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Can We Question God? | Better Together Episode 1146

March 2, 2026 | S8 E1146 | 50:59

Is it wrong to question God? Doubt, confusion, and “why” questions aren't disqualifiers; they’re invitations to come closer. Our God welcomes the mess and meets our honest faith with His truth, grace, and comfort. | TBN Prayer Line: 714-731-1000

#Widow/Widower #Doubt #Loss #Pain #Faith #Disappointed #Failure #Complaining #Struggle #PresenceofGod #PromisesofGod #Honesty #Community #PersonalStory #Trials-HardTimes #Season #LaurieCrouch #SheilaWalsh #FaithEuryCho

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Better Together | Can We Question God? | Better Together Episode 1146 | March 2, 2026

Our god is big enough to answer our toughest questions.
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He does not turn away even when we doubt him.
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Come on, let's talk about it.
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♪ (music playing) ♪
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- friends i am so excited for this week's conversations.
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We have been getting so many questions coming in from people
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All over the world.
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And some of these questions have become really frequent and
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Frequently brought up.
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And you know what?
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I really believe that god is not this
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Cookie cutter, religious master, but he could handle our
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Messy questions.
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And so that's what i'm going to tackle today with you all.
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I just know that we're not going to come out of this with a
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Perfect formula, but we're going to navigate through the mystery
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With some faith and try our best.
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And hopefully what will come out of it is a blessing and peace in
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The presence of god.
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I know when my family and i, when
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We were church planting in 2020, there
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Was a pocket of that year when i just felt absolutely trapped.
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You know, we started this church planting journey off with a
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Vision for what it should be like.
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And then the lockdown happened and then income got cut off.
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And then we have four kids stuck at home and we just basically
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Lost almost everything within a week.
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And, you know, during the first couple of weeks after, i mean,
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You do what you're trained to do, right?
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And a lot of us, we're trained to know how to
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Respond to hardship.
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We know we got to give him a sacrifice of praise.
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We know that we got to shift our mindset and meditate on the
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Words of god.
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And i was doing all these things and with my very best effort.
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But i remember one night, all the kids were asleep and it was
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Around 1 a.m.
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And i was in front of my piano because that's usually where.
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- i didn't know you played.
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- i didn't either.
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- playing is a generous word.
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Fiddle around more like, you know, and i was in front of the
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Piano trying my best to be everything god wanted me to be.
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Trying my best to believe like he would want me to believe.
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But i remember in that moment, the discouragement was so heavy
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And i just had no song left to sing.
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I had no prayer left to give.
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And that was where i met the end of myself, the end of my very
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Best efforts, the end of all i know to do.
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A religion is nice when it makes sense, but the presence of god
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Can be mysterious and rightfully so, because he's greater than
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Our understanding.
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He's higher than our understanding.
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And i remember just sitting there.
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Frozen with nothing to give to him.
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And so i just began to weep.
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And that night i had no vision.
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I had no dream.
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I didn't receive a revelatory word from god.
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I just cried it out.
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And then i went back to bed and i woke up the next day and just
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Did it all over again, right.
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But for months, actually, i think even for years, i remember
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Asking the lord, where were you that night?
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What were you doing that night?
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Because i could have used a helping hand.
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You could have thrown me a bone.
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It wouldn't have been hard.
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Lord, what were you doing?
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What were you thinking?
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And for a long time, i felt like he just didn't give
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Me an answer.
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And every time i asked him that question, i felt like
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A failure, right?
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Because i think sometimes we see faith as...
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A performance before the lord.
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And when we are not demonstrating the strength of
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Our belief to god, we in a way feel like we are failing god.
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So i thought the silence meant disappointment.
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But i remember one day i was praying this prayer again, lord,
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Where were you?
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Because that memory caused a lot of pain for me.
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And i just felt the still small voice of the lord.
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And he said, i was with you, you know, and that was so simple and
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So profound.
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Because i thought, okay, if you were with me, then i should have
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Seen something.
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I should have heard something.
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I should have felt something.
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But he was just simply, i was with you.
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That's it.
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And isn't that what presence really is?
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Just to be with someone.
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And i think that was just a moment for me when i realized,
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Man, how we interpret the mystery is so important.
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And how we question the lord depends on what we think of the
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Mystery, what we assume of the mystery of the lord.
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A lot of the times, mystery could feel like a rejection.
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When god doesn't make sense, it sometimes feels like he's
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Abandoning us, when actually, mystery is an invitation from
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God to know and go deeper into his presence.
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And so your questions during this time of navigating mystery
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Is actually good.
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It's an opportunity to receive a deeper revelation of who he is.
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I think sometimes we feel like we're doing well by faith if
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Everything makes sense and we have no questions and we feel as
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Though there's no room for our questions.
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But we know, you know, and i know all the women here, you
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Have questioned god at a certain point in your life.
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So i want to dive into that.
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You know, i didn't realize that even when i wasn't feeling
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Anything, that the nearness of god was already with me, not
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Because i earned it, but because of the blood of jesus, because
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He paid for that proximity.
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So now, okay, if we know god is with us, whether we doubt or
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Not, that god is kind, whether we're questioning.
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How do we navigate that time, that space when god makes no
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Sense and we have questions?
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What do you think?
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- one of the things i really love is basing my life on the
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Promises of god as opposed to how i feel.
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Because emotions do not have brains.
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You know, i can be in a season where i just
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Don't feel anything.
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But i love in james where it says, and he will draw
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Near to you.
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Doesn't say he'll draw near to you if you're doing well
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This week.
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He'll draw near to you if you remember to read your bible.
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He'll draw near to you if you went to church last sunday.
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He just says, draw near to god and he will draw near to you.
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And i remember seasons where i've literally gone outside for
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A walk and sat down on a stone somewhere and basically just
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Said, i'm here, lord.
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And not felt.
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You know, because i agree with you.
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It's lovely when you have that feeling of the lord's close or
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You feel like he's speaking a word to your heart or suddenly a
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Red cardinal appears and says, the lord be with you.
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- wouldn't that be nice?
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But i'm learning, and it's probably because i'm older than
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You, but i'm learning that i can absolutely base my life on god's
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Promises because he is not man that he should lie.
