Replace Negativity with Truth | Better Together Episode 1157

April 21, 2026 | S8 E1157 | 50:59

God’s truth has the power to silence every negative voice. When His Word fills your mind, lies no longer control your thinking. Speaking truth brings clarity and a renewed mind to move forward in all God has planned for you. | TBN Prayer Line: 714-731-1000

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Better Together | Replace Negativity with Truth | Better Together Episode 1157 | April 21, 2026
  • - i'm not good enough.
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  • No one loves me.
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  • If lies and negative thoughts flood your mind,
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  • It's time to replace them with the truth of god's word.
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  • He says that you are wonderfully made and you are
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  • Greatly loved.
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  • Come on, let's talk about it.
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  • (music playing)
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  • - this is such a joy to be with you friends,
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  • And i've been thinking about the lies we believe and the
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  • Truths we need.
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  • And right away when i think of that idea i can think of two
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  • Lies.
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  • That i picked up when life let me down and they were these.
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  • And kind of like what you said, you know,
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  • First is that i'm always on the outside of the circle.
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  • And worse was i have to endure everything i fear those were
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  • So baked into me.
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  • And it's like you can be a serious follower of christ and
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  • Passionately worship him.
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  • But if you're constantly bracing for impact you will
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  • Just never, never received the fullness of what he has.
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  • And you'll never be able to experience all that he wants
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  • To do in and through you.
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  • And so just for context in my story.
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  • I grew up in a large family in a denomination where i knew
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  • God was real, but i didn't know jesus was accessible.
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  • The gospel wasn't preached, right?
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  • I knew about jesus, but as a child, i felt god's presence.
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  • I knew he was real.
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  • Again, my dad was the mayor, and it was just crazy town at
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  • Our house with all these kids.
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  • But i was a rule follower and a people pleaser i would say.
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  • And there was a season of life where my mom needed to get a
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  • Job to help put food on the table.
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  • And around that time my older brothers started to hang
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  • Around with creepy friends.
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  • And one day i came home from school,
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  • Was in the laundry room looking for a change of
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  • Clothes, and the door shut behind me.
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  • I was about 9 years old.
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  • In a matter of moments, i was pinned on the floor by 4 of my
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  • Brother's friends.
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  • No brother was there at that moment.
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  • And i experienced a sexual assault.
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  • But being my dad was the mayor.
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  • And these were my brother's friends.
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  • I thought i will bring scandal on our family,
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  • And so i shoved it into the basement of my soul.
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  • But you know, it just opens a canyon of fear and insecurity.
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  • - absoltuely.
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  • - and so i would say about a year later i'm walking home,
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  • So about 10 years old.
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  • I'm walking home from school, and i see those wretched bikes
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  • Out in front.
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  • I got that sick feeling in my stomach.
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  • And just shows you how confused my little mind was.
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  • Because i said out loud as i'm walking across the baseball
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  • Field.
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  • I don't care if god made me this way,
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  • Those boys will never touch me again.
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  • And a different group of boys were hanging out in a baseball
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  • Dugout.
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  • And all i heard in my peripheral was get her,
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  • And they ran out of the baseball dugout and they ran
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  • Me down and knocked me to the ground and pummeled me,
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  • Beat me.
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  • And i was 4 ft tall, and they punched me in the face,
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  • Pulled fistfuls of hair, kicked me in the stomach,
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  • And i'm this little girl.
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  • And i'm screaming and they're laughing wildly like i can
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  • Still remember the crazed look in their eyes.
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  • I know, but i know now in my adult mind they were high on
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  • Something.
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  • Because they had a kind of a crazed look and i had
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  • Scratches in my face.
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  • I was taking these blows, you know, and they,
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  • When they got done with me.
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  • They pushed off of me and walked away and we're laughing
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  • And they said, can you believe we just did that?
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  • I had my bell rung, my hair was snarled, my stomach hurt.
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  • I was so traumatized by that.
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  • And as they're walking away, i got up and i heard in my ear,
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  • And it was not audible, but it might as well have been.
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  • I heard.
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  • I can get you anytime, anywhere,
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  • And god will never stop me.
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  • And so then as a little girl i knew the devil was real too
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  • And fear entered my life in such a big way.
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  • I came to christ as a young teen.
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  • I became an overachiever, a gymnast,
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  • And you know this and that always just trying to earn my
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  • Way.
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  • I didn't--you know, i knew i was saved.
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  • I didn't know i was [indiscernible].
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  • And i think a lot of christians can say that's
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  • Probably true, right?
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  • And so, i was a striver.
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  • So even when i was a young married,
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  • I was on five committees at church, three out of passion,
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  • Two out of duty, you know what i mean?
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  • Like i did, i served because of passion,
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  • But i still didn't know who i was, so i was still earning,
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  • Right?
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  • And, ended up needing to go on bed rest for a high-risk
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  • Pregnancy and i was on bed rest for six months with a one
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  • And a three-year-old and.
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  • So when you're a doer and improver and all those things
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  • And you have to call in every friend a favor for six months.
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  • We're talking babysitting for a one and a three-year-old,
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  • I mean we were going broke and you know it was confronting
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  • All my insecurities surface, you know,
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  • Because i couldn't earn anymore.
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  • And i was getting kind of depressed.
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  • And one of the doctors said, let's get you up and see if
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  • You're ok to go out.
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  • So i met an old college roommates.
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  • It was a fall day in the midwest, went for a walk.
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  • It proved to be too much.
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  • We had lunch and a walk and so i was back on bed rest that
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  • Night and two weeks from that outing, i'm on bed rest.
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  • A friend came to visit, and she said, hey,
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  • Can i get you your water?
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  • And i go, yeah, it's over here.
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  • And i pointed and pins and needles shot out my arm.
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  • And she's talking and while she's talking it's numbing,
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  • Buzzing, pulsating started in the base of my skull and just
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  • Started to pulsate on my face.
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  • My whole face started to go numb,
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  • And my vision started to blur and she's like, what is wrong?
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  • And i said, i don't know, something's going on in my
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  • Body.
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  • And this dear friend had had grown tired of me and i really
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  • Don't blame her.
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  • But she developed the gift of discouragement, you know.
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  • [laughing]
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  • So anyway, she would say these things that
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  • Had barbs in them that were so painful.
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  • She's just, she's like, you know,
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  • If it's not one thing with you, it's another.
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  • And it was true and i-- - it's not helpful.
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  • - it's so not helpful.
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  • And then she went on to say, you know,
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  • I guess it's personalities like yours that most often
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  • Get ms.
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  • So that's probably what it is.
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  • And she left and there's more fear and i still had three
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  • Months to go.
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  • And i, you know, i, i could tell my friends are tired of
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  • Me and long story, short.
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  • I delivered our son and my health plummeted.
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  • And they ruled out brain tumor,
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  • Ms and a year later found out it was lyme disease.
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  • And i don't have time to talk about what the journey has
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  • Been like.
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  • But it's been a 36-year battle and sheila knows very well.
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  • She's seen me in some of my lowest points,
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  • And it's a challenge.
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  • I have to work really hard to be ok and i'm so grateful that
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  • I'm alive.
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  • But i had a pretty massive health relapse 10 years ago
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  • And i was getting ready to go to the radio station and my
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  • Arms went numb and my face went numb.
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  • And i'm like, oh no, oh no, oh please no, not at this age,
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  • Please no, please no.
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  • And it just i had neurological fireworks going on in my body.
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  • And i heard the whisper in my ear from the lord,
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  • Storms reveal the lies we believe and the truths we
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  • Need.
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  • - wow, that's powerful.
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  • - and i heard it again.
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  • The storms reveal the lies we believe in the truths we need.
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  • And i'm like, what's the lie that i believe?
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  • And then my whole neck went numb,
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  • And my esophagus spasmed and i felt like the enemy had me by
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  • The throat.
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  • I can get you anytime, anywhere,
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  • And god will never stop me and god back that's the lie.
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  • You are a serious follower of christ.
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  • Yes, you do follow me with earnestness.
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  • But you have no idea this is not true.
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  • It is not true.
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  • He can get you anytime, anywhere.
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  • You don't even know what i've prevented in your life,
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  • And you don't know what i've provided.
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  • Then he said, i'm not going to let you lose,
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  • But i have to let you fight.
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  • God redeemed so much, you know,
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  • There were hard places in the journey.
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  • But i needed that storm because i was still walking
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  • With a limp that i didn't need.
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  • Do you know?
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  • I was still believing lies that or i needed truth.
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  • And so i really went on a rampage against the spirit of
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  • Fear.
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  • I mean i really like i could function around it sometimes,
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  • But it did impair me a lot.
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  • And i mean i remember one of my docs saying that is causing
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  • More inflammation.
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  • The fear of the things that might happen is causing more
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  • Inflammation in your body than the actual diseases.
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  • I mean you're flared, but this fear has got to go.
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  • - i think it's so powerful when you realize that god
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  • Doesn't give you the spirit of fear.
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  • Fear is never from god.
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  • So, if you're experiencing fear,
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  • That is straight from the pits of hell.
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  • And what i've discovered is that behind the fear,
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  • The insecurity, or the failure,
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  • Generally there's something that that god wants to show
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  • You.
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  • So the fear, the insecurity, and the failure is almost
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  • Intimidating you from actually seeing where god is.
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  • But i've discovered it's an indicator.
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  • So now, if i feel fear in any way, i'm like, wait a minute,
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  • What is the enemy trying to hide?
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  • What is he lying to me about that god wants to show me.
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  • But i can't see because there's this massive screen of
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  • Fear in front of it, in front of it.
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  • So if i could just say to you right now,
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  • Anytime you feel fear.
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  • In any capacity, start thinking about it as an
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  • Indicator that god's doing something that the enemy
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  • Doesn't want you to see.
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  • Why?
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  • Because when you get a hold of the truth of what god wants
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  • You to see, you're going to destroy the kingdom of hell.
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  • And he doesn't want you to do that.
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  • So, it's not about you being less than.
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  • It's about what the enemy's trying to keep you from seeing
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  • So that you don't hinder his kingdom.
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  • - i am convinced the abundant life is ours,
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  • But it does not come in wrapped in a nice bow.
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  • We have a thief and his intent is to steal, kill and destroy.
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  • But it's not an equal fight when you've got the spirit of
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  • God in you and so all that to say i would love to know even
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  • Some of the lies you've believed and the truths you've
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  • Made because it's.
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  • The truth that sets us free.
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  • It's the spirit who leads us into all truth.
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  • And we actually go to a new place with every new
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  • Revelation of truth.
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  • Which means more people are helped through our life
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  • Because we're walking more free.
  • 00:09:02.754 --> 00:09:04.122
  • So do you have thoughts?
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  • I'm sure you've got something coming to mind.
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  • - i was just thinking about ufos.
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  • [laughing]
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  • Let me explain.
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  • - yes, please.
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  • - i've got this written at the back of my bible,
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  • And it's this.
  • 00:09:14.899 --> 00:09:16.034
  • It's untruths, false narratives, overreactions.
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  • And that for me has been so important,
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  • Particularly like overreactions.
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  • When i overreact to something, there's always history
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  • Involved.
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  • You know, when it's just when my response is way out of
  • 00:09:29.848 --> 00:09:32.584
  • Proportion, like when barry and i were first married.
  • 00:09:32.584 --> 00:09:34.953
  • There would be times when he would say something.
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  • But what came in the package to me had so much weight.
  • 00:09:36.655 --> 00:09:42.127
  • You know, back to when my father was mentally ill and,
  • 00:09:42.127 --> 00:09:45.330
  • And violent with me.
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  • I suddenly found myself afraid of my own husband.
  • 00:09:47.832 --> 00:09:50.568
  • And so for me it's like, ok, what are the untruths that i
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  • Have believed.
  • 00:09:54.406 --> 00:09:55.407
  • Because i think if when i was a teenager,
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  • Even in my twenties, if you'd dug down to the basement of my
  • 00:09:56.908 --> 00:10:00.779
  • Soul.
  • 00:10:00.779 --> 00:10:01.880
  • You'd have found kind of inscribed in the stone,
  • 00:10:01.880 --> 00:10:03.548
  • I'm too broken to be loved.
  • 00:10:03.548 --> 00:10:05.283
  • And that was the first untruth that god began to unpack.
  • 00:10:05.283 --> 00:10:09.721
  • No, you're mine and i love you.
  • 00:10:09.721 --> 00:10:12.023
  • And i see you and then false narratives.
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  • What are the things that play over and over in our heads?
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  • That's right.
  • 00:10:18.363 --> 00:10:19.330
  • But they're actually, they're not true.
