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Perfectionist Performance | Episode 2

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June 30, 2018
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Restoring the Shack

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Perfectionist Performance | Episode 2

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  • - MY NAME IS PAUL YOUNG.
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  • AND I AM THE AUTHOR OF THE SHACK.
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  • I WANT TO INVITE YOU ON AN ADVENTURE WITH ME
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  • AND WITH THE BOOK.
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  • A LOT OF YOU HAVE READ IT, YOU HAVE QUESTIONS.
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  • SOME OF YOU HAVE JUST HEARD ABOUT IT
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  • AND YOU HAVE QUESTIONS.
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  • THIS IS A BOOK THAT ALLOWS US TO EXPLORE
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  • RELATIONSHIP WITH THE FATHER, SON AND HOLY SPIRIT.
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  • QUESTIONS THAT WE HAVE ABOUT HURT AND LOSS AND GRIEF.
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  • QUESTIONS ABOUT WONDER AND BEAUTY AND JOY.
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  • WHAT DOES IT MEAN TO LIVE A LIFE OF FAITH?
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  • WHAT DO WE DO ABOUT DEATH?
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  • WHY DO TRAGIC THINGS HAPPEN TO US?
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  • THESE ARE THE QUESTIONS THAT WE WANT TO EXPLORE,
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  • AND I WOULD LOVE YOU TO COME WITH ME.
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  • THIS IS AN INVITATION.
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  • [UPLIFTING MUSIC]
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  • [UPLIFTING MUSIC]
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  • PAUL YOUNG: IT'S IMPOSSIBLE TO APPREHEND GOD,
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  • TO COMPREHEND GOD, ESPECIALLY NOT DIRECTLY.
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  • A LOT OF TIMES WE'VE TRIED TO DO IT WITH OUR
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  • MINDS AND OUR RATIONALITY.
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  • IT'S NOT THAT THIS IS MINDLESS, BUT THE BEST
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  • WAY TO COMPREHEND THE CHARACTER AND NATURE OF
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  • GOD IS THROUGH METAPHOR AND STORY.
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  • IT MEETS US AS A WHOLE PERSON.
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  • THIS IS THE METAPHOR OF THE SHACK.
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  • OUR PARENTS IMPACT OUR THEOLOGY.
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  • OUR THEOLOGY THEN RE-PARENTS US.
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  • THE SHACK IS THE HOUSE ON THE INSIDE THAT
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  • PEOPLE HELP YOU BUILD, AND SOME OF YOU,
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  • YOU GOT GOOD HELP.
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  • YOU HAD PARENTS WHO WERE PRESENT AND WANTED TO
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  • LOVE YOU AND DID AND ENCOURAGED YOU AND
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  • AFFIRMED YOU, SO SOME OF THE INSIDE HOUSE
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  • FOR SOME OF US ARE HABITABLE PLACES.
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  • BUT FOR A LOT OF US, IT'S JUST A SHACK, AND THAT
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  • SHACK IS THE HOUSE THAT IS OUR SOUL, IT IS OUR
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  • HEART, AND FOR SOME OF US IT'S BROKEN.
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  • AND IT BECOMES THE PLACE WHERE WE THEN HIDE ALL OF
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  • OUR ADDICTIONS, AND WE STORE ALL OUR SECRETS,
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  • AND WE NEVER WANT TO INVITE ANOTHER HUMAN
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  • BEING INTO THAT PLACE BECAUSE WE'RE TERRIFIED
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  • THAT THEY'RE GONNA HATE US THE WAY THAT
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  • WE ALREADY DO.
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  • STORY. EVERYBODY HAS ONE.
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  • ACTUALLY, EVERYBODY IS ONE AND EVERY STORY MATTERS.
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  • - CAR LEAVES IN 20 SECONDS.
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  • - WE'VE GOTTA GO, LITTLE RASCAL.
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  • - DO YOU THINK THE PRINCESS SHOULD HAVE
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  • A RED DRESS LIKE MINE?
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  • - RED IT IS.
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  • - WHERE IS MISSY?
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  • - MISSY!
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  • - WHERE'S MISSY? - THEY HAVEN'T SEEN HER.
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  • - MISSY! MISSY !
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  • [SIRENS BLARING]
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  • - I'M SCARED.
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  • - I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.
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  • [POLICE RADIO] GROUND TEAMS FOUND A TRUCK IN THE MOUNTAINS.
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  • - I'M REALLY SORRY MR. PHILLIPS.
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  • [SCREAMING]
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  • [MUSIC]
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  • - NEED SOME HELP OVER THERE?
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  • - I'M OKAY.
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  • - HOW ABOUT SOME DINNER TONIGHT?
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  • - MAYBE NEXT TIME.
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  • [YELLING]
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  • I'M SORRY. I'M SO SORRY!
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  • - WE'VE LOST SO MUCH ALREADY.
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  • I DON'T WANT TO LOSE YOU TOO.
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  • - THE LETTER SHOWED UP IN MY MAILBOX WITH NO
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  • TRACKS IN THE SNOW.
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  • - YOU'RE NOT THINKING ABOUT GOING BACK THERE, ARE YOU?