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And if he said, draw near to me and i'll draw near to you,
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There's times i've literally sat there for like an hour, not
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Really heard anything, not really, but just...
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I'm in your presence, and your presence changes everything.
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- promises of god are consistent whether we believe it or whether
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We feel it or not.
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Whether we see god, god is still present.
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Whether we know things are good or bad, god is still good.
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And so there is truth of things that are always going to be
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True, whether we feel it or know it or not.
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And i think that's actually very comforting for me, at least,
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Because my mind can take off running and believe
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Other things.
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But then if i calm down and slow down just long enough, i can
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Remember god is good.
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God is for me.
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He made me for such a time as this.
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- and the honesty that we have to have with god.
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You know, i think so often we think of god as like the new
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Friend, right?
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When you have a new friend over, i'm like cleaning my baseboards.
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Why am i cleaning my baseboards?
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You know, you're trying to find tupperware lids.
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You know, you're doing all these things to prepare for someone to
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Come that you don't know well because you think they're going
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To judge you based on how things are.
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But then your best friend comes in in the middle of your mess,
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In the craziness, and doesn't judge and loves you.
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How much more is god, who is our dearest friend and comforter,
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The creator of the whole world, want to come in the middle
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Of our mess.
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And he doesn't care what it looks like.
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He cares about us and our hearts.
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And so i think one of the biggest things that god is after
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Is our honesty.
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You know, that we don't have to create this whole thing of,
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Lord, i am trying and i'm trying to have faith right here.
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It is okay to come before the lord and say, god, i feel
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So broken.
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God, would you help my unbelief?
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Because i have nothing to offer today.
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But god, will you show up?
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God, i'm believing in, like you said, going back to
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His promises.
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And there were times in my loss that i would literally say, i
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Will not die, but i will live and i'll proclaim the
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Mercies of god.
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Because right now i feel like i'm dying, god.
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I feel like i'm dying, but i'm proclaiming what your word says,
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That i will not die.
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And one day i will declare your mercies.
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And that's the cool thing about the lord is obviously we know
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That his promises are always true, but we can hold them
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To that.
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We know it's true.
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And so sometimes we have to say it until we actually believe
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That it's true.
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But i think god is so kind.
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That he comes in the midst of our mess and he just wants us
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And our honesty.
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And you can do something with that, right?
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Like if my friend comes over and i know that she's struggling and
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I say, how are you?
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And she says, i'm fine.
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Nothing's wrong over here.
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And i know that they are walking through something
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So devastating.
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It's hard for me to comfort her and step into her story.
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But when you come and you say, god, i am hurting.
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This hurts.
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God, i don't know what to do with this situation.
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He can come in and all of his majesty.
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And the way that he is so personal with his presence and
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With his people and with his promises.
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And he can come step in and do the work that only he can do.
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- one of the greatest lessons i've learned in my life is to
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Be very honest and raw and transparent in god's presence.
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Honestly, it will change your life.
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I don't know what your background is like or whether
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You feel as if you have to be a certain way when you pray and
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Say the right things.
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But you know what?
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God knows you.
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God made you.
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He knows exactly what's going on in your life.
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And you get to tell him the whole truth.
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I really encourage you to find a few moments today and just tell
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God what's going on.
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You don't have to clean yourself up to come to your father.
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You get to come as you are.
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Because i know as a mom, i...
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Want to know what's going on with my kids you know and
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Anything that they might be feeling i'd rather know about it
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Than not know about it and as a mom i think there's nothing too
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Big that you're going through that i would not still love you
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Through, and i would still not be there for so how much
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Greater is that that our father our god our heavenly father
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Wants us to come to him with such honesty and
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Such authenticity.
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And is he not big enough to carry all of the stuff?
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Can we come to him with all of our negative feelings, our
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Shame, our guilt, our suffering, our frustrations, our anger even
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Toward god?
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Can he not handle that?
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And so it's a good reminder of even if we swap places of
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Someone that we love so much, how we might feel and then just
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Flipping back around and saying, of course god would want it.
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- it's an indication of the depth of relationship.
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I think to the level that we're honest with god is an indication
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Of how much we actually trust him and have a picture of how
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Big he is.
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Because, i mean, all through the psalms, all through scripture,
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Really, i mean, think of david, you know, and then there's a
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Psalm that christ quoted, psalm 22, my god, my god, why have you
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Forsaken me?
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If the son of god could ask a question like that, and i know
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That when he was on the cross, i know he was praying through
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The psalms.
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For strength but i think that's one of the things we struggle
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With being really honest with god but as i've got older i
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Realize it's the greatest gift in a way to be because god
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Already knows yeah i mean god already knows everything that's
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True but to be able to bring all the seasons that are good and
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The seasons that are hard and the questions he is definitely
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Big enough to handle all.
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- i think god really does welcome our
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Questions i think god wants us to come to him with anything
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That's on our mind.
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It could be what stresses us out, what worries us.
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It could also be what gives us joy and delight.
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I think as a mother myself, i just want to hear what's going
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On in my kids' lives.
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I'll always take their phone call.
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And so, yeah, i think god cares.
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God wants to hear those things.
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- questioning god does not equal a lack of faith.
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In fact, questioning god shows your honesty before the lord.
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It shows your desire to have a deeper relationship with him.
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I want to encourage you in the midst of whatever you're walking
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Through to go to god with your questions.
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He can handle anything.
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He can handle our anger.
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He can handle our doubt.
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He can handle anything, and he is the one we can run to.
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- in the church we tend to emphasize faith so much to the
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Point where we feel as though we are sinning or failing god when
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We doubt and so we immerse ourselves in that shame when
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Actually faith isn't the absence of doubt but it's trusting god
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Through the doubt and it's engaging with him as you
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Navigate the mystery of his presence.
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♪ (music playing) ♪
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- sometimes we wonder, is it disrespectful to question god?
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I think it's the absolute opposite.
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I think when you're willing to ask god the hard questions, it
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Means that you actually trust that he's big enough, that he
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Loves you enough.
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Never be afraid to bring everything that you're thinking
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About or wondering about to god.
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You get to bring all your emotions.
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And i think that shows god that you love him and you trust that
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He is big enough.
