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Jay & Kathrine Wolf

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September 27, 2020
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Messages of hope and redemption from Passion City Church in Atlanta; Georgia; with Louie Giglio.

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Jay & Kathrine Wolf

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  • - Hi.
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  • - Hi.I'm Louie Giglio,
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  • I'm Louie Giglio,founder of Passion Conferences
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  • founder of Passion Conferencesand pastor
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  • and pastorof Passion City Church,
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  • of Passion City Church,and I'm so glad that you've
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  • and I'm so glad that you'vejoined us here today.
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  • joined us here today.Every year,
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  • Every year,at Passion City Church,
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  • at Passion City Church,there are numerous Sundays
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  • there are numerous Sundayswhere we invite our friends
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  • where we invite our friendsand ministry
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  • and ministryfrom around the world
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  • from around the worldto come and teach
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  • to come and teachand encourage us.
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  • and encourage us.Recently, we had the honor
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  • Recently, we had the honorto host our friends,
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  • to host our friends,Jay and Katherine Wolf,
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  • Jay and Katherine Wolf,as they released their new book,
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  • as they released their new book,"Suffer Strong".
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  • "Suffer Strong".Suffering is an inevitable
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  • Suffering is an inevitablepart of life,
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  • part of life,but Jay and Katherine
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  • but Jay and Katherineare living examples
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  • are living examplesof how Jesus can bring us
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  • of how Jesus can bring usto a place
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  • to a placewhere we can find purpose
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  • where we can find purposein our pain.
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  • in our pain.I believe God
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  • I believe Godis going to speak to you
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  • is going to speak to youin this episode
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  • in this episodeas we hear how
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  • - "That sweet little couple
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  • - "That sweet little coupleon the stage, they just --
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  • on the stage, they just --poor, pitiful things.
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  • poor, pitiful things.They must just have
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  • They must just havesuch a hard time."
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  • such a hard time."And let me assure you.
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  • And let me assure you.- Stand up, girl.
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  • - Stand up, girl.Stand up.
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  • Stand up.Tell them.
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  • Tell them.Tell them.
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  • Tell them.- You are most definitely,
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  • - You are most definitely,definitely - - you are not,
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  • definitely - - you are not,you are not going to leave
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  • you are not going to leavethinking this was
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  • thinking this wasa downer Sunday.
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  • a downer Sunday.I can assure you.
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  • I can assure you.I'm doing just fine,
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  • I'm doing just fine,and you're going to hear
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  • and you're going to heara really cool story,
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  • a really cool story,so you're not going to leave
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  • so you're not going to leavefeeling like this was
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  • feeling like this wasa downer.
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  • a downer.I can assure you.
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  • I can assure you.- Okay, good.
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  • - Okay, good.- Sit down safely, though.
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  • - Sit down safely, though.- That's right.
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  • - That's right.- I'd love to kind of make
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  • - I'd love to kind of makea provocative statement
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  • a provocative statementthat in fact
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  • that in factwe are all disabled.
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  • we are all disabled.Some of us are
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  • Some of us arein physical wheelchairs,
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  • in physical wheelchairs,but all of us have
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  • but all of us haveinvisible wheelchairs
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  • invisible wheelchairsfrom all the stuff
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  • from all the stuffthat's happened to us,
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  • that's happened to us,all the brokenness
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  • all the brokennesswe feel in our lives.
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  • we feel in our lives.The truth is, like,
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  • The truth is, like,we all have very unique,
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  • we all have very unique,very specific brands
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  • very specific brandsof brokenness happening,
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  • of brokenness happening,all of us.
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  • all of us.Nobody is exempt from it
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  • Nobody is exempt from iton Earth, I believe.
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  • on Earth, I believe.However, it is actually
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  • However, it is actuallythe same story of suffering.
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  • the same story of suffering.It's just the specifics
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  • It's just the specificsthat are different.
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  • that are different.I'm in a physical wheelchair.
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  • I'm in a physical wheelchair.Maybe some others of you
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  • Maybe some others of youout there are,
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  • out there are,and I'm so grateful.
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  • and I'm so grateful.I'm so grateful
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  • I'm so gratefulfor those of you who came
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  • for those of you who camein physical wheelchairs,
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  • in physical wheelchairs,but no doubt,
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  • but no doubt,everybody who walked in here
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  • everybody who walked in herehas got a wheelchair
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  • has got a wheelchairin their heart.
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  • in their heart.There's stuff they're going
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  • There's stuff they're goingthrough and dealing with
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  • through and dealing withand coping with
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  • and coping withbecause this is Earth.
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  • because this is Earth.John 16:33 is true,
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  • John 16:33 is true,"There is trouble in this world
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  • "There is trouble in this worldfor sure."
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  • for sure."You probably don't even need
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  • You probably don't even needto hear that
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  • to hear thatbecause you know that,
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  • because you know that,but I love to link it up
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  • but I love to link it upthat this is your story, too.
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  • that this is your story, too.The specifics are
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  • The specifics arefor sure different,
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  • for sure different,no doubt.
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  • no doubt.But actually it is
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  • But actually it isthe very same story
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  • the very same storyultimately of looking to Jesus
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  • ultimately of looking to Jesusand hoping in Him
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  • and hoping in Himthrough our struggles on Earth,
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  • through our struggles on Earth,whatever they are.
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  • whatever they are.So, I always like to say
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  • So, I always like to saythat when the doctor did
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  • that when the doctor didthe surgery to remove
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  • the surgery to removebasically the AVM
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  • basically the AVMwhich is the malformed blood
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  • which is the malformed bloodvessels that had formed
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  • vessels that had formedin my brain stem,
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  • in my brain stem,he basically made the decision
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  • he basically made the decisionto cut out all the things
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  • to cut out all the thingsthat would have caused death.
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  • that would have caused death.So, in other terms,
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  • So, in other terms,he wounded me greatly
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  • he wounded me greatlyin order to ultimately heal me
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  • in order to ultimately heal mewhich is this beautiful,
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  • which is this beautiful,Biblical concept,
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  • Biblical concept,that actually nothing on my body
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  • that actually nothing on my bodyis a result of the stroke.
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  • is a result of the stroke.I mean, it is,
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  • I mean, it is,because I wouldn't have had
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  • because I wouldn't have hadthe surgery if I didn't
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  • the surgery if I didn'thave a stroke,
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  • have a stroke,but in the surgery,
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  • but in the surgery,the surgeon took out
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  • the surgeon took outa piece of my brain
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  • a piece of my brainand that's why I can't walk.
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  • and that's why I can't walk.He had to wound a lot of me.
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  • He had to wound a lot of me.My hand doesn't work.
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  • My hand doesn't work.My eyes don't track.
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  • My eyes don't track.I see you guys out there
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  • I see you guys out thereand down here.
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  • and down here.I'll probably never drive.
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  • I'll probably never drive.I have a paralyzed face.
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  • I have a paralyzed face.I'm deaf in this ear.
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  • I'm deaf in this ear.I'm nearly blind
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  • I'm nearly blindin this eye as well,
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  • in this eye as well,although I see enough
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  • although I see enoughto see double.
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  • to see double.I have, like,
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  • I have, like,crazy health problems.
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  • crazy health problems.I have arthritis
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  • I have arthritisand osteoporosis,
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  • and osteoporosis,and I'm 37.
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  • and I'm 37.I'm in a wheelchair full time.
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  • I'm in a wheelchair full time.I have crazy, crazy
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  • I have crazy, crazyhealth incapacity,
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  • health incapacity,and yet, I'm here,
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  • and yet, I'm here,and my life was sustained
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  • and my life was sustainedbecause the doctor
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  • because the doctormade the wise decision
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  • made the wise decisionto wound me very greatly.
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  • to wound me very greatly.So, I think that is so
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  • So, I think that is sopowerful Biblically
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  • powerful Biblicallythat in our deep woundings,
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  • that in our deep woundings,healing can come,
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  • healing can come,can flourish.
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  • can flourish.And what a powerful
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  • And what a powerfulword picture!
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  • word picture!I'm living, yay,
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  • I'm living, yay,that frequently, thank you,
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  • that frequently, thank you,yeah, that frequently,
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  • yeah, that frequently,thanks be to God,
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  • thanks be to God,that frequently, frequently,
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  • that frequently, frequently,our healing comes
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  • our healing comesin our deep woundings,
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  • in our deep woundings,through our deep woundings.
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  • through our deep woundings.It says in Job that,
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  • It says in Job that,"He wounds when He heals."
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  • "He wounds when He heals."That concept is so powerful
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  • That concept is so powerfuland so otherworldly.
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  • and so otherworldly.It is an upside down
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  • It is an upside downkingdom perspective
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  • kingdom perspectiveto see in our wounding
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  • to see in our woundingcomes our healing.
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  • comes our healing.So, I did finally wake up,
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  • So, I did finally wake up,and about two,
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  • and about two,two-and-a-half months after,
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  • two-and-a-half months after,I sort of came to
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  • I sort of came toin the acute rehab
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  • in the acute rehabwhich I went to
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  • which I went toafter the I.C.U.,
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  • after the I.C.U.,and I began
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  • and I beganto sort of understand
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  • to sort of understandwhat was happening
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  • what was happening'cause you could imagine.
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  • 'cause you could imagine.Like, I've got a feeding tube
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  • Like, I've got a feeding tubehooked up to my stomach,
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  • hooked up to my stomach,and I can't eat,
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  • and I can't eat,and I've got machines
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  • and I've got machineshooked up to me everywhere.
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  • hooked up to me everywhere.I can't see,
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  • I can't see,and I can't walk,
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  • and I can't walk,and I can't hear,
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  • and I can't hear,and I can't speak,
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  • and I can't speak,and now I'm like --
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  • and now I'm like --I can't even understand
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  • I can't even understandthat I've had a stroke.
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  • that I've had a stroke.Like, I've heard of that
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  • Like, I've heard of thatbecause somebody's grandfather
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  • because somebody's grandfatherhad a stroke.
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  • had a stroke.Like, a 26-year-old
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  • Like, a 26-year-oldperfectly healthy girl
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  • perfectly healthy girlwith a new baby
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  • with a new babycouldn't have a stroke,
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  • couldn't have a stroke,and I mean, my mind was so foggy
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  • and I mean, my mind was so foggythat it just -- every day
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  • that it just -- every daywas Groundhog Day.
