:17.190 --> 00:19:20.100
  • PLACE, THE FACT THAT PEOPLE, I DON'T KNOW WHY
  • 00:19:20.120 --> 00:19:22.280
  • Y'ALL THINK WE'RE PERFECT AND HAVE IT ALL TOGETHER,
  • 00:19:23.000 --> 00:19:25.220
  • THAT IS NOT THE CASE WHATSOEVER, IT JUST
  • 00:19:25.240 --> 00:19:28.040
  • HAPPENS THAT GOD HAS PLACED US TO HAVE A
  • 00:19:28.060 --> 00:19:30.250
  • PUBLIC MINISTRY, BUT PLEASE, PLEASE KNOW WE
  • 00:19:30.270 --> 00:19:33.180
  • ALL GO THROUGH STUFF. WE ALL MAKE MISTAKES.
  • 00:19:33.200 --> 00:19:36.170
  • SO I WOULD NEVER WANT PEOPLE TO THINK THAT
  • 00:19:36.190 --> 00:19:38.240
  • I HAVE IT ALL TOGETHER. I REALLY DON'T. I JUST
  • 00:19:38.260 --> 00:19:41.040
  • HAVE A RELATIONSHIP WITH THE ONE WHO DOES.
  • 00:19:41.060 --> 00:19:43.180
  • - THAT'S RIGHT. GOOD WORD.
  • 00:19:43.200 --> 00:19:48.100
  • - I'M LEARNING TO NOT BE RIDDLED WITH SHAME,
  • 00:19:48.120 --> 00:19:50.170
  • TO NOT WEAR THAT LIKE A GARMENT.
  • 00:19:50.190 --> 00:19:52.290
  • THAT'S WHY THAT SONG SHAME OFF, IT MEANS SO
  • 00:19:53.010 --> 00:19:55.050
  • MUCH TO ME BECAUSE I'M NOT GONNA WEAR IT ANYMORE.
  • 00:19:55.070 --> 00:19:57.200
  • ANY TIME I START TO SEE THAT, THE WORD IS HELPING
  • 00:19:57.220 --> 00:20:00.070
  • ME TO RECOGNIZE IT AND TO SPEAK TRUTH, AND THAT'S
  • 00:20:00.090 --> 00:20:02.250
  • WHAT I'M FINDING IS THAT THAT'S HOW YOU DEFEAT
  • 00:20:02.270 --> 00:20:05.040
  • DARKNESS IS TO POUR LIGHT ONTO IT.
  • 00:20:05.060 --> 00:20:07.270
  • SO I HAVE TO SPEAK THE WORD OF GOD OVER THAT
  • 00:20:07.290 --> 00:20:09.230
  • SHAME THAT I FEEL ON A DAILY BASIS.
  • 00:20:09.250 --> 00:20:11.130
  • - THAT'S A GOOD WORD.
  • 00:20:11.150 --> 00:20:12.260
  • VERY OFTEN, I KNOW AS BELIEVERS, WE SAY THINGS
  • 00:20:12.280 --> 00:20:17.090
  • LIKE WE HAVE TO LOVE WHAT IS GOOD AND HATE WHAT IS
  • 00:20:17.110 --> 00:20:19.140
  • EVIL. THAT'S WHAT THE SCRIPTURE SAYS AND THAT'S
  • 00:20:19.160 --> 00:20:21.080
  • TRUE, BUT YOU POINTED IT OUT, I WANT TO MAKE SURE OUR
  • 00:20:21.100 --> 00:20:24.020
  • VIEWERS CATCH THIS.
  • 00:20:24.040 --> 00:20:25.240
  • THERE'S A DIFFERENCE BETWEEN GUILT AND SHAME.
  • 00:20:25.260 --> 00:20:28.150
  • GUILT IS ACTUALLY IN A WAY KIND OF GOOD.
  • 00:20:28.170 --> 00:20:30.010
  • GUILT SAYS I SHOULDN'T HAVE DONE THAT.
  • 00:20:30.030 --> 00:20:31.270
  • THAT'S NOT ME.
  • 00:20:31.290 --> 00:20:33.250
  • SO I'M GONNA TALK ABOUT THIS, THEN I'M GONNA WORK ON THIS
  • 00:20:33.270 --> 00:20:36.290
  • OPENLY BECAUSE I NEED HELP TO BE BETTER WITH
  • 00:20:37.010 --> 00:20:38.290
  • MY ANGER OR WHATEVER.
  • 00:20:39.010 --> 00:20:40.270
  • BUT SHAME SAYS, LOOK -- YOU SAID GUILT WHICH
  • 00:20:40.290 --> 00:20:44.060
  • COULD BE A GOOD THING IS I SHOULDN'T DO THAT
  • 00:20:44.080 --> 00:20:46.070
  • OR I MADE A MISTAKE.
  • 00:20:46.090 --> 00:20:47.220
  • BUT SHAME SAYS I AM A MISTAKE.
  • 00:20:47.240 --> 00:20:50.220
  • I CAN'T MANAGE THIS SO I HAVE TO HIDE IT.
  • 00:20:50.240 --> 00:20:53.010
  • THIS MAKES ME UNWORTHY OF LOVE AND BELONGING.
  • 00:20:53.030 --> 00:20:56.220
  • AND THE THING IS ALL PEOPLE STRUGGLE WITH
  • 00:20:56.240 --> 00:20:59.260
  • SHAME, EVERYBODY DOES.
  • 00:20:59.280 --> 00:21:01.080
  • IF YOU DON'T STRUGGLE WITH SHAME AT ALL,
  • 00:21:01.100 --> 00:21:02.230
  • IT'S A MENTAL ILLNESS.
  • 00:21:02.250 --> 00:21:04.120
  • BUT WHEN SHAME GETS TOO HIGH, I THINK ONE WAY
  • 00:21:04.140 --> 00:21:07.250
  • THAT SHAME COMES OUT TOO IS NOT JUST FROM NOT WANTING
  • 00:21:07.270 --> 00:21:10.060
  • TO BE EMBARRASSED BUT ALSO NOT WANTING TO BE A BURDEN
  • 00:21:10.080 --> 00:21:12.180
  • TO OTHERS. DON'T YOU THINK?
  • 00:21:12.200 --> 00:21:14.030
  • ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU'RE IN DEPRESSION OR SOMETHING
  • 00:21:14.050 --> 00:21:15.190
  • LIKE THAT, YOU'RE LIKE YOU'RE REALLY-- YOUR SELF-TALK
  • 00:21:15.210 --> 00:21:18.170
  • IS I'M NOT WORTHY OF BEING HEARD, I'M NOT
  • 00:21:18.190 --> 00:21:23.130
  • WORTHY OF AN OPINION, I'M NOT WORTHY OF BEING
  • 00:21:23.150 --> 00:21:27.010
  • INVITED. THESE TYPES OF THINGS LIKE THAT'S ALSO
  • 00:21:27.030 --> 00:21:30.010
  • A KIND OF SHAME, ISN'T IT?
  • 00:21:30.030 --> 00:21:31.040
  • - IT IS.
  • 00:21:31.060 --> 00:21:32.200
  • AND I PUT THAT ON GOD MORE THAN ANYBODY ELSE.
  • 00:21:32.220 --> 00:21:35.010
  • IT'S INTERESTING HOW YOU CAN TAKE A RELATIONSHIP
  • 00:21:35.030 --> 00:21:39.060
  • THAT YOU'VE HAD ON EARTH AND YOU CAN THINK THAT
  • 00:21:39.080 --> 00:21:41.170
  • GOD IS JUST A BIG ONE OF THOSE RELATIONSHIPS.
  • 00:21:41.190 --> 00:21:43.120
  • LIKE NO, ACTUALLY GOD IS REALLY FULL OF GRACE AND
  • 00:21:43.140 --> 00:21:46.030
  • MERCY AND LOVE, BUT I THINK SOMEHOW IN MY MIND
  • 00:21:46.050 --> 00:21:48.170
  • I'VE SEEN GOD AS A MEAN JUDGE WHO IS NEVER HAPPY
  • 00:21:48.190 --> 00:21:52.190
  • WITH ANYTHING I DO AND IS ALWAYS DISAPPOINTED, AND
  • 00:21:52.210 --> 00:21:55.130
  • THAT'S NOT THE CASE.
  • 00:21:55.150 --> 00:21:57.010
  • THAT IS FOR SOME REASON THE IDENTITY THAT I PUT
  • 00:21:57.030 --> 00:21:59.140
  • ON HIM, SO WHAT I'M REALIZING IS WHEN I MAKE
  • 00:21:59.160 --> 00:22:03.050
  • A MISTAKE, WHAT I USED TO DO IS I'M HORRIBLE, WOE
  • 00:22:03.070 --> 00:22:07.160
  • IS ME, I CAN'T EVEN TALK TO GOD, I CAN EVEN
  • 00:22:07.180 --> 00:22:10.080
  • COME TO HIM WITH MY DIRTY FILTHY RIGHTEOUSNESS.
  • 00:22:10.100 --> 00:22:12.200
  • IT'S NOT RIGHTEOUS AT ALL.
  • 00:22:12.220 --> 00:22:14.060
  • AND I WOULD STAY STUCK THERE FOREVER.
  • 00:22:14.080 --> 00:22:17.080
  • BUT WHAT GOD IS SHOWING ME IS THAT WHEN I
  • 00:22:17.100 --> 00:22:19.080
  • RECOGNIZE THAT I'VE SINNED, WHEN I'VE
  • 00:22:19.100 --> 00:22:21.090
  • RECOGNIZED THAT I'VE MADE A MISTAKE, THANK YOU
  • 00:22:21.110 --> 00:22:23.220
  • HOLY SPIRIT FOR SHOWING ME THAT I DID THIS.
  • 00:22:23.240 --> 00:22:25.200
  • THANK YOU FOR SHOWING ME THAT I WAS QUICK WITH
  • 00:22:25.220 --> 00:22:27.140
  • THIS PERSON OR SPOKE TO THIS PERSON WRONG, OR I
  • 00:22:27.160 --> 00:22:29.210
  • TURNED TO FOOD INSTEAD OF TURNING TO YOU, THANK YOU
  • 00:22:29.230 --> 00:22:33.030
  • FOR SHOWING ME THAT, WOULD YOU PLEASE FORGIVE
  • 00:22:33.050 --> 00:22:35.030
  • ME AND WOULD YOU HELP ME TO RECEIVE YOUR
  • 00:22:35.050 --> 00:22:37.280
  • FORGIVENESS AND HELP ME TO TURN TO NOT REPEAT THE
  • 00:22:38.000 --> 00:22:40.220
  • SAME MISTAKE OVER AND OVER AGAIN, AND THEN DUST
  • 00:22:40.240 --> 00:22:42.190
  • YOURSELF OFF AND GET UP.
  • 00:22:42.210 --> 00:22:44.270
  • LIKE, GET UP AND GO INSTEAD OF BEING STUCK IN
  • 00:22:44.290 --> 00:22:46.210
  • THAT PLACE FOR SO LONG.
  • 00:22:46.230 --> 00:22:48.190
  • - THAT'S GOOD.
  • 00:22:48.210 --> 00:22:51.260
  • I THINK IT'S ALSO IMPORTANT MANDISA,
  • 00:22:51.280 --> 00:22:54.030
  • AND I THINK YOU WOULD AGREE WITH THIS TO JUST
  • 00:22:54.050 --> 00:22:55.180
  • ACKNOWLEDGE TO EVERYBODY THAT GRIEVING IS NOT A
  • 00:22:55.200 --> 00:22:58.100
  • SIN AND DOUBTING IS NOT A SIN.
  • 00:22:58.120 --> 00:23:01.060
  • DOUBTING AND GRIEF, YOU READ THAT IN THE
  • 00:23:01.080 --> 00:23:04.160
  • PSALMS ALL THE TIME.
  • 00:23:04.180 --> 00:23:05.260
  • JESUS ECHOED THAT ON THE CROSS, MY GOD MY GOD,
  • 00:23:05.280 --> 00:23:07.160
  • WHY HAVE YOU FORSAKEN ME?
  • 00:23:07.180 --> 00:23:09.130
  • WAS JESUS SINNING WHEN HE SAID THAT?
  • 00:23:09.150 --> 00:23:11.040
  • SO WE'VE ALL FELT THAT IN OUR HEARTS, YOU'VE FELT
  • 00:23:11.060 --> 00:23:13.210
  • NEGLECTED BY GOD AND WONDERED WHERE HE IS, BUT
  • 00:23:13.230 --> 00:23:16.060
  • OF COURSE THE PSALMS SAY IN THE END, YOU ARE
  • 00:23:16.080 --> 00:23:18.250
  • FAITHFUL BUT SOMETIMES WHEN WE'RE THERE, WE KIND
  • 00:23:18.270 --> 00:23:21.050
  • OF HOLD ON TO THAT AND DON'T WANT TO SAY THAT.
  • 00:23:21.070 --> 00:23:24.150
  • AND I KIND OF FEEL LIKE SOMETIMES IT'S OKAY.
  • 00:23:24.170 --> 00:23:26.120
  • - WELL, I SAID THAT WAS A BIG THING THAT NOW I'M
  • 00:23:26.140 --> 00:23:29.170
  • FINALLY DEALING WITH THE LOSS OF MY FRIEND KISHA
  • 00:23:29.190 --> 00:23:33.010
  • IS I WAS SO ANGRY AT GOD, AND I DIDN'T REALIZE
  • 00:23:33.030 --> 00:23:36.070
  • THAT BECAUSE I STUFFED IT DOWN WITH FOOD, BUT NOW
  • 00:23:36.090 --> 00:23:39.110
  • THAT HE HAS PULLED ME OUT OF THE DARK,
  • 00:23:39.130 --> 00:23:41.030
  • I'M DEALING WITH IT.
  • 00:23:41.050 --> 00:23:42.180
  • AND I WENT TO HER GRAVE SITE FOR THE FIRST TIME
  • 00:23:42.200 --> 00:23:45.090
  • ON EASTER SUNDAY OF ALL DAYS, THAT WAS THE FIRST
  • 00:23:45.110 --> 00:23:47.150
  • TIME THAT I WENT, AND YEAH, I AM FINALLY
  • 00:23:47.170 --> 00:23:51.020
  • GRIEVING THE LOSS OF MY FRIEND, AND I MISS HER
  • 00:23:51.040 --> 00:23:54.050
  • TERRIBLY, AND I STILL THINK THAT IT WOULD BE
  • 00:23:54.070 --> 00:23:56.140
  • BETTER IF SHE WERE HERE BUT HERE'S WHAT I AM,
  • 00:23:56.160 --> 00:23:58.240
  • I'M SAYING TO THE LORD I DON'T UNDERSTAND,
  • 00:23:58.260 --> 00:24:01.130
  • I DON'T GET IT, I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY YOU
  • 00:24:01.150 --> 00:24:03.050
  • ALLOWED THIS TO HAPPEN IN MY OPINION IT WOULD HAVE
  • 00:24:03.070 --> 00:24:05.100
  • BEEN BETTER IF SHE WERE HERE AND HAD A MINISTRY
  • 00:24:05.120 --> 00:24:07.140
  • AND TALK ABOUT THE HEALING, BUT HERE'S WHAT
  • 00:24:07.160 --> 00:24:10.000
  • I SAY, LORD, YOU ARE GOD AND I AM NOT.