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  • - I'VE GOT TO DO SOMETHING.
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  • - YOU KNOW THIS ISN'T A GOOD IDEA. IT'S CRAZY.
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  • - THIS IS ALL I GOT.
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  • - GOT A FIRE GOING INSIDE IF YOU WANT TO WARM UP.
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  • - MACKENZIE ALAN PHILLIPS.
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  • I'VE BEEN LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS.
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  • - DO I KNOW YOU?
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  • - NOT VERY WELL BUT WE'RE GONNA WORK ON THAT.
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  • - THIS IS INCREDIBLE.
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  • - YOU'RE STILL HAVING A HARD TIME BELIEVING
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  • THIS IS REAL.
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  • - WHY DID YOU BRING ME HERE?
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  • - THERE'S NO EASY ANSWER THAT WILL TAKE YOUR PAIN AWAY.
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  • - WHERE WERE YOU WHEN I NEEDED YOU?
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  • - I NEVER LEFT YOU. I NEVER LEFT MISSY.
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  • - YOU WANT ME TO FORGIVE HIM.
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  • I WANT HIM TO HURT LIKE HE HURT ME.
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  • - YOU WANT THE PROMISES OF A PAIN-FREE LIFE?
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  • - YEAH.
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  • - THERE ISN'T ONE.
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  • - YOU CAN DO THIS. - I CAN'T!
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  • - ON YOUR OWN YOU CAN'T.
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  • - THIS IS YOUR FLYING LESSON.
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  • KEEP YOUR EYES ON ME...
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  • WHEN YOU CAN'T FIND YOUR WAY...
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  • KEEP YOUR EYES ON ME...
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  • - I BELIEVE YOU.
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  • KEEP YOUR EYES ON ME...
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  • [UPLIFTING MUSIC]
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  • [UPLIFTING MUSIC]
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  • I WANT TO READ TO YOU A COUPLE SECTIONS FROM
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  • THE FORWARD, AND THESE ARE A LITTLE TELLING ON ME.
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  • I'LL EXPLAIN THAT.
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  • MACK LATER LEARNED THAT THEY, THAT'S HIS MOTHER
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  • AND SIBLINGS, HAD BEEN SHUTTLED OFF TO AUNT
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  • MAY'S IN ORDER TO GIVE HIS FATHER SOME FREEDOM
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  • TO TEACH HIS REBELLIOUS SON A LESSON ABOUT RESPECT.
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  • FOR ALMOST TWO DAYS TIED TO THE BIG OAK AT THE
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  • BACK OF THE HOUSE, HE WAS BEATEN WITH A BELT AND
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  • BIBLE VERSES EVERY TIME HIS DAD WOKE FROM A
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  • STUPOR AND PUT DOWN HIS BOTTLE.
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  • MACK ONCE TOLD ME THAT HE USED TO SPEAK HIS MIND
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  • MORE FREELY IN HIS YOUNGER YEARS, BUT HE ADMITTED
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  • THAT MOST OF SUCH TALK WAS A SURVIVAL MECHANISM
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  • ALL TO COVER HIS HURTS.
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  • HE OFTEN ENDED UP SPEWING HIS PAIN
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  • ON EVERYONE AROUND HIM.
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  • HE SAYS THAT HE HAD A WAY OF POINTING OUT PEOPLE'S
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  • FAULTS AND HUMILIATING THEM WHILE MAINTAINING
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  • HIS OWN SENSE OF FALSE POWER AND CONTROL,
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  • NOT TOO ENDEARING.
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  • THAT LAST SECTION IS SO ME WHEN I WAS YOUNGER.
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  • I'M LIKE FIVE FOOT SIX, I'M NOT VERY BIG.
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  • I'VE LOST PRETTY MUCH EVERY FIST FIGHT I'VE
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  • EVER BEEN IN, BUT I LEARNED TO HIDE KNIVES
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  • INSIDE WORDS.
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  • I CAN TAKE A 300 POUND MAN DOWN TO HIS KNEES BY
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  • CUTTING HIM PRECISELY WITH THE RIGHT LANGUAGE.
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  • AND I WAS EQUIPPED WITH THEOLOGICAL LANGUAGE ON
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  • TOP OF THAT, SO I HAD GOD IN MY BACK POCKET TO
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  • EMPOWER MY ABILITY TO HURT PEOPLE.
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  • IT WAS A DEFENSE MECHANISM BECAUSE OF THE
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  • PAIN THAT I'D EXPERIENCED.
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  • NOW MY DAD NEVER TIED ME TO A TREE
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  • AND BEAT ME FOR TWO DAYS,
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  • BUT I HAVE FRIENDS THAT THAT DID HAPPEN TO.
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  • REALLY HAPPENED TO.
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  • MY DAD WASN'T AN ALCOHOLIC.
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  • HE WAS ADDICTED TO MISSION AND MINISTRY.
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  • AND OUT OF HIS HURT, OUT OF HIS LOSS, IT SPEWED
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  • OUT IN TERMS OF ABUSIVE DISCIPLINE AND RAGE.
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  • I THINK IT WAS LEANNE PAYNE WHO SAID THE
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  • UNCONFESSED IS THE UNHEALED.