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  • was Groundhog Day.So, there was this terrible
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  • So, there was this terriblepain physically
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  • pain physicallyand mentally I couldn't
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  • and mentally I couldn'tgrasp it,
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  • grasp it,but by far the worst,
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  • but by far the worst,worst thing of it all
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  • worst thing of it allwas they would bring James in.
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  • was they would bring James in.Friends, family
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  • Friends, familywould bring James in to see me.
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  • would bring James in to see me.So, my sweet little
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  • So, my sweet littlesix-month-old baby
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  • six-month-old babywho is now eight-months-old
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  • who is now eight-months-oldis coming in.
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  • is coming in.I think we have a picture.
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  • I think we have a picture.That's actually
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  • That's actuallymy first Mother's Day.
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  • my first Mother's Day.So, I have no memory
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  • So, I have no memoryof that day,
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  • of that day,and I kind of hate seeing
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  • and I kind of hate seeingthat picture,
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  • that picture,ooh, because I don't
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  • ooh, because I don'tremember that day,
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  • remember that day,and I think it's very important
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  • and I think it's very importantto say that I won't have
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  • to say that I won't havethose moments back
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  • those moments backwhere I do remember
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  • where I do remembermy first Mother's Day,
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  • my first Mother's Day,and as much as this is
  • 00:07:05.917 --> 00:07:07.786
  • and as much as this isthis beautiful glory story,
  • 00:07:07.786 --> 00:07:09.254
  • this beautiful glory story,and I assured you before
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  • and I assured you beforethat you will not leave
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  • that you will not leavefeeling down,
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  • feeling down,that this was some crazy downer,
  • 00:07:13.258 --> 00:07:14.926
  • that this was some crazy downer,but there is a sting
  • 00:07:14.926 --> 00:07:17.195
  • but there is a stingin the tender of sadness
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  • in the tender of sadnessthat I think is lifelong,
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  • that I think is lifelong,and many of you in this room
  • 00:07:20.799 --> 00:07:21.466
  • and many of you in this roomunderstand that
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  • understand thatin profound ways,
  • 00:07:23.435 --> 00:07:26.071
  • in profound ways,that, yes, there is such healing
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  • that, yes, there is such healingand such hope in Jesus,
  • 00:07:28.139 --> 00:07:29.808
  • and such hope in Jesus,but until we are actually
  • 00:07:29.808 --> 00:07:30.408
  • but until we are actuallyin Heaven,
  • 00:07:30.408 --> 00:07:33.712
  • in Heaven,I believe some pain is lifelong.
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  • I believe some pain is lifelong.There is a sting
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  • There is a stingand a tender of sadness
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  • and a tender of sadnessto any story in life,
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  • to any story in life,I believe,
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  • I believe,that God is at work,
  • 00:07:43.822 --> 00:07:46.124
  • that God is at work,absolutely in our stories,
  • 00:07:46.124 --> 00:07:48.293
  • absolutely in our stories,but just like these early months
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  • but just like these early monthswith James that would translate
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  • with James that would translateto over two and a half years
  • 00:07:51.329 --> 00:07:52.964
  • to over two and a half yearswhere I wasn't able
  • 00:07:52.964 --> 00:07:55.467
  • where I wasn't ableto care for him,
  • 00:07:55.467 --> 00:07:57.002
  • to care for him,he's never going to get
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  • he's never going to getthat back
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  • that backno matter the 10.000
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  • no matter the 10.000children I have
  • 00:08:02.107 --> 00:08:04.876
  • children I haveand the awesome rocking party
  • 00:08:04.876 --> 00:08:07.546
  • and the awesome rocking partythat my life is now.
  • 00:08:07.546 --> 00:08:10.348
  • that my life is now.James doesn't have that,
  • 00:08:10.348 --> 00:08:11.650
  • James doesn't have that,a mommy that took care of him
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  • a mommy that took care of himwhen he was a baby,
  • 00:08:13.051 --> 00:08:15.720
  • when he was a baby,and that's full on sad,
  • 00:08:15.720 --> 00:08:16.721
  • and that's full on sad,and I want us
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  • and I want usas a Christian community
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  • as a Christian communityto be better
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  • to be betterabout marrying the sad
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  • about marrying the sadand the great moments
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  • and the great moments'cause they coexist
  • 00:08:25.397 --> 00:08:26.398
  • 'cause they coexistso beautifully
  • 00:08:26.398 --> 00:08:27.666
  • so beautifullyin the Christian life
  • 00:08:27.666 --> 00:08:29.734
  • in the Christian lifethat there is hard and sad
  • 00:08:29.734 --> 00:08:32.571
  • that there is hard and sadand there is good and grateful
  • 00:08:32.571 --> 00:08:34.472
  • and there is good and gratefuland holy and sacred,
  • 00:08:34.472 --> 00:08:36.107
  • and holy and sacred,and that is not separate.
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  • and that is not separate.We had a suffering Savior
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  • We had a suffering Saviordie for us and come to life,
  • 00:08:41.580 --> 00:08:43.048
  • die for us and come to life,and it's so glorious
  • 00:08:43.048 --> 00:08:44.349
  • and it's so gloriousand beautiful,
  • 00:08:44.349 --> 00:08:47.152
  • and beautiful,but we kind of overlook.
  • 00:08:47.152 --> 00:08:49.054
  • but we kind of overlook.There was a lot of sadness
  • 00:08:49.054 --> 00:08:52.157
  • There was a lot of sadnessand suffering in His story,
  • 00:08:52.157 --> 00:08:53.124
  • and suffering in His story,and that to be part
  • 00:08:53.124 --> 00:08:54.025
  • and that to be partof our story,
  • 00:08:54.025 --> 00:08:54.793
  • of our story,and I think we need
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  • and I think we needto own that more
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  • to own that moreand be better
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  • and be betteras a Christian community
  • 00:08:59.064 --> 00:09:00.365
  • as a Christian communityabout speaking that.
  • 00:09:00.365 --> 00:09:02.000
  • about speaking that.So, I wanted to tell you,
  • 00:09:02.000 --> 00:09:04.703
  • So, I wanted to tell you,that's hard, that's painful,
  • 00:09:04.703 --> 00:09:07.272
  • that's hard, that's painful,and it really, really,
  • 00:09:07.272 --> 00:09:08.573
  • and it really, really,I don't want to say a bad word,
  • 00:09:08.573 --> 00:09:09.774
  • I don't want to say a bad word,but stinks,
  • 00:09:09.774 --> 00:09:11.076
  • but stinks,and I don't get
  • 00:09:11.076 --> 00:09:12.043
  • and I don't getthat moment back,
  • 00:09:12.043 --> 00:09:14.312
  • that moment back,and I'm kind of mad about it,
  • 00:09:14.312 --> 00:09:15.013
  • and I'm kind of mad about it,and I'll stay that way
  • 00:09:15.013 --> 00:09:15.814
  • and I'll stay that wayfor life.
  • 00:09:15.814 --> 00:09:17.482
  • for life.Not really.
  • 00:09:17.482 --> 00:09:20.218
  • Not really.But I'm kind of mad.
  • 00:09:20.218 --> 00:09:22.721
  • But I'm kind of mad.I did eventually move out
  • 00:09:22.721 --> 00:09:23.688
  • I did eventually move outof the acute rehab
  • 00:09:23.688 --> 00:09:26.358
  • of the acute rehabwhen I was a little bit better,
  • 00:09:26.358 --> 00:09:26.858
  • when I was a little bit better,not much,
  • 00:09:26.858 --> 00:09:28.460
  • not much,I was deemed okay to move
  • 00:09:28.460 --> 00:09:29.561
  • I was deemed okay to moveto this group
  • 00:09:29.561 --> 00:09:31.463
  • to this groupbrain rehab facility,
  • 00:09:31.463 --> 00:09:34.199
  • brain rehab facility,and in the group brain rehab,
  • 00:09:34.199 --> 00:09:35.500
  • and in the group brain rehab,it was really awful
  • 00:09:35.500 --> 00:09:36.434
  • it was really awfulin many ways.
  • 00:09:36.434 --> 00:09:38.169
  • in many ways.Really hard.
  • 00:09:38.169 --> 00:09:39.471
  • Really hard.People were dying
  • 00:09:39.471 --> 00:09:40.639
  • People were dyingand not getting well.
  • 00:09:40.639 --> 00:09:42.140
  • and not getting well.People were depressed
  • 00:09:42.140 --> 00:09:44.142
  • People were depressedlike none other,
  • 00:09:44.142 --> 00:09:46.411
  • like none other,and people are, like,
  • 00:09:46.411 --> 00:09:48.146
  • and people are, like,I mean, helmets on,
  • 00:09:48.146 --> 00:09:49.614
  • I mean, helmets on,surgeries not healing correctly.
  • 00:09:49.614 --> 00:09:50.849
  • surgeries not healing correctly.I mean, a brain rehab
  • 00:09:50.849 --> 00:09:53.485
  • I mean, a brain rehabis a very, very dark place.
  • 00:09:53.485 --> 00:09:54.452
  • is a very, very dark place.And it's complicated
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  • And it's complicatedbecause I was getting well
  • 00:09:56.621 --> 00:09:59.357
  • because I was getting wellvery, very, very, very slowly,
  • 00:09:59.357 --> 00:09:59.991
  • very, very, very, very slowly,and it would be
  • 00:09:59.991 --> 00:10:00.759
  • and it would bea year and a half
  • 00:10:00.759 --> 00:10:03.061
  • a year and a halfat that brain rehab facility,
  • 00:10:03.061 --> 00:10:04.896
  • at that brain rehab facility,and I would relearn everything,
  • 00:10:04.896 --> 00:10:07.332
  • and I would relearn everything,but it was very hard and dark,
  • 00:10:07.332 --> 00:10:08.433
  • but it was very hard and dark,and everybody asks
  • 00:10:08.433 --> 00:10:09.768
  • and everybody asksif I had a moment
  • 00:10:09.768 --> 00:10:11.202
  • if I had a momentof total despair
  • 00:10:11.202 --> 00:10:12.203
  • of total despairwhere I thought, like,
  • 00:10:12.203 --> 00:10:13.238
  • where I thought, like,"I'm not going to be able
  • 00:10:13.238 --> 00:10:14.906
  • "I'm not going to be ableto stay on Earth."