  • 00:10:19.330 --> 00:10:20.765
  • They're something that we've just,
  • 00:10:20.765 --> 00:10:22.333
  • It's been kind of scarred into us.
  • 00:10:22.333 --> 00:10:24.235
  • - but you give them power if you leave them unchallenged.
  • 00:10:24.235 --> 00:10:26.771
  • - yeah, right. absolutely.
  • 00:10:26.771 --> 00:10:28.373
  • And then, and overreactions, and i've learned to bring all
  • 00:10:28.373 --> 00:10:32.243
  • Of that.
  • 00:10:32.243 --> 00:10:33.511
  • So i have this litmus test from philippians chapter four
  • 00:10:33.511 --> 00:10:37.082
  • Where it says verse eight.
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  • And i love the fact that paul says,
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  • And now dear brothers and sisters, one final thing.
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  • He has talked about so much in this letter to the church
  • 00:10:42.821 --> 00:10:46.658
  • In philippi.
  • 00:10:46.658 --> 00:10:47.726
  • But he's saying, ok, all of that, really great.
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  • Listen to this one final thing.
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  • Fix your thoughts on what is true and honorable.
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  • And right, and pure and lovely, and admirable.
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  • Think about things that are excellent and worthy of
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  • Praise.
  • 00:11:07.145 --> 00:11:08.179
  • So i run these ufos through this.
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  • Is this true?
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  • Is this lovely?
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  • Is this worthy of praise.
  • 00:11:13.251 --> 00:11:16.154
  • And it's just given me this great ability to be able to
  • 00:11:16.154 --> 00:11:19.224
  • Say, oh well, no, you just failed the test.
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  • You just failed the litmus test, no.
  • 00:11:22.360 --> 00:11:24.496
  • And i think it's the power of the word of god that
  • 00:11:24.496 --> 00:11:27.766
  • Contradicts the lies of the enemy.
  • 00:11:27.766 --> 00:11:30.301
  • No matter how long we have believed them.
  • 00:11:30.301 --> 00:11:32.270
  • Because i believed that for years.
  • 00:11:32.270 --> 00:11:34.639
  • I even remember i was speaking at a conference in london.
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  • And it was a big conference and it was wembley arena and
  • 00:11:37.208 --> 00:11:40.512
  • There's like 25,000 women.
  • 00:11:40.512 --> 00:11:42.347
  • But it was a church that was kind of known for everybody
  • 00:11:42.347 --> 00:11:45.116
  • Being very thin and wearing black clothes and looking very
  • 00:11:45.116 --> 00:11:48.286
  • Glamorous, and i can remember-- - her face contorts.
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  • [laughing]
  • 00:11:51.489 --> 00:11:55.260
  • - i remember and all these beautiful people
  • 00:11:55.260 --> 00:11:57.262
  • Came to the conference.
  • 00:11:57.262 --> 00:11:58.863
  • And at the end of the conference everyone was going
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  • Back to this person's house for an after party
  • 00:12:00.598 --> 00:12:05.003
  • And i didn't go.
  • 00:12:05.003 --> 00:12:06.204
  • I got my driver to take me back to the hotel and i
  • 00:12:06.204 --> 00:12:08.239
  • Remember sitting in my hotel room thinking,
  • 00:12:08.239 --> 00:12:10.308
  • Why didn't i go?
  • 00:12:10.308 --> 00:12:12.110
  • Because i felt like i didn't fit in.
  • 00:12:12.110 --> 00:12:14.145
  • I felt like i wasn't, i didn't have the right credentials to
  • 00:12:14.145 --> 00:12:17.182
  • Be in that space.
  • 00:12:17.182 --> 00:12:19.484
  • And so for me it's this intentional.
  • 00:12:19.484 --> 00:12:21.920
  • It doesn't happen overnight, intentional combating every
  • 00:12:21.920 --> 00:12:25.290
  • Lie with what god says is true and not allowing it to take
  • 00:12:25.290 --> 00:12:28.693
  • Root.
  • 00:12:28.693 --> 00:12:29.928
  • And it used to stay for longer, now when it comes, i,
  • 00:12:29.928 --> 00:12:32.897
  • I just confront that thing, there's going to be no ufos
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  • In my head.
  • 00:12:35.600 --> 00:12:36.701
  • - i love that.
  • 00:12:36.701 --> 00:12:38.436
  • - how do we keep our eyes on the thoughts of god,
  • 00:12:39.504 --> 00:12:41.439
  • The things of god, what's true, what's lovely,
  • 00:12:41.439 --> 00:12:43.374
  • What's right, what's good?
  • 00:12:43.374 --> 00:12:44.576
  • You know, i always say we don't default to those places,
  • 00:12:44.576 --> 00:12:47.011
  • We default to fear, doubt, worry, and anxiety.
  • 00:12:47.011 --> 00:12:49.547
  • So i would say apply ourselves to think about what we're
  • 00:12:49.547 --> 00:12:53.384
  • Thinking about.
  • 00:12:53.384 --> 00:12:54.819
  • Everywhere you turn, there's evidence of god's goodness.
  • 00:12:54.819 --> 00:12:57.288
  • Everywhere you turn, there's evidence of his beauty.
  • 00:12:57.288 --> 00:13:00.124
  • So when you start to notice, you become a noticer.
  • 00:13:00.124 --> 00:13:02.760
  • I mean notice the sunrise, slow down and thank god.
  • 00:13:02.760 --> 00:13:06.130
  • Imagine a gift tag to you from god, you know,
  • 00:13:06.130 --> 00:13:08.900
  • Taste your food and thank god.
  • 00:13:08.900 --> 00:13:11.236
  • When you start to marinate in and meditate on the gifts of
  • 00:13:11.236 --> 00:13:15.273
  • God that are right in front of you,
  • 00:13:15.273 --> 00:13:17.041
  • You will see how truly rich you are.
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  • It'll change everything for you.
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  • - i love how paul tells us, don't throw away
  • 00:13:47.139 --> 00:13:49.508
  • Your confidence.
  • 00:13:49.508 --> 00:13:50.676
  • I think we're constantly throwing confidence away and
  • 00:13:50.676 --> 00:13:53.445
  • Clinging to the lie and the insecurity, the negativity.
  • 00:13:53.445 --> 00:13:57.116
  • And oftentimes feeling like we don't fit or whatever it looks
  • 00:13:57.116 --> 00:14:01.220
  • Like.
  • 00:14:01.220 --> 00:14:02.454
  • I mean, i think there's a million thoughts that can come
  • 00:14:02.454 --> 00:14:03.656
  • Through.
  • 00:14:03.656 --> 00:14:04.957
  • I think it'd be really awesome if we took every lie that we
  • 00:14:04.957 --> 00:14:07.026
  • Are listening to, because sometimes we don't realize
  • 00:14:07.026 --> 00:14:08.494
  • They're lies.
  • 00:14:08.494 --> 00:14:09.728
  • They like you were talking about the other day walking
  • 00:14:09.728 --> 00:14:11.830
  • And just the enemy coming in with those thoughts.
  • 00:14:11.830 --> 00:14:14.066
  • We all have that.
  • 00:14:14.066 --> 00:14:15.200
  • You never get past that.
  • 00:14:15.200 --> 00:14:17.303
  • What you do learn is to identify it and then
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  • Immediately surrender it.
  • 00:14:20.472 --> 00:14:21.740
  • 2000 years ago, jesus said it is finished.
  • 00:14:21.740 --> 00:14:24.543
  • That's--every debt, every sin, every failure has been paid
  • 00:14:24.543 --> 00:14:27.413
  • For.
  • 00:14:27.413 --> 00:14:28.547
  • And yet we live like we're still fighting for it.
  • 00:14:28.547 --> 00:14:31.016
  • You're fighting from a victory that's already been won.
  • 00:14:31.016 --> 00:14:34.687
  • And it is just us accessing what he's already done.
  • 00:14:34.687 --> 00:14:39.024
  • - when we realize what jesus did on the cross,
  • 00:14:39.024 --> 00:14:42.094
  • What he paid for with his blood.
  • 00:14:42.094 --> 00:14:43.696
  • The victory that we have in christ today,
  • 00:14:43.696 --> 00:14:46.999
  • We start declaring things.
  • 00:14:46.999 --> 00:14:48.634
  • We start praying from a place of victory that is already
  • 00:14:48.634 --> 00:14:52.504
  • Done.
  • 00:14:52.504 --> 00:14:53.739
  • That we're just declaring things that that jesus already
  • 00:14:53.739 --> 00:14:56.208
  • Did are now here on earth with what happens in heaven happens
  • 00:14:56.208 --> 00:15:00.346
  • On earth now.
  • 00:15:00.346 --> 00:15:01.513
  • And that's where we say we are healed, we are saved,
  • 00:15:01.513 --> 00:15:05.217
  • We are redeemed, we are set free.
  • 00:15:05.217 --> 00:15:08.420
  • We are overcomers.
  • 00:15:08.420 --> 00:15:09.588
  • All the things, we have the mind of christ,
  • 00:15:09.588 --> 00:15:11.924
  • All the things that jesus did, has already happened.
  • 00:15:11.924 --> 00:15:15.194
  • We just get to walk in that.
  • 00:15:15.194 --> 00:15:16.495
  • We get to walk in that victory and we get to pray from that
  • 00:15:16.495 --> 00:15:19.498
  • Place of victory.
  • 00:15:19.498 --> 00:15:21.233
  • - jesus said, i have all power.
  • 00:15:21.233 --> 00:15:24.003
  • We can believe in something, but it does not have power.
  • 00:15:24.003 --> 00:15:26.839
  • We can't give it power because it has no power, right?
  • 00:15:26.839 --> 00:15:31.010
  • Jesus said, i've come to seek and save the lost.
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  • I have come to destroy-- - the works of the enemy.
  • 00:15:33.645 --> 00:15:36.248
  • - the works of the enemy.
  • 00:15:36.248 --> 00:15:37.282
  • And then he said, it is finished.
  • 00:15:37.282 --> 00:15:38.784
  • Then he said, last thing, all power.
  • 00:15:38.784 --> 00:15:40.986
  • So if he has all power, how much does the devil have?
  • 00:15:40.986 --> 00:15:44.189
  • - right.
  • 00:15:44.189 --> 00:15:44.823
  • - right?
  • 00:15:44.823 --> 00:15:45.958
  • So, and he says that satan is the father of lies.
  • 00:15:45.958 --> 00:15:49.628
  • I love how jesus did warfare.
  • 00:15:49.628 --> 00:15:51.597
  • He said, satan, you get behind me.
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  • I'm not going to look at you anymore.
  • 00:15:53.799 --> 00:15:55.567
  • It started a few decades back when i felt like i got reborn
  • 00:15:55.567 --> 00:15:59.605
  • Again.
  • 00:15:59.605 --> 00:16:00.873
  • When i realized that there wasn't-- you know god and the
  • 00:16:00.873 --> 00:16:06.645
  • Devil fighting this battle.
  • 00:16:06.645 --> 00:16:09.281
  • And sometimes god won, sometimes the enemy won.
  • 00:16:09.281 --> 00:16:12.518
  • You know, and then when i realized and when i had the
  • 00:16:12.518 --> 00:16:15.287
  • Revelation.
  • 00:16:15.287 --> 00:16:16.455
  • That there is no power but of god says it himself.
  • 00:16:16.455 --> 00:16:20.659
  • And then i don't have to look through anything that's
  • 00:16:20.659 --> 00:16:24.663
  • Stopping me for what god has for me.
  • 00:16:24.663 --> 00:16:26.865
  • So when lies come, you can immediately,
  • 00:16:26.865 --> 00:16:30.169
  • I immediately know a lie when i hear it, spiritually.
  • 00:16:30.169 --> 00:16:34.673
  • That that's not from god because there's no truth
  • 00:16:34.673 --> 00:16:38.077
  • In it.
  • 00:16:38.077 --> 00:16:39.211
  • It says the truth cannot be found in the devil.
  • 00:16:39.211 --> 00:16:41.713
  • And so i think a lot of us live our lives from what we
  • 00:16:41.713 --> 00:16:45.384
  • Believe did or didn't happen at the cross of christ.
  • 00:16:45.384 --> 00:16:48.120
  • And what it is, is it's knowing what god says about
  • 00:16:48.120 --> 00:16:50.355
  • Us.
  • 00:16:50.355 --> 00:16:51.557
  • That's why it's so important to get into god's word.
  • 00:16:51.557 --> 00:16:54.093
  • And when you hear something that i'm not enough i'm not
  • 00:16:54.093 --> 00:16:58.330
  • This, i'm not that.