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God is big enough to handle anything that you're
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Walking through.
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♪ (music playing) ♪
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- i remember a time that i was visiting some family's home and
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Someone had told me something that really upset me.
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And i got in the car and i was mad that it had upset me.
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I was like, god, you know, and i was talking out, you know, that
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Communion with god.
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You can talk to god wherever you are, whatever you're doing, the
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Communion between each other.
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I said, god, i'm not sure what
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It was that upset me so much.
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But the feeling that i have right now, you know
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What that is.
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And i said, i don't know if that's bitterness, but i
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Don't like it.
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So i know it's not good, you know, because it doesn't make me
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Feel good.
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But you know what bothered me about that.
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And i said, i just need you to take all that out because you
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Know exactly what it is and fill in the gaps.
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His presence and his character, that's what we all
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Are striving to know is god's character.
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We can see evidence all around us.
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The bible says only a fool says there is no god.
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So does god exist? yes.
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Just look up, you know, look around and you'll see.
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So it's not the evidence that convinces us that god, it's his
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Presence and his character.
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And so knowing the character of god, that god is with me, he'll
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Never forsake me.
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So those times when you, i think we've all been there.
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It's just like, man, i don't know.
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Am i in trouble?
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Did i do something wrong?
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You know, did we make a mistake?
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I mean, how many times did you think, did we make a mistake
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Trying to start this church?
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But you have done something in faith.
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And i think that is such, and this sounds completely upside
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Down, but i think that's what the kingdom of god is.
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Sometimes when we feel like we've...
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Followed what god has spoken to us, and then you find yourself
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Going, okay, things are not going the way.
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I thought faith was going to be me moving, and then god was just
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Going to move real big and explode something because i had
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This faith, and i have found that that's not really
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What happens.
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It's like when you take that great step of faith, now god is
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Like going, absolutely, now come.
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Come to me.
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It's like peter getting out of the boat.
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It says he hovered on the water, that he moved towards jesus.
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Well, maybe the storm got even greater once he was to jesus.
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What if jesus was saying, now that you're here, it's not about
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What you see.
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Because i'm here.
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And i think that's what every trial or tribulation or every
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Step of faith that leads us to that.
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(gasps) are you here?
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And god is going, i am here.
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I want you to experience my presence here.
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I think everyone has questioned a time in their life when you've
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Thought, god, why me?
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Why all this all at the same time?
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It's like when it rains, it pours.
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But god is always faithful.
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There's always been something that i have been able to look
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Back on and go, man, you were with us then, and you were with
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Us then, and you were with us then.
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And your bible says, your words say, you will never leave me,
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Nor will you forsake me.
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And so those promises you cling to, i hold on to those promises
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That god never leaves us wanting.
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That we lack nothing from god, that surely goodness and mercy
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Follows us every day of our life.
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You claim those.
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You receive those.
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You start meditating on those beautiful promises of god.
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And man, in the time of your need, they'll be right
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There for you.
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- you know what that reminds me of?
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So one of my kids, when she was little, like around four years
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Old, she would spill water in front of us.
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Like all of us.
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Like, you know.
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Five people are witnesses, but then she would pause and go,
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Just don't believe it.
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You know, she would just look straight at us and be like, just
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Don't believe it.
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You know, and i think this was just her way of diverting
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The attention.
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- nothing to see here, people.
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- yeah, right, exactly.
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That was her way of saying there's nothing to see here.
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And in some way, i feel like we think that's what god wants
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Us to do. - that's good.
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God is basically saying, just don't believe the storm.
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Just don't believe this horrendous pain you're going
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Through. don't believe that loss.
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And i think sometimes we feel some sort of way about that
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Because it's almost like we have to produce this
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Blind compliance.
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But faith is not blind compliance.
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It's not just a, yeah, right.
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It's not really there.
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And we're just playing this game.
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But actually, when you look throughout scripture.
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God has called us into covenant to engage and participate in
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This faith.
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I mean, god chose to wrestle with jacob.
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I think that's interesting because never in a day do i ever
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Think i want to wrestle with someone.
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This is how i want to relate with that person.
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But god chose that conflict.
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God chose to engage with someone to that level of intimacy.
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That level of tension, right, in order to commune with jacob and
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In a way to give jacob a revelation that he would not
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Have had unless he was willing to engage in that wrestling.
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So i think we think we are winning at faith when we're just
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Compliant, when actually you're winning at faith when you are
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Engaging with god, participating with the lord amidst
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Your doubts.
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- you know, all of us can fall in these pits when we are left
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Alone with our questions, when we believe the lies and we
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Wrestle with it alone.
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That's why god's given us community to come alongside of
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Us, to speak truth, to encourage our hearts when we wrestle
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Through these questions.
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God, why did you allow this to happen?
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God, are you still good?
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Is there still good left in my life?
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Those are all questions that we can ask and we can go to god to
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And ask the lord to make a way in it.
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But also with those hard questions, it's very important
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To ask believers in christ, mentors, people that you
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Respect to come alongside you and help you
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As you wrestle through them.
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I remember being angry with god at one point.
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I literally remember months after my husband passed away and
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I'm raising these precious little babies.
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And i called my mom one day and i was like, can you watch
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The kids? i just need to go on a run.
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And i could just feel it.
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I mean, i felt all these emotions just coming in.
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I was like, i just need to go run.
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So i dropped off my babies and i remember i started running
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And i am.
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Just so mad i'm like god why did you call my kids to this i mean
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That was the anger that i had, it's one thing to call me
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To this pain it's another thing my kids ran you know to the door
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When they heard the door knock and said daddy daddy and i'm
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Like he's been gone four months you know just that-- that just
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Brought up so much in my heart you know and so as a mom you
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Know you're discipling them and trying to teach them but i'm
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Grieving myself.
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And so at the beginning of this run, i mean, i am running fast.
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I am just weeping.
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And i'm like, god, i feel so angry.
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I'm so mad.
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I don't want to be mad about this.
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I know you called our family to this.
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God, i want to trust you in it, but god, i'm just mad.
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And i just kept running.
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And it was crazy because as i kept running, i kept saying, but
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God, i've seen you here.
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But god, you have ministered to us here.