  • 00:24:10.020 --> 00:24:13.140
  • I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY THIS HAPPENED,
  • 00:24:13.160 --> 00:24:16.040
  • BUT HERE'S WHAT I DO. I TRUST WHO YOU ARE.
  • 00:24:16.060 --> 00:24:18.240
  • I TRUST YOUR CHARACTER, I TRUST YOUR NATURE, AND I
  • 00:24:18.260 --> 00:24:21.080
  • DO KNOW THAT YOU KNOW BETTER THAN I DO, SO EVEN
  • 00:24:21.100 --> 00:24:24.120
  • WHEN I DON'T UNDERSTAND HIS WAYS, I'M LEARNING TO
  • 00:24:24.140 --> 00:24:26.230
  • REST IN WHO HE IS AND WHAT HE IS SHOWING ME IS
  • 00:24:26.250 --> 00:24:31.090
  • THAT I NEED TO BRING HIM MY DISAPPOINTMENT, THAT
  • 00:24:31.110 --> 00:24:34.120
  • INSTEAD OF STUFFING IT DOWN AND ACTING LIKE I
  • 00:24:34.140 --> 00:24:36.200
  • DON'T FEEL IT, THAT IF YOU FEEL IT THE BEST
  • 00:24:36.220 --> 00:24:40.000
  • PERSON TO BRING IT TO IS HIM, SO THE FIRST SONG
  • 00:24:40.020 --> 00:24:43.230
  • ACTUALLY THAT I WROTE FOR "OUT OF THE DARK" IS CALLED
  • 00:24:43.250 --> 00:24:46.090
  • "PROVE ME WRONG", AND THIS IS MY, I'M GONNA TELL YOU
  • 00:24:46.110 --> 00:24:49.250
  • HOW I FEEL, I'M ANGRY. THE FIRST LINE IS YOU COULD
  • 00:24:49.270 --> 00:24:52.150
  • HAVE HEALED HER, YOU'VE DONE IT BEFORE.
  • 00:24:52.170 --> 00:24:54.150
  • SO THAT IS MY VERY HONEST, IT'S NOT THE
  • 00:24:54.170 --> 00:24:57.100
  • KIND OF SONG THAT IS TIED UP WITH A NICE LITTLE
  • 00:24:57.120 --> 00:24:59.200
  • CHRISTIAN BOW, IT'S MY THIS IS REALLY HOW I
  • 00:24:59.220 --> 00:25:02.040
  • FEEL, I'M GONNA LET YOU HAVE IT, AND I'LL BE
  • 00:25:02.060 --> 00:25:04.130
  • HONEST, IT DOESN'T END IN A PRETTY WAY LIKE IT
  • 00:25:04.150 --> 00:25:07.130
  • STILL ENDS WITH ALL THE DOUBT AND THE I DON'T GET
  • 00:25:07.150 --> 00:25:10.020
  • WHY YOU DID THIS, BUT I WILL SAY THIS, THAT AFTER
  • 00:25:10.040 --> 00:25:13.010
  • I RECORDED IT AND I HEARD IT FOR THE FIRST TIME, I
  • 00:25:13.030 --> 00:25:15.210
  • WAS IN THE LIVING ROOM WITH A BUNCH OF MY
  • 00:25:15.230 --> 00:25:17.100
  • FRIENDS LISTENING TO SOME OF THE SONGS ON MY ALBUM,
  • 00:25:17.120 --> 00:25:19.140
  • IT KIND OF TURNED INTO A WORSHIP EXPERIENCE, BUT
  • 00:25:19.160 --> 00:25:21.170
  • AS I LISTENED TO MY RECORDING OF THAT SONG
  • 00:25:21.190 --> 00:25:25.010
  • THE VERY FIRST TIME AT THE END OF IT, AFTER ME
  • 00:25:25.030 --> 00:25:27.010
  • SAYING I DARE YOU GOD TO PROVE ME WRONG, I FEEL
  • 00:25:27.030 --> 00:25:29.210
  • LIKE I HEARD THE HOLY SPIRIT SAY MANDISA, YOU
  • 00:25:29.230 --> 00:25:32.290
  • CHALLENGED ME TO PROVE YOU WRONG, I JUST DID.
  • 00:25:33.010 --> 00:25:35.200
  • - AWESOME. - THANK YOU JESUS.
  • 00:25:35.220 --> 00:25:37.220
  • - ISN'T IT AMAZING?
  • 00:25:37.240 --> 00:25:40.050
  • SEE, I FEEL LIKE THERE IS SOMETHING REALLY AMAZING
  • 00:25:40.070 --> 00:25:42.190
  • THAT WHEN WE'RE GOING THROUGH THE VALLEY OF
  • 00:25:42.210 --> 00:25:44.250
  • LIFE AND WE TRY AND DO IT ON OUR OWN, AND I ALMOST
  • 00:25:44.270 --> 00:25:48.180
  • FEEL LIKE WHEN WE TRY AND BECOME GOD'S ATTORNEY AS
  • 00:25:48.200 --> 00:25:51.130
  • THOUGH HE NEEDED ONE, OR WE'RE LIKE DEFENDING GOD
  • 00:25:51.150 --> 00:25:54.150
  • TO OURSELVES, I FEEL LIKE IT'S A BAD PLACE TO BE.
  • 00:25:54.170 --> 00:25:57.040
  • IT'S SO MUCH HEALTHIER TO BE LIKE DAVID.
  • 00:25:57.060 --> 00:25:59.000
  • I THINK IT'S THREE QUARTERS OF THE PSALMS
  • 00:25:59.020 --> 00:26:01.130
  • ARE PSALMS OF LAMENT; GOD, WHY DID YOU LET ME
  • 00:26:01.150 --> 00:26:03.120
  • DOWN? WHERE ARE YOU?
  • 00:26:03.140 --> 00:26:04.280
  • AND ISN'T IT FUNNY WHEN YOU BLEED AND JUST OPEN
  • 00:26:05.000 --> 00:26:07.270
  • YOUR HEART LIKE GOD, WHY DID YOU LET ME DOWN?
  • 00:26:07.290 --> 00:26:10.190
  • SOMETIMES THAT'S THE EXACT THING YOU NEEDED TO
  • 00:26:10.210 --> 00:26:13.070
  • GET SOME FREEDOM AND RELIEF FROM THE PRESSURE
  • 00:26:13.090 --> 00:26:17.140
  • AND GRIEF THAT YOU'RE FEELING.
  • 00:26:17.160 --> 00:26:18.290
  • - IT'S FUNNY YOU MENTION DAVID BECAUSE THAT'S WHO
  • 00:26:19.010 --> 00:26:20.270
  • I LEARNED FROM IS THAT HE POURED OUT HIS HEART, AND
  • 00:26:20.290 --> 00:26:23.090
  • THAT'S WHAT I FEEL LIKE GOD WAS SAYING TO DO, SO
  • 00:26:23.110 --> 00:26:25.180
  • THAT'S WHY I WROTE PROVE ME WRONG.
  • 00:26:25.200 --> 00:26:27.030
  • AND I'M LEARNING IF I FEEL IT, I'M GONNA GIVE
  • 00:26:27.050 --> 00:26:29.090
  • IT TO GOD JUST LIKE DAVID DID.
  • 00:26:29.110 --> 00:26:30.290
  • - THIS ALBUM THAT YOU'VE DONE "OUT OF THE DARK" IS
  • 00:26:31.010 --> 00:26:33.030
  • INCREDIBLE AND THERE'S A STORY BEHIND IT.
  • 00:26:33.050 --> 00:26:35.020
  • WE WANT YOU TO SEE IT. WATCH THIS.
  • 00:26:35.040 --> 00:26:37.140
  • [MUSIC]
  • 00:26:37.160 --> 00:26:44.070
  • I CALLED MY ALBUM "OUT OF THE DARK" BECAUSE THAT
  • 00:26:44.090 --> 00:26:46.060
  • IS EXACTLY WHERE GOD HAS PULLED ME OUT OF.
  • 00:26:46.080 --> 00:26:48.280
  • WHEN I WAS IN THE DEEPEST PIT OF DESPAIR AND
  • 00:26:49.000 --> 00:26:52.020
  • DEPRESSION, IT'S ALL I COULD SEE.
  • 00:26:52.040 --> 00:26:54.130
  • I FELT HOPELESS, I FELT ASHAMED, I FELT LIKE
  • 00:26:54.150 --> 00:26:57.170
  • THERE WAS NO WAY THAT I COULD GET MYSELF OUT OF IT.
  • 00:26:57.190 --> 00:27:00.070
  • BUT THE GREAT THING ABOUT MY GOD IS THAT HE'S ABLE
  • 00:27:00.090 --> 00:27:02.280
  • TO LIFT OUT SOMEBODY IN THE DEEPEST PIT OF
  • 00:27:03.000 --> 00:27:05.220
  • DESPAIR AND THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT HE DID FOR ME.
  • 00:27:05.240 --> 00:27:08.120
  • NOW I FEEL LIKE I HAVE NEW EYES TO SEE THE GREATNESS
  • 00:27:08.140 --> 00:27:11.150
  • AND THE GLORY OF OUR GOD.
  • 00:27:11.170 --> 00:27:14.020
  • AND HERE'S THE THING ABOUT DARKNESS,
  • 00:27:14.040 --> 00:27:15.130
  • IT IS OVERWHELMING.
  • 00:27:15.150 --> 00:27:16.290
  • SOMETIMES IT IS ALL THAT YOU CAN SEE.
  • 00:27:17.010 --> 00:27:18.260
  • BUT HERE'S THE THING ABOUT LIGHT.
  • 00:27:18.280 --> 00:27:20.170
  • IT ONLY TAKES ONE LITTLE FLICKER OF LIGHT
  • 00:27:20.190 --> 00:27:23.020
  • TO DISPEL DARKNESS.
  • 00:27:23.040 --> 00:27:24.190
  • AND THAT IS MY TESTIMONY.
  • 00:27:24.210 --> 00:27:26.130
  • THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT HAPPENED WITH ME.
  • 00:27:26.150 --> 00:27:28.180
  • IT JUST TOOK ONE LITTLE FLICKER OF LIGHT.
  • 00:27:28.200 --> 00:27:30.190
  • ONCE I LET THE LIGHT OF JESUS SHINE DOWN ON ME,
  • 00:27:30.210 --> 00:27:33.120
  • THAT IS WHEN GOD BEGAN LIFTING ME OUT OF THAT
  • 00:27:33.140 --> 00:27:35.160
  • PIT AND OUT OF THE DARKNESS.
  • 00:27:35.180 --> 00:27:37.050
  • SO THAT IS WHAT I WANTED TO BASE THIS ALBUM ON,
  • 00:27:37.070 --> 00:27:39.210
  • THE STORY OF HOW GOOD MY GOD IS AND HOW HE'S ABLE
  • 00:27:39.230 --> 00:27:42.280
  • TO BRING ANYBODY, INCLUDING YOU AND
  • 00:27:43.000 --> 00:27:45.270
  • INCLUDING ME, OUT OF THE DARK.
  • 00:27:45.290 --> 00:27:48.160
  • [MUSIC]
  • 00:27:48.180 --> 00:27:54.150
  • [APPLAUSE]
  • 00:27:54.170 --> 00:27:59.240
  • - BOBBY SCHULLER: THANK YOU FOR JOINING US.
  • 00:27:59.260 --> 00:28:02.060
  • WE'RE JUST IN THE MIDDLE OF AN AMAZING STORY.
  • 00:28:02.080 --> 00:28:04.080
  • I'M BOBBY SCHULLER FROM HOUR OF POWER, AND I HAVE
  • 00:28:04.100 --> 00:28:06.070
  • THE PRIVILEGE TO INTERVIEW MANDISA, ONE OF THE WORLD'S
  • 00:28:06.090 --> 00:28:09.130
  • GREATEST CONTEMPORARY CHRISTIAN ARTISTS.
  • 00:28:09.150 --> 00:28:12.230
  • - I'M SORRY I'M LAUGHING EVERY TIME YOU SAY THAT.
  • 00:28:12.250 --> 00:28:14.130
  • - YOUR MUSIC IS HUGE.
  • 00:28:14.150 --> 00:28:16.060
  • I JUST WATCHED A MUSIC VIDEO WITH 19 MILLION
  • 00:28:16.080 --> 00:28:20.020
  • VIEWS ON YOU TUBE. DOES THAT SOUND RIGHT?
  • 00:28:20.040 --> 00:28:22.120
  • - OVERCOMER?
  • 00:28:22.140 --> 00:28:24.230
  • - IT WAS AN AMAZING VIDEO.
  • 00:28:24.250 --> 00:28:26.130
  • AND WITH A NUMBER OF INFLUENTIAL PEOPLE IN POP
  • 00:28:26.150 --> 00:28:30.220
  • CULTURE, ATHLETES, AND WATCHING THEM OVERCOME.
  • 00:28:30.240 --> 00:28:34.070
  • OF COURSE YOU WERE TALKING ABOUT HOW YOU
  • 00:28:34.090 --> 00:28:35.180
  • WROTE THAT SONG FOR YOUR FRIEND WHO ENDED UP, IN A
  • 00:28:35.200 --> 00:28:39.290
  • WAY NOT OVERCOMING, AND IN THE SENSE THAT YOU
  • 00:28:40.010 --> 00:28:42.200
  • WANTED TO SEE HER CURED OF CANCER, AND SHE DIED
  • 00:28:42.220 --> 00:28:44.110
  • AND THE GRIEF.
  • 00:28:44.130 --> 00:28:46.020
  • SO I WANT TO JUST GO WHERE WERE YOU IN YOUR
  • 00:28:46.040 --> 00:28:48.080
  • CAREER WHEN SHE PASSED?
  • 00:28:48.100 --> 00:28:50.270
  • AND WHAT WERE THE STEPS LIKE?