  • 00:16:58.330 --> 00:16:59.598
  • I'm all that stuff that we can replay over and over.
  • 00:16:59.598 --> 00:17:02.334
  • You hold it up to what the truth of god's word is and
  • 00:17:02.334 --> 00:17:06.371
  • Then you say satan, you get behind me.
  • 00:17:06.371 --> 00:17:08.373
  • I'm not looking at you anymore.
  • 00:17:08.373 --> 00:17:10.509
  • There's nothing that i have to go i don't have to go through.
  • 00:17:10.509 --> 00:17:13.812
  • The devil and his lies to get what i need from god.
  • 00:17:13.812 --> 00:17:16.949
  • Every good and perfect thing comes from jesus.
  • 00:17:16.949 --> 00:17:19.952
  • So i'm going to go directly to him and i'm not going to look
  • 00:17:19.952 --> 00:17:23.655
  • At what satan could do or what he has done or what i feel
  • 00:17:23.655 --> 00:17:27.659
  • He's done or any power that i think he has.
  • 00:17:27.659 --> 00:17:31.163
  • You fix your eyes on what jesus has said.
  • 00:17:31.163 --> 00:17:34.032
  • And who he says we are through him.
  • 00:17:34.032 --> 00:17:37.069
  • You know, and all those things i am loved.
  • 00:17:37.069 --> 00:17:39.705
  • God is not done with me yet.
  • 00:17:39.705 --> 00:17:41.907
  • I'm still a work in progress.
  • 00:17:41.907 --> 00:17:43.509
  • I still, you know, the good work that he has started,
  • 00:17:43.509 --> 00:17:47.379
  • He will complete inside of me, you know,
  • 00:17:47.379 --> 00:17:49.414
  • And so i think just-- speaking truth to a lie and i think
  • 00:17:49.414 --> 00:17:55.487
  • Saying it with your mouth.
  • 00:17:55.487 --> 00:17:56.722
  • Death and life are in the power of the tongue.
  • 00:17:56.722 --> 00:17:59.424
  • Jesus says today i put before you life and death so there's
  • 00:17:59.424 --> 00:18:03.295
  • Good things and there's bad things.
  • 00:18:03.295 --> 00:18:05.497
  • We can all look around and see all the bad things saying
  • 00:18:05.497 --> 00:18:09.601
  • Choose life, choose this.
  • 00:18:09.601 --> 00:18:10.969
  • This and so when we do that, we get everything we need from
  • 00:18:10.969 --> 00:18:16.175
  • God.
  • 00:18:16.175 --> 00:18:17.476
  • And i think that's just a powerful mindset that changes
  • 00:18:17.476 --> 00:18:20.679
  • It changed my life.
  • 00:18:20.679 --> 00:18:22.181
  • And i actually we actually got down on our-- i've been saved
  • 00:18:22.181 --> 00:18:25.918
  • All my life.
  • 00:18:25.918 --> 00:18:27.219
  • My husband and i got in the middle of our living room with
  • 00:18:27.219 --> 00:18:30.789
  • Our pastors and got on our knees and i said i have
  • 00:18:30.789 --> 00:18:33.292
  • Believed that there has been this--
  • 00:18:33.292 --> 00:18:36.795
  • - cosmic war.
  • 00:18:36.795 --> 00:18:37.696
  • - cosmic war against god almighty.
  • 00:18:37.696 --> 00:18:41.333
  • The one who has all power.
  • 00:18:41.333 --> 00:18:42.734
  • And so for us to be able to put power to some being.
  • 00:18:42.734 --> 00:18:48.006
  • I think that's all in our head that we believe a lie and we
  • 00:18:48.006 --> 00:18:52.177
  • Can have whatever we believe.
  • 00:18:52.177 --> 00:18:54.413
  • As a man thinks, so is he.
  • 00:18:54.413 --> 00:18:56.481
  • Jesus says, today, choose life.
  • 00:18:56.481 --> 00:18:59.351
  • Choose what god says about us.
  • 00:18:59.351 --> 00:19:02.854
  • - why we should be intentional about aligning our words with
  • 00:19:02.854 --> 00:19:05.724
  • The word of god is.
  • 00:19:05.724 --> 00:19:06.892
  • I would say it's because we're perpetual forgetters.
  • 00:19:06.892 --> 00:19:09.695
  • We're so hard on the israelites of the old
  • 00:19:09.695 --> 00:19:11.296
  • Testament for their proneness to wander,
  • 00:19:11.296 --> 00:19:13.198
  • Their proneness to forget.
  • 00:19:13.198 --> 00:19:14.499
  • But i would say after living a long life and through some
  • 00:19:14.499 --> 00:19:18.403
  • Pretty hard battles.
  • 00:19:18.403 --> 00:19:19.504
  • I think nobody defaults to faith, hope and love.
  • 00:19:19.504 --> 00:19:23.542
  • We default to fear, worry, doubt, anxiety, insecurity.
  • 00:19:23.542 --> 00:19:27.212
  • That is where our brain goes.
  • 00:19:27.212 --> 00:19:28.780
  • That's where our gaze goes.
  • 00:19:28.780 --> 00:19:30.215
  • I mean, we are just earthbound by nature.
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  • But when we have the spirit of god alive in us,
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  • We can be dead to sin, dead to thoughts that weaken us.
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  • And i think that takes steady application.
  • 00:19:38.924 --> 00:19:41.827
  • And again as someone who's battled a lot i have to say
  • 00:19:41.827 --> 00:19:44.896
  • I've learned a lot about brain science and neuroplasticity.
  • 00:19:44.896 --> 00:19:48.433
  • And i've learned some miracles that the way god has wired us.
  • 00:19:48.433 --> 00:19:51.436
  • Is that when we start thinking new thoughts today our body
  • 00:19:51.436 --> 00:19:54.606
  • Starts firing synapses in our brain.
  • 00:19:54.606 --> 00:19:56.775
  • God has wired our bodies to help us think redemptively and
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  • No one can do that for us.
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  • And the more that we apply ourselves to the truths of
  • 00:20:02.014 --> 00:20:04.249
  • God's love.
  • 00:20:04.249 --> 00:20:05.250
  • Honestly, the more intuitive they become.
  • 00:20:05.250 --> 00:20:07.286
  • If that becomes your norm to be pondering and thinking
  • 00:20:07.286 --> 00:20:10.756
  • About the love of god, the word of god,
  • 00:20:10.756 --> 00:20:12.891
  • The truths of god.
  • 00:20:12.891 --> 00:20:14.026
  • When the storms hit your default instinctive
  • 00:20:14.026 --> 00:20:17.195
  • Perspective will be based on god's word.
  • 00:20:17.195 --> 00:20:19.331
  • But don't you think that we give weight to the enemy's
  • 00:20:19.331 --> 00:20:22.768
  • Words is what keeps us in bondage?
  • 00:20:22.768 --> 00:20:24.336
  • - it just keeps you in bondage--
  • 00:20:24.336 --> 00:20:25.804
  • - but it does, it does impact your life.
  • 00:20:25.804 --> 00:20:27.839
  • Yes, you know, but when you make that, distinction,
  • 00:20:27.839 --> 00:20:31.076
  • It shows that he won it all.
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  • We don't have to do this.
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  • - there's nothing we're fighting for.
  • 00:20:34.846 --> 00:20:36.315
  • - we begin from victory.
  • 00:20:36.315 --> 00:20:37.516
  • We begin from he's overcome. but you've seen
  • 00:20:37.516 --> 00:20:40.585
  • People live broken and they're giving a lot of weight and
  • 00:20:40.585 --> 00:20:43.355
  • They're even giving away power.
  • 00:20:43.355 --> 00:20:44.890
  • - i do think it's a matter of what we come into agreement
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  • With.
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  • More than who holds the power.
  • 00:20:49.227 --> 00:20:50.462
  • I think when i, when i think about that,
  • 00:20:50.462 --> 00:20:51.997
  • I think it's what we choose to--
  • 00:20:51.997 --> 00:20:55.033
  • - as a man thinks.
  • 00:20:55.033 --> 00:20:56.001
  • - yeah, right, as a man thinks,
  • 00:20:56.001 --> 00:20:57.035
  • What we choose to come into agreement with,
  • 00:20:57.035 --> 00:20:58.270
  • What we choose to believe you can have is law, right?
  • 00:20:58.270 --> 00:21:01.206
  • We can have it.
  • 00:21:01.206 --> 00:21:02.441
  • I mean, i think about 2 corinthians 10:5, we demolish.
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  • Right?
  • 00:21:03.809 --> 00:21:05.077
  • Arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against
  • 00:21:05.077 --> 00:21:08.347
  • What?
  • 00:21:08.347 --> 00:21:09.348
  • The knowledge of god, right?
  • 00:21:09.348 --> 00:21:11.083
  • And so what we do what we do with that is we take captive
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  • Every thought to make it obedient to christ.
  • 00:21:13.752 --> 00:21:16.254
  • I think i spent a lot of my life living from the agreement
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  • That i was powerless and abandoned.
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  • It's easy to live that way.
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  • It's actually easier and more comfortable to live rejected
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  • And abandoned-- - and it feels sure.
  • 00:21:28.100 --> 00:21:30.068
  • - it feels sure and true because you always have
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  • An excuse.
  • 00:21:32.804 --> 00:21:34.005
  • You all sure, right?
  • 00:21:34.005 --> 00:21:35.107
  • And so where i think where the enemy comes in
  • 00:21:35.107 --> 00:21:37.843
  • And for everyone.
  • 00:21:37.843 --> 00:21:39.277
  • Really for us it is what we choose to believe.
  • 00:21:39.277 --> 00:21:42.114
  • But we become so comfortable with our pain that it's the
  • 00:21:42.114 --> 00:21:44.216
  • Inability to look at it and say oh i have come into
  • 00:21:44.216 --> 00:21:46.718
  • Agreement.
  • 00:21:46.718 --> 00:21:47.386
  • - right.
  • 00:21:47.386 --> 00:21:48.553
  • - right, i'm not even the enemy has not made us do a
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  • Single thing.
  • 00:21:50.222 --> 00:21:51.289
  • I have said this is law scripture is saying,
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  • Does it come up against the knowledge of god?
  • 00:21:53.825 --> 00:21:55.827
  • We've joked about this, i was stuck in canada, ha ha.
  • 00:21:55.827 --> 00:21:58.230
  • I was there after one of the messages i gave,
  • 00:21:58.230 --> 00:22:01.533
  • There was a woman that came up to me,
  • 00:22:01.533 --> 00:22:02.868
  • And i was teaching on first samuel and obedience.
  • 00:22:02.868 --> 00:22:06.238
  • And learning to discern the voice of god,
  • 00:22:06.238 --> 00:22:07.939
  • Which is so important on this topic.
  • 00:22:07.939 --> 00:22:10.909
  • How do we learn to discern the voice of god?
  • 00:22:10.909 --> 00:22:13.912
  • And she had said to me, i think i've got the gift of the
  • 00:22:13.912 --> 00:22:15.947
  • Prophetic.
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  • I think i've began to discern certain things.
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  • Can you help me?
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  • I'm having a hard time discerning what i'm hearing
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  • From the lord or what i'm sensing.
  • 00:22:23.021 --> 00:22:24.356
  • And i said, sure, really easy.
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  • If it's to know the voice of god, you know the word of god.
  • 00:22:26.691 --> 00:22:31.129
  • So do you know, do you know who he is in his word?
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  • Do you know how he sounds, right?
  • 00:22:34.566 --> 00:22:36.301
  • So the lord, he's not condemnation, right?
  • 00:22:36.301 --> 00:22:39.037
  • So that the voice of god does two things.
  • 00:22:39.037 --> 00:22:41.139
  • He comforts and convicts.
  • 00:22:41.139 --> 00:22:42.974
  • And so god is consistently comforting and consistently
  • 00:22:42.974 --> 00:22:45.677
  • Convicting so that we can become more like him.
  • 00:22:45.677 --> 00:22:47.612
  • But he's never condemning you.
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  • He's never going to come and condemn and so as we are
  • 00:22:49.347 --> 00:22:52.350
  • Auditing our thoughts, right, conviction will come because
  • 00:22:52.350 --> 00:22:54.953
  • That's how we are sanctified.
  • 00:22:54.953 --> 00:22:56.388
  • And so to rule out any uncomfortable feeling would be
  • 00:22:56.388 --> 00:22:59.958
  • Unwise.
  • 00:22:59.958 --> 00:23:01.259
  • We are made in the image of christ and his likeness as we
  • 00:23:01.259 --> 00:23:04.062
  • Are convicted of our things and sins.