  • 00:10:14.906 --> 00:10:16.307
  • to stay on Earth."And I say yes and no
  • 00:10:16.307 --> 00:10:17.275
  • And I say yes and nobecause I don't think
  • 00:10:17.275 --> 00:10:18.910
  • because I don't thinkI really fully did
  • 00:10:18.910 --> 00:10:20.945
  • I really fully didor wouldn't be here today,
  • 00:10:20.945 --> 00:10:23.048
  • or wouldn't be here today,but I came dangerously close
  • 00:10:23.048 --> 00:10:24.883
  • but I came dangerously closein the fall of 2008
  • 00:10:24.883 --> 00:10:27.252
  • in the fall of 2008right before Thanksgiving
  • 00:10:27.252 --> 00:10:28.253
  • right before Thanksgivingof that first year.
  • 00:10:28.253 --> 00:10:31.022
  • of that first year.So, it'd been about six months
  • 00:10:31.022 --> 00:10:32.390
  • So, it'd been about six monthssince I had the stroke,
  • 00:10:32.390 --> 00:10:36.461
  • since I had the stroke,and I was doing swallow therapy
  • 00:10:36.461 --> 00:10:37.696
  • and I was doing swallow therapyto try to help me eat again
  • 00:10:37.696 --> 00:10:38.930
  • to try to help me eat again'cause I still could not
  • 00:10:38.930 --> 00:10:40.131
  • 'cause I still could noteat food,
  • 00:10:40.131 --> 00:10:42.067
  • eat food,and they would test me,
  • 00:10:42.067 --> 00:10:43.768
  • and they would test me,and I would, you know,
  • 00:10:43.768 --> 00:10:45.203
  • and I would, you know,take something in my mouth,
  • 00:10:45.203 --> 00:10:46.905
  • take something in my mouth,and they'd watch on X-ray
  • 00:10:46.905 --> 00:10:48.606
  • and they'd watch on X-rayand it wasn't going down.
  • 00:10:48.606 --> 00:10:50.809
  • and it wasn't going down.So, they told me --
  • 00:10:50.809 --> 00:10:52.577
  • So, they told me --They actually said,
  • 00:10:52.577 --> 00:10:53.178
  • They actually said,"Do you think
  • 00:10:53.178 --> 00:10:54.813
  • "Do you thinkyou're swallowing?"
  • 00:10:54.813 --> 00:10:57.182
  • you're swallowing?"And I'm like, "Of course,"
  • 00:10:57.182 --> 00:10:59.084
  • And I'm like, "Of course,"and I wasn't at all.
  • 00:10:59.084 --> 00:11:00.652
  • and I wasn't at all.So, Jay wheeled me back
  • 00:11:00.652 --> 00:11:03.288
  • So, Jay wheeled me backto the house we were renting.
  • 00:11:03.288 --> 00:11:05.523
  • to the house we were renting.I'm starting to think, like,
  • 00:11:05.523 --> 00:11:07.225
  • I'm starting to think, like,"Oh, maybe I'm not
  • 00:11:07.225 --> 00:11:08.393
  • "Oh, maybe I'm notgonna get well.
  • 00:11:08.393 --> 00:11:10.228
  • gonna get well.Maybe this is it."
  • 00:11:10.228 --> 00:11:11.496
  • Maybe this is it."And Jay proceeds
  • 00:11:11.496 --> 00:11:13.164
  • And Jay proceedsto the front of this big room
  • 00:11:13.164 --> 00:11:14.165
  • to the front of this big roomand leaves me in the back
  • 00:11:14.165 --> 00:11:14.899
  • and leaves me in the backin the wheelchair
  • 00:11:14.899 --> 00:11:16.234
  • in the wheelchairwith my neck
  • 00:11:16.234 --> 00:11:18.002
  • with my neckunable to hold my head up.
  • 00:11:18.002 --> 00:11:18.803
  • unable to hold my head up.He goes to the front
  • 00:11:18.803 --> 00:11:19.804
  • He goes to the frontof this room,
  • 00:11:19.804 --> 00:11:20.905
  • of this room,and he starts interacting
  • 00:11:20.905 --> 00:11:22.006
  • and he starts interactingwith his sisters
  • 00:11:22.006 --> 00:11:23.241
  • with his sisterswho were in town,
  • 00:11:23.241 --> 00:11:24.542
  • who were in town,and baby James
  • 00:11:24.542 --> 00:11:26.177
  • and baby Jamesis now one year old.
  • 00:11:26.177 --> 00:11:28.613
  • is now one year old.So, I'm like watching the scene,
  • 00:11:28.613 --> 00:11:30.515
  • So, I'm like watching the scene,and in my mind, like,
  • 00:11:30.515 --> 00:11:32.350
  • and in my mind, like,everybody is frolicking,
  • 00:11:32.350 --> 00:11:33.551
  • everybody is frolicking,and it's joyful,
  • 00:11:33.551 --> 00:11:34.219
  • and it's joyful,and I'm, like,
  • 00:11:34.219 --> 00:11:35.186
  • and I'm, like,in the back of the room
  • 00:11:35.186 --> 00:11:36.287
  • in the back of the roomwatching this, like,
  • 00:11:36.287 --> 00:11:37.655
  • watching this, like,take place.
  • 00:11:37.655 --> 00:11:41.426
  • take place.And so, in those moments,
  • 00:11:41.426 --> 00:11:43.495
  • And so, in those moments,I see, like,
  • 00:11:43.495 --> 00:11:48.066
  • I see, like,oh, I shouldn't be here.
  • 00:11:48.066 --> 00:11:50.535
  • oh, I shouldn't be here.If I were gone,
  • 00:11:50.535 --> 00:11:51.803
  • If I were gone,everybody could eventually
  • 00:11:51.803 --> 00:11:53.872
  • everybody could eventuallystop being so sad.
  • 00:11:53.872 --> 00:11:54.773
  • stop being so sad.If I were gone,
  • 00:11:54.773 --> 00:11:56.741
  • If I were gone,Jay could remarry.
  • 00:11:56.741 --> 00:11:57.442
  • Jay could remarry.James could have
  • 00:11:57.442 --> 00:11:59.010
  • James could havea normal mommy.
  • 00:11:59.010 --> 00:12:02.213
  • a normal mommy.God clearly made a mistake
  • 00:12:02.213 --> 00:12:03.481
  • God clearly made a mistakewith my life.
  • 00:12:03.481 --> 00:12:05.416
  • with my life.I'm caught between life
  • 00:12:05.416 --> 00:12:05.917
  • I'm caught between lifeand death.
  • 00:12:05.917 --> 00:12:07.418
  • and death.I should've died.
  • 00:12:07.418 --> 00:12:08.720
  • I should've died.Like, I shouldn't be here
  • 00:12:08.720 --> 00:12:10.021
  • Like, I shouldn't be herein this state.
  • 00:12:10.021 --> 00:12:11.122
  • in this state.I can't even eat food.
  • 00:12:11.122 --> 00:12:12.724
  • I can't even eat food.I'm never gonna eat food.
  • 00:12:12.724 --> 00:12:13.691
  • I'm never gonna eat food.I can't walk.
  • 00:12:13.691 --> 00:12:14.926
  • I can't walk.I can't do anything.
  • 00:12:14.926 --> 00:12:17.162
  • I can't do anything.Like, this can't be
  • 00:12:17.162 --> 00:12:20.165
  • Like, this can't bewhat God had,
  • 00:12:20.165 --> 00:12:20.999
  • what God had,and that's where some of you,
  • 00:12:20.999 --> 00:12:22.300
  • and that's where some of you,because I know some of you
  • 00:12:22.300 --> 00:12:24.068
  • because I know some of youfeel that way,
  • 00:12:24.068 --> 00:12:26.638
  • feel that way,that God made a mistake.
  • 00:12:26.638 --> 00:12:29.674
  • that God made a mistake.And in that, like,
  • 00:12:29.674 --> 00:12:33.945
  • And in that, like,moment fully landing on me,
  • 00:12:33.945 --> 00:12:35.046
  • moment fully landing on me,it's hard to describe
  • 00:12:35.046 --> 00:12:37.448
  • it's hard to describebut there was this crazy
  • 00:12:37.448 --> 00:12:40.051
  • but there was this crazyawakening of everything
  • 00:12:40.051 --> 00:12:41.252
  • awakening of everythingI ever believed
  • 00:12:41.252 --> 00:12:42.520
  • I ever believedsince I received Christ
  • 00:12:42.520 --> 00:12:44.722
  • since I received Christas a four-year-old literally.
  • 00:12:44.722 --> 00:12:45.957
  • as a four-year-old literally.Everything kind of, like,
  • 00:12:45.957 --> 00:12:47.025
  • Everything kind of, like,washed over me,
  • 00:12:47.025 --> 00:12:48.960
  • washed over me,I know it was supernatural,
  • 00:12:48.960 --> 00:12:56.634
  • I know it was supernatural,to where I could almost hear,
  • 00:12:56.634 --> 00:12:59.003
  • to where I could almost hear,in a nutshell,
  • 00:12:59.003 --> 00:13:01.973
  • in a nutshell,"Katherine, you are not
  • 00:13:01.973 --> 00:13:03.308
  • "Katherine, you are nota mistake
  • 00:13:03.308 --> 00:13:06.911
  • a mistakebecause I don't make mistakes!
  • 00:13:06.911 --> 00:13:09.314
  • - Yeah, thanks be to God.
  • 00:13:15.420 --> 00:13:16.321
  • - Yeah, thanks be to God."I know better.
  • 00:13:16.321 --> 00:13:17.789
  • "I know better.I'm God.
  • 00:13:17.789 --> 00:13:18.756
  • I'm God.You're not.
  • 00:13:18.756 --> 00:13:19.190
  • You're not.Believe me.
  • 00:13:19.190 --> 00:13:20.792
  • Believe me.This is all a part
  • 00:13:20.792 --> 00:13:23.361
  • This is all a partof what I am doing.