  • 00:28:50.290 --> 00:28:54.070
  • - IT'S SO INTERESTING THINKING ABOUT GOD 'S
  • 00:28:54.090 --> 00:28:57.100
  • TIMING WITH EVERYTHING BECAUSE SO "OVERCOMER"
  • 00:28:57.120 --> 00:29:00.290
  • WAS MY FOURTH REGULAR STUDIO ALBUM, AND ALL
  • 00:29:01.010 --> 00:29:04.110
  • FOUR OF MY ALBUMS HAD BEEN NOMINATED FOR
  • 00:29:04.130 --> 00:29:07.250
  • GRAMMIES FOR POP GOSPEL ALBUM OF THE YEAR, AND
  • 00:29:07.270 --> 00:29:10.230
  • I'D NEVER WON ANY OF THEM. AND I ASSUMED
  • 00:29:10.250 --> 00:29:13.190
  • I WASN'T GONNA WIN THIS ONE EITHER.
  • 00:29:13.210 --> 00:29:15.140
  • SO ACTUALLY, KISHA WAS NOT DOING GREAT AT THAT
  • 00:29:15.160 --> 00:29:18.180
  • TIME OF THE GRAMMIES.
  • 00:29:18.200 --> 00:29:20.130
  • AND I WAS ALREADY KIND OF STARTING TO GO INTO THAT
  • 00:29:20.150 --> 00:29:23.030
  • PLACE. I JUST WASN'T SEEING THINGS THE WAY I THOUGHT
  • 00:29:23.050 --> 00:29:25.130
  • THEY WERE GONNA GO.
  • 00:29:25.150 --> 00:29:27.210
  • AND SO I DIDN'T GO TO THE GRAMMIES THAT YEAR.
  • 00:29:27.230 --> 00:29:30.180
  • AND WHEN THEY SAID THAT OVERCOMER WAS THE POP
  • 00:29:30.200 --> 00:29:33.220
  • GOSPEL ALBUM OF THE YEAR, LIKE I HAVE A VIDEO OF ME
  • 00:29:33.240 --> 00:29:36.220
  • IN MY LIVING ROOM WATCHING IT ON THE
  • 00:29:36.240 --> 00:29:38.140
  • COMPUTER, I WAS LIKE OH MY GOSH!
  • 00:29:38.160 --> 00:29:40.060
  • THEN MY PHONE STARTED BLOWING UP AND I'M CRYING
  • 00:29:40.080 --> 00:29:41.280
  • AND EVERYBODY'S CALLING ME.
  • 00:29:42.000 --> 00:29:43.170
  • BUT IT'S INTERESTING TO ME THAT OF ALL THE ALBUMS
  • 00:29:43.190 --> 00:29:46.180
  • TO WIN THAT CRAZY AWARD, THAT IT WOULD BE THE ONE
  • 00:29:46.200 --> 00:29:51.140
  • ALBUM THAT IT'S HARD FOR ME TO SING, THE ONE ALBUM
  • 00:29:51.160 --> 00:29:54.020
  • THAT WHEN I THINK ABOUT BEING AN OVERCOMER, AS
  • 00:29:54.040 --> 00:29:56.100
  • MUCH AS I LOVED HEARING THAT GOD USED THAT SONG
  • 00:29:56.120 --> 00:29:59.220
  • TO HELP OTHER PEOPLE IN THEIR FIGHTS, I WANTED
  • 00:29:59.240 --> 00:30:02.210
  • THE PERSON WHO INSPIRED THE SONG TO BE THE TRUEST
  • 00:30:02.230 --> 00:30:05.280
  • OVERCOMER HERE ON EARTH.
  • 00:30:06.000 --> 00:30:07.230
  • AND YEAH, IT JUST WASN'T HOW I WOULD HAVE
  • 00:30:07.250 --> 00:30:11.090
  • PLANNED FOR IT TO GO.
  • 00:30:11.110 --> 00:30:13.000
  • I WOULD HAVE LOVED FOR ME TO WALK ONTO THAT STAGE
  • 00:30:13.020 --> 00:30:16.130
  • AND ACCEPT THE GRAMMY FOR POP GOSPEL ALBUM OF THE
  • 00:30:16.150 --> 00:30:19.210
  • YEAR WITH MY FRIEND KISHA HAND IN HAND,
  • 00:30:19.230 --> 00:30:22.180
  • SAY THIS IS THE INSPIRATION BEHIND THE ALBUM.
  • 00:30:22.200 --> 00:30:24.130
  • BUT IT DIDN'T GO THAT WAY.
  • 00:30:24.150 --> 00:30:26.050
  • AND TO THIS DAY, I CANNOT SING THAT SONG WITHOUT
  • 00:30:26.070 --> 00:30:29.250
  • THINKING ABOUT HER.
  • 00:30:29.270 --> 00:30:31.170
  • BUT HERE'S WHAT I'M LEARNING.
  • 00:30:31.190 --> 00:30:33.270
  • THERE'S A PASSAGE IN REVELATION 12, I BELIEVE.
  • 00:30:33.290 --> 00:30:37.140
  • REVELATION 12:11 IT SAYS THAT THEY OVERCAME BY THE
  • 00:30:37.160 --> 00:30:40.060
  • BLOOD OF THE LAMB AND BY THE WORD
  • 00:30:40.080 --> 00:30:42.080
  • OF THEIR TESTIMONY.
  • 00:30:42.100 --> 00:30:43.240
  • AND I WOULD ALWAYS END THE SCRIPTURE THERE, BUT
  • 00:30:43.260 --> 00:30:45.230
  • I FEEL LIKE WHEN KISHA PASSED AWAY WHEN I WAS
  • 00:30:45.250 --> 00:30:49.200
  • STILL TALKING TO JESUS THAT GOD SHOWED ME THAT
  • 00:30:49.220 --> 00:30:51.210
  • THERE'S MORE TO THAT SCRIPTURE THAT WE KIND OF
  • 00:30:51.230 --> 00:30:53.120
  • LEAVE OFF. THE REST OF THAT SCRIPTURE SAYS FOR THEY
  • 00:30:53.140 --> 00:30:55.160
  • DID NOT LOVE THEIR LIVES SO MUCH AS TO FEAR DEATH.
  • 00:30:55.180 --> 00:30:59.060
  • WOW! THAT CHANGES EVERYTHING FOR ME BECAUSE KISHA
  • 00:30:59.080 --> 00:31:03.130
  • LOVED JESUS, AND I KNOW SHE IS WATCHING RIGHT
  • 00:31:03.150 --> 00:31:06.180
  • NOW, SHE'S THINKING MANDISA, YOU HAVE NO IDEA,
  • 00:31:06.200 --> 00:31:09.290
  • IF YOU COULD SEE WHERE I AM RIGHT NOW YOU
  • 00:31:10.010 --> 00:31:11.110
  • WOULD KNOW THAT I TRULY DID OVERCOME IN THE BEST
  • 00:31:11.130 --> 00:31:13.170
  • WAY POSSIBLE, AND NOT JUST THAT BUT SOMETHING
  • 00:31:13.190 --> 00:31:16.130
  • ABOUT WHAT GOD HAS DONE WITH THIS STORY, I FEEL
  • 00:31:16.150 --> 00:31:19.100
  • LIKE IS MAKING HER STORY GO EVEN FURTHER.
  • 00:31:19.120 --> 00:31:22.120
  • IT'S HELPING PEOPLE THAT MAYBE DID NOT OVERCOME
  • 00:31:22.140 --> 00:31:25.140
  • IN THE WAY THAT THEY WANTED TO.
  • 00:31:25.160 --> 00:31:27.000
  • MAYBE THEY WENT INTO A DARK PLACE LIKE I DID.
  • 00:31:27.020 --> 00:31:29.010
  • I FEEL LIKE KISHA'S STORY IS CONTINUING TO LIVE ON
  • 00:31:29.030 --> 00:31:31.280
  • AND CONTINUING TO MINISTER TO PEOPLE WHO
  • 00:31:32.000 --> 00:31:34.090
  • MAY NOT HAVE BEEN MINISTERED TO IF
  • 00:31:34.110 --> 00:31:36.100
  • EVERYTHING WAS HAPPILY EVER AFTER AND SHE CAME
  • 00:31:36.120 --> 00:31:38.230
  • OUT AND WAS HEALED AND HAD A GREAT MINISTRY.
  • 00:31:38.250 --> 00:31:40.210
  • LIKE THERE IS SOME PEOPLE THAT I THINK CAN BE
  • 00:31:40.230 --> 00:31:42.260
  • REACHED THROUGH THE MESSAGE OF WHAT HAPPENED
  • 00:31:42.280 --> 00:31:45.080
  • AFTER KISHA WENT TO BE IN GLORY THAT MAYBE WOULD
  • 00:31:45.100 --> 00:31:49.060
  • NOT HAVE BEEN HAD THE STORY GONE
  • 00:31:49.080 --> 00:31:51.020
  • IN A DIFFERENT WAY.
  • 00:31:51.040 --> 00:31:52.140
  • - WELL, AND THE OTHER THING IS FOR EXAMPLE EVEN
  • 00:31:52.160 --> 00:31:54.180
  • ON THE YOU TUBE VIDEO ONE OF THE TOP COMMENTS WAS
  • 00:31:54.200 --> 00:31:56.270
  • THIS SONG LITERALLY SAVED MY LIFE.
  • 00:31:56.290 --> 00:32:00.040
  • AND YOU WONDER THAT MAYBE GOD USING HER DEATH TO
  • 00:32:00.060 --> 00:32:06.280
  • HELP YOU, I MEAN I HATE TO SAY LIKE GOD DIDN'T
  • 00:32:07.000 --> 00:32:09.130
  • KILL HER OR GIVE HER CANCER, BUT IN HELPING
  • 00:32:09.150 --> 00:32:13.010
  • YOU LEARN IN THE MIDST OF THAT HOW TO TURN THAT
  • 00:32:13.030 --> 00:32:16.180
  • INTO SOMETHING BEAUTIFUL LIKE THESE SONGS.
  • 00:32:16.200 --> 00:32:19.110
  • HOW MAYBE A LOT OF PEOPLE ARE GETTING EXACTLY WHAT
  • 00:32:19.130 --> 00:32:21.260
  • THEY NEED TO GET THROUGH WHAT YOU'RE GOING THROUGH.
  • 00:32:21.280 --> 00:32:24.020
  • - I THINK SO AND THAT'S A GREAT
  • 00:32:24.040 --> 00:32:26.160
  • LESSON FOR ALL OF US.
  • 00:32:26.180 --> 00:32:29.270
  • WHEN I THINK OF WHY, WHY DOES HE ALLOW THINGS
  • 00:32:29.290 --> 00:32:33.060
  • LIKE THIS TO HAPPEN?
  • 00:32:33.080 --> 00:32:35.130
  • BECAUSE WE LIVE IN A FALLEN WORLD, BECAUSE
  • 00:32:35.150 --> 00:32:37.200
  • WE'RE NOT MADE TO FEEL COMFORTABLE HERE, BECAUSE
  • 00:32:37.220 --> 00:32:41.120
  • WE'RE NOT MADE FOR THIS PLACE, THIS IS NOT OUR
  • 00:32:41.140 --> 00:32:43.110
  • ETERNAL HOME, AND SO IF THERE'S SOMEBODY AND YEAH
  • 00:32:43.130 --> 00:32:48.070
  • I JUST GET IN MY MIND THERE'S SOMEBODY SAYING
  • 00:32:48.090 --> 00:32:50.020
  • IF THIS GOD IS SO GOOD AND SO POWERFUL AND
  • 00:32:50.040 --> 00:32:52.110
  • LOVING, WHY DOES HE ALLOW THINGS LIKE THIS TO
  • 00:32:52.130 --> 00:32:54.060
  • HAPPEN AND LET ME TELL YOU, IT'S BECAUSE WE LIVE
  • 00:32:54.080 --> 00:32:57.000
  • IN A FALLEN WORLD AND BECAUSE HE HAS GIVEN US
  • 00:32:57.020 --> 00:33:00.040
  • FREE WILL, SO THERE ARE GONNA BE SOME THINGS THAT
  • 00:33:00.060 --> 00:33:02.130
  • YOU'RE NOT GONNA UNDERSTAND, THERE'S GONNA
  • 00:33:02.150 --> 00:33:04.080
  • BE SOME SITUATIONS THAT YOU'RE GONNA WISH WENT IN
  • 00:33:04.100 --> 00:33:06.150
  • A DIFFERENT WAY, BUT HERE'S WHAT GOD PROMISES
  • 00:33:06.170 --> 00:33:08.230
  • NOT THAT EVERYTHING WILL BE GOOD BUT THAT HE WILL
  • 00:33:08.250 --> 00:33:11.070
  • WORK ALL THINGS FOR YOUR GOOD.
  • 00:33:11.090 --> 00:33:13.090
  • IF YOU HAVE JESUS LIVING IN YOUR HEART,
  • 00:33:13.110 --> 00:33:15.120
  • THAT MEANS THAT YOU ARE AN OVERCOMER.
  • 00:33:15.140 --> 00:33:17.070
  • THAT'S WHAT HE SAYS IN 1 JOHN 4, HE SAYS YOU DEAR
  • 00:33:17.090 --> 00:33:19.230
  • CHILDREN ARE FROM GOD AND YOU HAVE OVERCOME THEM.
  • 00:33:19.250 --> 00:33:21.240
  • HERE'S WHY.
  • 00:33:21.260 --> 00:33:23.060
  • BECAUSE THE ONE WHO IS IN YOU IS GREATER THAN THE
  • 00:33:23.080 --> 00:33:25.050
  • ONE WHO IS IN THE WORLD.
  • 00:33:25.070 --> 00:33:26.240
  • THAT DOESN'T MEAN THAT EVERYTHING IS GONNA BE
  • 00:33:26.260 --> 00:33:28.100
  • GREAT. IT SIMPLY MEANS THIS, THAT AT THE END OF OUR
  • 00:33:28.120 --> 00:33:33.060
  • LIVES THAT WE ARE HEADED SOMEPLACE MUCH BETTER.
  • 00:33:33.080 --> 00:33:37.110
  • AND WHEN WE GET THERE, WE'RE GONNA LOOK AT WHAT
  • 00:33:37.130 --> 00:33:39.090
  • HAPPENED HERE AND WE'RE GONNA THINK THAT WAS NOTHING.
  • 00:33:39.110 --> 00:33:42.030
  • COMPARED TO THE GLORY THAT AWAITS US IN HEAVEN,
  • 00:33:42.050 --> 00:33:44.150
  • I THINK WE SAY HEAVEN AND WE THINK OH, YEAH HEAVEN.
  • 00:33:44.170 --> 00:33:47.050
  • NO, NO, NO. PLEASE UNDERSTAND.