  • 00:23:04.062 --> 00:23:05.997
  • And god will reveal uncomfortability in things in
  • 00:23:05.997 --> 00:23:08.567
  • Our lives.
  • 00:23:08.567 --> 00:23:09.835
  • But he won't condemn us, right?
  • 00:23:09.835 --> 00:23:11.603
  • And so if you're a woman watching today, right,
  • 00:23:11.603 --> 00:23:13.405
  • And you are trying to discern how to move forward out of our
  • 00:23:13.405 --> 00:23:16.942
  • Pain and out of that rehearsing.
  • 00:23:16.942 --> 00:23:18.343
  • I'd ask like what are you living from condemnation?
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  • Have you come into agreement with thoughts of condemnation?
  • 00:23:21.413 --> 00:23:24.216
  • If you have, that is not the voice of the father, right?
  • 00:23:24.216 --> 00:23:27.118
  • That's that's an easy pivot right out.
  • 00:23:27.118 --> 00:23:29.120
  • That's an easy audit to say like, oh,
  • 00:23:29.120 --> 00:23:30.755
  • I'm living from from an agreement that i made with
  • 00:23:30.755 --> 00:23:33.391
  • Condemnation, with shame, with rejection, with abandonment,
  • 00:23:33.391 --> 00:23:35.494
  • Whatever narrative has become your lens.
  • 00:23:35.494 --> 00:23:37.262
  • We break the ties, break the agreements,
  • 00:23:37.262 --> 00:23:40.098
  • And we move into the power that we have in christ jesus
  • 00:23:40.098 --> 00:23:42.300
  • And the knowledge, right.
  • 00:23:42.300 --> 00:23:43.702
  • That we have in christ.
  • 00:23:43.702 --> 00:23:46.271
  • I am a huge advocate for auditing our thoughts
  • 00:23:46.371 --> 00:23:50.375
  • And beliefs.
  • 00:23:50.375 --> 00:23:51.676
  • I am a woman who has endured many seasons where people
  • 00:23:51.676 --> 00:23:55.780
  • Spoke things over me.
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  • And i picked them up as truth.
  • 00:23:57.716 --> 00:23:59.351
  • And i want to say that again.
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  • People will speak things over you.
  • 00:24:00.785 --> 00:24:02.954
  • And you will unknowingly pick those things up,
  • 00:24:02.954 --> 00:24:05.690
  • Those thoughts, those beliefs that they have handed to you
  • 00:24:05.690 --> 00:24:08.860
  • Will pick them up as truths.
  • 00:24:08.860 --> 00:24:10.462
  • So it's incredibly important that you stop and say,
  • 00:24:10.462 --> 00:24:12.731
  • What am i believing about myself?
  • 00:24:12.731 --> 00:24:15.500
  • And also, what am i believing god believes about me?
  • 00:24:15.500 --> 00:24:18.503
  • I had a boss a few years ago, and i think i've shared this
  • 00:24:18.503 --> 00:24:21.506
  • Before on better together in one of the episodes.
  • 00:24:21.506 --> 00:24:23.909
  • I had a boss who essentially said to me like,
  • 00:24:23.909 --> 00:24:26.945
  • You're not cut out for this.
  • 00:24:26.945 --> 00:24:28.046
  • Essentially called me dumb.
  • 00:24:28.046 --> 00:24:30.181
  • I'm not-- quite literally.
  • 00:24:30.181 --> 00:24:31.983
  • And i remember leaving the meeting so devastated and
  • 00:24:31.983 --> 00:24:35.420
  • Allowing those words to confirm beliefs from my
  • 00:24:35.420 --> 00:24:39.457
  • Childhood that i was dumb.
  • 00:24:39.457 --> 00:24:42.060
  • Inadequate, not smart enough, not educated enough to do the
  • 00:24:42.060 --> 00:24:45.630
  • Things that god had called me to do.
  • 00:24:45.630 --> 00:24:47.532
  • And i spent years untangling those beliefs from my identity
  • 00:24:47.532 --> 00:24:51.102
  • In christ.
  • 00:24:51.102 --> 00:24:52.404
  • God came after me and brought people to me to remind me that
  • 00:24:52.404 --> 00:24:55.340
  • I am equipped, that i am called,
  • 00:24:55.340 --> 00:24:57.976
  • Not because of my own gifting.
  • 00:24:57.976 --> 00:24:59.311
  • And that's so important that i that you hear that.
  • 00:24:59.311 --> 00:25:01.446
  • It's not because of what you can do,
  • 00:25:01.446 --> 00:25:03.582
  • But because of christ in you.
  • 00:25:03.582 --> 00:25:05.317
  • And that will set us absolutely free.
  • 00:25:05.317 --> 00:25:08.019
  • - difference between condemnation and conviction,
  • 00:25:08.019 --> 00:25:10.422
  • It's like condemnation says you don't belong.
  • 00:25:10.422 --> 00:25:12.958
  • Conviction pulls you close.
  • 00:25:12.958 --> 00:25:14.893
  • - conviction sets you free.
  • 00:25:14.893 --> 00:25:16.061
  • - yeah, absolutely.
  • 00:25:16.061 --> 00:25:16.962
  • - right?
  • 00:25:16.962 --> 00:25:18.263
  • It's like that revelation of what it is that he's inviting
  • 00:25:18.263 --> 00:25:20.031
  • Us into it's freedom. and i think freedom feels more
  • 00:25:20.031 --> 00:25:23.068
  • Attainable when you grab what she just said.
  • 00:25:23.068 --> 00:25:25.570
  • Because i do think we go around thinking this is some
  • 00:25:25.570 --> 00:25:27.973
  • Equal fight and we hope god wins.
  • 00:25:27.973 --> 00:25:29.774
  • You might even say you believe something different in your
  • 00:25:29.774 --> 00:25:32.010
  • Head, but if it's not really manifest in your life.
  • 00:25:32.010 --> 00:25:35.447
  • You really wonder if he's going to show up in your
  • 00:25:35.447 --> 00:25:37.182
  • Battle.
  • 00:25:37.182 --> 00:25:38.450
  • But if you come to what you just said it's like this is
  • 00:25:38.450 --> 00:25:40.251
  • Not an equal fight.
  • 00:25:40.251 --> 00:25:41.553
  • It's not like god's fighting he can he's the only uncreated
  • 00:25:41.553 --> 00:25:44.255
  • One he can breathe.
  • 00:25:44.255 --> 00:25:45.490
  • You know and obliterate him and jesus won such a sound
  • 00:25:45.490 --> 00:25:48.760
  • Victory so when we get to that place then we can go after the
  • 00:25:48.760 --> 00:25:51.763
  • Lies saying i am a child of god.
  • 00:25:51.763 --> 00:25:54.299
  • And you do not get to lie to me.
  • 00:25:54.299 --> 00:25:56.067
  • But there needs to be something in us that gets
  • 00:25:56.067 --> 00:25:57.902
  • Activated, don't you think?
  • 00:25:57.902 --> 00:25:59.104
  • - absolutely.
  • 00:25:59.104 --> 00:25:59.971
  • - we want freedom enough to fight.
  • 00:25:59.971 --> 00:26:01.306
  • - well, you know, paul said put on the full
  • 00:26:01.306 --> 00:26:03.375
  • Armor of god to what? to fight.
  • 00:26:03.375 --> 00:26:06.845
  • No, he said to stand.
  • 00:26:06.845 --> 00:26:08.713
  • - to stand, that's right.
  • 00:26:08.713 --> 00:26:10.048
  • - so if my feet are shot with peace to go to battle,
  • 00:26:10.048 --> 00:26:13.585
  • It's to stand.
  • 00:26:13.585 --> 00:26:15.086
  • He's only told us to fight one fight.
  • 00:26:15.086 --> 00:26:16.921
  • That is the good fight of faith,
  • 00:26:16.921 --> 00:26:18.823
  • To stand on god's word and who he says, what he says.
  • 00:26:18.823 --> 00:26:23.128
  • - yeah, that's so powerful because i think what,
  • 00:26:23.128 --> 00:26:25.196
  • What we do, it's easier to live in the lie.
  • 00:26:25.196 --> 00:26:28.767
  • But honestly, i mean, you, you just have to get to the place
  • 00:26:28.767 --> 00:26:32.137
  • Where you're just tired of it.
  • 00:26:32.137 --> 00:26:33.371
  • And you're like, i'm done and i'm going to do the work.
  • 00:26:33.371 --> 00:26:35.940
  • I mean, that's where i came to.
  • 00:26:35.940 --> 00:26:36.941
  • That's where each of us has come to.
  • 00:26:36.941 --> 00:26:38.443
  • You just kind of, ok, i'm going to stand up in this.
  • 00:26:38.443 --> 00:26:40.512
  • And it's something that i saw in the past couple of weeks as
  • 00:26:40.512 --> 00:26:42.947
  • I've been doing some research.
  • 00:26:42.947 --> 00:26:44.416
  • I had never seen this before, but the first time we hear the
  • 00:26:44.416 --> 00:26:48.086
  • Enemy speaking.
  • 00:26:48.086 --> 00:26:49.954
  • With quotations, he says, did god say?
  • 00:26:49.954 --> 00:26:52.857
  • So the anatomy of a lie usually involves a question
  • 00:26:52.857 --> 00:26:56.628
  • That makes you question whether god is good or not.
  • 00:26:56.628 --> 00:26:59.464
  • Because he was saying to them, did god really say you
  • 00:26:59.464 --> 00:27:02.333
  • Couldn't?
  • 00:27:02.333 --> 00:27:03.435
  • Because he'll know that if you eat from this,
  • 00:27:03.435 --> 00:27:04.703
  • Then you're going to be more like god.
  • 00:27:04.703 --> 00:27:07.505
  • But they were already made in god's image.
  • 00:27:07.505 --> 00:27:09.774
  • So eve operating in the i'm not enough, and i,
  • 00:27:09.774 --> 00:27:14.679
  • I'm entitled to more yields to the lie at the same token.
  • 00:27:14.679 --> 00:27:19.084
  • The first time that we see god speaking is in the same story
  • 00:27:19.084 --> 00:27:22.754
  • With quotations where god says, where are you?
  • 00:27:22.754 --> 00:27:25.623
  • So they've yielded to the lie that they weren't enough,
  • 00:27:25.623 --> 00:27:28.593
  • And they needed something else, and god says,
  • 00:27:28.593 --> 00:27:31.029
  • Where are you?
  • 00:27:31.029 --> 00:27:31.696
  • It's right, exactly.
  • 00:27:31.696 --> 00:27:32.931
  • And they're hiding in shame again.
  • 00:27:32.931 --> 00:27:34.566
  • We're talking about shame.
  • 00:27:34.566 --> 00:27:35.900
  • But here's what's so beautiful i had never seen before and it
  • 00:27:35.900 --> 00:27:37.736
  • Blew my mind.
  • 00:27:37.736 --> 00:27:38.603
  • In the hebrew, where are you?
  • 00:27:38.603 --> 00:27:40.839
  • Is the hebrew word ayeka.
  • 00:27:40.839 --> 00:27:43.308
  • Which is the only time it's used is in genesis and
  • 00:27:43.308 --> 00:27:45.810
  • Literally what that means.
  • 00:27:45.810 --> 00:27:47.645
  • It's a longing of a father who's heartbroken because his
  • 00:27:47.645 --> 00:27:50.648
  • Children, he didn't come in hot and say, where are you?
  • 00:27:50.648 --> 00:27:53.084
  • You sinned.
  • 00:27:53.084 --> 00:27:54.052
  • You did, why'd you listen to the enemy?
  • 00:27:54.052 --> 00:27:55.587
  • He comes in heartbroken.
  • 00:27:55.587 --> 00:27:56.654
  • He's like, i don't want that disconnection.
  • 00:27:56.654 --> 00:27:58.523
  • Where are you?
  • 00:27:58.523 --> 00:28:00.658
  • - one of the biggest things i think most of us struggle with
  • 00:27:59.324 --> 00:28:03.294
  • Is this idea of, i'm not enough.
  • 00:28:03.294 --> 00:28:05.730
  • I have felt that for years.
  • 00:28:05.730 --> 00:28:06.998
  • And my opinion on it now is maybe not what everyone else
  • 00:28:06.998 --> 00:28:11.002
  • Would agree with.
  • 00:28:11.002 --> 00:28:12.270
  • I've come to the place where i get it,
  • 00:28:12.270 --> 00:28:13.638
  • I'm not enough and that that's ok.