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  • WE HAVE TO LEARN TO TALK ABOUT OUR GREAT SADNESSES.
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  • WE HAVE TO FIND A WAY TO LET SOMEBODY INTO THAT
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  • SPACE. WE'RE DESIGNED TO BE IN COMMUNITY.
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  • WE'VE NEVER BEEN DESIGNED TO BE ALONE.
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  • WE HAVE TO BEGIN TO TAKE THE RISK OF TELLING THE
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  • TRUTH, OF SPEAKING THINGS THAT ARE REAL, OF GOING
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  • BACK INTO OUR HISTORIES AND INTO OUR SHACKS AND
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  • TALKING ABOUT OUR GREAT SADNESS.
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  • [UPLIFTING MUSIC]
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  • [UPLIFTING MUSIC]
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  • I WANT TO TELL YOU A LITTLE BIT MORE ABOUT MY DAD.
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  • MY FATHER'S FAMILY, AND HE WAS IN THE MIDDLE OF THE
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  • PACK, WAS DYSFUNCTIONAL, DAMAGED, HURT.
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  • MY GRANDMOTHER DIED AT AGE 39 AFTER SPENDING A
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  • COUPLE OF YEARS IN AN ASYLUM.
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  • AND MY DAD WAS LEFT AN ORPHAN.
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  • MOST OF THE BOYS WERE SENT TO FARMS, AND THEY
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  • BECAME FARM WORKERS AS TEENAGERS, AND THEY LIVED
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  • IN THE BARNS AND WATCHED THE FAMILIES
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  • THROUGH THE WINDOWS.
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  • I OVERHEARD MY DAD SAY TO ONE OF HIS BROTHERS
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  • ONE DAY, MAYBE THAT'S WHY I WAS SO ANGRY.
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  • AT 14 MY DAD RUNS AWAY AND HE RUNS INTO THE
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  • LOGGING CAMPS IN BRITISH COLUMBIA, AND YOU KNOW
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  • LOGGING CAMPS. THEY'RE SUCH WARM, INVITING.
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  • 14 YEARS OLD.
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  • AT 18, TWO OF HIS SISTERS TAKE HIM TO A REVIVAL
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  • MEETING, AND IT CHANGES HIS WORLD.
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  • AND HE WALKS OUT OF THE LOGGING CAMPS AND
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  • STRAIGHT INTO BIBLE SCHOOL IN CENTRAL CANADA.
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  • THAT'S WHERE HE MEETS MY MOTHER.
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  • THEY GET MARRIED, SPENDS A YEAR AS AN ITINERANT
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  • PASTOR UP IN ALBERTA.
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  • I'M BORN IN GRANDE PRAIRIE, ALBERTA AND TEN MONTHS
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  • OLD, WE PACK EVERYTHING UP, WE MOVE TO THE
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  • HIGHLANDS OF NEW GUINEA ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE
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  • WORLD WHERE I GROW UP.
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  • SO YOU CAN SEE THAT MY DAD, HE DIDN'T HAVE THE
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  • CHIP FOR BEING A DAD.
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  • HIS FATHER HAD DESTROYED THAT, AND HIS FATHER
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  • BEFORE THAT HAD DESTROYED MY GRANDFATHER.
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  • THIS LEGACY HAD CONTINUED.
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  • AND THAT BECAME PART OF MY HISTORY.
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  • MY DAD TERRIFIED ME.
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  • HE WAS ANGRY AND I NEVER KNEW WHY.
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  • BUT I KNEW IT WAS MY FAULT.
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  • AND OVER THE COURSE OF MY CHILDHOOD, HE SMASHED MY
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  • EMOTIONS INTO NON-EXISTENCE.
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  • I QUIT CRYING. I VOWED NEVER AGAIN.
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  • NOBODY WOULD EVER SEE ME WEEP LIKE THAT.
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  • I ALSO INHERITED MY DAD'S THEOLOGY AND IT MATCHED
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  • IT: DISTANT, UN-RELATABLE GOD, ANGRY AND
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  • DISAPPOINTED MOST OF THE TIME, RIGHTEOUS, ONLY THE
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  • RIGHTEOUS GOD IS ALLOWED TO BE ANGRY.
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  • I NO LONGER WAS ALLOWED TO BE ANGRY.
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  • AND THAT DISTANT GOD WAS WILLING TO BEAT THE HELL
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  • OUT OF HIS SON IN ORDER TO BE RIGHT WITH OTHER
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  • PEOPLE. JESUS SAVED ME.
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  • HE SAVED ME FROM GOD THE FATHER.
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  • AND I ALWAYS FELT LIKE AS LONG AS JESUS WOULD STAY
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  • BETWEEN ME AND GOD THE FATHER, MAYBE
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  • I WOULD BE SAFE TOO.
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  • MY DAD DIDN'T BRING A LOT TO THE TABLE.
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  • HE BROUGHT WHAT HE HAD.
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  • ONE OF MY FAVORITE THINGS THAT JESUS EVER SAID IS
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  • LOOKING DOWN FROM THE CROSS AND HE SAYS FATHER,
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  • FORGIVE THEM. THEY DON'T KNOW WHAT THEY'RE DOING.