  • 00:33:47.070 --> 00:33:49.040
  • HEAVEN IS GOING TO BLOW OUR MINDS.
  • 00:33:49.060 --> 00:33:51.080
  • OUR MINDS CANNOT EVEN IMAGINE WHAT IS WAITING FOR
  • 00:33:51.100 --> 00:33:54.120
  • US. HERE'S WHAT I BELIEVE IS THAT EVERYTHING THAT
  • 00:33:54.140 --> 00:33:57.070
  • HAPPENS HERE ON EARTH, LIKE WE ARE PREPARING AND
  • 00:33:57.090 --> 00:34:00.140
  • WE ARE BEING SHAPED MORE AND MORE INTO
  • 00:34:00.160 --> 00:34:02.100
  • THE IMAGE OF JESUS.
  • 00:34:02.120 --> 00:34:03.230
  • AND PLEASE LORD HELP ME TO TAKE AS MANY PEOPLE AS
  • 00:34:03.250 --> 00:34:06.100
  • I POSSIBLY CAN TO HEAVEN SO THAT WHEN I GET THERE
  • 00:34:06.120 --> 00:34:09.020
  • THAT I WILL BE ABLE TO LOOK BACK AND SAY IT WAS
  • 00:34:09.040 --> 00:34:11.290
  • ALL WORTH IT AND THANK YOU JESUS THAT USED
  • 00:34:12.010 --> 00:34:13.280
  • ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING IN ORDER TO GET SOME MORE
  • 00:34:14.000 --> 00:34:16.200
  • PEOPLE HERE IN ETERNITY WITH YOU.
  • 00:34:16.220 --> 00:34:19.240
  • - THE ENEMY WANTS TO TAKE OUT... [APPLAUSE]
  • 00:34:19.260 --> 00:34:26.230
  • I JUST ALWAYS BELIEVE THAT THE GREATER THE
  • 00:34:26.250 --> 00:34:28.260
  • CALLING ON YOUR LIFE AND THE GREATER PURPOSE GOD
  • 00:34:28.280 --> 00:34:31.110
  • HAS FOR YOU, THE MORE PRONE YOU'RE GONNA BE TO
  • 00:34:31.130 --> 00:34:34.040
  • DEPRESSION, ADDICTION, FLAWS BECAUSE I THINK
  • 00:34:34.060 --> 00:34:38.170
  • THAT IF YOU DON'T HAVE A BIG CALLING ON YOUR LIFE,
  • 00:34:38.190 --> 00:34:40.220
  • I SORT OF FEEL LIKE THE ENEMY JUST LEAVES THEM
  • 00:34:40.240 --> 00:34:42.110
  • ALONE OR SOMETHING.
  • 00:34:42.130 --> 00:34:44.040
  • BUT IT'S LIKE THE MORE PAIN YOU GO THROUGH, THE
  • 00:34:44.060 --> 00:34:46.200
  • GREATER YOUR PURPOSE.
  • 00:34:46.220 --> 00:34:48.130
  • AND I THINK THERE'S REALLY SOMETHING TO THAT
  • 00:34:48.150 --> 00:34:50.080
  • BECAUSE WHEN WE'RE IN THE MIDST OF ALL OF THAT PAIN
  • 00:34:50.100 --> 00:34:53.100
  • AND GRIEF AND TRIAL TO JUST THINK OKAY, THIS IS
  • 00:34:53.120 --> 00:34:56.110
  • FOR SOMETHING BIGGER THAN WHAT IT IS
  • 00:34:56.130 --> 00:34:59.040
  • I'M GOING THROUGH.
  • 00:34:59.060 --> 00:35:00.120
  • - ABSOLUTELY.
  • 00:35:00.140 --> 00:35:02.000
  • - AND FOR YOU, YOU HAD LEGIT, YOU HAD LIKE
  • 00:35:02.020 --> 00:35:03.230
  • LEGIT, REAL DEPRESSION.
  • 00:35:03.250 --> 00:35:05.210
  • IT WASN'T LIKE YOU WERE JUST GRIEVING.
  • 00:35:05.230 --> 00:35:07.100
  • YOU WERE STUCK.
  • 00:35:07.120 --> 00:35:09.090
  • - I WAS STUCK. - HOW LONG?
  • 00:35:09.110 --> 00:35:11.030
  • - IT WAS THREE YEARS. AND I STAYED THERE.
  • 00:35:11.050 --> 00:35:15.120
  • WHAT I'VE LEARNED ABOUT DARKNESS IS THAT IT IS
  • 00:35:15.140 --> 00:35:17.240
  • COMPLETELY OVERWHELMING.
  • 00:35:17.260 --> 00:35:19.160
  • I COULD SEE NO HOPE WHATSOEVER.
  • 00:35:19.180 --> 00:35:21.200
  • I THOUGHT I DON'T KNOW IF I CAN LIVE THIS WAY
  • 00:35:21.220 --> 00:35:25.090
  • ANYMORE, AND WHILE I WASN'T READY TO END IT
  • 00:35:25.110 --> 00:35:29.040
  • MYSELF, I WAS ASKING GOD TO IN THOSE FEW TIMES
  • 00:35:29.060 --> 00:35:33.060
  • WHEN I WOULD TALK TO GOD.
  • 00:35:33.080 --> 00:35:35.000
  • THE ONLY THING I SAID WAS JUST KILL ME.
  • 00:35:35.020 --> 00:35:37.190
  • CLEARLY YOU DON'T HAVE A PURPOSE FOR ME.
  • 00:35:37.210 --> 00:35:40.240
  • CLEARLY THIS IS, I CAN'T SEE MY WAY OUT OF THIS SO
  • 00:35:40.260 --> 00:35:43.260
  • WHY DON'T YOU JUST TAKE ME, END MY LIFE.
  • 00:35:43.280 --> 00:35:46.110
  • AND THANK GOD HE DIDN'T AND THANK GOD THAT HE
  • 00:35:46.130 --> 00:35:49.280
  • STILL HAS A STORY.
  • 00:35:50.000 --> 00:35:51.140
  • AND I FEEL LIKE I WANT PEOPLE TO KNOW WHEN WE
  • 00:35:51.160 --> 00:35:53.280
  • TALK ABOUT A GREAT CALLING THAT THAT IS NOT
  • 00:35:54.000 --> 00:35:56.040
  • MEASURED BY HOW THE WORLD MEASURES IT.
  • 00:35:56.060 --> 00:35:58.190
  • IT'S NOT ABOUT HOW LARGE OUR PLATFORM IS OR HOW
  • 00:35:58.210 --> 00:36:02.010
  • MANY PEOPLE THAT YOU CAN MINISTER TO ON A STAGE.
  • 00:36:02.030 --> 00:36:05.280
  • IF YOU HAVE ASKED JESUS TO BE YOUR LORD AND YOUR
  • 00:36:06.000 --> 00:36:08.140
  • SAVIOR, YOU HAVE A GREAT CALLING.
  • 00:36:08.160 --> 00:36:11.060
  • THAT IS JUST, YOU ARE MARKED FOR DESTINY.
  • 00:36:11.080 --> 00:36:13.200
  • SO YOU COULD BE MINISTERING TO YOUR
  • 00:36:13.220 --> 00:36:15.220
  • CHILDREN, YOU COULD BE A TEACHER, WHATEVER IT IS.
  • 00:36:15.240 --> 00:36:18.160
  • - AND I WOULD ALSO ADD THAT THAT CALLING IS THE
  • 00:36:18.180 --> 00:36:20.290
  • THING THAT'S GONNA MAKE YOU HAPPIEST BECAUSE
  • 00:36:21.010 --> 00:36:23.100
  • OBVIOUSLY MOST PEOPLE AREN'T GONNA BE LIKE A
  • 00:36:23.120 --> 00:36:25.230
  • STAR IN HOLLYWOOD OR SOMETHING, BUT THAT A BIG
  • 00:36:25.250 --> 00:36:28.140
  • PART OF YOUR DESTINY IS ALSO JUST KIND OF FINDING
  • 00:36:28.160 --> 00:36:30.230
  • A PLACE WHERE YOU REALLY BELONG AND THRIVE,
  • 00:36:30.250 --> 00:36:33.020
  • DON'T YOU THINK?
  • 00:36:33.040 --> 00:36:34.070
  • - ABSOLUTELY.
  • 00:36:34.090 --> 00:36:35.170
  • - YOU'RE SAYING MY CALLING IS NOT GONNA BE
  • 00:36:35.190 --> 00:36:36.270
  • AS GOOD AS THEM.
  • 00:36:36.290 --> 00:36:38.050
  • AGAIN, IT'S NOT THE WORLD'S STANDARD BUT GOD
  • 00:36:38.070 --> 00:36:39.180
  • HAS SOMETHING SO UNIQUE FOR YOU THAT WHAT YOU GET
  • 00:36:39.200 --> 00:36:41.120
  • THERE, YOU'RE GONNA BE SO FULL OF JOY, PURPOSE AND
  • 00:36:41.140 --> 00:36:44.040
  • LIFE YOU'RE GONNA MAKE SUCH A BIG DIFFERENCE.
  • 00:36:44.060 --> 00:36:46.140
  • - THAT'S THE BEST PLACE TO BE.
  • 00:36:46.160 --> 00:36:48.080
  • I KNOW WE LIVE IN A CELEBRITY OBSESSED
  • 00:36:48.100 --> 00:36:51.040
  • SOCIETY AND EVERYBODY WANTS THEIR 15 MINUTES,
  • 00:36:51.060 --> 00:36:53.140
  • AND I KNOW THAT'S KIND OF STRANGE COMING FROM ME,
  • 00:36:53.160 --> 00:36:55.180
  • BUT I WANT TO SAY THIS THAT THERE ARE PEOPLE
  • 00:36:55.200 --> 00:36:57.260
  • THAT CAN BE SEARCHING AFTER FAME AND BE
  • 00:36:57.280 --> 00:37:00.080
  • COMPLETELY MISSING WHAT GOD'S TRUE CALLING IS FOR
  • 00:37:00.100 --> 00:37:03.020
  • THEM. AND HONESTLY, YOU WILL NEVER BE MORE CONTENT
  • 00:37:03.040 --> 00:37:05.230
  • THAN WHEN YOU'RE WALKING STRAIGHT WITH
  • 00:37:05.250 --> 00:37:07.010
  • THE WILL OF GOD.
  • 00:37:07.030 --> 00:37:08.160
  • - SO WHAT DO YOU SAY... [APPLAUSE]
  • 00:37:08.180 --> 00:37:12.080
  • GOOD WORD.
  • 00:37:12.100 --> 00:37:15.010
  • SO IF SOMEONE'S WATCHING RIGHT NOW AND THEY'RE
  • 00:37:15.030 --> 00:37:17.240
  • GOING IN AND OUT OF STUFF LIKE THIS PROBABLY
  • 00:37:17.260 --> 00:37:20.190
  • FEELING A LOT OF SHAME BECAUSE CHRISTIANS AREN'T
  • 00:37:20.210 --> 00:37:23.110
  • SUPPOSED TO GO INTO DEPRESSION, IF I WAS A
  • 00:37:23.130 --> 00:37:25.070
  • PERSON OF FAITH THIS WOULDN'T HAPPEN TO ME.
  • 00:37:25.090 --> 00:37:27.070
  • WHAT DO YOU SAY TO THAT PERSON RIGHT NOW WHO IS
  • 00:37:27.090 --> 00:37:29.240
  • JUST IN BED WATCHING TV.
  • 00:37:29.260 --> 00:37:32.170
  • - YEAH, WELL, THERE'S THREE THINGS THAT GOD
  • 00:37:32.190 --> 00:37:34.230
  • USED TO HELP PULL ME OUT OF THE DARK.
  • 00:37:34.250 --> 00:37:37.190
  • THE FIRST IS FLASHES OF LIGHT.
  • 00:37:37.210 --> 00:37:41.060
  • IT WAS SO DARK, IT WAS SO OVERWHELMING I COULD NOT
  • 00:37:41.080 --> 00:37:44.070
  • SEE MY WAY OUT, BUT HERE'S THE THING ABOUT
  • 00:37:44.090 --> 00:37:46.090
  • DARKNESS IS WHILE IT'S OVERWHELMING, IT ONLY
  • 00:37:46.110 --> 00:37:49.040
  • TAKES A FLASH, LIKE A LITTLE FLICKER TO CHASE
  • 00:37:49.060 --> 00:37:51.260
  • OUT THE DARKNESS.
  • 00:37:51.280 --> 00:37:53.230
  • AND I'VE SEEN THIS IN CONCERTS WHERE ONE PERSON
  • 00:37:53.250 --> 00:37:56.100
  • WILL LIFT UP THEIR CELL PHONE, HAVE Y'ALL SEEN
  • 00:37:56.120 --> 00:37:58.080
  • THAT? WHERE SOMEBODY LIGHTS UP THEIR CELL PHONE
  • 00:37:58.100 --> 00:38:00.070
  • THEN IT SPREADS.
  • 00:38:00.090 --> 00:38:02.010
  • THAT'S WHAT IT TAKES, A FLASH OF LIGHT.
  • 00:38:02.030 --> 00:38:04.130
  • FOR ME ONE OF THE THINGS THAT HAPPENED THAT GOD
  • 00:38:04.150 --> 00:38:06.200
  • USES A FLASH OF LIGHT WAS I WASN'T LISTENING TO
  • 00:38:06.220 --> 00:38:09.080
  • CHRISTIAN RADIO BUT ONE DAY I KIND OF GOT AN URGE
  • 00:38:09.100 --> 00:38:11.210
  • AND I PUT ON MY CHRISTIAN RADIO STATION AND THERE
  • 00:38:11.230 --> 00:38:15.000
  • WAS A SONG BY CASTING CROWNS CALLED ONE STEP AWAY.
  • 00:38:15.020 --> 00:38:18.000
  • AND THERE WAS A LINE IN IT THAT SAID YOU'RE
  • 00:38:18.020 --> 00:38:20.100
  • ONE STEP AWAY FROM ARMS WIDE OPEN, ONE STEP AWAY
  • 00:38:20.120 --> 00:38:22.230
  • FROM COMING HOME.
  • 00:38:22.250 --> 00:38:24.090
  • THAT WAS A FLASH OF LIGHT FOR ME.
  • 00:38:24.110 --> 00:38:25.260
  • IT WAS AS IF GOD FLOODED IN AND SAID THAT'S YOU.
  • 00:38:25.280 --> 00:38:28.250
  • I'M TALKING TO YOU MANDISA.
  • 00:38:28.270 --> 00:38:30.120
  • SO IT JUST TAKES THOSE LITTLE FLASHES.