  • 00:13:23.361 --> 00:13:24.229
  • of what I am doing.Just wait.
  • 00:13:24.229 --> 00:13:25.563
  • Just wait.You're gonna see, Katherine.
  • 00:13:25.563 --> 00:13:27.065
  • You're gonna see, Katherine.Don't you trust
  • 00:13:27.065 --> 00:13:30.268
  • Don't you trustsome how my sovereignty
  • 00:13:30.268 --> 00:13:31.469
  • some how my sovereigntyand know that ultimately
  • 00:13:31.469 --> 00:13:34.205
  • and know that ultimatelyI am at work in your story,
  • 00:13:34.205 --> 00:13:35.707
  • I am at work in your story,in every story?
  • 00:13:35.707 --> 00:13:37.308
  • in every story?How could you possibly think
  • 00:13:37.308 --> 00:13:39.210
  • How could you possibly thinkthis is the end in despair?
  • 00:13:39.210 --> 00:13:40.678
  • this is the end in despair?Don't you know
  • 00:13:40.678 --> 00:13:42.647
  • Don't you knowthat ultimately you were
  • 00:13:42.647 --> 00:13:43.915
  • that ultimately you werefruitfully and wonderfully
  • 00:13:43.915 --> 00:13:45.316
  • fruitfully and wonderfullymade in your mother's womb,
  • 00:13:45.316 --> 00:13:46.584
  • made in your mother's womb,and that is when the AVM
  • 00:13:46.584 --> 00:13:47.619
  • and that is when the AVMformed in your brain
  • 00:13:47.619 --> 00:13:49.621
  • formed in your brainin utero?
  • 00:13:49.621 --> 00:13:51.956
  • in utero?It's all somehow
  • 00:13:51.956 --> 00:13:53.324
  • It's all somehowthat you don't understand
  • 00:13:53.324 --> 00:13:54.826
  • that you don't understanda perfect part
  • 00:13:54.826 --> 00:13:57.395
  • a perfect partof what I am doing in your life.
  • 00:13:57.395 --> 00:13:58.763
  • of what I am doing in your life.If anything, Katherine,
  • 00:13:58.763 --> 00:13:59.864
  • If anything, Katherine,in this moment,
  • 00:13:59.864 --> 00:14:02.533
  • in this moment,you need to feel chosen
  • 00:14:02.533 --> 00:14:03.868
  • you need to feel chosenwhich is a radical feeling,
  • 00:14:03.868 --> 00:14:05.904
  • which is a radical feeling,but Katherine, you need to feel
  • 00:14:05.904 --> 00:14:08.439
  • but Katherine, you need to feelchosen by God
  • 00:14:08.439 --> 00:14:11.075
  • chosen by Godbecause this is very special.
  • 00:14:11.075 --> 00:14:12.377
  • because this is very special.Most people will not live
  • 00:14:12.377 --> 00:14:13.778
  • Most people will not livethis life.
  • 00:14:13.778 --> 00:14:14.612
  • this life.They've got other stuff,
  • 00:14:14.612 --> 00:14:15.680
  • They've got other stuff,but not this.
  • 00:14:15.680 --> 00:14:17.982
  • but not this.I've chosen you for this.
  • 00:14:17.982 --> 00:14:20.084
  • I've chosen you for this.So, it's time to get ready
  • 00:14:20.084 --> 00:14:22.420
  • So, it's time to get readyusing this special calling
  • 00:14:22.420 --> 00:14:23.821
  • using this special callingthat you've received.
  • 00:14:23.821 --> 00:14:25.323
  • that you've received.Ultimately, this is
  • 00:14:25.323 --> 00:14:27.759
  • Ultimately, this isan opportunity to recognize,
  • 00:14:27.759 --> 00:14:30.662
  • an opportunity to recognize,like, this is a platform.
  • 00:14:30.662 --> 00:14:32.597
  • like, this is a platform.Pain is a tremendous platform.
  • 00:14:32.597 --> 00:14:33.998
  • Pain is a tremendous platform.Don't waste this platform,
  • 00:14:33.998 --> 00:14:35.066
  • Don't waste this platform,Katherine.
  • 00:14:35.066 --> 00:14:37.535
  • Katherine.Like, this is hard,
  • 00:14:37.535 --> 00:14:39.804
  • Like, this is hard,but it is so good.
  • 00:14:39.804 --> 00:14:41.739
  • but it is so good.Katherine, this is not
  • 00:14:41.739 --> 00:14:44.309
  • Katherine, this is notthe end of your story."
  • 00:14:44.309 --> 00:14:45.343
  • the end of your story."Oh, no, no,
  • 00:14:45.343 --> 00:14:46.344
  • Oh, no, no,this is the beginning
  • 00:14:46.344 --> 00:14:48.313
  • this is the beginningof a much better story
  • 00:14:48.313 --> 00:14:50.014
  • of a much better storythat God is writing,
  • 00:14:50.014 --> 00:14:52.850
  • that God is writing,and somehow all those thoughts,
  • 00:14:52.850 --> 00:14:54.819
  • and somehow all those thoughts,a million Bible verses
  • 00:14:54.819 --> 00:14:57.121
  • a million Bible versesI didn't even know that I knew
  • 00:14:57.121 --> 00:14:57.755
  • I didn't even know that I knewthat were, like,
  • 00:14:57.755 --> 00:14:59.457
  • that were, like,flooding out of me
  • 00:14:59.457 --> 00:15:01.559
  • flooding out of meequaled this, like,
  • 00:15:01.559 --> 00:15:04.162
  • equaled this, like,feeling of, like,
  • 00:15:04.162 --> 00:15:05.296
  • feeling of, like,it's hard to put into words,
  • 00:15:05.296 --> 00:15:07.432
  • it's hard to put into words,but chosen by God.
  • 00:15:07.432 --> 00:15:08.733
  • but chosen by God.Like, so special.
  • 00:15:08.733 --> 00:15:10.802
  • Like, so special.Like, Lord,
  • 00:15:10.802 --> 00:15:12.337
  • Like, Lord,I can't believe this,
  • 00:15:12.337 --> 00:15:14.372
  • I can't believe this,and I can distinctly remember
  • 00:15:14.372 --> 00:15:18.609
  • and I can distinctly rememberalmost like I have a secret.
  • 00:15:18.609 --> 00:15:19.477
  • almost like I have a secret.I can't believe this.
  • 00:15:19.477 --> 00:15:22.647
  • I can't believe this.I have a secret weapon,
  • 00:15:22.647 --> 00:15:25.750
  • I have a secret weapon,and G.K. Chesterton
  • 00:15:25.750 --> 00:15:26.584
  • and G.K. Chestertondid say that,
  • 00:15:26.584 --> 00:15:28.386
  • did say that,that "joy is the secret weapon
  • 00:15:28.386 --> 00:15:29.754
  • that "joy is the secret weaponof the Christian life,"
  • 00:15:29.754 --> 00:15:31.656
  • of the Christian life,"and I wholeheartedly agree,
  • 00:15:31.656 --> 00:15:32.423
  • and I wholeheartedly agree,but in that moment,
  • 00:15:32.423 --> 00:15:34.025
  • but in that moment,I felt very chosen.
  • 00:15:34.025 --> 00:15:35.727
  • I felt very chosen.The Ephesians 4:1 notion.
  • 00:15:35.727 --> 00:15:37.128
  • - From that moment,
  • 00:15:40.264 --> 00:15:41.866
  • - From that moment,you would maybe wanna think
  • 00:15:41.866 --> 00:15:43.568
  • you would maybe wanna thinkthat then everything magically
  • 00:15:43.568 --> 00:15:44.969
  • that then everything magicallycame back,
  • 00:15:44.969 --> 00:15:45.870
  • came back,and Katherine jumped up,
  • 00:15:45.870 --> 00:15:47.472
  • and Katherine jumped up,and she could eat a meal again,
  • 00:15:47.472 --> 00:15:48.373
  • and she could eat a meal again,and she was running around
  • 00:15:48.373 --> 00:15:49.140
  • and she was running aroundwith her child,
  • 00:15:49.140 --> 00:15:51.309
  • with her child,but it took another six months
  • 00:15:51.309 --> 00:15:52.210
  • but it took another six monthsafter that moment
  • 00:15:52.210 --> 00:15:53.177
  • after that momentfor her to even pass
  • 00:15:53.177 --> 00:15:55.346
  • for her to even passa swallow test eventually
  • 00:15:55.346 --> 00:15:55.880
  • a swallow test eventuallyand another year
  • 00:15:55.880 --> 00:15:56.914
  • and another yearuntil she could walk a little
  • 00:15:56.914 --> 00:15:58.316
  • until she could walk a littleand a year a half
  • 00:15:58.316 --> 00:15:59.350
  • and a year a halfuntil we got to go back home
  • 00:15:59.350 --> 00:16:00.218
  • until we got to go back hometo L.A.,
  • 00:16:00.218 --> 00:16:01.419
  • to L.A.,and I think so often
  • 00:16:01.419 --> 00:16:02.387
  • and I think so oftenwhen we go through suffering,
  • 00:16:02.387 --> 00:16:03.621
  • when we go through suffering,we think we've bargained
  • 00:16:03.621 --> 00:16:05.757
  • we think we've bargainedwith God that now
  • 00:16:05.757 --> 00:16:06.824
  • with God that nowthat we've gone through that,
  • 00:16:06.824 --> 00:16:07.759
  • that we've gone through that,God, you won't ever let
  • 00:16:07.759 --> 00:16:10.928
  • God, you won't ever letanother hard thing happen,
  • 00:16:10.928 --> 00:16:12.230
  • another hard thing happen,that we sort of get to check off
  • 00:16:12.230 --> 00:16:13.297
  • that we sort of get to check offthe suffering box
  • 00:16:13.297 --> 00:16:14.265
  • the suffering boxfrom our bucket list,
  • 00:16:14.265 --> 00:16:14.632
  • from our bucket list,you know,
  • 00:16:14.632 --> 00:16:16.100
  • you know,and go on to the vacations
  • 00:16:16.100 --> 00:16:16.934
  • and go on to the vacationsthat would be fun
  • 00:16:16.934 --> 00:16:18.069
  • that would be funand tropical after that.