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  • HE'S TALKING TO ME, ABOUT ME, AND HE'S
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  • TALKING ABOUT MY DAD.
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  • ONCE YOU GET INSIDE STORY, THAT PERSON NO
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  • LONGER IS A CATEGORY.
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  • THEY BECOME A HUMAN BEING AND THE POSSIBILITY OF
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  • RELATIONSHIP JUST OPENS UP.
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  • [UPLIFTING MUSIC]
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  • [UPLIFTING MUSIC]
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  • THERE IS THIS PART OF GENESIS THAT WE HAVE THIS
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  • HABIT BECAUSE OF OUR OWN SHAME OF PROJECTING ONTO THE
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  • FACE OF GOD OUR OWN LOSTNESS AND OUR OWN SELF-HATRED.
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  • WE THINK GOD RELATES TO US THE WAY THAT
  • 00:13:05.180 --> 00:13:08.020
  • WE RELATE TO OURSELVES.
  • 00:13:08.040 --> 00:13:11.170
  • AND SO EVEN IN OUR INTERPRETATION OF
  • 00:13:11.190 --> 00:13:14.150
  • SCRIPTURE A LOT OF TIMES IT COMES ACROSS AS IF
  • 00:13:14.170 --> 00:13:17.090
  • IT WAS GOD SPEAKING PUNITIVELY AND
  • 00:13:17.110 --> 00:13:20.100
  • RETRIBUTIVELY RATHER THAN LOVINGLY BECAUSE GOD IS
  • 00:13:20.120 --> 00:13:27.030
  • LOVE, GOD IS NOT PUNISHMENT OR RETRIBUTION.
  • 00:13:27.050 --> 00:13:32.000
  • GOD IS LOVE. IS LOVE.
  • 00:13:32.020 --> 00:13:36.170
  • IN THIS SCENE, ADAM AND ESHA, BECAUSE HER NAME
  • 00:13:36.190 --> 00:13:43.170
  • HAS NOT BEEN TRULY REVEALED, THEY HAVE NOW
  • 00:13:43.190 --> 00:13:46.280
  • PARTICIPATED IN AN ACTIVE TURNING AWAY FROM
  • 00:13:47.000 --> 00:13:50.140
  • FACE-TO-FACE WITH GOD.
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  • THEY'VE EATEN OF THE FRUIT.
  • 00:13:52.220 --> 00:13:55.200
  • AND THEY HID INSIDE THE VERY TREE.
  • 00:13:55.220 --> 00:13:58.150
  • IN THE ORIGINAL HEBREW IT DOESN'T SAY THEY HID IN
  • 00:13:58.170 --> 00:14:01.170
  • THE BUSHES LIKE IT SAYS IN THE ENGLISH.
  • 00:14:01.190 --> 00:14:03.160
  • THEY HID IN THE TREE.
  • 00:14:03.180 --> 00:14:05.070
  • THEY WERE COVERING THEMSELVES UP WITH THEIR
  • 00:14:05.090 --> 00:14:07.200
  • ABILITY TO DETERMINE GOOD AND EVIL.
  • 00:14:07.220 --> 00:14:10.190
  • THEY'VE MADE THEMSELVES THE ARBITERS OF TRUTH
  • 00:14:10.210 --> 00:14:14.050
  • INDEPENDENTLY. AND THEY HEAR THE SOUND OF GOD.
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  • IT SAYS IN THE ENGLISH, WALKING IN THE COOL OF
  • 00:14:19.200 --> 00:14:21.220
  • THE DAY. AND THE FIRST THING THAT YOU HEAR IS
  • 00:14:21.240 --> 00:14:24.290
  • WHERE ARE YOU?
  • 00:14:25.010 --> 00:14:28.170
  • TELL ME WHERE YOU ARE.
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  • GOD KNOWS WHERE THEY ARE.
  • 00:14:31.010 --> 00:14:33.090
  • THIS IS AN INVITATION TO RELATIONSHIP.
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  • HE SAID I'M AFRAID. I HEARD YOU.
  • 00:14:36.230 --> 00:14:39.280
  • AND ALREADY ADAM HAS BEGUN TO PROJECT UPON THE
  • 00:14:40.000 --> 00:14:42.230
  • FACE OF GOD THIS PUNITIVE, RETRIBUTIVE,
  • 00:14:42.250 --> 00:14:46.160
  • MEAN, SELF-ABSORBED, NARCISSISTIC IMAGINATION.
  • 00:14:46.180 --> 00:14:53.010
  • I WAS AFRAID AND ASHAMED BECAUSE WE WERE NAKED.
  • 00:14:53.030 --> 00:14:59.210
  • AND HERE'S THE LINE.
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  • GOD SAYS WHO TOLD YOU YOU WERE NAKED?
  • 00:15:02.020 --> 00:15:09.110
  • A LOT OF TIMES WE READ THAT LINE WITH OUR MODERN
  • 00:15:09.130 --> 00:15:12.000
  • SELF-DISGUST OR SELF-APPREHENSION ABOUT
  • 00:15:12.020 --> 00:15:18.220
  • OUR MORALITY, OUR HUMANITY, OUR SEXUALITY,
  • 00:15:18.240 --> 00:15:22.270
  • AND WE THINK THAT THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG THAT GOD
  • 00:15:22.290 --> 00:15:25.010
  • IS SAYING ABOUT THE FACT THAT THEY WERE UNCLOTHED.