  • 00:28:13.638 --> 00:28:15.140
  • I don't think i need to be enough.
  • 00:28:15.140 --> 00:28:17.776
  • I think that i used to pursue perfection.
  • 00:28:17.776 --> 00:28:19.978
  • I wanted to be perfect so that god would love me.
  • 00:28:19.978 --> 00:28:22.881
  • And then i realized that that is just not the whole story of
  • 00:28:22.881 --> 00:28:26.084
  • The gospel.
  • 00:28:26.084 --> 00:28:27.252
  • So i no longer pursue perfection, i pursue jesus,
  • 00:28:27.252 --> 00:28:30.121
  • Who is perfect.
  • 00:28:30.121 --> 00:28:31.623
  • You get to come on your best days and your worst days and
  • 00:28:31.623 --> 00:28:34.025
  • You don't have to get it all right.
  • 00:28:34.025 --> 00:28:36.394
  • - so the enemy's question dislocates you and tries to
  • 00:28:36.394 --> 00:28:40.465
  • Make you question god.
  • 00:28:40.465 --> 00:28:41.633
  • God's question is an invitation to come home.
  • 00:28:41.633 --> 00:28:45.270
  • He's constantly never not standing there.
  • 00:28:45.270 --> 00:28:47.405
  • It's so powerful, but that's god's mo throughout the
  • 00:28:47.405 --> 00:28:51.176
  • Scriptures.
  • 00:28:51.176 --> 00:28:51.843
  • That's his story.
  • 00:28:51.843 --> 00:28:52.811
  • He's constantly saying, where are you?
  • 00:28:52.811 --> 00:28:55.113
  • I'm not obviously, by the way, god doesn't ask a question
  • 00:28:55.113 --> 00:28:58.783
  • Because he doesn't know where we are.
  • 00:28:58.783 --> 00:29:00.218
  • But throughout the new testament there's recorded 300
  • 00:29:00.218 --> 00:29:03.855
  • Questions that jesus asked.
  • 00:29:03.855 --> 00:29:05.523
  • Asks so god asks us questions because it helps us dislocate
  • 00:29:05.523 --> 00:29:10.428
  • Us.
  • 00:29:10.428 --> 00:29:11.696
  • It helps us locate where we are because you can't get to
  • 00:29:11.696 --> 00:29:13.865
  • The destination if you're not paying attention to where you
  • 00:29:13.865 --> 00:29:16.034
  • Are.
  • 00:29:16.034 --> 00:29:17.335
  • So i think when you're talking about hearing the lie or the
  • 00:29:17.335 --> 00:29:18.903
  • Truth, the anatomy of a lie is it makes you question god's
  • 00:29:18.903 --> 00:29:21.372
  • Goodness.
  • 00:29:21.372 --> 00:29:22.340
  • Because god's good to you and he's you,
  • 00:29:22.340 --> 00:29:23.975
  • But he's really not good to me because if he was good to me,
  • 00:29:23.975 --> 00:29:26.077
  • Why would this be happening?
  • 00:29:26.077 --> 00:29:27.145
  • God asks questions because this is so powerful.
  • 00:29:27.145 --> 00:29:32.984
  • Even scientifically, biologically,
  • 00:29:32.984 --> 00:29:34.819
  • They've proven that when i ask you a question.
  • 00:29:34.819 --> 00:29:37.622
  • It begins to create new neural pathways.
  • 00:29:37.622 --> 00:29:40.291
  • It's neuroplasticity you're thinking through.
  • 00:29:40.291 --> 00:29:42.794
  • God wants us to wrestle with the truth so that we're not
  • 00:29:42.794 --> 00:29:45.797
  • Just speaking it, but we become it.
  • 00:29:45.797 --> 00:29:48.833
  • We're saturated with it.
  • 00:29:48.833 --> 00:29:50.568
  • We're obsessed with it.
  • 00:29:50.568 --> 00:29:52.036
  • And that's, i, i don't know.
  • 00:29:52.036 --> 00:29:53.304
  • I've been following jesus long enough right now.
  • 00:29:53.304 --> 00:29:55.640
  • I know who i'm not, right.
  • 00:29:55.640 --> 00:29:58.109
  • But i know the only way i can exist, survive,
  • 00:29:58.109 --> 00:30:01.779
  • Or even do what he's asked me to do is like i've got my face
  • 00:30:01.779 --> 00:30:04.415
  • In this.
  • 00:30:04.415 --> 00:30:05.083
  • This is my oxygen tank.
  • 00:30:05.083 --> 00:30:05.984
  • - that's right.
  • 00:30:05.984 --> 00:30:07.252
  • I mean, breathe into me.
  • 00:30:07.252 --> 00:30:08.453
  • - because, so i think sometimes we're answering the
  • 00:30:08.453 --> 00:30:11.623
  • Wrong question.
  • 00:30:11.623 --> 00:30:12.957
  • Yeah, or letting it linger over our lives.
  • 00:30:12.957 --> 00:30:14.692
  • - we're responding to, that's good.
  • 00:30:14.692 --> 00:30:16.561
  • - what, whose question is defining my life right now?
  • 00:30:16.561 --> 00:30:18.529
  • Is that jesus saying, who do you say that i am?
  • 00:30:18.529 --> 00:30:21.032
  • - yes.
  • 00:30:21.032 --> 00:30:22.233
  • - so yesterday you were wonderful and you were doing
  • 00:30:22.233 --> 00:30:26.271
  • All sorts of good things for today we got a bad diagnosis.
  • 00:30:26.271 --> 00:30:29.007
  • Who do you say that i am?
  • 00:30:29.007 --> 00:30:30.575
  • Tell me who i am.
  • 00:30:30.575 --> 00:30:32.110
  • Well, i believe you're my healer, you know.
  • 00:30:32.110 --> 00:30:34.913
  • I believe that today is the day that god has made.
  • 00:30:34.913 --> 00:30:38.349
  • I will rejoice into what's happened today because god
  • 00:30:38.349 --> 00:30:41.686
  • Bates our passion, right?
  • 00:30:41.686 --> 00:30:44.923
  • I think i've lived long enough to know that when something
  • 00:30:44.923 --> 00:30:48.559
  • Blindsides us, i'm quick to say, ok,
  • 00:30:48.559 --> 00:30:52.597
  • What's god saying today?
  • 00:30:52.597 --> 00:30:54.999
  • What's god asking me today?
  • 00:30:54.999 --> 00:30:59.304
  • He's baiting my faith.
  • 00:30:59.304 --> 00:31:01.272
  • He's baiting my passion to want to know him.
  • 00:31:01.272 --> 00:31:04.509
  • To want to hear him, to want to lean into him,
  • 00:31:04.509 --> 00:31:06.411
  • And we can all get there it's your perspective changing
  • 00:31:06.411 --> 00:31:10.581
  • Instead of turning and rebuking and i'm thinking this
  • 00:31:10.581 --> 00:31:13.751
  • Is pushing me forward somewhere.
  • 00:31:13.751 --> 00:31:15.820
  • God is taking me somewhere all i need to do is lean into him
  • 00:31:15.820 --> 00:31:19.991
  • And what he's saying today.
  • 00:31:19.991 --> 00:31:21.326
  • Ok, all right, who do who do i say you are today i say you're
  • 00:31:21.326 --> 00:31:24.195
  • My joy, you're my peace, you're my strong tower.
  • 00:31:24.195 --> 00:31:28.599
  • You're my strength, you're everything i need you're my
  • 00:31:28.599 --> 00:31:31.803
  • Satisfaction, you're my provision.
  • 00:31:31.803 --> 00:31:33.805
  • Everything that i need you've got for me right here,
  • 00:31:33.805 --> 00:31:36.841
  • Right now.
  • 00:31:36.841 --> 00:31:37.875
  • And i think that's the currency of heaven.
  • 00:31:37.875 --> 00:31:40.044
  • - and god's saying you do that say that i am through the
  • 00:31:40.144 --> 00:31:41.679
  • Emotions and you make that declaration.
  • 00:31:41.679 --> 00:31:43.181
  • I feel a physiological shift in my body.
  • 00:31:43.181 --> 00:31:45.350
  • - absolutely.
  • 00:31:45.350 --> 00:31:46.617
  • - yeah.
  • 00:31:46.617 --> 00:31:47.819
  • - it's powerful because you're coming in line with what
  • 00:31:47.819 --> 00:31:49.854
  • The word of god says.
  • 00:31:49.854 --> 00:31:50.688
  • - yes, yeah.
  • 00:31:50.688 --> 00:31:52.523
  • - first samuel chapter seven, verse 12 talks about ebenezer
  • 00:31:52.523 --> 00:31:55.493
  • Stones.
  • 00:31:55.493 --> 00:31:56.227
  • And i'm obsessed with this.
  • 00:31:56.227 --> 00:31:58.196
  • I wrote an entire book about it.
  • 00:31:58.196 --> 00:31:59.530
  • It's called eyes up.
  • 00:31:59.530 --> 00:32:00.198
  • It's my first book ever.
  • 00:32:00.198 --> 00:32:01.432
  • And the lord walked me through what i like to call the
  • 00:32:01.432 --> 00:32:04.635
  • Theology of remembrance.
  • 00:32:04.635 --> 00:32:06.037
  • Which essentially means learning to remember the
  • 00:32:06.037 --> 00:32:09.073
  • Goodness of god.
  • 00:32:09.073 --> 00:32:10.375
  • I am a perpetual doubter or have been a perpetual doubter.
  • 00:32:10.375 --> 00:32:13.478
  • I often say it's the thorn in my side that i wrestle out my
  • 00:32:13.478 --> 00:32:17.448
  • Faith.
  • 00:32:17.448 --> 00:32:18.683
  • I often doubt, and mark 9:24, lord, i believe,
  • 00:32:18.683 --> 00:32:21.552
  • Help my unbelief is like my life first.
  • 00:32:21.552 --> 00:32:23.554
  • Because i have been a woman who has had to either borrow
  • 00:32:23.554 --> 00:32:27.125
  • Faith from many people, many times or has gone to god and
  • 00:32:27.125 --> 00:32:30.928
  • Said, help me to see it.
  • 00:32:30.928 --> 00:32:32.096
  • And so if that's you, i see you.
  • 00:32:32.096 --> 00:32:34.265
  • And in first samuel chapter seven, verse 12,
  • 00:32:34.265 --> 00:32:36.501
  • There is a verse that says, i have brought you this far and
  • 00:32:36.501 --> 00:32:40.972
  • I won't stop now.
  • 00:32:40.972 --> 00:32:42.673
  • That verse helped change my belief that god was not only
  • 00:32:42.673 --> 00:32:47.178
  • Faithful.
  • 00:32:47.178 --> 00:32:48.746
  • But would never abandon me, would never leave me where he
  • 00:32:48.746 --> 00:32:51.049
  • Met me.
  • 00:32:51.049 --> 00:32:52.083
  • And it replaced the lies around rejection and
  • 00:32:52.083 --> 00:32:54.285
  • Abandonment and god's faithfulness for me.
  • 00:32:54.285 --> 00:32:57.455
  • And it changed everything.
  • 00:32:57.455 --> 00:32:58.756
  • It reminded me that god will never leave me nor forsake me
  • 00:32:58.756 --> 00:33:01.526
  • And that when i feel abandoned or maybe like god isn't
  • 00:33:01.526 --> 00:33:04.028
  • Faithful or good to me, that he is and that he's not done
  • 00:33:04.028 --> 00:33:07.498
  • Yet.
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  • - hi, sheila here with susie.
  • 00:33:14.639 --> 00:33:16.274
  • And we're behind the scenes at better together and answering
  • 00:33:16.274 --> 00:33:18.609
  • Some of your questions.
  • 00:33:18.609 --> 00:33:19.644
  • So let me kick off with this one.
  • 00:33:19.644 --> 00:33:21.612
  • This is martha, who watches us on instagram.
  • 00:33:21.612 --> 00:33:24.715
  • Hey martha, and this is a question,
  • 00:33:24.715 --> 00:33:26.551
  • How can i get over people's negative comments about me?
  • 00:33:26.551 --> 00:33:30.054
  • I've become so insecure.
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  • And of overwhelming anxiety.
  • 00:33:31.656 --> 00:33:33.458
  • Wow, that's hard.
  • 00:33:33.458 --> 00:33:34.459
  • - that's really hard.
  • 00:33:34.459 --> 00:33:35.993
  • I just know for me there was a moment as a young mom where i,
  • 00:33:35.993 --> 00:33:39.730
  • You know, battling lyme disease, three little kids,
  • 00:33:39.730 --> 00:33:41.866
  • A lot of medical debt.