  • 00:16:18.069 --> 00:16:20.138
  • and tropical after that.And God's like,
  • 00:16:20.138 --> 00:16:21.906
  • And God's like,"That's not the point."
  • 00:16:21.906 --> 00:16:22.473
  • "That's not the point."And I remember
  • 00:16:22.473 --> 00:16:23.908
  • And I rememberwe went back to L.A.
  • 00:16:23.908 --> 00:16:24.942
  • we went back to L.A.That fall we met
  • 00:16:24.942 --> 00:16:25.777
  • That fall we metwith Dr. Gonzalez,
  • 00:16:25.777 --> 00:16:27.211
  • with Dr. Gonzalez,the neurosurgeon,
  • 00:16:27.211 --> 00:16:29.013
  • the neurosurgeon,and he had become a dear friend
  • 00:16:29.013 --> 00:16:31.249
  • and he had become a dear friendand came into the room crying,
  • 00:16:31.249 --> 00:16:32.083
  • and came into the room crying,and it's not great
  • 00:16:32.083 --> 00:16:33.551
  • and it's not greatwhen your doctor is crying
  • 00:16:33.551 --> 00:16:34.485
  • when your doctor is cryingwhen he comes to tell you
  • 00:16:34.485 --> 00:16:35.319
  • when he comes to tell yousomething about your life
  • 00:16:35.319 --> 00:16:36.821
  • something about your lifeand your health,
  • 00:16:36.821 --> 00:16:38.289
  • and your health,and he's like,
  • 00:16:38.289 --> 00:16:39.724
  • and he's like,"You have an aneurysm
  • 00:16:39.724 --> 00:16:40.691
  • "You have an aneurysmin your brain.
  • 00:16:40.691 --> 00:16:41.259
  • in your brain.Another one.
  • 00:16:41.259 --> 00:16:42.794
  • Another one.A totally separate aneurysm
  • 00:16:42.794 --> 00:16:43.861
  • A totally separate aneurysmbehind your good eye
  • 00:16:43.861 --> 00:16:44.796
  • behind your good eyethat was unaffected
  • 00:16:44.796 --> 00:16:46.297
  • that was unaffectedfrom your first stroke."
  • 00:16:46.297 --> 00:16:47.432
  • from your first stroke."And you know, in that moment,
  • 00:16:47.432 --> 00:16:48.266
  • And you know, in that moment,we felt really kicked
  • 00:16:48.266 --> 00:16:48.800
  • we felt really kickedin the gut.
  • 00:16:48.800 --> 00:16:49.467
  • in the gut.We felt chosen,
  • 00:16:49.467 --> 00:16:50.435
  • We felt chosen,but we also then felt
  • 00:16:50.435 --> 00:16:51.035
  • but we also then feltkind of betrayed,
  • 00:16:51.035 --> 00:16:51.636
  • kind of betrayed,like, God, I thought
  • 00:16:51.636 --> 00:16:52.670
  • like, God, I thoughtyou'd take the brain stuff
  • 00:16:52.670 --> 00:16:54.439
  • you'd take the brain stuffoff the table at least,
  • 00:16:54.439 --> 00:16:55.039
  • off the table at least,that we've already
  • 00:16:55.039 --> 00:16:57.308
  • that we've alreadybeen through all of this.
  • 00:16:57.308 --> 00:16:58.910
  • been through all of this.And God really taught us
  • 00:16:58.910 --> 00:17:00.111
  • And God really taught usin that season
  • 00:17:00.111 --> 00:17:01.446
  • in that seasonand to this day
  • 00:17:01.446 --> 00:17:02.780
  • and to this dayand all of you as well
  • 00:17:02.780 --> 00:17:04.615
  • and all of you as welland all of us
  • 00:17:04.615 --> 00:17:05.883
  • and all of usthat we're at this crossroads
  • 00:17:05.883 --> 00:17:07.518
  • that we're at this crossroadsevery day when we wake up,
  • 00:17:07.518 --> 00:17:08.286
  • every day when we wake up,and God is asking,
  • 00:17:08.286 --> 00:17:09.320
  • and God is asking,"What is it that you really
  • 00:17:09.320 --> 00:17:11.055
  • "What is it that you reallywant from Me?
  • 00:17:11.055 --> 00:17:11.656
  • want from Me?Do you just think
  • 00:17:11.656 --> 00:17:13.591
  • Do you just thinkI'm a really good giver of gifts
  • 00:17:13.591 --> 00:17:14.292
  • I'm a really good giver of giftsthat you feel like
  • 00:17:14.292 --> 00:17:16.260
  • that you feel likeyou're entitled to now,
  • 00:17:16.260 --> 00:17:17.662
  • you're entitled to now,to dreams and to a life
  • 00:17:17.662 --> 00:17:19.163
  • to dreams and to a lifeyou think you deserve
  • 00:17:19.163 --> 00:17:19.797
  • you think you deserveand that if you say
  • 00:17:19.797 --> 00:17:20.832
  • and that if you sayand do the right things with Me
  • 00:17:20.832 --> 00:17:22.133
  • and do the right things with Methat I will give that to you?"
  • 00:17:22.133 --> 00:17:23.301
  • that I will give that to you?"- Right.
  • 00:17:23.301 --> 00:17:25.103
  • - Right.- "Because I'm offering you
  • 00:17:25.103 --> 00:17:25.703
  • - "Because I'm offering youa relationship
  • 00:17:25.703 --> 00:17:27.071
  • a relationshipwith the Giver of every good
  • 00:17:27.071 --> 00:17:28.973
  • with the Giver of every goodand perfect gift in the world.
  • 00:17:28.973 --> 00:17:29.807
  • and perfect gift in the world.That's Me.
  • 00:17:29.807 --> 00:17:31.075
  • That's Me.Do you wanna just not hurt
  • 00:17:31.075 --> 00:17:32.176
  • Do you wanna just not hurtso much or do you wanna know
  • 00:17:32.176 --> 00:17:33.978
  • so much or do you wanna knowthe Healer of all the world?
  • 00:17:33.978 --> 00:17:35.046
  • the Healer of all the world?'Cause that's Me.
  • 00:17:35.046 --> 00:17:36.714
  • 'Cause that's Me.You were asking Me
  • 00:17:36.714 --> 00:17:37.315
  • You were asking Mefor these things
  • 00:17:37.315 --> 00:17:38.850
  • for these thingslike healing of your body,
  • 00:17:38.850 --> 00:17:39.784
  • like healing of your body,and you're setting the bar
  • 00:17:39.784 --> 00:17:41.786
  • and you're setting the bartoo low in your life right now
  • 00:17:41.786 --> 00:17:42.720
  • too low in your life right nowbecause I'm offering you
  • 00:17:42.720 --> 00:17:44.822
  • because I'm offering youhealing of your soul."
  • 00:17:44.822 --> 00:17:45.490
  • healing of your soul."And that's what God
  • 00:17:45.490 --> 00:17:46.791
  • And that's what Godis teaching us
  • 00:17:46.791 --> 00:17:50.361
  • is teaching usand you every day.
  • 00:17:50.361 --> 00:17:51.329
  • and you every day.And so, God has invited us
  • 00:17:51.329 --> 00:17:52.864
  • And so, God has invited usinto this new normal
  • 00:17:52.864 --> 00:17:54.232
  • into this new normalthat's been really hard
  • 00:17:54.232 --> 00:17:54.632
  • that's been really hardand not just
  • 00:17:54.632 --> 00:17:56.100
  • and not justa straight-up trajectory,
  • 00:17:56.100 --> 00:17:56.767
  • a straight-up trajectory,but He said,
  • 00:17:56.767 --> 00:17:58.603
  • but He said,"The place of your wounding,"
  • 00:17:58.603 --> 00:17:59.537
  • "The place of your wounding,"as Katherine said,
  • 00:17:59.537 --> 00:18:00.605
  • as Katherine said,"is going to be the place
  • 00:18:00.605 --> 00:18:01.439
  • "is going to be the placeof your healing,
  • 00:18:01.439 --> 00:18:02.540
  • of your healing,and more than that,
  • 00:18:02.540 --> 00:18:03.274
  • and more than that,it's gonna be the place
  • 00:18:03.274 --> 00:18:05.143
  • it's gonna be the placeof somebody else's healing too."
  • 00:18:05.143 --> 00:18:05.843
  • of somebody else's healing too."- Yeah.
  • 00:18:05.843 --> 00:18:06.210
  • - Yeah.- And arguably,
  • 00:18:06.210 --> 00:18:07.612
  • - And arguably,your healing can't even start
  • 00:18:07.612 --> 00:18:08.446
  • your healing can't even startuntil you look outside
  • 00:18:08.446 --> 00:18:08.980
  • until you look outsidefrom yourself
  • 00:18:08.980 --> 00:18:09.881
  • from yourselfand look at the world
  • 00:18:09.881 --> 00:18:11.349
  • and look at the worldaround you in need
  • 00:18:11.349 --> 00:18:12.950
  • around you in needand to be a part
  • 00:18:12.950 --> 00:18:13.851
  • and to be a partof somebody else's healing
  • 00:18:13.851 --> 00:18:14.919
  • of somebody else's healingis perhaps the most
  • 00:18:14.919 --> 00:18:15.586
  • is perhaps the mosthealing thing
  • 00:18:15.586 --> 00:18:16.621
  • healing thingwe get to do together.
  • 00:18:16.621 --> 00:18:17.955
  • we get to do together.And so, as Paul says
  • 00:18:17.955 --> 00:18:18.689
  • And so, as Paul saysin 2 Corinthians,
  • 00:18:18.689 --> 00:18:20.191
  • in 2 Corinthians,we get to take the comfort.
  • 00:18:20.191 --> 00:18:20.691
  • we get to take the comfort.We've received
  • 00:18:20.691 --> 00:18:21.692
  • We've receivedand not just
  • 00:18:21.692 --> 00:18:22.827
  • and not justin the Western Americanized
  • 00:18:22.827 --> 00:18:24.095
  • in the Western Americanizedversion of the Bible,
  • 00:18:24.095 --> 00:18:25.129
  • version of the Bible,be comfortable now.
  • 00:18:25.129 --> 00:18:26.531
  • be comfortable now.Thank God.