  • 00:15:25.030 --> 00:15:30.070
  • THAT'S NOT THE POINT AT ALL.
  • 00:15:30.090 --> 00:15:32.200
  • GOD IS SAYING WHO TOLD YOU YOU WERE NAKED?
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  • I DID.
  • 00:15:35.210 --> 00:15:37.090
  • YOU WERE MEANT TO BE LIVING EXPOSED AND OPEN
  • 00:15:37.110 --> 00:15:41.250
  • AND WEAK AND FRAGILE.
  • 00:15:41.270 --> 00:15:44.280
  • YOU'RE COVERING YOURSELF UP BY YOUR OWN ABILITY TO
  • 00:15:45.000 --> 00:15:49.060
  • DETERMINE WHAT THE TRUTH IS, WHAT THE GOOD IS,
  • 00:15:49.080 --> 00:15:51.240
  • WHAT THE EVIL IS.
  • 00:15:51.260 --> 00:15:53.080
  • WHO TOLD YOU? I TOLD YOU.
  • 00:15:53.100 --> 00:15:56.260
  • BEING EXPOSED IS A GOOD THING.
  • 00:15:56.280 --> 00:16:00.120
  • THE HOLY SPIRIT COMES TO CONVICT.
  • 00:16:00.140 --> 00:16:02.130
  • THAT WORD IN THE GREEK MEANS TO EXPOSE.
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  • WE WEREN'T EVER DESIGNED TO LIVE HIDDEN AND INSIDE
  • 00:16:05.170 --> 00:16:09.200
  • OF OUR LIES, AND INSIDE OF SELF-DECEPTION.
  • 00:16:09.220 --> 00:16:14.270
  • WE WERE INTENDED TO BE FULLY OPEN, FACE-TO-FACE
  • 00:16:14.290 --> 00:16:19.110
  • WITH THE FATHER, SON AND HOLY SPIRIT.
  • 00:16:19.130 --> 00:16:21.160
  • THIS IS A RELATIONSHIP THAT WE CAN TRUST WITH
  • 00:16:21.180 --> 00:16:25.120
  • ALL THE THINGS THAT WE HIDE, WITH ALL THE
  • 00:16:25.140 --> 00:16:28.070
  • SECRETS THAT WE HAVE.
  • 00:16:28.090 --> 00:16:31.100
  • WE WERE DESIGNED TO LIVE NAKED AND UNASHAMED.
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  • [UPLIFTING MUSIC]
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  • [UPLIFTING MUSIC]
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  • ANOTHER GREAT SADNESS FOR ME BEGAN BEFORE
  • 00:16:57.210 --> 00:17:02.000
  • I EVEN WENT TO BOARDING SCHOOL.
  • 00:17:02.020 --> 00:17:04.280
  • SEXUAL ABUSE STARTED FOR ME INSIDE THE TRIBAL
  • 00:17:05.000 --> 00:17:07.180
  • CULTURE, INSIDE WHAT I CONSIDERED MY OWN FAMILY.
  • 00:17:07.200 --> 00:17:10.240
  • BEFORE I WAS FIVE YEARS OLD.
  • 00:17:10.260 --> 00:17:15.000
  • THERE IS NOTHING THAT DESTROYS AND DISMANTLES
  • 00:17:15.020 --> 00:17:19.250
  • THE SOUL OF A HUMAN BEING LIKE SEXUAL ABUSE.
  • 00:17:19.270 --> 00:17:24.280
  • I GET TO BOARDING SCHOOL AT AGE SIX AND THE FIRST
  • 00:17:25.000 --> 00:17:27.080
  • NIGHT THE BIG BOYS WOULD COME AT NIGHT
  • 00:17:27.100 --> 00:17:30.070
  • AND MOLEST THE LITTLE BOYS.
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  • THAT BECAME JUST PART OF MY WORLD.
  • 00:17:32.220 --> 00:17:35.250
  • AND I JUST SHUT DOWN.
  • 00:17:35.270 --> 00:17:38.040
  • I NEEDED TO PERFORM.
  • 00:17:38.060 --> 00:17:40.150
  • I NEEDED TO BE ACCEPTABLE.
  • 00:17:40.170 --> 00:17:44.090
  • I KNEW, EVEN AT FIVE, SOMETHING WAS WRONG.
  • 00:17:44.110 --> 00:17:47.110
  • AND EVEN BY SIX, IT HAD BEEN SO DOMINANT THAT
  • 00:17:47.130 --> 00:17:51.100
  • I WAS TO SOME DEGREE ALREADY A PREDATOR.
  • 00:17:51.120 --> 00:17:55.170
  • YOU CAN TWIST THE HEART OF A CHILD.
  • 00:17:55.190 --> 00:18:00.130
  • GREAT SADNESS.