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God, you have never let us alone.
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God, i saw that person that showed up at our door and
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Brought us a meal and prayed over our home.
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I saw that person reach out and prayed for me in that moment
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That i need.
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And so as i was running, it came from anger to literally yielding
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To at the end of the run, i had my hand in the air and i said,
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God, i will trust you.
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And god, i will still worship you even when this is hard and
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Even when this is not going away because you are worthy of all
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Praise and god, you have been good.
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And so it's amazing how we are on this journey with god.
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And unless i had to start where i was at the anger part, i
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Wouldn't have made it to the trusting part.
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And you see that example in scripture of lament.
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That is what lament is.
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It's giving god, you know, was it okay that my
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Husband passed away?
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No, i wasn't okay with it.
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But i was okay with jesus being near to us.
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Was it good that my kids were walking through this pain?
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No, but was god good?
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And did it say the nearness of god is our good?
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So god was still good, even though the circumstance wasn't.
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And i think that's what happens.
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And that's all throughout scripture.
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David saying, god, why have you forsaken me?
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God, why did you allow this to happen?
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All these people are against me.
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I'm hurting in this way, but you are my refuge.
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But god, i will trust in you.
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But god, you are faithful.
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God, have the steadfast love that never ceases.
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I mean, you see that all throughout scripture, god's
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Faithfulness is steadfast love, but often we don't get to the
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Goodness of god or experience his nearness or his presence
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Until we get honest with god.
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It's right where we start.
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And it's the process of lament, which i feel like so often in
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The christian circles, we skip over it because like you said,
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You just want to act like everything's fine.
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Nobody knows what to deal with this sad, angry widow.
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And i was like, i don't know what to do with this.
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But god does.
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God always knows what to do with it.
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And he promises to be near the brokenhearted and those crushed
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In spirit.
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He promises it.
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So even when we feel like, oh, people are afraid of our
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Emotions or i'm too much for this person, god never tires.
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He never goes silent while we are hurting.
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He never does.
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He is always with us and he just wants us to come to him.
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- and god gave us those emotions.
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- yes. he made those emotions in us.
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- when we give god our sorrows, it doesn't mean that we are just
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Ignoring the reality of what we are going through, but actually
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It means lamenting.
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Lament is holy.
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Lament is completely acceptable to god.
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It's having sorrow with god and not without god.
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It's not walking away from him because of our pain, but it's
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Enduring our pain with him.
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- it is like this... image of the psalms.
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It's the psalms being written and prayed.
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It's david saying, it's a confessional, right?
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You start with this confession and it's like you're angry and
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These emotions and all of a sudden you realize, oh, but god,
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You're still good.
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God, you're still good.
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In some of the moments that i have felt the most, like things
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Aren't okay.
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Just having also other image bearers come around.
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Sometimes it's not just what we're doing, but what can we
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Give to others?
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And they don't have to say anything.
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Just sitting in it and saying.
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And just sitting, like, i don't have the answers.
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That's actually probably the best thing.
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Maybe don't say anything.
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- yeah, i think when pain's the greatest, words should be
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The fewest.
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- yes, exactly, sheila.
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Like, just sit.
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That is so good.
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I remember my mom telling me that when she and my dad were
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Dating, they weren't even engaged yet, and they went to,
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My dad was singing at a church in glasgow in scotland, and a
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Woman stood up and gave this testimony of how she had
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Lost her child.
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And it was with this sense of, you know, thanking god and
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Everything was great.
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And my mom said she sat there feeling like, lord, what's
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Wrong with me?
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Because i don't think that's how i would be in this situation.
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But after the service, my mom went to the restroom and she
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Heard somebody in the cubicle next to her crying.
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And it was that woman.
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And i thought, you know, there's something about that.
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The message is, you know, you cry away from the
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Presence of god.
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And i'm like, no, it's the opposite.
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God invites us to tell him everything.
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Because the fact that you were able to do that, the fact you
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Were able to be angry, it's like what jesus did.
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When you pour out your pain in the presence of god, you make
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Space for grace.
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Whereas when you hold on to it all, you know, it's like you've
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Just been god at a distance.
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- it reminds me of habakkuk.
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Habakkuk is one of my favorite books in the bible because it
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Starts off with a complaint.
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It starts off with, how long, lord, must i call for help?
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And you do not listen or cry out to you about violence and you
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Do not save.
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And it's just habakkuk on behalf of god's people.
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Questioning god.
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And the fact that god included this in scripture, and we're
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Supposed to learn from this exchange between son and father,
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Between child and god, right?
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What's so beautiful about that is at the end, he goes, though
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The fig tree does not bud and there is no fruit on the vines,
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Though the olive crop fails and the fields produce no food.
00:28:11.769 --> 00:28:15.305
Though the flocks disappear from the pen and there are no herds
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In the stalls, yet i will celebrate in the lord.
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I will rejoice in the god of my salvation.
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The lord, my lord, is my strength.
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He makes my feet like those of a deer and enables me to walk on
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Mountain heights.
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And the fact that he got to that place of celebration, not
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Because of his strength, not because of his wisdom, but
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Because he was, like you were saying, willing to pour himself
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Out honestly and bring the hard questions to the table.
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And as you engage in the mystery of his presence, at the end, you
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End with celebration because you realize that the one that you're
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Engaging with is greater than the questions, greater
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Than the doubt.
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And i think sometimes we feel like, clarity equals the
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Presence of god.
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And that feeling better equals the presence of god.
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And here habakkuk is like, well, there's no bud on the trees.
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There's nothing happening.
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But i celebrate the lord.
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I think one of the hardest things that we experience as
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Believers is when god feels silent.
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You know, maybe you've been praying about something for a
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Long time and you just feel as if you don't know if god's even
00:29:43.427 --> 00:29:45.729
Listening and you don't even feel his presence very close.
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And in those times, for me, has become really important to study
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What god's word actually says.
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You know, it says in when james wrote his letter, when jesus'
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Brother wrote his letter, he said, he gave us this promise.
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He said, draw near to god and he will draw near to you.
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So even if it feels as if the lord is far, far away,
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Just know...
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When you're seeking his presence, he is with you.