  • 00:18:26.531 --> 00:18:27.498
  • Thank God.We get to take the comfort
  • 00:18:27.498 --> 00:18:28.032
  • We get to take the comfortwe've received
  • 00:18:28.032 --> 00:18:28.599
  • we've receivedand give it away
  • 00:18:28.599 --> 00:18:29.567
  • and give it awayto those who need it.
  • 00:18:29.567 --> 00:18:30.201
  • - To hope it forward.
  • 00:18:32.370 --> 00:18:33.604
  • - To hope it forward.And so, God invited us to go
  • 00:18:33.604 --> 00:18:34.272
  • And so, God invited us to goback to the place
  • 00:18:34.272 --> 00:18:35.006
  • back to the placewe never wanted to go
  • 00:18:35.006 --> 00:18:36.674
  • we never wanted to gowhich is the brain rehabs
  • 00:18:36.674 --> 00:18:39.277
  • which is the brain rehabsand love on and minister to
  • 00:18:39.277 --> 00:18:41.479
  • and love on and minister toand send a special message
  • 00:18:41.479 --> 00:18:42.213
  • and send a special messageto those who have gone
  • 00:18:42.213 --> 00:18:43.915
  • to those who have gonethrough brain injury
  • 00:18:43.915 --> 00:18:46.617
  • through brain injurystroke disability
  • 00:18:46.617 --> 00:18:47.618
  • stroke disabilityto say it looks like
  • 00:18:47.618 --> 00:18:48.719
  • to say it looks likethe end of your story,
  • 00:18:48.719 --> 00:18:49.220
  • the end of your story,but it's not
  • 00:18:49.220 --> 00:18:51.656
  • but it's notthe end of your story yet.
  • 00:18:51.656 --> 00:18:53.524
  • the end of your story yet.We've been there,
  • 00:18:53.524 --> 00:18:54.759
  • We've been there,and we're moving forward
  • 00:18:54.759 --> 00:18:56.227
  • and we're moving forwardin this new story together.
  • 00:18:56.227 --> 00:18:58.696
  • in this new story together.And so, we started a camp
  • 00:18:58.696 --> 00:19:00.131
  • And so, we started a campuplifted and supported
  • 00:19:00.131 --> 00:19:00.698
  • uplifted and supportedby so many folks
  • 00:19:00.698 --> 00:19:01.566
  • by so many folksat Passion, too,
  • 00:19:01.566 --> 00:19:03.634
  • at Passion, too,called Hope Heals Camp,
  • 00:19:03.634 --> 00:19:05.203
  • called Hope Heals Camp,and it's a place for families
  • 00:19:05.203 --> 00:19:05.770
  • and it's a place for familieswith disabilities
  • 00:19:05.770 --> 00:19:07.672
  • with disabilitiesto find healing, and respite,
  • 00:19:07.672 --> 00:19:08.506
  • to find healing, and respite,and relationships,
  • 00:19:08.506 --> 00:19:08.973
  • and relationships,and community,
  • 00:19:08.973 --> 00:19:10.041
  • and community,and we just finished
  • 00:19:10.041 --> 00:19:12.143
  • and we just finishedour third year of it.
  • 00:19:12.143 --> 00:19:13.411
  • our third year of it.We had 800 people, y'all,
  • 00:19:13.411 --> 00:19:15.546
  • We had 800 people, y'all,from 35 states and the U.K.
  • 00:19:15.546 --> 00:19:16.781
  • from 35 states and the U.K.come to Alabama
  • 00:19:16.781 --> 00:19:19.150
  • come to Alabamawhere it was like 110 degrees
  • 00:19:19.150 --> 00:19:20.818
  • where it was like 110 degreesand come and find Jesus together
  • 00:19:20.818 --> 00:19:21.953
  • and come and find Jesus togetherin the midst of our pain.
  • 00:19:21.953 --> 00:19:25.056
  • in the midst of our pain.- Whoa!
  • 00:19:25.056 --> 00:19:27.625
  • - Whoa!So, 35 states.
  • 00:19:27.625 --> 00:19:28.559
  • So, 35 states.Right?
  • 00:19:28.559 --> 00:19:30.394
  • Right?People coming from everywhere,
  • 00:19:30.394 --> 00:19:31.662
  • People coming from everywhere,and people in this room,
  • 00:19:31.662 --> 00:19:33.164
  • and people in this room,most serving as volunteers
  • 00:19:33.164 --> 00:19:33.864
  • most serving as volunteersthis coming year,
  • 00:19:33.864 --> 00:19:36.634
  • this coming year,there's campers, and 35 states,
  • 00:19:36.634 --> 00:19:37.802
  • there's campers, and 35 states,800 people.
  • 00:19:37.802 --> 00:19:39.403
  • 800 people.It's just totally bonkers.
  • 00:19:39.403 --> 00:19:40.471
  • It's just totally bonkers.We can't believe it.
  • 00:19:40.471 --> 00:19:41.973
  • We can't believe it.But we do have an idea
  • 00:19:41.973 --> 00:19:43.975
  • But we do have an ideaof why this phenomenon
  • 00:19:43.975 --> 00:19:45.042
  • of why this phenomenonhas reached so deeply
  • 00:19:45.042 --> 00:19:46.310
  • has reached so deeplyinto hearts
  • 00:19:46.310 --> 00:19:49.847
  • into heartsand it's that when you take,
  • 00:19:49.847 --> 00:19:51.182
  • and it's that when you take,like, the "Okay" thing
  • 00:19:51.182 --> 00:19:52.717
  • like, the "Okay" thingoff the table,
  • 00:19:52.717 --> 00:19:53.751
  • off the table,when you take the, like,
  • 00:19:53.751 --> 00:19:54.919
  • when you take the, like,"All is well,
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  • "All is well,I'm doing awesome"
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  • I'm doing awesome"off the table,
  • 00:19:57.121 --> 00:19:58.389
  • off the table,there's this crazy,
  • 00:19:58.389 --> 00:20:00.424
  • there's this crazy,electrifying, bonding,
  • 00:20:00.424 --> 00:20:02.059
  • electrifying, bonding,communal thing that happens.
  • 00:20:02.059 --> 00:20:03.261
  • communal thing that happens.Everybody is like,
  • 00:20:03.261 --> 00:20:04.695
  • Everybody is like,"We are broken,
  • 00:20:04.695 --> 00:20:07.565
  • "We are broken,and we're, like,
  • 00:20:07.565 --> 00:20:09.066
  • and we're, like,gonna be okay together."
  • 00:20:09.066 --> 00:20:11.302
  • gonna be okay together."Honestly, I really think
  • 00:20:11.302 --> 00:20:12.403
  • Honestly, I really thinkit's that we are
  • 00:20:12.403 --> 00:20:14.805
  • it's that we aredisrupting the myth,
  • 00:20:14.805 --> 00:20:18.476
  • disrupting the myth,the lie that a pain-free life
  • 00:20:18.476 --> 00:20:19.610
  • the lie that a pain-free lifeis the only life
  • 00:20:19.610 --> 00:20:21.178
  • is the only lifefull of joy.
  • 00:20:21.178 --> 00:20:22.346
  • full of joy.No, it's true,
  • 00:20:22.346 --> 00:20:23.281
  • No, it's true,and that's what we get to do
  • 00:20:23.281 --> 00:20:24.315
  • and that's what we get to doevery day
  • 00:20:24.315 --> 00:20:26.183
  • every dayis we get to defy
  • 00:20:26.183 --> 00:20:29.186
  • is we get to defythe deep American lie, honestly.
  • 00:20:29.186 --> 00:20:30.354
  • the deep American lie, honestly.It's not just America though,
  • 00:20:30.354 --> 00:20:32.156
  • It's not just America though,Western world lie
  • 00:20:32.156 --> 00:20:34.258
  • Western world liethat if it's not perfect,
  • 00:20:34.258 --> 00:20:35.192
  • that if it's not perfect,then we can't have it
  • 00:20:35.192 --> 00:20:36.661
  • then we can't have itin our story.
  • 00:20:36.661 --> 00:20:38.796
  • in our story.No, it's part of our story,
  • 00:20:38.796 --> 00:20:39.897
  • No, it's part of our story,and we are gonna live
  • 00:20:39.897 --> 00:20:41.399
  • and we are gonna liveand love well in it
  • 00:20:41.399 --> 00:20:42.166
  • and love well in itbecause God has
  • 00:20:42.166 --> 00:20:43.701
  • because God hasassigned it to us.
  • 00:20:43.701 --> 00:20:45.603
  • assigned it to us.In closing, super quick,
  • 00:20:45.603 --> 00:20:46.604
  • In closing, super quick,I have to tell y'all
  • 00:20:46.604 --> 00:20:48.005
  • I have to tell y'allthe coolest story.
  • 00:20:48.005 --> 00:20:50.107
  • the coolest story.So, that brain aneurysm,
  • 00:20:50.107 --> 00:20:51.776
  • So, that brain aneurysm,I got removed
  • 00:20:51.776 --> 00:20:52.443
  • I got removedand even though
  • 00:20:52.443 --> 00:20:53.544
  • and even thoughI have all these crazy
  • 00:20:53.544 --> 00:20:54.412
  • I have all these crazyhealth problems,
  • 00:20:54.412 --> 00:20:56.147
  • health problems,after getting medical approval
  • 00:20:56.147 --> 00:20:57.948
  • after getting medical approvalfrom all the doctors,
  • 00:20:57.948 --> 00:20:59.450
  • from all the doctors,I became pregnant
  • 00:20:59.450 --> 00:21:01.519
  • I became pregnantand then in summer 2015
  • 00:21:01.519 --> 00:21:02.586
  • and then in summer 2015had a baby
  • 00:21:02.586 --> 00:21:04.188
  • had a babynamed John Nestor Wolf,
  • 00:21:04.188 --> 00:21:06.457
  • named John Nestor Wolf,who is four years old now,
  • 00:21:06.457 --> 00:21:09.226
  • who is four years old now,backstage, doing awesome.
  • 00:21:09.226 --> 00:21:12.163
  • backstage, doing awesome.And it's been crazy.
  • 00:21:12.163 --> 00:21:14.999
  • And it's been crazy.He's -- he is a wild man.