  • 00:18:00.150 --> 00:18:02.070
  • SEXUAL ABUSE, MY RELATIONSHIP WITH MY DAD,
  • 00:18:02.090 --> 00:18:05.240
  • SO WHAT DID I DO?
  • 00:18:05.260 --> 00:18:07.070
  • FIRST BORN MISSIONARY KID, PREACHER'S KID,
  • 00:18:07.090 --> 00:18:11.040
  • I BECAME A PERFORMER.
  • 00:18:11.060 --> 00:18:13.090
  • THIS IS WHY RELIGION WAS ATTRACTIVE TO ME, IT
  • 00:18:13.110 --> 00:18:15.290
  • COULD GIVE ME A LIST OF RULES THAT IF I COULD
  • 00:18:16.010 --> 00:18:18.050
  • JUST DO THOSE THINGS, MAYBE I COULD WIN THE
  • 00:18:18.070 --> 00:18:21.020
  • AFFECTION OF MY FATHER.
  • 00:18:21.040 --> 00:18:24.100
  • MAYBE I COULD WIN THE AFFECTION OF GOD.
  • 00:18:24.120 --> 00:18:27.040
  • AND HERE'S WHAT I DID.
  • 00:18:27.060 --> 00:18:28.180
  • I HATED THE SHACK. I HATED THIS PERSON.
  • 00:18:28.200 --> 00:18:32.030
  • SO I DRUG SOME PIECES OF WOOD FROM MY OWN SHACK,
  • 00:18:32.050 --> 00:18:36.150
  • AND I BUILT A FACADE ABOUT A HUNDRED YARDS OUT.
  • 00:18:36.170 --> 00:18:40.070
  • YOU KNOW A FACADE, THEY USE IT IN MOVIES TO KIND
  • 00:18:40.090 --> 00:18:42.130
  • OF FAKE THAT THERE'S A REAL BUILDING THERE BUT
  • 00:18:42.150 --> 00:18:44.170
  • IT'S A QUARTER INCH PIECE OF PLYWOOD.
  • 00:18:44.190 --> 00:18:47.070
  • BUT THE THING ABOUT A FACADE IS YOU CAN PAINT
  • 00:18:47.090 --> 00:18:49.060
  • IT AS FAST AS YOU CAN PICK UP PEOPLE'S
  • 00:18:49.080 --> 00:18:51.170
  • EXPECTATIONS, AND SO I BECAME A DIFFERENT THING
  • 00:18:51.190 --> 00:18:54.250
  • IN EVERY DIFFERENT SITUATION.
  • 00:18:54.270 --> 00:18:57.280
  • BUT IT DIDN'T PROTECT ME FROM THE ADDICTIONS.
  • 00:18:58.000 --> 00:19:01.090
  • THEY STILL WENT ON.
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  • IT DIDN'T PROTECT ME FROM THE SECRETS.
  • 00:19:03.140 --> 00:19:08.190
  • THE FACADE WAS MY PRESENTATION TO THE
  • 00:19:08.210 --> 00:19:10.270
  • WORLD, AND I WAS A DIFFERENT THING DEPENDING
  • 00:19:10.290 --> 00:19:13.120
  • ON WHAT AUDIENCE WAS IN FRONT OF ME.
  • 00:19:13.140 --> 00:19:15.150
  • I DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO LIVE FROM THE INSIDE OUT.
  • 00:19:15.170 --> 00:19:18.010
  • LIFE BECAME ABOUT LIVING FROM THE OUTSIDE IN.
  • 00:19:18.030 --> 00:19:21.170
  • AND I WORKED AT IT HARD.
  • 00:19:21.190 --> 00:19:24.110
  • I HAD THIS THIN LAYER OF PERFECTIONIST PERFORMANCE
  • 00:19:24.130 --> 00:19:27.220
  • THAT COVERED UP THIS OCEAN OF SHAME, AND I WAS
  • 00:19:27.240 --> 00:19:31.280
  • HOPING IF I COULD JUST DO THIS RIGHT, IF I COULD
  • 00:19:32.000 --> 00:19:36.240
  • JUST PERFORM PERFECTLY, MAYBE ONE DAY I COULD
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  • BECOME A REAL BOY.
  • 00:19:42.140 --> 00:19:44.290
  • WE ARE AS SICK AS THE SECRETS WE KEEP.
  • 00:19:48.040 --> 00:19:53.010
  • AND MY SHACK WAS FULL OF THEM.
  • 00:19:53.030 --> 00:19:57.030
  • AND SO WHEN SOMEBODY COMES INTO OUR LIFE AND
  • 00:19:57.050 --> 00:19:58.290
  • THEY OFFER US KINDNESS AND GOODNESS AND GRACE
  • 00:19:59.010 --> 00:20:04.260
  • AND FORGIVENESS, WE DON'T BELIEVE THEM BECAUSE THEY
  • 00:20:04.280 --> 00:20:10.020
  • DON'T KNOW OUR SECRETS, SO WE'RE ABSOLUTELY TRAPPED.
  • 00:20:10.040 --> 00:20:15.030
  • WE CAN'T TELL YOU BECAUSE YOU'RE GONNA THINK THAT
  • 00:20:15.050 --> 00:20:18.230
  • I AM EXACTLY WHAT I ALREADY BELIEVE.