  • 00:33:41.866 --> 00:33:43.134
  • And my friends had health and they had wealth.
  • 00:33:43.134 --> 00:33:45.136
  • I wasn't making it up.
  • 00:33:45.136 --> 00:33:46.337
  • Their lives really were better than mine at that point.
  • 00:33:46.337 --> 00:33:49.207
  • And i had my bible and i'm like, god,
  • 00:33:49.207 --> 00:33:50.842
  • Where's the victory here?
  • 00:33:50.842 --> 00:33:51.909
  • I mean, i read, i fast, i pray,
  • 00:33:51.909 --> 00:33:53.945
  • I'm doing as much as i can as a sick young mom.
  • 00:33:53.945 --> 00:33:56.747
  • But i get it from this place and i'm the same insecure
  • 00:33:56.747 --> 00:33:58.816
  • Person.
  • 00:33:58.816 --> 00:33:59.851
  • I still have all those fears and anxieties.
  • 00:33:59.851 --> 00:34:01.452
  • I'm no different, so where's the victory?
  • 00:34:01.452 --> 00:34:03.221
  • And i'll never forget it.
  • 00:34:03.221 --> 00:34:04.555
  • There was a moment where god thundered in my spirit and
  • 00:34:04.555 --> 00:34:07.291
  • Said, susie, i know that you love me.
  • 00:34:07.291 --> 00:34:09.127
  • But you don't seem to know that i love you.
  • 00:34:09.127 --> 00:34:11.162
  • And until i tell you different,
  • 00:34:11.162 --> 00:34:12.897
  • Every time you want to say i love you, lord.
  • 00:34:12.897 --> 00:34:14.465
  • I want you to flip it around and say do you love me, lord.
  • 00:34:14.465 --> 00:34:16.734
  • Say it now.
  • 00:34:16.734 --> 00:34:17.568
  • And i said, do you love me lord?
  • 00:34:17.568 --> 00:34:18.870
  • And the fact that it felt so foreign made me realize that i
  • 00:34:18.870 --> 00:34:21.772
  • Was putting way more emphasis on my love for him than i was
  • 00:34:21.772 --> 00:34:24.242
  • On his love for me.
  • 00:34:24.242 --> 00:34:25.476
  • And the more that i applied myself to his love.
  • 00:34:25.476 --> 00:34:28.279
  • And then i would read it in scripture to know this love is
  • 00:34:28.279 --> 00:34:30.748
  • To be filled with the fullness of god that's what changed
  • 00:34:30.748 --> 00:34:33.384
  • Everything.
  • 00:34:33.384 --> 00:34:34.552
  • So to me it's not about reasoning your way through
  • 00:34:34.552 --> 00:34:36.988
  • People's critiques.
  • 00:34:36.988 --> 00:34:38.156
  • It's living as a deeply loved child of god that really
  • 00:34:38.156 --> 00:34:40.625
  • That's when the gap widens between how people.
  • 00:34:40.625 --> 00:34:42.793
  • Affect you and how god affects you.
  • 00:34:42.793 --> 00:34:44.428
  • - that's so true, that's so good.
  • 00:34:44.428 --> 00:34:46.130
  • I remember before he went home to be with jesus.
  • 00:34:46.130 --> 00:34:48.232
  • My friend brennan manning said to me that he thinks that when
  • 00:34:48.232 --> 00:34:51.302
  • He gets home, the first thing jesus will ask him is,
  • 00:34:51.302 --> 00:34:53.437
  • Did you believe that i loved you?
  • 00:34:53.437 --> 00:34:55.006
  • Because i think when you believe, martha,
  • 00:34:55.006 --> 00:34:57.642
  • That you are loved by god.
  • 00:34:57.642 --> 00:34:59.210
  • And honestly it's like a muscle you have to just
  • 00:34:59.210 --> 00:35:01.412
  • Develop.
  • 00:35:01.412 --> 00:35:02.613
  • And keep working, keep reading about the love of god,
  • 00:35:02.613 --> 00:35:04.682
  • Do as susie does.
  • 00:35:04.682 --> 00:35:05.883
  • I like that, i'm going to start doing that,
  • 00:35:05.883 --> 00:35:07.485
  • Saying thank you lord, you love me.
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  • - join the conversation on our better together youtube
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  • Channel.
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  • 00:35:17.999 --> 00:35:20.932
  • - and i'm thinking of that story in the gospels when
  • 00:35:22.033 --> 00:35:23.568
  • Jesus said, who do people say i am?
  • 00:35:23.568 --> 00:35:25.670
  • Well, some say, you know, prophet and whatever.
  • 00:35:25.670 --> 00:35:27.838
  • And he says, who do you say i am?
  • 00:35:27.838 --> 00:35:29.907
  • And peter's like, you're the messiah,
  • 00:35:29.907 --> 00:35:31.142
  • The son of the living god.
  • 00:35:31.142 --> 00:35:32.143
  • And the lord said, you know what, the,
  • 00:35:32.143 --> 00:35:34.912
  • The heaven revealed that to you.
  • 00:35:34.912 --> 00:35:36.247
  • You didn't come to that on your own.
  • 00:35:36.247 --> 00:35:38.149
  • And since peter was postured to get a revelation about who
  • 00:35:38.149 --> 00:35:41.152
  • Jesus was.
  • 00:35:41.152 --> 00:35:42.286
  • Then jesus took that opportunity to give peter a
  • 00:35:42.286 --> 00:35:44.288
  • Revelation about who he is.
  • 00:35:44.288 --> 00:35:45.656
  • Because he said it happened on the rock, you know.
  • 00:35:45.656 --> 00:35:47.558
  • And he starts talking about peter's calling.
  • 00:35:47.558 --> 00:35:49.460
  • And it's just a matter of moments they're walking on a
  • 00:35:49.460 --> 00:35:52.096
  • Little bit longer and jesus is talking about going to the
  • 00:35:52.096 --> 00:35:54.432
  • Cross and it's peter who jumps in the path may it never be
  • 00:35:54.432 --> 00:35:58.169
  • Forbid.
  • 00:35:58.169 --> 00:35:59.003
  • You know he jumps into that realm.
  • 00:35:59.003 --> 00:36:00.271
  • And then jesus says get behind me satan and i wondered like
  • 00:36:00.271 --> 00:36:03.541
  • How do you go from a divine revelation to, you know,
  • 00:36:03.541 --> 00:36:06.844
  • A deathly one in a matter of moments.
  • 00:36:06.844 --> 00:36:09.046
  • Like he said peter, you are the rock and you know and on
  • 00:36:09.046 --> 00:36:12.250
  • This, you know, i will give you the keys to the kingdom
  • 00:36:12.250 --> 00:36:14.051
  • And then get behind me satan.
  • 00:36:14.051 --> 00:36:16.454
  • So what, what was the what was the force behind it was fear.
  • 00:36:16.454 --> 00:36:19.757
  • Fear because he did not want to hear that jesus needed to
  • 00:36:19.757 --> 00:36:23.027
  • Go all the way to the cross and i think of how.
  • 00:36:23.027 --> 00:36:25.096
  • And fear gets in the way.
  • 00:36:25.096 --> 00:36:26.430
  • - well, even when jesus, when they came to get jesus in the
  • 00:36:26.430 --> 00:36:28.299
  • Garden, you know.
  • 00:36:28.299 --> 00:36:29.600
  • He whips out a sword to cut the hair off, and jesus says,
  • 00:36:29.600 --> 00:36:32.036
  • What are you doing?
  • 00:36:32.036 --> 00:36:33.337
  • You're, you're trying to stop me from going to my destiny.
  • 00:36:33.337 --> 00:36:36.474
  • This is what i'm doing right now.
  • 00:36:36.474 --> 00:36:38.509
  • Stop-- - you know, i have a lot of empathy for peter
  • 00:36:38.509 --> 00:36:41.345
  • Though, because they do the same thing.
  • 00:36:41.345 --> 00:36:43.180
  • - yeah, i mean, absolutely.
  • 00:36:43.180 --> 00:36:44.649
  • - i don't want to go garden.
  • 00:36:44.649 --> 00:36:45.683
  • I think he was thinking, i will die with you.
  • 00:36:45.683 --> 00:36:49.487
  • I'm just not going to lay down here like a lamb.
  • 00:36:49.487 --> 00:36:51.756
  • He just didn't understand.
  • 00:36:51.756 --> 00:36:53.090
  • He'd been following, he'd been following a lamb all his life.
  • 00:36:53.090 --> 00:36:56.127
  • That that's who jesus is.
  • 00:36:56.127 --> 00:36:57.662
  • And so i think when circumstances are unexpected.
  • 00:36:57.662 --> 00:37:02.333
  • That's when we tend to think what happened here,
  • 00:37:02.333 --> 00:37:04.101
  • As opposed to making this absolute internal conviction.
  • 00:37:04.101 --> 00:37:08.606
  • God is good, god is in control,
  • 00:37:08.606 --> 00:37:10.775
  • God is sovereign all the time.
  • 00:37:10.775 --> 00:37:12.610
  • He's not sovereign some of the time and he loses out about 50
  • 00:37:12.610 --> 00:37:16.380
  • On a tuesday.
  • 00:37:16.380 --> 00:37:17.048
  • No.
  • 00:37:17.048 --> 00:37:18.149
  • God is sovereign, god is good, god is for us.
  • 00:37:18.149 --> 00:37:21.118
  • And whenever i feel any of those negative thoughts from
  • 00:37:21.118 --> 00:37:23.988
  • The past, i have this thing now where i'll just stop and
  • 00:37:23.988 --> 00:37:27.091
  • I'll say, sorry, i'll have to talk to my father.
  • 00:37:27.091 --> 00:37:29.560
  • It's like, no, you know, don't even have time to entertain
  • 00:37:29.560 --> 00:37:32.296
  • That because that's not who my father says i am.
  • 00:37:32.296 --> 00:37:34.699
  • - and i think when you practice that,
  • 00:37:34.699 --> 00:37:37.168
  • You're aware of when the negative thoughts are like you
  • 00:37:37.168 --> 00:37:39.904
  • Become more sensitive to it because it doesn't feel
  • 00:37:39.904 --> 00:37:42.273
  • Natural like it used to.
  • 00:37:42.273 --> 00:37:45.309
  • - jesus said, get behind me, satan.
  • 00:37:45.309 --> 00:37:47.478
  • I'll no longer look at you.
  • 00:37:47.478 --> 00:37:48.913
  • And so then anything that comes towards us, anything,
  • 00:37:48.913 --> 00:37:53.417
  • Any circumstance that doesn't, isn't on your bingo card,
  • 00:37:53.417 --> 00:37:57.288
  • As they say.
  • 00:37:57.288 --> 00:37:58.456
  • Anything that might surprise you, you know what,
  • 00:37:58.456 --> 00:38:01.225
  • That's your time to call on god,
  • 00:38:01.225 --> 00:38:03.327
  • He said you call on me and i'll answer you.
  • 00:38:03.327 --> 00:38:05.963
  • Everything belongs to him.
  • 00:38:05.963 --> 00:38:07.565
  • The earth is the lord's in the fullness thereof.
  • 00:38:07.565 --> 00:38:10.601
  • Everything that pertains to life and godliness is
  • 00:38:10.601 --> 00:38:14.105
  • From god.
  • 00:38:14.105 --> 00:38:15.072
  • And so what are we looking at him for?
  • 00:38:15.072 --> 00:38:18.142
  • There's no reason to ever even, i'm sorry,
  • 00:38:18.142 --> 00:38:22.179
  • I don't even consider what he's doing.
  • 00:38:22.179 --> 00:38:24.515
  • I'm looking forward to the prize of the high calling.
  • 00:38:24.515 --> 00:38:27.118
  • I'm thy kingdom come, thy will be done.
  • 00:38:27.118 --> 00:38:30.388
  • We're doing it right here on earth.
  • 00:38:30.388 --> 00:38:32.456
  • We're getting the kingdom established here on earth
  • 00:38:32.456 --> 00:38:35.626
  • Today.
  • 00:38:35.626 --> 00:38:37.094
  • - and i love this story about peter.
  • 00:38:37.094 --> 00:38:38.596
  • One of the things i had never seen before is, you know,
  • 00:38:38.596 --> 00:38:40.598
  • Thinking through, yes, it's fear.
  • 00:38:40.598 --> 00:38:42.333
  • But what did jesus say to him first?
  • 00:38:42.333 --> 00:38:45.136
  • He said, get behind me, right?
  • 00:38:45.136 --> 00:38:47.204
  • So what was the first calling on peter's life?