  • 00:21:14.999 --> 00:21:16.600
  • He's -- he is a wild man.He's made it really hard
  • 00:21:16.600 --> 00:21:17.802
  • He's made it really hardon this disabled mama,
  • 00:21:17.802 --> 00:21:19.737
  • on this disabled mama,but I'm hanging in there,
  • 00:21:19.737 --> 00:21:22.773
  • but I'm hanging in there,and his name, y'all, John.
  • 00:21:22.773 --> 00:21:24.508
  • and his name, y'all, John.John is for the apostle John,
  • 00:21:24.508 --> 00:21:25.843
  • John is for the apostle John,the Bible writer John.
  • 00:21:25.843 --> 00:21:27.178
  • the Bible writer John.John, 9:3 is my very
  • 00:21:27.178 --> 00:21:28.079
  • John, 9:3 is my veryfavorite passage
  • 00:21:28.079 --> 00:21:30.681
  • favorite passagethat the Lord -- his name John
  • 00:21:30.681 --> 00:21:31.382
  • that the Lord -- his name Johnmeans the Lord
  • 00:21:31.382 --> 00:21:32.416
  • means the Lordhas been gracious.
  • 00:21:32.416 --> 00:21:34.852
  • has been gracious.John 9:3 is the passage
  • 00:21:34.852 --> 00:21:36.520
  • John 9:3 is the passagewhere somebody asked Jesus
  • 00:21:36.520 --> 00:21:37.521
  • where somebody asked Jesuswhy the blind man
  • 00:21:37.521 --> 00:21:39.090
  • why the blind manwas born blind,
  • 00:21:39.090 --> 00:21:40.624
  • was born blind,and He says "So that
  • 00:21:40.624 --> 00:21:41.359
  • and He says "So thatthe works of God
  • 00:21:41.359 --> 00:21:43.094
  • the works of Godmight be displayed in him,
  • 00:21:43.094 --> 00:21:43.928
  • might be displayed in him,and you might believe."
  • 00:21:43.928 --> 00:21:45.996
  • and you might believe."That's our prayer for our John
  • 00:21:45.996 --> 00:21:47.365
  • That's our prayer for our Johnis that the works of God
  • 00:21:47.365 --> 00:21:49.133
  • is that the works of Godwould be displayed in him.
  • 00:21:49.133 --> 00:21:50.334
  • would be displayed in him.They are.
  • 00:21:50.334 --> 00:21:50.935
  • They are.Okay.
  • 00:21:50.935 --> 00:21:53.204
  • Okay.His middle name, Nestor,
  • 00:21:53.204 --> 00:21:54.972
  • His middle name, Nestor,is for Nestor Gonzalez,
  • 00:21:54.972 --> 00:21:56.640
  • is for Nestor Gonzalez,my neurosurgeon.
  • 00:21:56.640 --> 00:21:58.075
  • my neurosurgeon.He saved my life.
  • 00:21:58.075 --> 00:21:58.743
  • He saved my life.Yeah.
  • 00:21:58.743 --> 00:22:02.580
  • Yeah.So, yeah, glory to God.
  • 00:22:02.580 --> 00:22:04.782
  • So, yeah, glory to God.So, I know.
  • 00:22:04.782 --> 00:22:06.350
  • So, I know.So, crazy thing,
  • 00:22:06.350 --> 00:22:07.785
  • So, crazy thing,Nestor, we did not know this
  • 00:22:07.785 --> 00:22:08.686
  • Nestor, we did not know thisat the time,
  • 00:22:08.686 --> 00:22:11.055
  • at the time,means seeker of miracles.
  • 00:22:11.055 --> 00:22:12.690
  • means seeker of miracles.So, we named our kid
  • 00:22:12.690 --> 00:22:13.858
  • So, we named our kidseeker of miracles.
  • 00:22:13.858 --> 00:22:17.094
  • seeker of miracles.It's unbelievably awesome.
  • 00:22:17.094 --> 00:22:18.362
  • It's unbelievably awesome.So, yeah, he's this crazy
  • 00:22:18.362 --> 00:22:20.030
  • So, yeah, he's this crazyflesh and bones picture
  • 00:22:20.030 --> 00:22:21.832
  • flesh and bones picturein our house every day
  • 00:22:21.832 --> 00:22:23.534
  • in our house every dayof new life,
  • 00:22:23.534 --> 00:22:26.504
  • of new life,of near death, new life,
  • 00:22:26.504 --> 00:22:27.438
  • of near death, new life,of broken things,
  • 00:22:27.438 --> 00:22:28.672
  • of broken things,and made whole things.
  • 00:22:28.672 --> 00:22:29.874
  • and made whole things.You may kind of know this.
  • 00:22:29.874 --> 00:22:32.576
  • You may kind of know this.It's the story of the Gospel
  • 00:22:32.576 --> 00:22:33.577
  • It's the story of the Gospelthat lives at my house
  • 00:22:33.577 --> 00:22:34.512
  • that lives at my houseevery day.
  • 00:22:34.512 --> 00:22:37.081
  • every day.So, I really hope you don't
  • 00:22:37.081 --> 00:22:39.016
  • So, I really hope you don'tfeel like this was a downer.
  • 00:22:39.016 --> 00:22:41.452
  • feel like this was a downer.I hope you're filled with joy.
  • 00:22:41.452 --> 00:22:43.387
  • I hope you're filled with joy.- It's not a downer at all.
  • 00:22:43.387 --> 00:22:44.622
  • - It's not a downer at all.- What we wanna do --
  • 00:22:44.622 --> 00:22:46.891
  • - What we wanna do --- Where are you going?
  • 00:22:46.891 --> 00:22:47.691
  • - Where are you going?- Hey!
  • 00:22:47.691 --> 00:22:49.059
  • - Hey!So, what we wanna do,
  • 00:22:49.059 --> 00:22:50.094
  • So, what we wanna do,and oh, no,
  • 00:22:50.094 --> 00:22:51.996
  • and oh, no,glory to God, not us.
  • 00:22:51.996 --> 00:22:53.664
  • glory to God, not us.No, no, no.
  • 00:22:53.664 --> 00:22:54.532
  • No, no, no.- Wow!
  • 00:22:54.532 --> 00:22:56.767
  • - Wow![Applauding]
  • 00:22:56.767 --> 00:22:58.803
  • [Applauding]- Okay, ready?
  • 00:22:58.803 --> 00:23:01.605
  • - Okay, ready?Glory to God.
  • 00:23:01.605 --> 00:23:02.573
  • Glory to God.- Thank y'all.
  • 00:23:02.573 --> 00:23:03.741
  • - Thank y'all.- Glory to Jesus.
  • 00:23:03.741 --> 00:23:04.575
  • - Glory to Jesus.Oh, yeah.
  • 00:23:04.575 --> 00:23:04.942
  • Oh, yeah.All to God.
  • 00:23:04.942 --> 00:23:06.710
  • All to God.- We're gonna shift to --
  • 00:23:06.710 --> 00:23:07.645
  • - We're gonna shift to --first off, yeah.
  • 00:23:07.645 --> 00:23:08.512
  • first off, yeah.Just thank you.
  • 00:23:08.512 --> 00:23:09.180
  • Just thank you.Thank you for everything
  • 00:23:09.180 --> 00:23:09.880
  • Thank you for everythingyou meant to our family
  • 00:23:09.880 --> 00:23:11.348
  • you meant to our familyand our story
  • 00:23:11.348 --> 00:23:12.450
  • and our storyand our ministry
  • 00:23:12.450 --> 00:23:13.818
  • and our ministryand our hope,
  • 00:23:13.818 --> 00:23:14.318
  • and our hope,and we pray
  • 00:23:14.318 --> 00:23:14.819
  • and we praythat you're encouraged
  • 00:23:14.819 --> 00:23:15.653
  • that you're encouragedas you go into this time
  • 00:23:15.653 --> 00:23:16.554
  • as you go into this timeof Sabbath to remember
  • 00:23:16.554 --> 00:23:18.255
  • of Sabbath to remembera different story maybe,
  • 00:23:18.255 --> 00:23:20.391
  • a different story maybe,to redefine the calling
  • 00:23:20.391 --> 00:23:21.292
  • to redefine the callingthat God has for you
  • 00:23:21.292 --> 00:23:22.860
  • that God has for youin the midst of your pain,
  • 00:23:22.860 --> 00:23:24.995
  • in the midst of your pain,and we're gonna shift
  • 00:23:24.995 --> 00:23:26.163
  • and we're gonna shiftto just a time of response
  • 00:23:26.163 --> 00:23:26.864
  • to just a time of responsefor a minute,
  • 00:23:26.864 --> 00:23:27.865
  • for a minute,and we wanna do something
  • 00:23:27.865 --> 00:23:28.399
  • and we wanna do somethinga little different.
  • 00:23:28.399 --> 00:23:28.933
  • a little different.Sorry y'all stood up
  • 00:23:28.933 --> 00:23:29.567
  • Sorry y'all stood up'cause we're gonna ask you
  • 00:23:29.567 --> 00:23:31.202
  • 'cause we're gonna ask youto sit down, okay,
  • 00:23:31.202 --> 00:23:32.369
  • to sit down, okay,just for this moment.
  • 00:23:32.369 --> 00:23:33.671
  • just for this moment.- Yeah, so everybody has
  • 00:23:33.671 --> 00:23:35.906
  • - Yeah, so everybody hasto sit down in solidarity
  • 00:23:35.906 --> 00:23:37.341
  • to sit down in solidaritywith our brothers and sisters
  • 00:23:37.341 --> 00:23:39.777
  • with our brothers and sisterswho cannot stand.
  • 00:23:39.777 --> 00:23:40.578
  • who cannot stand.We're gonna stand up
  • 00:23:40.578 --> 00:23:42.046
  • We're gonna stand up'cause we're gonna pray,
  • 00:23:42.046 --> 00:23:43.013
  • 'cause we're gonna pray,but, oh!
  • 00:23:43.013 --> 00:23:43.681
  • but, oh!- That feels weird.
  • 00:23:43.681 --> 00:23:45.115
  • - That feels weird.Let's sit down, too.
  • 00:23:45.115 --> 00:23:45.916
  • Let's sit down, too.That feels weird.