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  • I'M A WORTHLESS PIECE OF NOTHINGNESS.
  • 00:20:21.150 --> 00:20:26.060
  • BUT WHEN YOU OFFER ME SOMETHING THAT MIGHT KEEP
  • 00:20:26.080 --> 00:20:28.240
  • ME ALIVE, I DON'T BELIEVE YOU BECAUSE
  • 00:20:28.260 --> 00:20:32.040
  • YOU DON'T KNOW MY SECRETS.
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  • THIS IS THE SHACK.
  • 00:20:34.280 --> 00:20:36.230
  • THIS IS THE FACADE.
  • 00:20:36.250 --> 00:20:39.120
  • AND THE THING ABOUT HEALING IS THAT YOU HAVE
  • 00:20:39.140 --> 00:20:42.260
  • TO GO BACK TO THE SHACK.
  • 00:20:42.280 --> 00:20:45.090
  • YOU HAVE TO FIND OUT THAT GOD IS IN THAT PLACE AND
  • 00:20:45.110 --> 00:20:49.280
  • NOT IN THE FACADE.
  • 00:20:50.000 --> 00:20:52.190
  • WE ARE AS SICK AS THE SECRETS WE KEEP.
  • 00:20:52.210 --> 00:20:57.240
  • WE HAVE TO DEAL WITH OUR BROKEN HEARTS.
  • 00:20:57.260 --> 00:21:01.160
  • IF WE WANT TO BECOME REAL HUMAN BEINGS, YOU CAN'T
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  • GO AROUND THE SHACK.
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  • YOU HAVE TO GO INTO IT.
  • 00:21:07.050 --> 00:21:11.090
  • THE LAST FEW YEARS HAVE BEEN, HOW MIGHT I PUT
  • 00:21:12.280 --> 00:21:16.000
  • IT, REMARKABLY PECULIAR.
  • 00:21:16.020 --> 00:21:20.130
  • MACK HAS CHANGED.
  • 00:21:20.150 --> 00:21:22.260
  • HE'S EVEN MORE DIFFERENT AND SPECIAL
  • 00:21:22.280 --> 00:21:26.080
  • THAN HE USED TO BE.
  • 00:21:26.100 --> 00:21:27.250
  • IN ALL THE TIME I'VE KNOWN HIM, HE'S ALWAYS
  • 00:21:27.270 --> 00:21:30.050
  • BEEN A RATHER GENTLE AND KIND SOUL, BUT SINCE HIS
  • 00:21:30.070 --> 00:21:32.230
  • STAY IN THE HOSPITAL THREE YEARS AGO, HE'S
  • 00:21:32.250 --> 00:21:35.260
  • BEEN, WELL, EVEN NICER.
  • 00:21:35.280 --> 00:21:38.100
  • HE'S BECOME ONE OF THOSE RARE PEOPLE WHO ARE
  • 00:21:38.120 --> 00:21:41.180
  • TOTALLY AT HOME IN THEIR OWN SKIN.
  • 00:21:41.200 --> 00:21:44.130
  • AND I FEEL AT HOME AROUND HIM LIKE I DO
  • 00:21:44.150 --> 00:21:46.200
  • WITH NOBODY ELSE.
  • 00:21:46.220 --> 00:21:48.190
  • WHEN WE GO OUR SEPARATE WAYS, IT SEEMS THAT I'VE
  • 00:21:48.210 --> 00:21:50.220
  • JUST HAD THE BEST CONVERSATION IN MY LIFE,
  • 00:21:50.240 --> 00:21:53.120
  • EVEN THOUGH I USUALLY HAVE DONE MOST OF THE TALKING.
  • 00:21:53.140 --> 00:21:56.110
  • AND WITH RESPECT TO GOD, MACK IS NO LONGER JUST WIDE.
  • 00:21:56.130 --> 00:22:01.170
  • HE'S GONE WAY DEEP.
  • 00:22:01.190 --> 00:22:03.290
  • BUT THE DIVE COST HIM DEARLY.
  • 00:22:04.010 --> 00:22:08.280
  • THESE DAYS ARE VERY DIFFERENT FROM SEVEN OR
  • 00:22:09.000 --> 00:22:10.270
  • SO YEARS AGO WHEN THE GREAT SADNESS ENTERED HIS
  • 00:22:10.290 --> 00:22:13.230
  • LIFE AND HE ALMOST QUIT TALKING ALL TOGETHER.
  • 00:22:13.250 --> 00:22:19.070
  • LIFE IS A JOURNEY.
  • 00:22:19.090 --> 00:22:23.260
  • LIFE IS PROCESS.
  • 00:22:23.280 --> 00:22:26.090
  • THAT STATEMENT IN THE FORWARD IS ONE THAT I
  • 00:22:26.110 --> 00:22:32.090
  • ALWAYS HAD HOPED TO BE ABLE TO MAKE FOR MYSELF
  • 00:22:32.110 --> 00:22:35.240
  • BUT DIDN'T THINK IT WAS A POSSIBILITY.
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  • EARLY IN THESE EPISODES, I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT
  • 00:22:39.230 --> 00:22:45.130
  • THAT'S THE TRUTH FOR ME NOW.