  • 00:38:30.140 --> 00:38:33.180
  • AND SO I WANT TO ENCOURAGE YOU IF YOU FEEL COMPLETELY
  • 00:38:33.200 --> 00:38:36.240
  • IN THE DARK, ASK GOD TO GIVE YOU A FLASH OF LIGHT.
  • 00:38:36.260 --> 00:38:40.000
  • THAT IS A PRAYER THAT HE WOULD LOVE TO ANSWER, AND HE
  • 00:38:40.020 --> 00:38:42.190
  • CAN DO IT IN A LOT OF WAYS, THROUGH MUSIC.
  • 00:38:42.210 --> 00:38:44.230
  • EVERY TIME YOU OPEN UP YOUR BIBLE, THERE'S A FLASH OF
  • 00:38:44.250 --> 00:38:46.230
  • LIGHT, A BIG OLD FLASH OF LIGHT.
  • 00:38:46.250 --> 00:38:48.150
  • IT CAN TAKE A COMMENT FROM SOMEBODY ELSE.
  • 00:38:48.170 --> 00:38:51.000
  • WHATEVER IT IS, ASK GOD TO GIVE YOU A FLASH OF LIGHT.
  • 00:38:51.020 --> 00:38:54.190
  • THE SECOND THING IS THE FAMILY OF GOD.
  • 00:38:54.210 --> 00:38:56.280
  • THANK YOU, JESUS, THAT I HAVE GOT SOME PEOPLE WHO
  • 00:38:57.000 --> 00:38:59.250
  • LOVED ME AND FOUGHT FOR ME BECAUSE I SHUT EVERYBODY
  • 00:38:59.270 --> 00:39:03.210
  • OUT, AND THERE WAS ONE POINT WHEN THE ONE TIME I LEFT MY
  • 00:39:03.230 --> 00:39:07.190
  • HOUSE, I WENT TO THE MOVIES.
  • 00:39:07.210 --> 00:39:09.080
  • I SAW THE MOVIE "WAR ROOM" ONLY BECAUSE MY SONG "PRESS
  • 00:39:09.100 --> 00:39:12.190
  • ON" WAS IN IT.
  • 00:39:12.210 --> 00:39:14.070
  • THAT'S THE ONLY REASON I SAW IT.
  • 00:39:14.090 --> 00:39:15.210
  • IT WAS A CHRISTIAN MOVIE, AND IN I'M BEING HONEST, IT
  • 00:39:15.230 --> 00:39:17.180
  • MADE ME KIND OF UPSET BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO DO
  • 00:39:17.200 --> 00:39:20.150
  • ANY SPOILERS ARE ANYTHING, BUT IT ENDS VERY NICELY,
  • 00:39:20.170 --> 00:39:23.240
  • LIKE THEY ALL LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER, AND I THOUGHT AT
  • 00:39:23.260 --> 00:39:25.210
  • THE END OF THAT MOVIE, THAT'S NOT REAL LIFE.
  • 00:39:25.230 --> 00:39:27.230
  • THAT'S NOT WHAT HAPPENED WITH ME.
  • 00:39:27.250 --> 00:39:29.050
  • I PRAYED, AND I BEGGED, AND THAT WAS NOT MY STORY.
  • 00:39:29.070 --> 00:39:32.020
  • - IT WAS LIKE YOUR STORY, THOUGH, BUT WITH
  • 00:39:32.040 --> 00:39:33.260
  • A HAPPY ENDING.
  • 00:39:33.280 --> 00:39:35.140
  • - YEAH, IT WAS WITH A HAPPY ENDING IN THE MOVIE.
  • 00:39:35.160 --> 00:39:37.100
  • - THAT MUST BE FRUSTRATING FOR YOU.
  • 00:39:37.120 --> 00:39:39.120
  • - VERY. I WALKED OUT OF THE THEATER, AND I WAS REALLY MAD.
  • 00:39:39.140 --> 00:39:41.170
  • AND STILL, IT WAS A FLASH OF LIGHT, BUT WHEN I LEFT THE
  • 00:39:41.190 --> 00:39:44.210
  • THEATER -- I ACTUALLY SAW TWO MOVIES.
  • 00:39:44.230 --> 00:39:47.130
  • I DON'T EVEN REMEMBER WHAT THE OTHER ONE WAS.
  • 00:39:47.150 --> 00:39:49.000
  • SO I WAS THERE FOR FOUR HOURS.
  • 00:39:49.020 --> 00:39:50.120
  • WHEN I CAME OUT, MY CAR HAD A BUNCH OF STICKY NOTES
  • 00:39:50.140 --> 00:39:52.120
  • ALL OVER IT, AND THEY SAID THINGS LIKE "WE LOVE YOU"
  • 00:39:52.140 --> 00:39:54.270
  • AND "WE MISS YOU" AND "COME BACK TO US." AND I DIDN'T
  • 00:39:54.290 --> 00:39:58.090
  • KNOW WHAT THAT WAS ABOUT UNTIL I GOT CLOSER TO MY
  • 00:39:58.110 --> 00:40:00.160
  • CAR, AND I SAW ABOUT EIGHT OF MY FRIENDS
  • 00:40:00.180 --> 00:40:02.090
  • WHO WERE THERE.
  • 00:40:02.110 --> 00:40:04.150
  • THEY HAD BEEN CAMPING OUT AT THAT MOVIE THEATER FOR FOUR
  • 00:40:04.170 --> 00:40:07.010
  • HOURS WAITING FOR ME, AND THEY HAD AN INTERVENTION.
  • 00:40:07.030 --> 00:40:09.230
  • [APPLAUSE]
  • 00:40:09.250 --> 00:40:11.240
  • - WOW.
  • 00:40:11.260 --> 00:40:13.180
  • - THEY EVENTUALLY SAID THIS: WE LOVE YOU JUST AS YOU
  • 00:40:13.200 --> 00:40:16.170
  • ARE, BUT WE LOVE YOU TOO MUCH TO LEAVE YOU THERE.
  • 00:40:16.190 --> 00:40:19.020
  • THAT WAS AT THE THREE YEAR PERIOD.
  • 00:40:19.040 --> 00:40:20.150
  • - SO GOOD.
  • 00:40:20.170 --> 00:40:21.270
  • - ONE OF THEM IS SITTING RIGHT OVER THERE.
  • 00:40:21.290 --> 00:40:23.130
  • YOU'RE GOING TO SEE HIM PLAYING GUITAR FOR ME
  • 00:40:23.150 --> 00:40:24.180
  • IN A LITTLE BIT.
  • 00:40:24.200 --> 00:40:25.290
  • BUT THANK YOU, JESUS, FOR THE FAMILY OF GOD WHO FIGHTS
  • 00:40:26.010 --> 00:40:28.010
  • FOR YOU BECAUSE YOU ARE TALKING ABOUT, YOU KNOW,
  • 00:40:28.030 --> 00:40:30.130
  • AS THEY WERE LIFTING THE ARMS OF JOSHUA.
  • 00:40:30.150 --> 00:40:32.000
  • THOSE ARE MY FRIENDS.
  • 00:40:32.020 --> 00:40:33.120
  • THEY FOUGHT FOR ME, AND THEY ESSENTIALLY SAID,
  • 00:40:33.140 --> 00:40:35.170
  • WE'RE NOT GOING TO LET YOU DO THIS ANY LONGER.
  • 00:40:35.190 --> 00:40:37.180
  • SO THEY FORCED ME TO GET COUNSELING, WHICH HELPED ME
  • 00:40:37.200 --> 00:40:39.200
  • TO FINALLY DEAL WITH MY GRIEF.
  • 00:40:39.220 --> 00:40:41.110
  • AND SO AGAIN, IF YOU'RE IN THAT DARK PLACE, YOU NEED TO
  • 00:40:41.130 --> 00:40:44.070
  • HAVE THE FAMILY OF GOD. I'M SUPER SINGLE.
  • 00:40:44.090 --> 00:40:46.070
  • I'M AN INTROVERT.
  • 00:40:46.090 --> 00:40:47.190
  • I LIKE MY ALONE TIME, BUT GOD HAS SHOWN ME HE'S
  • 00:40:47.210 --> 00:40:50.050
  • CALLED US TO COMMUNITY FOR A REASON.
  • 00:40:50.070 --> 00:40:51.250
  • SO ASK GOD, IF YOU DO NOT HAVE PEOPLE LIKE THAT IN
  • 00:40:51.270 --> 00:40:54.240
  • YOUR LIFE, YOU ASK GOD TO SEND YOU SOME PEOPLE WHO ARE
  • 00:40:54.260 --> 00:40:57.130
  • JESUS-LOVING AND WILL SHINE THE LIGHT OF JESUS
  • 00:40:57.150 --> 00:40:59.250
  • INTO THAT DARK PLACE.
  • 00:40:59.270 --> 00:41:01.150
  • THE THIRD THING IS --
  • 00:41:01.170 --> 00:41:03.040
  • - GOOD.
  • 00:41:03.060 --> 00:41:04.170
  • [APPLAUSE]
  • 00:41:04.190 --> 00:41:06.100
  • - SO FLASHES OF LIGHT, FAMILY OF GOD, THE THIRD
  • 00:41:06.120 --> 00:41:08.090
  • THING IS FOCUS FORWARD.
  • 00:41:08.110 --> 00:41:11.020
  • AS LONG AS I STAYED STUCK IN ALL OF MY MISTAKES AND ALL
  • 00:41:11.040 --> 00:41:14.020
  • OF MY REGRETS, I WAS GOING TO STAY STUCK IN THAT PLACE.
  • 00:41:14.040 --> 00:41:16.080
  • AND SO WHAT I NEEDED TO DO WAS TO ASK FOR FORGIVENESS
  • 00:41:16.100 --> 00:41:20.050
  • AND THEN PUT MY FOCUS DIRECTLY AHEAD AND
  • 00:41:20.070 --> 00:41:21.290
  • JUST ONE STEP AT A TIME.
  • 00:41:22.010 --> 00:41:24.130
  • I GAINED 200 POUNDS, AND SO I THOUGHT, AM I REALLY GOING
  • 00:41:24.150 --> 00:41:27.180
  • TO GO THROUGH THIS AGAIN?
  • 00:41:27.200 --> 00:41:29.040
  • BUT GOD SHOWED ME, DON'T WORRY ABOUT HOW
  • 00:41:29.060 --> 00:41:30.180
  • FAR YOU HAVE TO GO.
  • 00:41:30.200 --> 00:41:32.020
  • YOU JUST TAKE THAT NEXT STEP.
  • 00:41:32.040 --> 00:41:33.090
  • WHAT CHOICE CAN YOU MAKE TODAY?
  • 00:41:33.110 --> 00:41:34.230
  • CAN YOU CHOOSE NOT TO EAT A BOX OF KRISPY KREME TODAY?
  • 00:41:34.250 --> 00:41:37.040
  • CAN YOU CHOOSE TO GET ON YOUR TREADMILL FOR FIVE
  • 00:41:37.060 --> 00:41:39.230
  • MINUTES?
  • 00:41:39.250 --> 00:41:41.140
  • I COULDN'T EVEN DO MORE THAN FIVE MINUTES,
  • 00:41:41.160 --> 00:41:43.120
  • BUT I MADE THAT STEP.
  • 00:41:43.140 --> 00:41:44.230
  • AND THEN AFTER I DID THAT FIVE MINUTES, I THINK
  • 00:41:44.250 --> 00:41:46.100
  • I CAN MAYBE HANDLE 8.
  • 00:41:46.120 --> 00:41:48.010
  • IT'S JUST -- YOU TAKE THAT VERY NEXT STEP.
  • 00:41:48.030 --> 00:41:50.090
  • FOR ME, FOOD WAS OVERWHELMING, AND SO I
  • 00:41:50.110 --> 00:41:53.050
  • REALLY NEEDED HELP IN ORDER TO THINK OF HOW I
  • 00:41:53.070 --> 00:41:55.140
  • COULD SEE MY WAY OUT.
  • 00:41:55.160 --> 00:41:57.000
  • IT MAY NOT BE FOOD FOR YOU, BUT WHATEVER IT IS, WHAT IS ONE
  • 00:41:57.020 --> 00:41:58.290
  • THING THAT YOU CAN DO TODAY THAT IS GOING
  • 00:41:59.010 --> 00:42:01.130
  • TAKE YOU ONE STEP?
  • 00:42:01.150 --> 00:42:04.220
  • INSTEAD OF FOCUSING ON THE MISTAKES, FOCUS FORWARD AND
  • 00:42:04.240 --> 00:42:06.170
  • JUST TAKE WITH JESUS.
  • 00:42:06.190 --> 00:42:08.080
  • - THAT'S RIGHT. IT IS SO GOOD.
  • 00:42:08.100 --> 00:42:10.160
  • SO MAYBE YOU'RE WATCHING TODAY, AND LET THIS JUST BE
  • 00:42:10.180 --> 00:42:13.060
  • THE FLASH OF LIGHT FOR YOU.
  • 00:42:13.080 --> 00:42:14.260
  • I'M TALKING TO YOU.
  • 00:42:14.280 --> 00:42:16.180
  • SO YOU'RE WATCHING TONIGHT, AND YOU'RE STUCK WITH
  • 00:42:16.200 --> 00:42:19.040
  • SOMETHING, AND YOU FEEL SHAME ABOUT IT.
  • 00:42:19.060 --> 00:42:21.140
  • YOU FEEL ANGRY.
  • 00:42:21.160 --> 00:42:23.070
  • MAYBE YOU FEEL ABANDONED FOR YOU.
  • 00:42:23.090 --> 00:42:25.200
  • THIS MESSAGE IS FOR YOU, THAT GOD HAS A
  • 00:42:25.220 --> 00:42:27.200
  • TREMENDOUS FUTURE FOR YOU.
  • 00:42:27.220 --> 00:42:29.140
  • DON'T THROW IT AWAY. YOU CAN GET OUT OF THIS RUT.
  • 00:42:29.160 --> 00:42:32.150
  • YOU AND GOD ARE GOING TO GET OUT OF THIS TOGETHER.
  • 00:42:32.170 --> 00:42:35.020
  • YOU JUST ARE SO, SO CLOSE.
  • 00:42:35.040 --> 00:42:36.250
  • WHAT A GOOD WORD.
  • 00:42:36.270 --> 00:42:38.180
  • AND THE FAMILY OF GOD IS SUCH AN IMPORTANT PIECE,
  • 00:42:38.200 --> 00:42:40.080
  • TOO, I THINK BECAUSE REALLY THE GREATEST HUMAN NEED IS
  • 00:42:40.100 --> 00:42:42.210
  • SO BOND DEEPLY WITH OTHERS.