  • 00:23:45.916 --> 00:23:46.617
  • That feels weird.- We'll sit down too.
  • 00:23:46.617 --> 00:23:48.452
  • - We'll sit down too.We're all in solidarity
  • 00:23:48.452 --> 00:23:49.186
  • We're all in solidaritywith our brothers
  • 00:23:49.186 --> 00:23:50.087
  • with our brothersand sisters who --
  • 00:23:50.087 --> 00:23:51.388
  • and sisters who --- And here's the deal.
  • 00:23:51.388 --> 00:23:51.956
  • - And here's the deal.When the world
  • 00:23:51.956 --> 00:23:52.723
  • When the worldis not made for you,
  • 00:23:52.723 --> 00:23:54.124
  • is not made for you,it's hard to be in the world,
  • 00:23:54.124 --> 00:23:54.758
  • it's hard to be in the world,and it's hard to be
  • 00:23:54.758 --> 00:23:55.960
  • and it's hard to bein the church,
  • 00:23:55.960 --> 00:23:57.361
  • in the church,and the Body of Christ
  • 00:23:57.361 --> 00:23:58.062
  • and the Body of Christisn't complete
  • 00:23:58.062 --> 00:23:59.163
  • isn't completeunless there's a space
  • 00:23:59.163 --> 00:24:00.831
  • unless there's a spaceat the table for everybody,
  • 00:24:00.831 --> 00:24:01.499
  • at the table for everybody,and so today
  • 00:24:01.499 --> 00:24:02.633
  • and so todayas we embody this fact
  • 00:24:02.633 --> 00:24:03.367
  • as we embody this factthat maybe we're not
  • 00:24:03.367 --> 00:24:04.068
  • that maybe we're notin physical wheelchairs,
  • 00:24:04.068 --> 00:24:04.668
  • in physical wheelchairs,but we all have
  • 00:24:04.668 --> 00:24:05.469
  • but we all haveinvisible wheelchairs,
  • 00:24:05.469 --> 00:24:06.003
  • invisible wheelchairs,we wanna sit,
  • 00:24:06.003 --> 00:24:06.504
  • we wanna sit,and we want you
  • 00:24:06.504 --> 00:24:07.705
  • and we want youto open your hands
  • 00:24:07.705 --> 00:24:10.407
  • to open your handsin this posture of release,
  • 00:24:10.407 --> 00:24:11.041
  • in this posture of release,but at the same time
  • 00:24:11.041 --> 00:24:11.842
  • but at the same timeit's not just letting go
  • 00:24:11.842 --> 00:24:12.610
  • it's not just letting goand losing.
  • 00:24:12.610 --> 00:24:15.246
  • and losing.It's receiving more.
  • 00:24:15.246 --> 00:24:16.847
  • It's receiving more.And so, we wanna pray together,
  • 00:24:16.847 --> 00:24:18.616
  • And so, we wanna pray together,and I want you,
  • 00:24:18.616 --> 00:24:22.686
  • and I want you,if God today feels far away,
  • 00:24:22.686 --> 00:24:23.320
  • if God today feels far away,if you feel like
  • 00:24:23.320 --> 00:24:24.588
  • if you feel likeyou're living a life
  • 00:24:24.588 --> 00:24:26.090
  • you're living a lifethat you never imagined
  • 00:24:26.090 --> 00:24:26.724
  • that you never imaginedyou'd be living,
  • 00:24:26.724 --> 00:24:27.258
  • you'd be living,and you don't know
  • 00:24:27.258 --> 00:24:28.225
  • and you don't knowhow you're gonna keep on living
  • 00:24:28.225 --> 00:24:29.627
  • how you're gonna keep on livingand pray you'd just lift
  • 00:24:29.627 --> 00:24:31.762
  • and pray you'd just liftyour hand out to God today,
  • 00:24:31.762 --> 00:24:32.863
  • your hand out to God today,and we wanna pray over you,
  • 00:24:32.863 --> 00:24:34.431
  • and we wanna pray over you,and for you, and with you,
  • 00:24:34.431 --> 00:24:35.733
  • and for you, and with you,and encourage you.
  • 00:24:35.733 --> 00:24:36.467
  • and encourage you.And God, we know you don't
  • 00:24:36.467 --> 00:24:38.836
  • And God, we know you don'tmake mistakes, God.
  • 00:24:38.836 --> 00:24:40.337
  • make mistakes, God.We're not God.
  • 00:24:40.337 --> 00:24:41.372
  • We're not God.We wanna trust you that,
  • 00:24:41.372 --> 00:24:42.072
  • We wanna trust you that,God, you brought us
  • 00:24:42.072 --> 00:24:43.107
  • God, you brought usto this moment in our life
  • 00:24:43.107 --> 00:24:43.674
  • to this moment in our lifeand our story
  • 00:24:43.674 --> 00:24:44.842
  • and our storyand this community
  • 00:24:44.842 --> 00:24:46.410
  • and this communityfor a reason
  • 00:24:46.410 --> 00:24:48.412
  • for a reasonfor your glory, God,
  • 00:24:48.412 --> 00:24:49.079
  • for your glory, God,that we don't have
  • 00:24:49.079 --> 00:24:50.080
  • that we don't haveto continue to pretend
  • 00:24:50.080 --> 00:24:51.515
  • to continue to pretendwe can do this life alone.
  • 00:24:51.515 --> 00:24:53.817
  • we can do this life alone.We were never meant to, God.
  • 00:24:53.817 --> 00:24:54.785
  • We were never meant to, God.We pray that you would
  • 00:24:54.785 --> 00:24:56.720
  • We pray that you wouldcome in and give us a vision
  • 00:24:56.720 --> 00:24:57.855
  • come in and give us a visionnot just for a cure
  • 00:24:57.855 --> 00:24:58.589
  • not just for a curefor what ails us,
  • 00:24:58.589 --> 00:24:59.523
  • for what ails us,but for a covenant
  • 00:24:59.523 --> 00:25:00.558
  • but for a covenantwith you, God,
  • 00:25:00.558 --> 00:25:02.426
  • with you, God,this moment that we would know
  • 00:25:02.426 --> 00:25:03.127
  • this moment that we would knowwe're not alone
  • 00:25:03.127 --> 00:25:04.562
  • we're not alonein this process, God,
  • 00:25:04.562 --> 00:25:05.596
  • in this process, God,and we would see you
  • 00:25:05.596 --> 00:25:07.097
  • and we would see youin the midst of it.
  • 00:25:07.097 --> 00:25:08.332
  • in the midst of it.Lord, we love you.
  • 00:25:08.332 --> 00:25:09.300
  • Lord, we love you.We're grateful
  • 00:25:09.300 --> 00:25:09.867
  • We're gratefulthat you brought us
  • 00:25:09.867 --> 00:25:11.235
  • that you brought usto this moment.
  • 00:25:11.235 --> 00:25:11.869
  • to this moment.God, we're grateful
  • 00:25:11.869 --> 00:25:12.369
  • God, we're gratefulyou brought us
  • 00:25:12.369 --> 00:25:12.937
  • you brought usto this community.
  • 00:25:12.937 --> 00:25:14.438
  • to this community.May we give ourselves to it
  • 00:25:14.438 --> 00:25:15.239
  • May we give ourselves to itand found ourselves
  • 00:25:15.239 --> 00:25:17.074
  • and found ourselveson the rock that is you, Lord.
  • 00:25:17.074 --> 00:25:19.877
  • on the rock that is you, Lord.- And Father, we know
  • 00:25:19.877 --> 00:25:23.047
  • - And Father, we knowthat we are hard pressed
  • 00:25:23.047 --> 00:25:24.448
  • that we are hard pressedin our stories,
  • 00:25:24.448 --> 00:25:27.384
  • in our stories,but we are never crushed.
  • 00:25:27.384 --> 00:25:28.218
  • but we are never crushed.We are perplexed,
  • 00:25:28.218 --> 00:25:31.121
  • We are perplexed,but we are not in despair ever.
  • 00:25:31.121 --> 00:25:32.222
  • but we are not in despair ever.We are persecuted,
  • 00:25:32.222 --> 00:25:34.625
  • We are persecuted,but we are not abandoned.
  • 00:25:34.625 --> 00:25:37.194
  • but we are not abandoned.We are struck down, Lord,
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  • We are struck down, Lord,but we are never destroyed.
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  • but we are never destroyed.We praise you, Jesus,
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  • We praise you, Jesus,for how you are always
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  • for how you are alwayscarrying us
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  • carrying usthrough our terrible seasons.
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  • through our terrible seasons.The beauty of seasons, Lord,
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  • The beauty of seasons, Lord,is that they change.
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  • is that they change.Hallelujah.
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  • Hallelujah.I pray for the courage
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  • I pray for the couragefor every person in this room
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  • for every person in this roomthat's going through something
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  • that's going through somethingwhich F.Y.I., is everyone,
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  • which F.Y.I., is everyone,that they will know
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  • that they will knowto the core of their being
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  • to the core of their beingthis is a season, Lord.
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  • this is a season, Lord.You have something
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  • You have somethingyou are birthing in their lives.
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  • you are birthing in their lives.Father, let each of us see
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  • Father, let each of us seeour lives as assignments,
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  • our lives as assignments,something you are doing
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  • something you are doingthat the boundary lines
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  • that the boundary lineshave fallen in pleasant places,
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  • have fallen in pleasant places,Jesus, that you are
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  • Jesus, that you arenot only at work in our story
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  • not only at work in our storybut doing something new
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  • but doing something newin our story.
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  • in our story.You are birthing something
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  • You are birthing somethingbecause of where we are, Jesus.
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  • because of where we are, Jesus.Don't let us miss this.
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  • Don't let us miss this.Let us see this
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  • Let us see thisas an opportunity, Father.
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  • as an opportunity, Father.We praise you for how
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  • We praise you for howour terrible pain,
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  • our terrible pain,our constraints, our limitations
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  • our constraints, our limitationsare actually avenues
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  • are actually avenuesthrough which
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  • through whichwe can powerfully flourish
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  • we can powerfully flourishjust like you did, Jesus,
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  • just like you did, Jesus,through your resurrection.
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  • through your resurrection.It's in Jesus's
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  • It's in Jesus'sincredible name I pray.
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