  • 00:38:47.204 --> 00:38:49.573
  • Follow me.
  • 00:38:49.573 --> 00:38:50.608
  • So if i'm following.
  • 00:38:50.608 --> 00:38:53.778
  • Then why am i needing to be told to get behind?
  • 00:38:53.778 --> 00:38:56.447
  • That means peter didn't feel control anymore.
  • 00:38:56.447 --> 00:38:59.150
  • He loved being like all the miracles,
  • 00:38:59.150 --> 00:39:01.051
  • But jesus now it's shifting.
  • 00:39:01.051 --> 00:39:02.653
  • The story's changing and he doesn't know what it's going
  • 00:39:02.653 --> 00:39:04.655
  • To look like.
  • 00:39:04.655 --> 00:39:05.523
  • So then he tries to lead.
  • 00:39:05.523 --> 00:39:07.324
  • Like i have a phd in control.
  • 00:39:07.324 --> 00:39:09.260
  • [laughing]
  • 00:39:09.260 --> 00:39:10.694
  • Yeah, i love knowing what's going to happen.
  • 00:39:10.694 --> 00:39:12.696
  • And that to me is like, i think a superpower.
  • 00:39:12.696 --> 00:39:15.666
  • Like it can be a superpower as long as you're still yielding
  • 00:39:15.666 --> 00:39:18.302
  • To jesus.
  • 00:39:18.302 --> 00:39:19.637
  • But i think that whole because jesus knew peter's calling in
  • 00:39:19.637 --> 00:39:23.240
  • Just a couple of weeks, he was going to be leading
  • 00:39:23.240 --> 00:39:25.075
  • The church.
  • 00:39:25.075 --> 00:39:26.143
  • He's like, you're going to have to remember,
  • 00:39:26.143 --> 00:39:27.445
  • And i love that his identity and his authority came through
  • 00:39:27.445 --> 00:39:30.781
  • Who jesus was.
  • 00:39:30.781 --> 00:39:31.649
  • - what i hear from all of you.
  • 00:39:31.649 --> 00:39:34.185
  • In your own personal stories is the steady application of
  • 00:39:34.185 --> 00:39:36.954
  • Truth.
  • 00:39:36.954 --> 00:39:37.988
  • You don't just save it for the rainy day,
  • 00:39:37.988 --> 00:39:39.423
  • You steadily apply the truth of god in your life, right?
  • 00:39:39.423 --> 00:39:42.460
  • - every day you, you have to do it every day.
  • 00:39:42.460 --> 00:39:44.428
  • It's a discipline.
  • 00:39:44.428 --> 00:39:45.329
  • It's a walk of faith.
  • 00:39:45.329 --> 00:39:46.397
  • - yes, in the good days and the bad days.
  • 00:39:46.397 --> 00:39:48.532
  • And i remember studying, you know,
  • 00:39:48.532 --> 00:39:49.633
  • Why the israelites didn't come into their promise,
  • 00:39:49.633 --> 00:39:51.469
  • And i found this nugget.
  • 00:39:51.469 --> 00:39:52.636
  • And i think it's psalm 107:6 and amplified.
  • 00:39:52.636 --> 00:39:55.439
  • And it said told them three things they did wrong.
  • 00:39:55.439 --> 00:39:58.042
  • And i'm like i want to get this right, so let me learn.
  • 00:39:58.042 --> 00:39:59.944
  • The one thing is they did not marvel at the miracles or the
  • 00:39:59.944 --> 00:40:03.614
  • Significance of the miracles of god.
  • 00:40:03.614 --> 00:40:06.083
  • So and i think about the israelites,
  • 00:40:06.083 --> 00:40:07.551
  • They saw the red sea part.
  • 00:40:07.551 --> 00:40:08.986
  • They saw a pillar of cloud by day, fire by night.
  • 00:40:08.986 --> 00:40:11.322
  • The scripture says that they left egypt was not a feeble
  • 00:40:11.322 --> 00:40:14.959
  • One among them, you know.
  • 00:40:14.959 --> 00:40:16.494
  • My thought on that my layman's view,
  • 00:40:16.494 --> 00:40:18.429
  • I'm a former fitness person, so i'm like there were
  • 00:40:18.429 --> 00:40:20.464
  • Herniated discs, there were parasites,
  • 00:40:20.464 --> 00:40:22.099
  • There were torn meniscus.
  • 00:40:22.099 --> 00:40:23.300
  • I know these people were injured,
  • 00:40:23.300 --> 00:40:24.768
  • So for them to leave egypt with not a feeble one,
  • 00:40:24.768 --> 00:40:27.505
  • My layman's view is that while the spirit of death was going
  • 00:40:27.505 --> 00:40:31.575
  • Through the land of egypt.
  • 00:40:31.575 --> 00:40:32.543
  • Life was happening under the blood.
  • 00:40:32.543 --> 00:40:34.144
  • Because they were in their homes under the blood.
  • 00:40:34.144 --> 00:40:36.447
  • There's no other explanation that that many people could
  • 00:40:36.447 --> 00:40:39.283
  • Leave without any feebleness in their bodies.
  • 00:40:39.283 --> 00:40:41.619
  • But anyway, they had front row seat to see all these
  • 00:40:41.619 --> 00:40:43.954
  • Miracles, yet they shrugged their shoulders at the
  • 00:40:43.954 --> 00:40:46.023
  • Miracles.
  • 00:40:46.023 --> 00:40:47.191
  • And so my thought is when you're in that negativity,
  • 00:40:47.191 --> 00:40:48.959
  • If you're in between miracles, borrow one.
  • 00:40:48.959 --> 00:40:51.662
  • There's so many borrow one from your friend,
  • 00:40:51.662 --> 00:40:54.064
  • Borrow faith, right, and meditate and stay in awe of
  • 00:40:54.064 --> 00:40:57.868
  • The miracles because he's the same god.
  • 00:40:57.868 --> 00:40:59.670
  • The second thing they didn't do.
  • 00:40:59.670 --> 00:41:01.272
  • Was they were not in perpetual of his mercies.
  • 00:41:01.272 --> 00:41:04.174
  • So and the scripture says they didn't earnestly remember his
  • 00:41:04.174 --> 00:41:07.478
  • Mercies, and you think about golly,
  • 00:41:07.478 --> 00:41:09.713
  • He sends us mercies every morning.
  • 00:41:09.713 --> 00:41:11.315
  • Before we've even had a chance to blow it.
  • 00:41:11.315 --> 00:41:13.117
  • I mean he's making so sure that we get home safely.
  • 00:41:13.117 --> 00:41:15.719
  • That we have an ocean of mercies.
  • 00:41:15.719 --> 00:41:17.888
  • I mean think of all the negative things you've said
  • 00:41:17.888 --> 00:41:20.891
  • That you didn't get in trouble for.
  • 00:41:20.891 --> 00:41:22.226
  • Now it's not to say your sin doesn't matter,
  • 00:41:22.226 --> 00:41:24.495
  • But he doesn't punish us as our sins deserve.
  • 00:41:24.495 --> 00:41:26.764
  • I mean, all the mercies of god, right?
  • 00:41:26.764 --> 00:41:28.933
  • And the third thing they didn't do was they did not
  • 00:41:28.933 --> 00:41:31.635
  • Imprint his loving kindness on their heart.
  • 00:41:31.635 --> 00:41:33.837
  • Which is like i sat a long time with that.
  • 00:41:33.837 --> 00:41:36.507
  • When you've gone through enough negativity,
  • 00:41:36.507 --> 00:41:38.108
  • You will brace for impact.
  • 00:41:38.108 --> 00:41:40.811
  • You will live waiting for the shoe to drop.
  • 00:41:40.811 --> 00:41:42.813
  • You have to apply yourself to the loving kindness of god.
  • 00:41:42.813 --> 00:41:45.716
  • And the israelites, bless their hearts,
  • 00:41:45.716 --> 00:41:48.152
  • Because i'm prone to wander in the very same ways.
  • 00:41:48.152 --> 00:41:50.821
  • All they could think about is what they didn't have.
  • 00:41:50.821 --> 00:41:52.656
  • And when those three things confronted me in my
  • 00:41:52.656 --> 00:41:55.125
  • Wilderness, i'm like i want to get this right.
  • 00:41:55.125 --> 00:41:57.394
  • And as i started to apply myself to the miracles and the
  • 00:41:57.394 --> 00:41:59.797
  • Mercies and his love.
  • 00:41:59.797 --> 00:42:02.099
  • My perspective changed.
  • 00:42:02.099 --> 00:42:03.400
  • Even my husband didn't know i was like privately applying
  • 00:42:03.400 --> 00:42:05.603
  • Myself to this, and he said; your skin looks different.
  • 00:42:05.603 --> 00:42:08.272
  • Your eyes look different.
  • 00:42:08.272 --> 00:42:09.340
  • He said, what are you taking a new vitamin?
  • 00:42:09.340 --> 00:42:11.375
  • I'm like, well, sorry, what's that?
  • 00:42:11.375 --> 00:42:12.810
  • I didn't need to tell you.
  • 00:42:12.810 --> 00:42:15.546
  • I mean, if you want to just, i just challenge you in jesus'
  • 00:42:15.546 --> 00:42:17.748
  • Name to apply yourself to those three truths daily.
  • 00:42:17.748 --> 00:42:20.517
  • It will change things for you because it sets you up to see
  • 00:42:20.517 --> 00:42:23.787
  • God, to hear god, and to stay in awe of him, you know.
  • 00:42:23.787 --> 00:42:26.090
  • - beautiful.
  • 00:42:26.090 --> 00:42:27.257
  • -can you see it again, the three things.
  • 00:42:27.257 --> 00:42:28.592
  • - yes, yes. they did not marvel at the significance of
  • 00:42:28.592 --> 00:42:31.762
  • God's miracles.
  • 00:42:31.762 --> 00:42:33.063
  • And i just think, you know, every time we get together we
  • 00:42:33.063 --> 00:42:35.733
  • Should be sharing a miracle, a miracle story, right?
  • 00:42:35.733 --> 00:42:38.636
  • They were not in earnest and perpetual all his mercies oh
  • 00:42:38.636 --> 00:42:42.506
  • The mercies.
  • 00:42:42.506 --> 00:42:43.540
  • It's the mercies of god that's, you know,
  • 00:42:43.540 --> 00:42:44.842
  • It's the love and the mercy why we're not consumed, right?
  • 00:42:44.842 --> 00:42:46.810
  • And then they didn't imprint his love on their hearts.
  • 00:42:46.810 --> 00:42:49.546
  • And the way i think of that is that my husband is just this
  • 00:42:49.546 --> 00:42:52.316
  • Oak of righteousness, giant man,
  • 00:42:52.316 --> 00:42:53.817
  • Steady eddie just does not lose his cool.
  • 00:42:53.817 --> 00:42:56.253
  • I, i just don't know anybody like him.
  • 00:42:56.253 --> 00:42:58.555
  • So if you were to tell me you saw him at the bar down the
  • 00:42:58.555 --> 00:43:00.691
  • Block tying one on or something.
  • 00:43:00.691 --> 00:43:02.493
  • I would tell you, you know, i think that's how they say it
  • 00:43:02.493 --> 00:43:07.031
  • Anyway.
  • 00:43:07.031 --> 00:43:08.365
  • I would say, well, you got the wrong guy because i know him.
  • 00:43:08.365 --> 00:43:09.333
  • I've been married a long time.
  • 00:43:09.333 --> 00:43:11.802
  • You know, if you tell me that he slept over and left his
  • 00:43:11.802 --> 00:43:14.104
  • Clothes everywhere, well, ok.
  • 00:43:14.104 --> 00:43:16.373
  • [laughing] - you're like, yeah, you got a case there.
  • 00:43:16.373 --> 00:43:18.842
  • - but i know him, and i believe god wants us to so
  • 00:43:18.842 --> 00:43:22.146
  • Imprint his character and kindness.
  • 00:43:22.146 --> 00:43:23.914
  • So when the devil comes or even someone else comes,
  • 00:43:23.914 --> 00:43:26.850
  • You got the wrong guy.
  • 00:43:26.850 --> 00:43:28.118
  • I know my god.
  • 00:43:28.118 --> 00:43:29.420
  • I know he's good, and i think that's how you forge, right?
  • 00:43:29.420 --> 00:43:31.855
  • - that's so good, susie.
  • 00:43:31.855 --> 00:43:32.856
  • I love that.
  • 00:43:32.856 --> 00:43:33.691
  • - i think it is so important to remember what god has
  • 00:43:34.792 --> 00:43:37.394
  • Already done.