  • 00:42:42.230 --> 00:42:44.240
  • AND SO AT THE ROOT OF ADDICTION, OF DEPRESSION,
  • 00:42:44.260 --> 00:42:48.180
  • AND MANY OF THE OTHER THINGS THAT MAKE US FEEL STUCK IN
  • 00:42:48.200 --> 00:42:50.290
  • LIFE IS OUR INABILITY TO FEEL DEEPLY
  • 00:42:51.010 --> 00:42:54.090
  • CONNECTED WITH OTHERS.
  • 00:42:54.110 --> 00:42:56.000
  • SO LIKE, SOMETIMES PEOPLE CAN FEEL LIKE THEY HAVE LOTS
  • 00:42:56.020 --> 00:42:59.220
  • OF FRIENDS, IN FACT, BUT STILL FEEL LONELY.
  • 00:42:59.240 --> 00:43:01.250
  • - YEAH.
  • 00:43:01.270 --> 00:43:03.130
  • - WHY IS THAT? WELL, BECAUSE THERE'S THIS CERTAIN ASPECT
  • 00:43:03.150 --> 00:43:06.210
  • OF THEIR LIFE, WE TALKED ABOUT IT WITH SHAME, THAT
  • 00:43:06.230 --> 00:43:09.050
  • IS KEEPING THEM FROM SAYING, OKAY, HERE'S 9O% OF ME, BUT THIS
  • 00:43:09.070 --> 00:43:11.130
  • OTHER PART I DON'T WANT YOU OR ANYBODY ELSE TO SEE. WHY?
  • 00:43:11.150 --> 00:43:16.210
  • BECAUSE IF YOU SAW IT, YOU WOULD REJECT ME.
  • 00:43:16.230 --> 00:43:19.100
  • THAT'S WHAT WE THINK, BUT THAT'S THE LIE BECAUSE ALL
  • 00:43:19.120 --> 00:43:21.180
  • OF US HAVE THAT 10%, THAT 5%, THAT 30%, WHATEVER THAT
  • 00:43:21.200 --> 00:43:25.160
  • IS WE KEEP HIDDEN.
  • 00:43:25.180 --> 00:43:27.120
  • BUT WHAT WE REALIZE IS THAT WHEN WE REVEAL TO OTHERS, I
  • 00:43:27.140 --> 00:43:30.290
  • FELT ANGRY ABOUT THAT, OR I FEEL DOUBT ABOUT THIS, OR I
  • 00:43:31.010 --> 00:43:34.250
  • FEEL FRUSTRATED THAT I'M NOT WHERE I WANT TO BE IN LIFE,
  • 00:43:34.270 --> 00:43:37.260
  • OR I WANT TO HAVE KIDS, OR I DIDN'T WANT TO LOSE MY JOB.
  • 00:43:37.280 --> 00:43:42.130
  • BUT BOTTLING IT UP AND NOT BEING A BURDEN TO OTHERS, WE
  • 00:43:42.150 --> 00:43:46.090
  • END UP BOXING OURSELVES OFF FROM AND BEING LONELY.
  • 00:43:46.110 --> 00:43:49.140
  • - AND THAT'S A LIE FROM THE PIT.
  • 00:43:49.160 --> 00:43:51.050
  • - THAT'S RIGHT.
  • 00:43:51.070 --> 00:43:52.280
  • - WE THINK I DON'T WANT TO BE A BURDEN ON SOMEBODY
  • 00:43:53.000 --> 00:43:55.010
  • ELSE, BUT MAN, IF SOMEBODY WERE TO COME TO YOU AND ASK
  • 00:43:55.030 --> 00:43:58.120
  • YOU FOR HELP WITH SOMETHING LIKE THAT, WOULD YOU FEEL
  • 00:43:58.140 --> 00:44:00.170
  • LIKE THEY'RE A BURDEN?
  • 00:44:00.190 --> 00:44:01.280
  • I THINK MOST OF US WOULD NOT FEEL THAT WAY, AND I JUST
  • 00:44:02.000 --> 00:44:03.180
  • LOVE THE FAMILY OF GOD.
  • 00:44:03.200 --> 00:44:06.170
  • I LOVE THE BODY OF CHRIST BECAUSE IT'S LIKE I CAN MEET
  • 00:44:06.190 --> 00:44:09.070
  • SOMEBODY INSTANTLY, AND I CAN FEEL LIKE
  • 00:44:09.090 --> 00:44:11.230
  • THEY'RE MY SISTER.
  • 00:44:11.250 --> 00:44:13.230
  • - I KNOW THAT FEELING, ABSOLUTELY.
  • 00:44:13.250 --> 00:44:15.270
  • - JESSICA, SHE'S THE MAKE UP GIRL.
  • 00:44:15.290 --> 00:44:17.110
  • WE MET FOR THE FIRST TIME TODAY.
  • 00:44:17.130 --> 00:44:18.270
  • I FEEL LIKE SHE'S MY SISTER.
  • 00:44:18.290 --> 00:44:20.180
  • WE'VE HAD THE GREATEST CONVERSATION, AND MY
  • 00:44:20.200 --> 00:44:22.280
  • BACKGROUND SINGER, JANINE, WE'RE JUST IN
  • 00:44:23.000 --> 00:44:24.140
  • THE MAKE UP ROOM.
  • 00:44:24.160 --> 00:44:25.290
  • WE WENT DEEP IMMEDIATELY, AND I LOVE THAT.
  • 00:44:26.010 --> 00:44:28.010
  • MY FRIEND JANINE, WE TALK ABOUT SHE IS SOMEBODY THAT I
  • 00:44:28.030 --> 00:44:31.090
  • CAN LET INTO THOSE DARK PLACES, AND I CAN'T
  • 00:44:31.110 --> 00:44:33.050
  • LET EVERYBODY IN.
  • 00:44:33.070 --> 00:44:35.080
  • I'M PROBABLY NOT GOING TELL YOU EVERYTHING RIGHT NOW.
  • 00:44:35.100 --> 00:44:36.180
  • - THAT'S RIGHT.
  • 00:44:36.200 --> 00:44:38.120
  • - BUT I'VE GOT THAT SELECT GROUP OF PEOPLE THAT I CAN
  • 00:44:38.140 --> 00:44:41.290
  • LET SEE EVERYTHING, AND THEY PRAY FOR ME, AND THEY SPEAK
  • 00:44:42.010 --> 00:44:45.190
  • TRUTH, AND WHAT I LEARNED IS BECAUSE I AM AN INTROVERT,
  • 00:44:45.210 --> 00:44:49.130
  • BECAUSE I AM SUPER, DUPER SINGLE -- AND IF YOU'RE A
  • 00:44:49.150 --> 00:44:52.120
  • BIG BLACK BORN-AGAIN BELIEVER WITH A BALD HEAD
  • 00:44:52.140 --> 00:44:54.020
  • AND A GOATEE, CALL ME.
  • 00:44:54.040 --> 00:44:56.180
  • I JUST WANTED TO PUT THAT IN THERE.
  • 00:44:56.200 --> 00:44:58.060
  • [LAUGHTER]
  • 00:44:58.080 --> 00:45:01.000
  • HERE'S THE THING.
  • 00:45:01.020 --> 00:45:02.140
  • I DO BELIEVE I WILL GET MARRIED ONE DAY.
  • 00:45:02.160 --> 00:45:03.270
  • - THAT WAS AWESOME. OH, MY GOSH.
  • 00:45:03.290 --> 00:45:06.010
  • - BUT IN THE MEANTIME, YOU KNOW, GOD IS DEALING WITH MY
  • 00:45:06.030 --> 00:45:08.140
  • STUFF, AND THANK YOU, LORD, THAT I DIDN'T HAVE A HUSBAND
  • 00:45:08.160 --> 00:45:10.130
  • THAT I HAD TO TAKE CARE OF DURING THAT SEASON.
  • 00:45:10.150 --> 00:45:12.250
  • BUT ANYWAY, I JUST THINK ABOUT THE FACT THAT I HAVE
  • 00:45:12.270 --> 00:45:16.210
  • THESE PEOPLE AROUND ME THAT WHEN I'M ISOLATING,
  • 00:45:16.230 --> 00:45:19.240
  • AND I THINK IT IS OKAY --
  • 00:45:19.260 --> 00:45:21.150
  • - I THOUGHT OF LUKE CAGE, BY THE WAY, WHEN YOU SAID
  • 00:45:21.170 --> 00:45:23.160
  • THAT. THAT GUY? I'M SORRY. I ACKNOWLEDGE IT.
  • 00:45:23.180 --> 00:45:25.240
  • - THE MOST IMPORTANT PART IS THE BORN-AGAIN BELIEVER.
  • 00:45:25.260 --> 00:45:27.210
  • I DON'T KNOW IF HE KNOWS JESUS THAT WELL.
  • 00:45:27.230 --> 00:45:29.190
  • ANYWAY, I WANT TO SAY THIS: IF YOU ARE SOMEBODY WHO,
  • 00:45:29.210 --> 00:45:33.100
  • LIKE ME, YOU NEED SOME ALONE TIME TO RE ENERGIZE, AND
  • 00:45:33.120 --> 00:45:36.190
  • MAYBE YOU'RE SUPER DUPER SINGLE LIKE ME,
  • 00:45:36.210 --> 00:45:39.190
  • I THINK THAT IT IS OKAY.
  • 00:45:39.210 --> 00:45:41.200
  • I FEEL LIKE THAT IS HOW JESUS WAS WIRED, TOO.
  • 00:45:41.220 --> 00:45:43.110
  • HE WOULD RETREAT AND SPEND SOME TIME ALONE,
  • 00:45:43.130 --> 00:45:44.240
  • BUT HE DIDN'T STAY THERE.
  • 00:45:44.260 --> 00:45:46.130
  • SO I THINK THERE'S A DIFFERENCE IN HAVING SOME
  • 00:45:46.150 --> 00:45:48.210
  • ALONE TIME AND ISOLATING.
  • 00:45:48.230 --> 00:45:50.170
  • I WAS ISOLATING, AND THAT IS VERY DIFFERENT BECAUSE HAD
  • 00:45:50.190 --> 00:45:53.100
  • YOU ARE ISOLATING, THAT IS BREEDING GROUND FOR THE
  • 00:45:53.120 --> 00:45:55.080
  • ENEMY, AND THAT'S AWAY STARTS WHISPERING THOSE
  • 00:45:55.100 --> 00:45:57.020
  • LIES, AND YOU START TO BELIEVE THEM.
  • 00:45:57.040 --> 00:45:59.100
  • SO HAVING SOMEBODY LIKE MY FRIEND JANINE THAT WILL
  • 00:45:59.120 --> 00:46:01.270
  • SPEAK TRUTH WHEN I AM STARTING TO LISTEN TO THOSE
  • 00:46:01.290 --> 00:46:04.030
  • LIES, THAT'S WHY I CAN TELL HER THE DARK THINGS THAT I
  • 00:46:04.050 --> 00:46:06.210
  • WOULDN'T WANT TO TELL EVERYBODY.
  • 00:46:06.230 --> 00:46:08.080
  • IT'S BECAUSE I KNOW THAT SHE'S GOING TO SHINE HER
  • 00:46:08.100 --> 00:46:10.140
  • LIGHT INTO THAT DARK PLACE, AND THAT'S HOW WE ARE TO
  • 00:46:10.160 --> 00:46:12.290
  • WALK IN COMMUNITY.
  • 00:46:13.010 --> 00:46:14.110
  • WE NEED TO HAVE SOME PEOPLE THAT KNOW
  • 00:46:14.130 --> 00:46:15.260
  • ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING.
  • 00:46:15.280 --> 00:46:17.110
  • - AND JUST TO BE ON THE PASTORAL SIDE OF THAT, SOME
  • 00:46:17.130 --> 00:46:19.170
  • PEOPLE ARE ASKING THE QUESTION, WHAT DO I DO FOR
  • 00:46:19.190 --> 00:46:21.230
  • MY SISTER OR MY FRIEND, MY BROTHER, MY MOM, MY DAD,
  • 00:46:21.250 --> 00:46:24.250
  • WHO'S STRUGGLING WITH THIS?
  • 00:46:24.270 --> 00:46:26.260
  • AND YOU HAD SAID SOMETHING LIKE THEY PRAY FOR ME, AND
  • 00:46:26.280 --> 00:46:29.030
  • THEY'D SPEAK TRUTH INTO MY LIFE, AND THOSE ARE
  • 00:46:29.050 --> 00:46:31.050
  • IMPORTANT THINGS, BUT THE MOST IMPORTANT THING
  • 00:46:31.070 --> 00:46:33.110
  • I THINK IS EMPATHY.
  • 00:46:33.130 --> 00:46:35.270
  • AND SOMETIMES, WE FORGET THAT 9O% IS JUST SHOWING UP.
  • 00:46:35.290 --> 00:46:40.200
  • SOMETIMES PEOPLE THAT ARE GOING THROUGH THIS JUST NEED
  • 00:46:40.220 --> 00:46:42.120
  • A QUIET, LOVING PRESENCE.
  • 00:46:42.140 --> 00:46:43.290
  • I DON'T NEED SOMEONE TO GIVE ME THE ANSWERS.
  • 00:46:44.010 --> 00:46:46.200
  • I DON'T NEED SOMEONE TO TELL ME, IT'S ALL GOING
  • 00:46:46.220 --> 00:46:48.160
  • TO BE ALL RIGHT.
  • 00:46:48.180 --> 00:46:50.050
  • I DON'T NEED SOMEONE TO FIX ME.
  • 00:46:50.070 --> 00:46:51.240
  • SOMETIMES, I JUST NEED SOMEONE TO GIVE ME A
  • 00:46:51.260 --> 00:46:53.080
  • HUG AND JUST LISTEN.
  • 00:46:53.100 --> 00:46:54.270
  • THEY ALMOST DON'T HAVE TO EVEN SAY ANYTHING.
  • 00:46:54.290 --> 00:46:56.090
  • - ABSOLUTELY.
  • 00:46:56.110 --> 00:46:58.010
  • - I THINK THERE'S SOMETHING REALLY VALUABLE ABOUT WHEN
  • 00:46:58.030 --> 00:46:59.200
  • I'M VULNERABLE TO YOU AS A FRIEND, THAT YOU, AS A
  • 00:46:59.220 --> 00:47:01.210
  • FRIEND, COME BACK TO ME AND SAY, OF COURSE YOU FEEL WAY.
  • 00:47:01.230 --> 00:47:03.290
  • YOU MUST BE HEARTBROKEN.
  • 00:47:04.010 --> 00:47:07.020
  • YOU MUST BE GRIEVING, AND I'M JUST GOING SIT WITH
  • 00:47:07.040 --> 00:47:10.070
  • YOU AND BE WITH YOU IN THIS DARK PLACE.