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I love seeing how jesus responded to ongoing attacks
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From the enemy and then pain in his father's presence.
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Because you know when the holy spirit led him into the
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Wilderness to be tested of the devil.
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And so then all the questions are coming, all the
00:30:23.533 --> 00:30:25.402
Why questions.
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And how he responds to the enemy is...
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Always with the word of god.
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And i'm thinking if the son of god used the word of god to
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Combat the enemy of god, that's my strategy plan.
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But when he's in the presence of the lord, that's when he's able
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To process his pain and be honest and real and not pretend.
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I just think it's a beautiful gift that jesus was willing to
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Do that for us.
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Just show us how much it cost him to invite us to, because i
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Think of people watching.
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They're going through seasons right now where they're like, i
00:30:53.430 --> 00:30:55.866
Never saw this coming.
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And this is just devastating.
00:30:56.733 --> 00:30:58.235
And how am i going to make it?
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To honor the fact that you're in a place that is not good, but
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God understands.
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And you get to tell him everything that's true.
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And he stays.
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- and he doesn't just leave it at that.
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I think the cool, most amazing thing about jesus is, you know,
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We have these seasons of why, but the lord ministers to us and
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It doesn't stay that same season.
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You know, i moved from a season of why all the time to
00:31:19.323 --> 00:31:22.926
Eventually accepting where i was, accepting the journey god
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Called me to.
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And i remember one time just sitting before god, what?
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Now, what do i do with this?
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I went from the why that i will never understand.
00:31:31.969 --> 00:31:34.905
I will never understand how a perfectly healthy 30-year-old
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Man can pass away.
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I just, i'll never understand it.
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I'm never going to have all the answers to all my questions.
00:31:41.278 --> 00:31:43.680
But what i do have is a god that met with me in the questions and
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Stayed with me and has never left my side.
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And so because of his faithfulness, because of god's
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Goodness, because the promises that have never failed, even
00:31:53.857 --> 00:31:58.028
When life has failed, even when circumstances have failed.
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I can stand on the rock of ages, the anchor that holds, and i can
00:32:00.364 --> 00:32:03.700
Know that god is faithful even in all of those things and that
00:32:03.700 --> 00:32:07.771
God can lead us from the why to say, god, what now?
00:32:07.771 --> 00:32:11.041
What do i do with this circumstance?
00:32:11.041 --> 00:32:13.076
What do i do this?
00:32:13.076 --> 00:32:14.611
The life, like you were saying, that you find yourself
00:32:14.611 --> 00:32:16.646
In a story.
00:32:16.646 --> 00:32:17.981
I would have never picked this story, but god, you are going to
00:32:17.981 --> 00:32:19.449
Meet with us here.
00:32:19.449 --> 00:32:21.752
God, what do i do with this here?
00:32:21.752 --> 00:32:23.687
And the same god that works you through the why can work you
00:32:23.687 --> 00:32:26.256
Through the what, and he will never leave your side
00:32:26.256 --> 00:32:28.392
Anywhere in between.
00:32:28.392 --> 00:32:30.694
- i think that's a beautiful reminder that jesus is the one
00:32:30.694 --> 00:32:33.463
That paid the price to stay near to us.
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I think sometimes we feel like we have to perform or give
00:32:36.033 --> 00:32:39.703
Something awesome to god for him to stay, which is why we feel so
00:32:39.703 --> 00:32:45.809
Bad when we're questioning him.
00:32:45.809 --> 00:32:47.244
And we feel so bad when we feel the doubt.
00:32:47.244 --> 00:32:50.180
But it's jesus that paid the highest of prices so that he
00:32:50.180 --> 00:32:52.849
Could stay.
00:32:52.849 --> 00:32:54.518
So we don't have to conjure up some
00:32:54.518 --> 00:32:56.153
Sort of payment to convince him to want to be with us.
00:32:56.153 --> 00:32:59.356
We are forever a temple of the holy spirit.
00:32:59.356 --> 00:33:03.527
The holy of holies is within us.
00:33:03.527 --> 00:33:07.097
And he's the one that paid the price.
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And i think that's very freeing because, you know, i feel
00:33:09.332 --> 00:33:12.235
Guilty sometimes.
00:33:12.235 --> 00:33:13.570
I feel really guilty that, you know, like when you have nothing
00:33:13.570 --> 00:33:16.773
Good in your heart and you know it, you know, when you are
00:33:16.773 --> 00:33:19.876
Annoyed, you are bitter, you are judgmental, you know, and
00:33:19.876 --> 00:33:23.213
I just, sometimes i get tempted to try to pretend that's not
00:33:23.213 --> 00:33:31.021
There and give him something in a way as payment for his
00:33:31.021 --> 00:33:34.591
Companionship. but knowing, no, he already paid it.
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I can now just enter into his courts confidently and boldly
00:33:39.996 --> 00:33:44.234
Because of his grace. dwell. dwell.
00:33:44.234 --> 00:33:46.570
- we can always go to god with anything.
00:33:46.570 --> 00:33:49.306
With our anger, with our whys, with our questions, and we have
00:33:49.306 --> 00:33:53.276
Access to the throne of grace through the person of jesus.
00:33:53.276 --> 00:33:55.812
So i want to encourage you today, if you are feeling those
00:33:55.812 --> 00:33:58.415
Feelings, don't run from them, run to god with them.
00:33:58.415 --> 00:34:01.184
Because when we run to god, we will find the comfort
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That we need.
00:34:04.287 --> 00:34:05.989
You go from lamenting your life and asking the questions and the
00:34:05.989 --> 00:34:08.658
Anger to literally saying, god, but i will trust you because you
00:34:08.658 --> 00:34:12.462
Are faithful and you are true no matter what my circumstances or
00:34:12.462 --> 00:34:15.699
My feelings feel at this moment.
00:34:15.699 --> 00:34:17.667
- i think sometimes when we encounter feelings of doubt, we
00:34:17.667 --> 00:34:22.239
Feel kind of ashamed as if, well, we shouldn't doubt because
00:34:22.239 --> 00:34:26.276
Of who god is.
00:34:26.276 --> 00:34:27.577
But i think we should do the absolute opposite.