  • 00:22:45.150 --> 00:22:47.290
  • SOMETHING I NEVER THOUGHT WAS POSSIBLE,
  • 00:22:48.010 --> 00:22:50.200
  • THAT I'D BE COMFORTABLE IN MY OWN SKIN.
  • 00:22:50.220 --> 00:22:53.180
  • I HAD A FRIEND OF MINE ASK ME ONE MORNING AT A
  • 00:22:53.200 --> 00:22:56.040
  • CONFERENCE, SO WHAT'S IT LIKE BEING PAUL YOUNG
  • 00:22:56.060 --> 00:22:58.200
  • TODAY? I SAID IT'S THE EASIEST.
  • 00:22:58.220 --> 00:23:04.050
  • MY LIFE WAS ALL MESSED UP AND COMPLICATED WHEN I
  • 00:23:04.070 --> 00:23:06.050
  • WAS TRYING TO BE SOMEBODY ELSE, WHEN I HAD ALL THE
  • 00:23:06.070 --> 00:23:09.040
  • SECRETS BURIED INSIDE, WHEN I WAS ALL HIDDEN,
  • 00:23:09.060 --> 00:23:14.130
  • WHEN THE DARKNESS AND THE LIES ARE INSIDE AND KEPT
  • 00:23:14.150 --> 00:23:18.160
  • INSIDE THE IMPRISONMENT OF OUR OWN HEARTS,
  • 00:23:18.180 --> 00:23:21.070
  • THEY ARE HUGE.
  • 00:23:21.090 --> 00:23:24.160
  • WHEN WE LET THEM OUT, THEY LOSE THEIR POWER.
  • 00:23:24.180 --> 00:23:28.230
  • THE PROCESS OF THAT, INCREDIBLY PAINFUL AT
  • 00:23:28.250 --> 00:23:32.070
  • TIMES. AND THERE'S HUGE RISK INVOLVED.
  • 00:23:32.090 --> 00:23:35.120
  • BUT THERE'S ALWAYS GONNA BE RISK INVOLVED IN TRUST.
  • 00:23:35.140 --> 00:23:39.240
  • AND TRUST IS WHERE WE'RE HEADED, NOT TO CONTROL,
  • 00:23:39.260 --> 00:23:44.020
  • NOT TO RELIGION, BUT TO RELATIONSHIP.
  • 00:23:44.040 --> 00:23:49.060
  • AND THIS IS A GOD WHO WILL ALWAYS BE WITH YOU,
  • 00:23:49.080 --> 00:23:54.140
  • WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU AND NEVER FORSAKE YOU.
  • 00:23:54.160 --> 00:23:58.050
  • I WAS ON A FLIGHT WITH A FAMOUS PERSON, AND I
  • 00:24:02.110 --> 00:24:10.260
  • ASKED HIM AFTER A COUPLE OF HOURS, WHO IN YOUR
  • 00:24:10.280 --> 00:24:14.070
  • LIFE DO YOU TRUST?
  • 00:24:14.090 --> 00:24:17.100
  • AND HE SHOOK HIS HEAD AND HE SAID MY MOM,
  • 00:24:17.120 --> 00:24:19.240
  • MY DAD AND MY SISTER.
  • 00:24:19.260 --> 00:24:23.010
  • MACK'S LAYING ON THE DOCK WITH JESUS, AND THEY'RE
  • 00:24:23.030 --> 00:24:27.020
  • LOOKING AT THE STARS AND LAUGHING, AND FINALLY HIS
  • 00:24:27.040 --> 00:24:30.220
  • GRIEF BEGINS TO SLIP THROUGH, AND HE SAYS
  • 00:24:30.240 --> 00:24:34.260
  • I FEEL SO LOST.
  • 00:24:34.280 --> 00:24:40.050
  • AND HE FEELS A HAND TAKE HIS AND NOT LET GO,
  • 00:24:40.070 --> 00:24:44.210
  • AND JESUS SAYS TO HIM, I KNOW, MACK,
  • 00:24:44.230 --> 00:24:48.200
  • BUT I'M HERE, AND I'M NOT LOST.
  • 00:24:48.220 --> 00:24:55.130
  • HOW POWERFUL ARE SECRETS IN YOUR LIFE?
  • 00:24:55.150 --> 00:25:00.090
  • AND WHO HAVE YOU LET IN?
  • 00:25:00.110 --> 00:25:03.070
  • DO YOU THINK KEEPING YOUR SECRETS IS SAFER
  • 00:25:03.090 --> 00:25:07.030
  • THAN LETTING THEM OUT?
  • 00:25:07.050 --> 00:25:10.030
  • THINK ABOUT THE POWER OF SECRETS IN YOUR LIFE AND
  • 00:25:10.050 --> 00:25:15.180
  • I'LL SEE YOU NEXT TIME.
  • 00:25:15.200 --> 00:25:19.030
  • [UPLIFTING MUSIC]
  • 00:25:19.050 --> 00:25:32.210
  • [UPLIFTING MUSIC]
  • 00:25:32.210 --> 00:25:45.210
  • [UPLIFTING MUSIC]
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