  • 00:47:10.090 --> 00:47:12.160
  • I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT YOU'RE NOT SUFFERING ALONE.
  • 00:47:12.180 --> 00:47:14.120
  • - YEAH, I LOVE THAT.
  • 00:47:14.140 --> 00:47:16.060
  • THE VERY FIRST TRACK ON MY ALBUM IS CALLED
  • 00:47:16.080 --> 00:47:17.250
  • "VOICE MAIL INTRO".
  • 00:47:17.270 --> 00:47:19.150
  • IT'S JUST A SNAP SHOT OF A HOLE BUNCH OF VOICE MAILS
  • 00:47:19.170 --> 00:47:21.200
  • THAT I RECEIVED FROM MY LOVED ONES.
  • 00:47:21.220 --> 00:47:23.120
  • - WOW, ARE THEY REAL RECORDINGS?
  • 00:47:23.140 --> 00:47:26.130
  • - WELL, SO I DELETED ALL THE ONES THAT HAPPENED IN
  • 00:47:26.150 --> 00:47:29.120
  • REAL LIFE BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT TO HEAR IT AT THE TIME.
  • 00:47:29.140 --> 00:47:32.060
  • AND SO I JUST ASKED THEM WOULD YOU JUST RE RECORD
  • 00:47:32.080 --> 00:47:34.040
  • EXACTLY WHAT YOU SAID TO ME AT THAT TIME.
  • 00:47:34.060 --> 00:47:35.260
  • - THAT'S AWESOME, WOW!
  • 00:47:35.280 --> 00:47:36.280
  • - THAT'S WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT.
  • 00:47:37.000 --> 00:47:38.240
  • I DIDN'T ANSWER ANY OF THOSE PHONE CALLS, SO I LOVE
  • 00:47:38.260 --> 00:47:41.040
  • THAT YOU SAID, WELL, WHAT IF YOU HAVE A LOVED ONE
  • 00:47:41.060 --> 00:47:43.010
  • ALTHOUGH IS IN THAT PLACE?
  • 00:47:43.030 --> 00:47:44.170
  • YOU JUST KEEP FIGHTING FOR THEM.
  • 00:47:44.190 --> 00:47:46.100
  • MY FRIENDS, MY FAMILY, THEY CALLED ME AND CALLED ME AND
  • 00:47:46.120 --> 00:47:49.060
  • CALLED ME, AND THEY DIDN'T GET AN ANSWER, BUT THEY KEPT
  • 00:47:49.080 --> 00:47:51.290
  • CALLING, AND THEY SHOWED UP.
  • 00:47:52.010 --> 00:47:55.010
  • THEY CAME TO MY HOUSE, AND THEY WERE BANGING ON MY
  • 00:47:55.030 --> 00:47:56.250
  • DOOR, AND THEY SENT ME TEXT MESSAGES.
  • 00:47:56.270 --> 00:47:59.110
  • AND I LOOK AT THAT, AND I WANT PEOPLE TO KNOW I DIDN'T
  • 00:47:59.130 --> 00:48:01.270
  • ANSWER ANY OF THAT, BUT I HEARD IT.
  • 00:48:01.290 --> 00:48:04.120
  • AND SO EVEN IF YOU ARE FIGHTING FOR YOUR LOVED ONE,
  • 00:48:04.140 --> 00:48:08.100
  • AND IT'S GOING UNANSWERED, YOU DO WHAT ARE FEELING
  • 00:48:08.120 --> 00:48:10.180
  • CALLED TO DO.
  • 00:48:10.200 --> 00:48:12.090
  • YOU LISTEN TO WHAT THE HOLY SPIRIT IS SAYING.
  • 00:48:12.110 --> 00:48:14.080
  • THERE'S A SONG CALLED "THE ONE HE SPEAKS THROUGH", AND
  • 00:48:14.100 --> 00:48:17.010
  • ACTUALLY, THE INTRO RIGHT BEFORE IT IS CALLED
  • 00:48:17.030 --> 00:48:20.020
  • MOTHDISA, AND THAT'S ACTUALLY MY FRIEND JANINE
  • 00:48:20.040 --> 00:48:22.140
  • TELLING A STORY OF HOW AS SHE WAS PRAYING FOR ME,
  • 00:48:22.160 --> 00:48:25.110
  • SOMETHING HAPPENED, AND SHE REALLY FELT LIKE THE HOLY
  • 00:48:25.130 --> 00:48:27.150
  • SPIRIT SAID, "THIS IS AN EXAMPLE OF MANDISA.
  • 00:48:27.170 --> 00:48:30.220
  • AND SHE FOUGHT FOR ME.
  • 00:48:30.240 --> 00:48:33.120
  • WE ARE CALLED, AS A BODY OF CHRIST, TO FIGHT FOR THOSE
  • 00:48:33.140 --> 00:48:36.000
  • LOVED ONES, AND SOMETIMES THAT MEANS CALLING.
  • 00:48:36.020 --> 00:48:38.140
  • SOMETIMES, IT MEANS SHOWING UP ON THEIR DOORSTEP.
  • 00:48:38.160 --> 00:48:41.030
  • A LOT OF TIMES IT MEANS PRAYER.
  • 00:48:41.050 --> 00:48:43.030
  • DO NOT EVER SAY, ALL I CAN DO IS PRAY.
  • 00:48:43.050 --> 00:48:45.210
  • THE MOST THAT YOU CAN DO IS TO PRAY BECAUSE MAN, WHEN I
  • 00:48:45.230 --> 00:48:48.200
  • TELL YOU THE PRAYERS OF THE RIGHTEOUS AVAILETH MUCH,
  • 00:48:48.220 --> 00:48:51.210
  • THERE WERE SOME PEOPLE PRAYING FOR ME THAT I KNOW
  • 00:48:51.230 --> 00:48:54.090
  • THAT I'M STILL HERE TODAY BECAUSE OF THEM.
  • 00:48:54.110 --> 00:48:55.170
  • - THAT'S GREAT.
  • 00:48:55.190 --> 00:48:57.270
  • [APPLAUSE]
  • 00:48:57.290 --> 00:49:00.260
  • - THIS IS A LITTLE SIDE NOTE, BUT ONE OF THE
  • 00:49:00.280 --> 00:49:03.060
  • QUESTIONS I GET ASKED A LOT AS A PASTOR IS IT OKAY IF I
  • 00:49:03.080 --> 00:49:05.170
  • GET -- THEY DON'T EVEN ASK IT.
  • 00:49:05.190 --> 00:49:08.160
  • THEY TRY AND HIDE OR SOMETHING -- MEDICINE.
  • 00:49:08.180 --> 00:49:11.100
  • IN YOUR CASE, YOU DIDN'T NEED MEDICINE, WHEN YOU WERE
  • 00:49:11.120 --> 00:49:13.170
  • GOING THROUGH IT.
  • 00:49:13.190 --> 00:49:15.150
  • ONE OF THE THINGS I JUST WANTED TO TELL THOSE WHO ARE
  • 00:49:15.170 --> 00:49:17.100
  • WATCHING IS IT'S OKAY TO TAKE MEDICINE IF YOUR
  • 00:49:17.120 --> 00:49:19.220
  • BRAIN CHEMISTRY IS OFF.
  • 00:49:19.240 --> 00:49:21.110
  • SOMETIMES, IT OPENS THE DOOR FOR AN EMPATHETIC PERSON AND
  • 00:49:21.130 --> 00:49:24.000
  • FOR THE LORD TO COME IN, AND MOST OF THE TIME, YOU DON'T
  • 00:49:24.020 --> 00:49:27.030
  • HAVE TO BE ON THOSE THINGS THE REST OF YOUR LIFE.
  • 00:49:27.050 --> 00:49:29.080
  • SO I KNOW THERE'S A LOT OF SHAME ABOUT THAT, TOO, AND I
  • 00:49:29.100 --> 00:49:31.160
  • JUST FEEL LIKE IF YOU'RE WATCHING TONIGHT -- THERE WAS A
  • 00:49:31.180 --> 00:49:33.170
  • PASTOR WHO POSTED DURING A MENTAL HEALTH MONTH A
  • 00:49:33.190 --> 00:49:37.010
  • PICTURE HIS PRESCRIPTION THAT HE TOOK FOR
  • 00:49:37.030 --> 00:49:39.250
  • HIS OWN DEPRESSION.
  • 00:49:39.270 --> 00:49:41.160
  • AND IT WENT VIRAL BECAUSE THERE WERE SO MANY PEOPLE
  • 00:49:41.180 --> 00:49:44.230
  • WHO ARE CHRISTIANS WHO, THANK GOD FOR MEDICINE, THAT
  • 00:49:44.250 --> 00:49:47.170
  • THEY'RE ABLE TO USE IT.
  • 00:49:47.190 --> 00:49:49.040
  • THE BRAIN IS AN ORGAN JUST LIKE THE HEART AND THE
  • 00:49:49.060 --> 00:49:51.060
  • LUNGS, AND SOMETIMES IT NEEDS MEDICINE,
  • 00:49:51.080 --> 00:49:52.240
  • AND THAT'S OKAY.
  • 00:49:52.260 --> 00:49:54.110
  • - YEAH.
  • 00:49:54.130 --> 00:49:55.230
  • - AND THERE'S A LOT OF -- SO MUCH OF BEING STUCK IS US
  • 00:49:55.250 --> 00:49:59.020
  • JUST BOWLING OURSELVES, BEING OUR WORST ENEMY AND
  • 00:49:59.040 --> 00:50:02.190
  • THE SELF TALK LIKE, YOU'RE NOT WORTHY.
  • 00:50:02.210 --> 00:50:04.230
  • YOUR LIFE IS OVER. JUST GIVE UP. JUST QUIT.
  • 00:50:04.250 --> 00:50:07.090
  • WE WANT TO TEACH PEOPLE THAT THEY'RE BELOVED
  • 00:50:07.110 --> 00:50:09.110
  • SONS AND DAUGHTER.
  • 00:50:09.130 --> 00:50:11.170
  • - I LOVE THAT YOU SAID THAT BECAUSE THE SONG THAT I'M
  • 00:50:11.190 --> 00:50:13.190
  • GOING TO DO, IT'S THE FIRST SINGLE FROM THE ALBUM CALLED
  • 00:50:13.210 --> 00:50:15.200
  • "UNFINISHED" AND IT'S BASED ON THAT SCRIPTURE IN
  • 00:50:15.220 --> 00:50:18.270
  • PHILIPPIANS 1;6, THAT I'M CONFIDENT OF THIS, THAT GOD
  • 00:50:18.290 --> 00:50:22.260
  • WHO BEGAN A GOOD WORK IN ME WILL FINISH IT.
  • 00:50:22.280 --> 00:50:25.040
  • AND HERE'S WHAT I LOVE.
  • 00:50:25.060 --> 00:50:26.260
  • HE'LL FINISH IT ON THE DAY WHEN JESUS RETURNS.
  • 00:50:26.280 --> 00:50:28.270
  • SO THAT MEANS THAT I'M NOT GOING TO BE PERFECT UNTIL
  • 00:50:28.290 --> 00:50:32.030
  • THAT DAY, AND SO I CAN STOP BEATING MYSELF UP
  • 00:50:32.050 --> 00:50:34.000
  • WHEN I MAKE MISTAKES.
  • 00:50:34.020 --> 00:50:35.230
  • I CAN STOP KNIT PICKING EVERY LITTLE THING THAT I
  • 00:50:35.250 --> 00:50:37.210
  • DISLIKE ABOUT MYSELF, AND I CAN SIMPLY SAY,
  • 00:50:37.230 --> 00:50:40.010
  • YOU KNOW WHAT? I'M A WORK IN PROGRESS.
  • 00:50:40.030 --> 00:50:42.000
  • I'M A MASTERPIECE IN THE MAKING.
  • 00:50:42.020 --> 00:50:43.270
  • RIGHT NOW, I'M JUST UNFINISHED.
  • 00:50:43.290 --> 00:50:45.180
  • - YES, THAT'S GOOD.
  • 00:50:45.200 --> 00:50:47.150
  • [APPLAUSE]
  • 00:50:47.170 --> 00:50:49.250
  • AND IS THIS THE SONG YOU'RE GOING TO
  • 00:50:49.270 --> 00:50:51.200
  • SING NOW? GREAT. WELL, THIS IS SO TERRIFIC.
  • 00:50:51.220 --> 00:50:54.220
  • THIS INTERVIEW HAS BEEN SO GREAT, AND WE JUST SEE THAT
  • 00:50:54.240 --> 00:50:57.160
  • -- I SEE IT IN YOUR HEART AND YOUR EYES, THAT GOD IS
  • 00:50:57.180 --> 00:51:00.050
  • CONTINUING TO DO AMAZING THINGS THROUGH YOU.
  • 00:51:00.070 --> 00:51:02.250
  • YOU'RE BLESSING SO MANY LIVES, AND WE'RE GOING TO
  • 00:51:02.270 --> 00:51:05.090
  • TAKE A SHORT BREAK HERE, BUT WHEN WE COME BACK, DON'T
  • 00:51:05.110 --> 00:51:08.010
  • CHANGE THE CHANNEL, BECAUSE YOU'RE FINALLY GOING TO GET
  • 00:51:08.030 --> 00:51:10.070
  • TO HEAR MANDISA SING THIS SONG.
  • 00:51:10.090 --> 00:51:12.070
  • SHE'S GOING TO MINISTER AN AWESOME SONG TO US, AND YOU
  • 00:51:12.090 --> 00:51:14.090
  • DO NOT WANT TO MISS THIS.
  • 00:51:14.110 --> 00:51:16.120
  • - EVERYTHING STARTS WITH A THOUGHT.
  • 00:51:16.140 --> 00:51:18.050
  • YOUR ATTITUDES, WORDS, ACTIONS, EVEN THE
  • 00:51:18.070 --> 00:51:20.100
  • QUALITY OF YOUR LIFE.
  • 00:51:20.120 --> 00:51:22.000
  • YET, TOO MANY OF US CHOOSE THOUGHTS THAT
  • 00:51:22.020 --> 00:51:24.070
  • DRAIN OUR POWER.
  • 00:51:24.090 --> 00:51:25.270
  • JOYCE MEYER AND TBN WANT TO HELP YOU CHANGE THE
  • 00:51:25.290 --> 00:51:27.240
  • WAY YOU THINK.