00:34:27.577 --> 00:34:29.779
I think when you have feelings of doubt, you should run to god
00:34:29.779 --> 00:34:32.582
And ask him your hard questions.
00:34:32.582 --> 00:34:35.185
If something's going on in your life right now and you're like,
00:34:35.185 --> 00:34:38.155
Lord, i don't understand this.
00:34:38.155 --> 00:34:39.055
Why did you not show up there?
00:34:39.055 --> 00:34:41.024
Why did you show up for her and not for me?
00:34:41.024 --> 00:34:43.293
Bring everything to god.
00:34:43.293 --> 00:34:45.262
Because the more you pour your life out to god, the more you've
00:34:45.262 --> 00:34:48.231
Made space for god to speak back into yours.
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- i remember reading this story about tsar nicholas before the
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Execution of that whole family, where he was one night going
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Around the camp where all the soldiers, all the russian
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Soldiers were.
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And there was one little light on in a room, and it was the guy
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Who was supposed to be doing all the books and
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Keeping everything.
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And he went in just to say hi to him and realized the guy was
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Asleep, had his head down on the papers, and by his side was a
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Gun, and he'd written a note.
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And his basic thing was he had embezzled some of the money, he
00:35:31.474 --> 00:35:34.511
Had messed things up, and there was no way he could fix it.
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And he knew that whenever it was discovered that, i mean, his
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Life was pretty much over.
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I read the last line that this guy wrote on the note, and he
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Said, who can pay this price?
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And because of tsar nicholas's relationship with this boy's
00:35:47.057 --> 00:35:50.961
Father, and he knew who the family was, and he thought, he
00:35:50.961 --> 00:35:53.530
Extended, and he wrote at the bottom of the note, i will,
00:35:53.530 --> 00:35:57.334
Signed it tsar nicholas.
00:35:57.334 --> 00:35:59.469
And i think that's just a tiny picture of what jesus did.
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You know, who can pay for this?
00:36:02.138 --> 00:36:04.341
Who can pay for this?
00:36:04.341 --> 00:36:05.809
And jesus said, me.
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I mean, it's done.
00:36:06.776 --> 00:36:08.578
It's finished.
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- i think about, you're going to laugh at this, but do you know
00:36:09.913 --> 00:36:11.514
What a weighted vest is?
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It's like the new craze, right?
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- my husband bought one.
00:36:14.651 --> 00:36:15.986
- so you put on this weighted vest to go on a walk and it's
00:36:15.986 --> 00:36:17.887
Like you get double workout.
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So my husband gave it to me for my birthday.
00:36:20.123 --> 00:36:23.126
I mean, would i recommend husbands maybe giving that
00:36:23.126 --> 00:36:25.528
To your wife for her birthday?
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I'm not sure.
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- that's a message in itself right there.
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- but actually, i'm really into all that stuff.
00:36:29.266 --> 00:36:31.968
So i was very grateful.
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But when i put it on, i instantly felt anxiety.
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I felt like this weight kind of pressing in on me.
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And i was walking.
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I kept walking.
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And about the third time, i was really studying in john about
00:36:43.780 --> 00:36:46.750
Abiding in god.
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And the lord said, when you try to do things and create things,
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If i do this, god will love me more.
00:36:52.122 --> 00:36:55.292
If i do this, then i can hear from him more.
00:36:55.292 --> 00:36:56.926
If i do this, oh, if i can just do more for god.
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He said, it is like you putting on this weighted vest.
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How can you run after me?
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Fix your eyes on jesus.
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Run the race before you when you feel weighted down with the
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Pressures that you put on yourself.
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And so when i took off that weighted vest, i felt like i
00:37:11.908 --> 00:37:15.412
Could run a marathon.
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I mean, i was like, this is amazing.
00:37:17.447 --> 00:37:19.249
I can breathe better. i can run faster.
00:37:19.249 --> 00:37:21.418
And just god gave me that picture to remind me that in
00:37:21.418 --> 00:37:24.387
Him, we have everything we need.
00:37:24.387 --> 00:37:26.790
We don't need to muster all these added weights that i
00:37:26.790 --> 00:37:30.126
Cannot run towards the calling god has given me in christ.
00:37:30.126 --> 00:37:33.730
When we are putting on all these self-created weights that god is
00:37:33.730 --> 00:37:38.101
Trying to free us from, all we need to do is dwell.
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We just need to abide in him and walk in him.
00:37:40.337 --> 00:37:43.106
He's got it all.
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- everybody unburdens themselves before the lord
00:37:44.307 --> 00:37:47.410
In different ways.
00:37:47.410 --> 00:37:48.978
And i think it's unique to different people.
00:37:48.978 --> 00:37:50.747
I think when we think that we have to do it exactly like
00:37:50.747 --> 00:37:54.150
Somebody else, that's when we start to fall into a trap.
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However, i would say as long as you are being true and
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Honest to what you are carrying inside and
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Bring it out before the lord, whether it
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Is through journaling, whether it is through weeping, whether
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It's through running and praying, whatever it is that it
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Takes for you to bring your most honest self and not get so
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Caught up on bringing to him what's presentable.
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No, you have to bring to him what is honest.
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- and it all goes back to, it's not about us.
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It's not about... me.
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It's what god has done.
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It's what god can do through us.
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I think of the beatitudes.
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When jesus says, blessed are the poor in spirit, people think we
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Need to stay poor in spirit.
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But he says, they'll be comforted.
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Theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
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And blessed are those who mourn.
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So our mourning, they're going to be comforted.
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So with everything that we go through, we get god back.
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In our desperate times, if we'll lean into those, i know it
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Sounds upside down, but that's the kingdom of heaven.
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It sounds upside down, but it's almost like the worst it is, the
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Better it is for us because we get god because of it.
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So we don't stay mourning.
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We don't stay poor in spirit.
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When we're humbled, when god has a way, god has a way.
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That's kind of one of our sayings here.
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God has a way. that humbling that you were mad.
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You ran.
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You probably never felt so humbled at the end of your run
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Because all of a sudden your hands are lifted up.
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God has a way of taking what we feel on the inside to show us
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Who he is because all it is is god's character.
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He's faithful. he's just.
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He's merciful. he's love.
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He's joy. he's peace.
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He's satisfaction.