  • 00:43:37.394 --> 00:43:38.395
  • In fact, paul says to us in philippians,
  • 00:43:38.395 --> 00:43:40.864
  • Be anxious for nothing, but in everything with prayer and
  • 00:43:40.864 --> 00:43:43.167
  • Supplication, with thanksgiving,
  • 00:43:43.167 --> 00:43:45.536
  • Present your request to god.
  • 00:43:45.536 --> 00:43:46.904
  • So, thanksgiving and gratefulness,
  • 00:43:46.904 --> 00:43:49.006
  • Remembering what god's already done.
  • 00:43:49.006 --> 00:43:50.574
  • Begins to shift the not enough into more than enough.
  • 00:43:50.574 --> 00:43:54.111
  • And i think negativity oftentimes is what we don't
  • 00:43:54.111 --> 00:43:56.780
  • Have i can get in a negative headspace if i'm comparing
  • 00:43:56.780 --> 00:43:59.983
  • Myself to somebody else.
  • 00:43:59.983 --> 00:44:01.452
  • I'm scrolling on instagram or social media in some way.
  • 00:44:01.452 --> 00:44:04.254
  • And i see what somebody else is being blessed with.
  • 00:44:04.254 --> 00:44:06.023
  • And it feels like they have no battles and i have them all.
  • 00:44:06.023 --> 00:44:09.293
  • But i've discovered that when i can take a few minutes to,
  • 00:44:09.293 --> 00:44:11.762
  • To remind myself, like build a memorial.
  • 00:44:11.762 --> 00:44:15.766
  • Remembering what he's already done,
  • 00:44:15.766 --> 00:44:17.935
  • He's done way more than we could have ever imagined.
  • 00:44:17.935 --> 00:44:20.104
  • And you may be in your room right now and you're like,
  • 00:44:20.104 --> 00:44:22.106
  • I don't, i can't think of anything.
  • 00:44:22.106 --> 00:44:23.440
  • Well, you're breathing, you're alive.
  • 00:44:23.440 --> 00:44:25.409
  • And you still have a few more days to go.
  • 00:44:25.409 --> 00:44:27.144
  • So just thanking god for those basic things.
  • 00:44:27.144 --> 00:44:30.981
  • And it begins to awaken within us that he's more than enough.
  • 00:44:30.981 --> 00:44:35.052
  • You know, because the bible tells us that his word is
  • 00:44:35.052 --> 00:44:38.522
  • Inspired and that word inspired means breathed into.
  • 00:44:38.522 --> 00:44:41.358
  • So you're really, you're, when you read it, even if it's,
  • 00:44:41.358 --> 00:44:44.862
  • Even if it's genealogy.
  • 00:44:44.862 --> 00:44:46.096
  • It has the essence of god attached to it.
  • 00:44:46.096 --> 00:44:49.066
  • Like i decided in every, i have read through the bible.
  • 00:44:49.066 --> 00:44:52.369
  • I mean, i've been following jesus for a long time.
  • 00:44:52.369 --> 00:44:54.605
  • Many times, but many times i start, i get stuck.
  • 00:44:54.605 --> 00:44:57.875
  • Because i'll read something, i'll be, oh,
  • 00:44:57.875 --> 00:45:00.410
  • That's phenomenal.
  • 00:45:00.410 --> 00:45:01.578
  • And then i've got 3 days of deep dive into whatever.
  • 00:45:01.578 --> 00:45:05.182
  • And you're right, i can have the same level of, well,
  • 00:45:05.182 --> 00:45:08.218
  • You promised god you're going to get through the bible.
  • 00:45:08.218 --> 00:45:10.053
  • Well, it's going to be three years this time?
  • 00:45:10.053 --> 00:45:11.755
  • - [indiscernible.] - yeah, exactly.
  • 00:45:11.755 --> 00:45:14.591
  • And i think that's what i'm trying to say is if you've
  • 00:45:14.591 --> 00:45:17.127
  • Tried to start reading the bible before and you got stuck
  • 00:45:17.127 --> 00:45:19.830
  • Or you didn't finish.
  • 00:45:19.830 --> 00:45:21.098
  • You know, two steps forward and three steps back doesn't
  • 00:45:21.098 --> 00:45:23.867
  • Mean you stop.
  • 00:45:23.867 --> 00:45:24.968
  • - there's no going.
  • 00:45:24.968 --> 00:45:26.737
  • - exactly, exactly.
  • 00:45:26.737 --> 00:45:28.138
  • - one of my guests on my radio show,
  • 00:45:28.138 --> 00:45:29.473
  • Because there's so much legalism and i think at times
  • 00:45:29.473 --> 00:45:31.542
  • Around your bible reading plan, it can get that way,
  • 00:45:31.542 --> 00:45:34.511
  • Right?
  • 00:45:34.511 --> 00:45:35.345
  • And he says, i just tell people,
  • 00:45:35.345 --> 00:45:36.547
  • As long as you're reading somewhere between the front
  • 00:45:36.547 --> 00:45:38.682
  • Cover and the back cover, you're good.
  • 00:45:38.682 --> 00:45:41.084
  • He's like, you know, it's good to get a good context,
  • 00:45:41.084 --> 00:45:43.520
  • But it's like get in the world.
  • 00:45:43.520 --> 00:45:44.788
  • Just be in the word and--
  • 00:45:44.788 --> 00:45:47.057
  • - yeah know who he is--like that.
  • 00:45:47.057 --> 00:45:49.860
  • I mean at the end of the day, i think he's inviting us in to
  • 00:45:49.860 --> 00:45:51.762
  • Know him.
  • 00:45:51.762 --> 00:45:54.364
  • So when you open up his word you're getting to know your
  • 00:45:54.364 --> 00:45:55.799
  • Father.
  • 00:45:55.799 --> 00:45:56.667
  • I mean think about it like that.
  • 00:45:56.667 --> 00:45:57.968
  • I spent years kind of tied up in some legalism around just
  • 00:45:57.968 --> 00:46:00.704
  • Reading the scriptures, but when it shifted for me was
  • 00:46:00.704 --> 00:46:03.207
  • When he said, i just want to know you.
  • 00:46:03.207 --> 00:46:04.975
  • I want to know you.
  • 00:46:04.975 --> 00:46:06.710
  • I want you to get to know me.
  • 00:46:06.710 --> 00:46:08.078
  • And opening up the scriptures is getting to know his love
  • 00:46:08.078 --> 00:46:11.481
  • And his mercy and that feels so much more life giving than
  • 00:46:11.481 --> 00:46:14.585
  • I have to.
  • 00:46:14.585 --> 00:46:15.552
  • I want to know the creator.
  • 00:46:15.552 --> 00:46:17.821
  • I want to know the one.
  • 00:46:17.821 --> 00:46:19.289
  • Yeah, i get to and it's an invitation to do that.
  • 00:46:19.289 --> 00:46:22.025
  • - can you move god's words off your to do list and onto your
  • 00:46:22.025 --> 00:46:24.895
  • Who i am.
  • 00:46:24.895 --> 00:46:25.629
  • - absolutely.
  • 00:46:25.629 --> 00:46:26.697
  • - that's beautiful because it's a love story.
  • 00:46:26.697 --> 00:46:28.899
  • - it's an invitation, so good.
  • 00:46:28.899 --> 00:46:30.434
  • - well, as we get ready to wrap.
  • 00:46:30.434 --> 00:46:33.003
  • I just i'm still thundered by what you said, you know,
  • 00:46:33.003 --> 00:46:35.939
  • How life shaking and like you knew that theologically,
  • 00:46:35.939 --> 00:46:38.342
  • The truth that jesus won a sound victory.
  • 00:46:38.342 --> 00:46:40.644
  • But it landed on you in a way that changed something--
  • 00:46:40.644 --> 00:46:43.947
  • - your life.
  • 00:46:43.947 --> 00:46:45.215
  • - yeah, i feel like that's what we should land with as i
  • 00:46:45.215 --> 00:46:46.850
  • Get ready to praise.
  • 00:46:46.850 --> 00:46:48.051
  • Because when you go to the idea of marveling at his
  • 00:46:48.051 --> 00:46:50.587
  • Miracles, being all of his mercies and imprinting his
  • 00:46:50.587 --> 00:46:53.223
  • Love.
  • 00:46:53.223 --> 00:46:54.258
  • All of that is a testament to love came down.
  • 00:46:54.258 --> 00:46:57.294
  • Love rescued us.
  • 00:46:57.294 --> 00:46:58.428
  • Love blew the doors off of the devil's claim on us.
  • 00:46:58.428 --> 00:47:01.164
  • And i think when we're in negativity maybe we go back to
  • 00:47:01.164 --> 00:47:03.634
  • That truth to say not only did he win a victory,
  • 00:47:03.634 --> 00:47:06.236
  • But he won a sound victory.
  • 00:47:06.236 --> 00:47:07.504
  • Ok, so from that place i've got to live in the truth.
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  • And one last thing before we pray is that,
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  • We will face god and give an account someday.
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  • And there is a place where--you can almost be
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  • Rebellious and defiant in your determination to believe a
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  • Lie.
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  • I mean, that's what the israelites,
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  • A lot of scholars say their fear was rebellious.
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  • It started out understandable because they were slaves.
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  • But it became rebellious because they coddled their
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  • Fear more than they clung to the promises of god.
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  • So that's how i'm going to pray for our friends watching
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  • Today.
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  • Is that we could get a fresh revelation of actually what
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  • Jesus accomplished.
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  • And from that place then start dealing with the lies.
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  • - amen. let's do it.
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  • - father in heaven, we, we thank you so much for loving
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  • Us so much that you sent your son.
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  • And oh dear jesus that you would come.
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  • That you would be so content to be misunderstood.
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  • That you would live a sinless life,
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  • That you were accused and condemned and treated like a
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  • Criminal for us, lord, you died our death,
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  • You paid our debt, and then you blew the doors off of the
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  • Enemy's claim on us, lord.
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  • The word says you made a public spectacle of the powers
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  • That oppose us, that is amazing, father.
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  • And so we just humbly bow before you we call you king.
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  • We call you lord.
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  • And we say thank you that you are alive in us that you are
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  • Coming for a pure and spotless bride.
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  • And lord god, i just, i pray forgive us god for holding
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  • Fast to lies that feel true.
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  • Help us god to get a new activated feisty faith to
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  • Contend for the truth.
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  • To believe the truth, to receive it and walk in it.
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  • Lord, many people, someone once said 1000 people are on
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  • The other side of our obedience.
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  • They're waiting on the other side of our obedience.
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  • Help us, god, to rise up to the freedom,
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  • To the wholeness that you paid such a high price for.
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  • It is for freedom that you set us free.
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  • So may we refuse to be subject to a yoke of slavery ever
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  • Again.
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  • May we live free, walk free, speak freedom,
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  • And help others get free.
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  • In the mighty name of jesus, we pray.
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  • Amen.
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  • - amen.
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  • Team can pray for you.
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  • (music playing)
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  • - my favorite thing that god says about me is that i am his
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  • Beloved.
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  • I think about it all the time.
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  • And so much so that i talk about it to my kids too.
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  • I've got three kids and it's become kind of a way of life
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  • For us that i am god's beloved.
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  • Which means that i have been given a new identity,
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  • A new name, a new future, a new calling,
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  • And that goes for you too.
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  • - he's delighted in me.
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  • I love that he loves me.
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  • But the fact that he delights in me.
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  • That always blows my mind.
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  • In spite of my imperfections, in spite of the times i don't
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  • Do it right.
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  • That doesn't sway how he thinks about me,
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  • And that one thought that he's delighted in me really changed
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  • And shifted a lot of things in my life.
  • 00:49:57.874 --> 00:50:00.077
  • - i think of ephesians 2:10.
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  • It says, for we are god's masterpiece created anew in
  • 00:50:01.611 --> 00:50:04.514
  • Christ jesus so we can do the wonderful things he planned
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  • For us long ago.
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  • To be a masterpiece, to be a treasure.
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  • As someone who battles a lot of chronic health issues.
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  • It just reminds me that he doesn't make mistakes.
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  • And so whatever he allows he redeems and it doesn't
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  • Diminish my value so that means a lot to me.
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  • - my very favorite thing that god says about me is very,
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  • Very simple; i love you.
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  • Because honestly that changes everything.
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  • When you think about who it is, who's saying it to you.
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  • It's not like the woman who works in the coffee shop,
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  • Or you know, somebody who sits beside you in church.
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  • But god himself, the one who's holding the whole universe in
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  • Place right now.
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  • Would look at you and say i love you.
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