  • 00:51:27.260 --> 00:51:29.190
  • - THE BEST THING TO DO WHEN YOU'RE THINKING SOMETHING
  • 00:51:29.210 --> 00:51:31.220
  • WRONG IS NOT TRY TO JUST EMPTY YOUR HEAD AND THINK
  • 00:51:31.240 --> 00:51:34.020
  • NOTHING, BUT TO REPLACE THAT WRONG THOUGHT WITH
  • 00:51:34.040 --> 00:51:36.070
  • A RIGHT THOUGHT.
  • 00:51:36.090 --> 00:51:38.040
  • - IN APPRECIATION FOR YOUR GIFT OF SUPPORT FOR THE
  • 00:51:38.060 --> 00:51:40.110
  • WORLDWIDE OUTREACHES OF TBN, WE WANT TO SEND YOU A COPY
  • 00:51:40.130 --> 00:51:43.070
  • OF ""POWER THOUGHTS", A REMARKABLE TEACHING ON AUDIO
  • 00:51:43.090 --> 00:51:46.030
  • CD HIGHLIGHTING 12 BIBLE-BASED "POWER
  • 00:51:46.050 --> 00:51:49.230
  • THOUGHTS"THAT WILL CHANGE YOUR LIFE.
  • 00:51:49.250 --> 00:51:51.180
  • WHEN YOU SHARE A GIFT OF $90 OR MORE, WE'LL ALSO SEND
  • 00:51:51.200 --> 00:51:55.030
  • YOU THE BRAND NEW "BATTLEFIELD OF THE MIND"
  • 00:51:55.050 --> 00:51:57.220
  • STUDY BIBLE WITH COMMENTARY FROM JOYCE MEYER THROUGHOUT.
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  • THIS FEATURE-RICH BIBLE WILL HELP YOU WIN THE BATTLE IN
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  • YOUR MIND, FREE YOU FROM FEAR, AND GIVE
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  • YOU MORE CONFIDENCE.
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  • FINALLY, IN GRATITUDE FOR YOUR GENEROUS GIFT OF $140
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  • OR MORE, WE'LL SEND YOU THE COMPLETE "POWER THOUGHTS"
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  • BUNDLE INCLUDING JOYCE'S BEST SELLING "POWER THOUGHTS"
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  • HARDBACK BOOK.
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  • TBN IS BROADCASTING, STREAMING AND PROCLAIMING
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  • JESUS AND HIS LOVE FOR MANKIND TO LOST
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  • AND HURTING PEOPLE.
  • 00:52:24.180 --> 00:52:26.120
  • OUR WORLD NEEDS JESUS LIKE NEVER BEFORE, AND YOUR
  • 00:52:26.140 --> 00:52:29.020
  • SUPPORT OF THIS EVER-EXPANDING GLOBAL MEDIA
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  • ENSURES THAT ONE-BY-ONE, EACH AND EVERY PERSON CAN BE
  • 00:52:32.010 --> 00:52:35.100
  • TOUCHED AND TRANSFORMED BY THE MESSAGE OF
  • 00:52:35.120 --> 00:52:37.120
  • HOPE AND GRACE.
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  • CALL OR GO ONLINE TO MAKE YOUR BEST GIFT.
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  • RENEW YOUR MIND AND SHINE THE LIGHT OF JESUS.
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  • [APPLAUSE]
  • 00:52:45.120 --> 00:52:53.120
  • NOT SCARED TO SAY IT...
  • 00:52:53.140 --> 00:52:55.080
  • I USED TO BE THE ONE...
  • 00:52:55.100 --> 00:52:57.160
  • PREACHING IT TO YOU...
  • 00:52:57.180 --> 00:53:00.100
  • THAT YOU COULD OVERCOME...
  • 00:53:00.120 --> 00:53:02.250
  • I STILL BELIEVE IT...
  • 00:53:02.270 --> 00:53:06.060
  • BUT IT AIN'T EASY...
  • 00:53:06.080 --> 00:53:08.090
  • 'CAUSE THAT WORLD I PAINTED...
  • 00:53:08.110 --> 00:53:10.190
  • WHERE THINGS JUST ALL WORK OUT...
  • 00:53:10.210 --> 00:53:13.070
  • IT STARTED CHANGING...
  • 00:53:13.090 --> 00:53:15.270
  • AND I STARTED HAVING DOUBTS...
  • 00:53:15.290 --> 00:53:18.220
  • AND IT GOT ME SO DOWN...
  • 00:53:18.240 --> 00:53:22.250
  • BUT I PICKED MYSELF BACK UP...
  • 00:53:22.270 --> 00:53:26.180
  • AND I STARTED TELLING ME...
  • 00:53:26.200 --> 00:53:28.130
  • NO, MY GOD'S NOT DONE...
  • 00:53:28.150 --> 00:53:31.080
  • MAKING ME A MASTERPIECE...
  • 00:53:31.100 --> 00:53:33.260
  • HE'S STILL WORKING ON ME...
  • 00:53:33.280 --> 00:53:37.170
  • HE STARTED SOMETHING GOOD, AND I'M GONNA BELIEVE IT...
  • 00:53:37.190 --> 00:53:42.110
  • HE STARTED SOMETHING GOOD, AND HE'S
  • 00:53:42.130 --> 00:53:44.230
  • GONNA COMPLETE IT...
  • 00:53:44.250 --> 00:53:47.160
  • SO I'LL CELEBRATE THE TRUTH...
  • 00:53:47.180 --> 00:53:49.290
  • HIS WORK IN ME AIN'T THROUGH...
  • 00:53:50.010 --> 00:53:52.170
  • I'M JUST UNFINISHED...
  • 00:53:52.190 --> 00:53:57.220
  • I'M JUST UNFINISHED...
  • 00:53:57.240 --> 00:54:02.290
  • SO I'LL CELEBRATE THE TRUTH...
  • 00:54:03.010 --> 00:54:05.110
  • HIS WORK IN ME AIN'T THROUGH...
  • 00:54:05.130 --> 00:54:07.260
  • I'M JUST UNFINISHED...
  • 00:54:07.280 --> 00:54:11.060
  • I KNOW HIS HISTORY...
  • 00:54:13.030 --> 00:54:15.090
  • AND THE KIND OF GOD HE IS...
  • 00:54:15.110 --> 00:54:17.270
  • HE MIGHT MAKE IT A MYSTERY...
  • 00:54:17.290 --> 00:54:20.230
  • BUT HE'S PROVING I CAN TRUST IN HIM...
  • 00:54:20.250 --> 00:54:23.000
  • AND YEAH, I BELIEVE IT...
  • 00:54:23.020 --> 00:54:27.120
  • SO I CAN PICK MYSELF BACK UP...
  • 00:54:27.140 --> 00:54:30.240
  • AND KEEP ON TELLING ME...
  • 00:54:30.260 --> 00:54:32.280
  • NO, MY GOD'S NOT DONE...
  • 00:54:33.000 --> 00:54:35.220
  • MAKING ME A MASTERPIECE...
  • 00:54:35.240 --> 00:54:37.290
  • NO, MY GOD'S NOT DONE...
  • 00:54:38.010 --> 00:54:41.280
  • HE STARTED SOMETHING GOOD, AND I'M GONNA BELIEVE IT...
  • 00:54:42.000 --> 00:54:46.230
  • HE STARTED SOMETHING GOOD, AND HE'S
  • 00:54:46.250 --> 00:54:49.070
  • GONNA COMPLETE IT...
  • 00:54:49.090 --> 00:54:52.020
  • SO I'LL CELEBRATE THE TRUTH...
  • 00:54:52.040 --> 00:54:54.120
  • HIS WORK IN ME AIN'T THROUGH...
  • 00:54:54.140 --> 00:54:57.040
  • I'M JUST UNFINISHED...
  • 00:54:57.060 --> 00:55:00.190
  • OOH...
  • 00:55:00.210 --> 00:55:02.090
  • I'M JUST UNFINISHED...
  • 00:55:02.110 --> 00:55:07.110
  • SO I'LL CELEBRATE THE TRUTH...
  • 00:55:07.130 --> 00:55:09.280
  • HIS WORK IN ME AIN'T THROUGH, NO...
  • 00:55:10.000 --> 00:55:14.060
  • STILL WORKING...
  • 00:55:14.080 --> 00:55:17.100
  • STILL, STILL WORKING ON ME...
  • 00:55:17.120 --> 00:55:19.200
  • HE'S STILL WORKING...
  • 00:55:19.220 --> 00:55:21.170
  • STILL, STILL WORKING ON ME...
  • 00:55:21.190 --> 00:55:25.040
  • OH...
  • 00:55:25.060 --> 00:55:28.280
  • HE STARTED SOMETHING GOOD, AND I'M GONNA BELIEVE IT...
  • 00:55:29.000 --> 00:55:33.140
  • HE STARTED SOMETHING GOOD, AND HE'S
  • 00:55:33.160 --> 00:55:36.140
  • GONNA COMPLETE IT...
  • 00:55:36.160 --> 00:55:38.240
  • SO I'LL CELEBRATE THE TRUTH...
  • 00:55:38.260 --> 00:55:41.050
  • HIS WORK IN ME AIN'T THROUGH...
  • 00:55:41.070 --> 00:55:43.160
  • I'M JUST UNFINISHED...
  • 00:55:43.180 --> 00:55:46.220
  • YEAH...
  • 00:55:46.240 --> 00:55:48.240
  • I'M JUST UNFINISHED...
  • 00:55:48.260 --> 00:55:53.090
  • I'M JUST UNFINISHED...
  • 00:55:53.110 --> 00:55:55.160
  • I'LL CELEBRATE THE TRUTH...
  • 00:55:55.180 --> 00:55:57.200
  • HIS WORK IN ME AIN'T THROUGH...
  • 00:55:57.220 --> 00:56:00.050
  • I'M JUST UNFINISHED...
  • 00:56:00.070 --> 00:56:02.240
  • STILL WORKING...
  • 00:56:02.260 --> 00:56:04.180
  • STILL, STILL WORKING ON ME...
  • 00:56:04.200 --> 00:56:06.160
  • HE'S STILL WORKING...
  • 00:56:06.180 --> 00:56:08.070
  • STILL, STILL WORKING ON ME...
  • 00:56:08.090 --> 00:56:11.210
  • OH, YEAH...
  • 00:56:11.230 --> 00:56:14.190
  • I'M JUST UNFINISHED...
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  • [APPLAUSE]
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  • - MANDISA, THAT WAS AWESOME.
  • 00:56:23.160 --> 00:56:27.130
  • [APPLAUSE]
  • 00:56:27.150 --> 00:56:31.240
  • AWESOME. THAT WAS SO GREAT.
  • 00:56:31.260 --> 00:56:34.240
  • [APPLAUSE]
  • 00:56:34.260 --> 00:56:38.070
  • WHAT A TESTIMONY OF GOD'S GOODNESS
  • 00:56:38.090 --> 00:56:40.260
  • AND FAITHFULNESS, WOW.
  • 00:56:40.280 --> 00:56:42.160
  • [APPLAUSE]
  • 00:56:42.180 --> 00:56:45.010
  • NOW, YOU WERE TALKING ABOUT ONE OF THOSE FRIENDS THAT
  • 00:56:45.030 --> 00:56:48.030
  • HELPED YOU GET OUT OF THAT DARK PLACE, THAT
  • 00:56:48.050 --> 00:56:49.170
  • REACHED OUT TO YOU.
  • 00:56:49.190 --> 00:56:51.050
  • THIS IS ONE OF THOSE GUYS, THIS GUY ON THE GUITAR.
  • 00:56:51.070 --> 00:56:52.180
  • - TWO OF THEM.
  • 00:56:52.200 --> 00:56:54.030
  • HE WAS AT THE MOVIE THEATER, AND SHE WAS THERE.
  • 00:56:54.050 --> 00:56:55.250
  • YOU'LL HEAR HER ON THE MOTHDISA INTERLUDE.
  • 00:56:55.270 --> 00:56:57.170
  • YEAH, THIS IS MY FAMILY.
  • 00:56:57.190 --> 00:56:59.120
  • THEY DON'T JUST SING AND PLAY WITH ME.
  • 00:56:59.140 --> 00:57:00.200
  • THEY'RE ACTUALLY MY FAMILY.
  • 00:57:00.220 --> 00:57:02.040
  • - THAT'S AWESOME.
  • 00:57:02.060 --> 00:57:03.120
  • HOW DOES IT FEEL TO BE OUT HERE?
  • 00:57:03.140 --> 00:57:06.080
  • [APPLAUSE]
  • 00:57:06.100 --> 00:57:08.140
  • WE JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW WHOEVER YOU ARE THAT MANDISA
  • 00:57:08.160 --> 00:57:11.000
  • AND I AND SO MANY PEOPLE HAVE BEEN THROUGH HARD
  • 00:57:11.020 --> 00:57:14.190
  • THINGS IN LIFE, AND WE WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT THE PAIN IN
  • 00:57:14.210 --> 00:57:17.160
  • YOUR LIFE, YOU'RE GOING TO GET THROUGH IT, AND IT WILL
  • 00:57:17.180 --> 00:57:19.220
  • LEAD TO YOUR PURPOSE.
  • 00:57:19.240 --> 00:57:21.130
  • SO I JUST WANT TO PROCLAIM OVER YOU, IN JESUS' NAME,
  • 00:57:21.150 --> 00:57:23.180
  • EVERY CHAIN IS BROKEN.
  • 00:57:23.200 --> 00:57:25.280
  • I WANT TO PROCLAIM LIFE OVER YOU.
  • 00:57:26.000 --> 00:57:28.250
  • LORD, OPEN UP HEAVEN.
  • 00:57:28.270 --> 00:57:30.240
  • I PRAY THAT YOU'D POUR OUT SO MUCH JOY, FULLNESS,
  • 00:57:30.260 --> 00:57:34.020
  • BLESSING ON EVERYONE UNDER THE SOUND OF MY VOICE.
  • 00:57:34.040 --> 00:57:36.230
  • LORD, WE THANK YOU THAT YOU CAN PULL US OUT OF THE
  • 00:57:36.250 --> 00:57:39.080
  • DEEPEST, DARKEST PITS. GOD'S GOING TO DO IT.
  • 00:57:39.100 --> 00:57:41.090
  • HE LOVES YOU. HE'S CALLED YOU. YOU ARE HIS. WE LOVE YOU.
  • 00:57:41.110 --> 00:57:44.050
  • WE'RE ROOTING FOR YOU, AND YOUR BEST DAYS ARE AHEAD.
  • 00:57:44.070 --> 00:57:47.220
  • [APPLAUSE]
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  • AMEN, AWESOME, WOW!
  • 00:57:50.150 --> 00:57:52.200
  • PRAISE GOD!
  • 00:57:52.220 --> 00:57:54.100
  • SO TERRIFIC!
  • 00:57:54.120 --> 00:57:56.000
  • [MUSIC]
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