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He's everything.
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And so anything that draws us to the end of ourselves, to the
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Ruin of ourselves, we find god in his wholeness and in the
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Beauty of his glory.
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It's like, where can i go from the presence of the lord?
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We can't go anywhere.
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The earth is filled with his glory.
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And so those times of i'm all alone, no, we're not.
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We just need to open our eyes, our spiritual eyes.
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That's what's so important about declaring god's word over our
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Lives and knowing the words.
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When i start questioning or feeling the pressure of
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Something, it's the lord is my shepherd.
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I shall not want.
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I lack nothing.
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There is nothing that i lack.
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Because jesus is my good shepherd.
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He makes me lie down in green pastures.
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He restores my soul.
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He leads me in the paths of righteousness for his namesake.
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Yea, though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death, i
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Will fear no evil.
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So you start just declaring and repeating what god has already,
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Who god is in your life.
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Talk about bringing you out.
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I was in that same situation one day that you were talking about.
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It was like, what in the heck just happened?
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And i went and i sat on my piano, which i play
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For one only.
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And i just thought, man, we just took this huge step of faith.
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I don't even know what faith is because that didn't work out.
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And i was just at the end.
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Simple little things started coming out of me.
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If you knew what i had in store for you.
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If you knew what is ahead, there would be no time for heartbreak
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And sorrow and questioning my love and my grace and all the
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Things that's going through your head right now. wow.
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You wouldn't be doing that if you knew, if you only knew.
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And boy, that changed my perspective.
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And i'll never forget that day.
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Because i always go back to it in my mind.
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If i knew what god was really doing behind the scenes right
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Now, i shouldn't be worrying.
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I shouldn't be fearful.
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I shouldn't be fretting.
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None of that.
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Because god is working on my behalf.
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Doing something great.
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You know, a lot of times we hear people's story and they'll say,
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You know, i got so mad at god.
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Or maybe they are mad at god.
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And i just think, oh.
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Don't get mad at god.
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Please don't.
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He's the last one you should ever get mad at.
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He's the one who is the answer to everything.
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He's the one that's, he's our savior.
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He is our savior from anything we find ourself in.
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Run to god, not away from god, but right straight into his arms
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Because his arms are open wide to you.
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- i like what you said too.
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God's kingdom is backwards.
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It's backwards from anything we understand.
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And we were created to live in the tension.
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Even when jesus came into the world, he's the prince of peace.
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But he came through tension and turmoil.
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The world was tumultuous.
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You know, rome had taken over and caesar had claimed himself
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The savior of the world.
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And, you know, they're all coming in for census
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To be taxed on property that they
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Had owned for generations upon generations you
00:43:26.749 --> 00:43:29.152
Know it was a very in the government it was a terrible
00:43:29.152 --> 00:43:33.022
Time and yet jesus comes in peace and it's this
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Understanding you know laura you're talking about this
00:43:35.558 --> 00:43:39.195
Understanding in like this heavenly understanding right
00:43:39.195 --> 00:43:42.165
Like our our faith understanding and it's not ever what
00:43:42.165 --> 00:43:45.568
We think right and no it was not good that we experienced
00:43:45.568 --> 00:43:51.340
Suffering it's not good that we've had these terrible things
00:43:51.340 --> 00:43:53.142
That we of course don't want but also what a privilege to be able
00:43:53.142 --> 00:43:56.245
To live that out in this short time that we have on this earth
00:43:56.245 --> 00:44:03.886
Because god's timing is not our timing. and yes, we get to
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Question what is happening in this timing and ask him but also
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The opposite of that is to trust that we have a time that started
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Before us and a time that is after us all of that stuff and
00:44:16.199 --> 00:44:18.401
So i think just remembering and putting yourself in the
00:44:18.401 --> 00:44:22.805
Narrative of an everlasting god instead of our finite
00:44:22.805 --> 00:44:26.242
Understanding of this world can kind of shift some
00:44:26.242 --> 00:44:30.079
Of those things.
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- i think everything that we just processed here was so
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Helpful, even for me.
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And i'm just reminded of doubting thomas.
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And it's interesting because history calls him doubting
00:44:39.455 --> 00:44:43.793
Thomas but when you really look at thomas's life, you see he
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Was loyal to jesus.
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He was honest to jesus.
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You know, when jesus was going to go back to, i think it was
00:44:53.302 --> 00:44:55.738
Judea, right?
00:44:55.738 --> 00:44:57.039
And then that would have been to his peril.
00:44:57.039 --> 00:44:59.575
Thomas is like, well, i'll go to, you know, let's just die
00:44:59.575 --> 00:45:01.477
Together.
00:45:01.477 --> 00:45:03.146
Like he did not lack love for jesus, but the disappointment of
00:45:03.146 --> 00:45:07.116
The crucifixion was so weighty that it caused him to say, and
00:45:07.116 --> 00:45:14.590
Utter one of the strongest negations in greek when he says,
00:45:14.590 --> 00:45:18.060
If i don't see the mark of the nails in his hands, put my
00:45:18.060 --> 00:45:23.966
Finger into the mark of the nails and put my hand into his
00:45:23.966 --> 00:45:26.936
Side, i will never believe.
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It's like a double negative.
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It's like, it's such a strong, like, i will not.
00:45:31.641 --> 00:45:34.277
And it just reminds me that, you know what?
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Some of us may have truly loved jesus with all our hearts.
00:45:38.147 --> 00:45:41.117
And we've tried our absolute best, but when life deals what
00:45:41.117 --> 00:45:45.154
Life does, sometimes the discouragement and the
00:45:45.154 --> 00:45:52.428
Disappointment could have an overcast over the shine of the
00:45:52.428 --> 00:45:55.131
Cross, right?
00:45:55.131 --> 00:45:57.500
And for thomas, what he beheld was so dark that he
00:45:57.500 --> 00:46:02.205
Just refused.
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But yet that negation, that negativity, that refusal to
00:46:04.907 --> 00:46:12.081
Believe, when jesus came, he met him with welcome.
00:46:12.081 --> 00:46:14.250
He says, peace be with you.
00:46:14.250 --> 00:46:17.453
And he invited thomas, feel my side, feel the scars.
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And the fact that even though thomas...
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Dared to doubt god, dared to question jesus.
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Jesus just met him with peace and with welcome, with an
00:46:34.270 --> 00:46:36.839
Invitation to see, to experience, to engage with
00:46:36.839 --> 00:46:42.011
Our faith.
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And at the end, thomas ends up uttering the highest
00:46:46.048 --> 00:46:49.886
Christological statement in the book of john, which is, my
00:46:49.886 --> 00:46:53.856
Lord, my god.
00:46:53.856 --> 00:46:55.491
- it's interesting when you think about, well, what does god
00:46:55.491 --> 00:46:59.662
Think about those who have doubts?
00:46:59.662 --> 00:47:01.597
And i'm reminded of a conversation that jesus had with
00:47:01.597 --> 00:47:04.300
A father.
00:47:04.300 --> 00:47:05.635
He was asking his son had had fits since he was a little boy
00:47:05.635 --> 00:47:07.403
And would do things like throw himself into a fire.
00:47:07.403 --> 00:47:11.507
I mean, it was a terrible situation as a parent to
00:47:11.507 --> 00:47:14.410
Deal with.
00:47:14.410 --> 00:47:16.045
And he asked jesus if it was possible to heal his son.
00:47:16.045 --> 00:47:19.081
And jesus said, all things are possible if you believe.
00:47:19.081 --> 00:47:22.351
And so this is what the father said, and i love this.
00:47:22.351 --> 00:47:25.187
He said, i believe, help my unbelief.
00:47:25.187 --> 00:47:27.456
That's a very honest prayer.
00:47:27.456 --> 00:47:30.259
You can say, okay, lord, i believe, but help my unbelief,
00:47:30.259 --> 00:47:33.262
And he will.
00:47:33.262 --> 00:47:35.531
- this is an encouragement to anyone that feels that their
00:47:35.531 --> 00:47:40.836
Doubt, that the weight of their inability to believe and trust
00:47:40.836 --> 00:47:44.307
God in this hour.
00:47:44.307 --> 00:47:45.641
Is somehow so repulsive to jesus that he doesn't want to spend
00:47:45.641 --> 00:47:48.110
Time with you.
00:47:48.110 --> 00:47:49.979
And i really believe that in this moment, jesus meets you
00:47:49.979 --> 00:47:55.418
With welcome and an invitation.
00:47:55.418 --> 00:47:58.054
So can we just pray right now for our friends?
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Holy spirit, we acknowledge you.
00:48:00.957 --> 00:48:04.327
And god, i just pray for the one that's listening in that feels,
00:48:04.327 --> 00:48:07.730
You know what?
00:48:07.730 --> 00:48:09.598
I want to believe.
00:48:09.598 --> 00:48:11.000
I want to want to love god, but i just don't have it within me.
00:48:11.000 --> 00:48:15.905
Jesus, we know that your grace is sufficient.
00:48:15.905 --> 00:48:20.142
And god, you paid the price to remain near.
00:48:20.142 --> 00:48:23.412
You paid the price that we may never be alone.
00:48:23.412 --> 00:48:29.986
So jesus, we praise you.
00:48:29.986 --> 00:48:31.153
We thank you.
00:48:31.153 --> 00:48:32.455
And although the questions are still with us, god, you are
00:48:32.455 --> 00:48:35.858
Magnified in our midst.
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In jesus' name we pray. amen.
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- hey everybody, i'm sheila.
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Behind the scenes here at better together with brittany and we're
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Answering some of your questions.
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So let me ask you this question first.
00:48:58.814 --> 00:49:00.783
This is from jenny and she writes, how do you keep
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Declaring god's promise even when you feel discouraged,
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Especially over prayer?
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That has been unanswered for such a long time. wow.
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- well, first off, i just want to say i'm sorry.
00:49:13.429 --> 00:49:14.797
I'm sorry for what you've walked through, and i'm sorry for what
00:49:14.797 --> 00:49:16.198
May feel like the death of dreams or the waiting season
00:49:16.198 --> 00:49:20.870
That you've been in.
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But i also want to encourage you that god hears you and he sees
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You, and god's promises are not based on our feelings.
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So even when we feel like god has not answered or god has let
00:49:27.443 --> 00:49:30.679
Us down, that doesn't mean that it's true.
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The truth is that god is still working on your behalf, and he
00:49:32.581 --> 00:49:35.618
Is doing more than you can even imagine behind
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The scenes.
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So i just want to encourage you to keep running to the truth,
00:49:40.322 --> 00:49:42.324
Keep running to the promises, even when you don't feel it and
00:49:42.324 --> 00:49:44.460
Watch what god will do.
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- you know, jenny, it's interesting because i'm thinking
00:49:46.028 --> 00:49:48.964
About somebody i used to look up to when i was a young girl who
00:49:48.964 --> 00:49:52.268
Was in our church and he and his wife got married and then he
00:49:52.268 --> 00:49:56.272
Became a christian and she was lovely, but she just didn't have
00:49:56.272 --> 00:49:59.909
Any interest in the church.
00:49:59.909 --> 00:50:01.310
Every tuesday night, i would go to our prayer meeting and there
00:50:01.310 --> 00:50:03.846
Was only maybe, i don't know, 30 of us.
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And he would pray faithfully every tuesday for his wife.
00:50:05.581 --> 00:50:08.951
And then i went off to seminary and i came back and realized
00:50:08.951 --> 00:50:12.621
He'd gone to me with jesus.
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And it wasn't until later i discovered that she gave her
00:50:13.889 --> 00:50:16.659
Life to christ at his memorial service.
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So it kind of taught me this lesson, a lifetime is not too
00:50:18.961 --> 00:50:22.031
Long to pray.
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Just know that not one of your prayers has fallen to the
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Ground. and in fact, it tells us in psalms and in the revelation
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Given to john and patmos that the angels hold up these great
00:50:29.972 --> 00:50:33.042
Bowls of incense before god.
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And do you know what they are?
00:50:35.344 --> 00:50:36.345
The prayers of the people. yes.
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The prayers are not lost, jenny.
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Can We Question God? | Better Together Episode 1146

March 2, 2026 | S8 E1146 | 50:59

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