See Failure as Opportunity | Better Together Episode 1160

April 24, 2026 | S8 E1160 | 50:59

God turns what we perceive as "failure" into opportunities to grow. Your mistakes and weaknesses are the very places God redeems for good. When you fully depend on Him, what once held you back becomes a stepping stone to deeper freedom and purpose. | TBN Prayer Line: 714-731-1000

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Better Together | See Failure as Opportunity | Better Together Episode 1160 | April 24, 2026
  • - there is no such thing as failure in god's eyes.
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  • When we step out in faith, we can only fail forward.
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  • Where we see mistakes and weaknesses,
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  • God sees opportunities to move on our behalf.
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  • And when we are weak, he is made strong.
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  • Come on, join us.
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  • [music]
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  • - i'll never forget the night that i was baptized.
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  • I was 16 years old, and i'd given my life to christ
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  • When i was 11.
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  • But i wanted to understand why baptism was really significant.
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  • And so, our pastor had classes, which i went to all the classes
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  • And read all about them.
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  • And then, from the moment--
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  • It was always done at the sunday evening service in our church.
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  • And we wore white robes and came in and sat in the front row.
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  • And literally, from the moment i walked into the sanctuary,
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  • I started to sob, not just cry, i mean, i started to sob.
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  • It was just overwhelming to me.
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  • And, you know, my friends were with me who were being baptized,
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  • And they're like, "are you okay?”
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  • And i'm like, "yeah, yeah.
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  • I'm good, i'm good.”
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  • But it just felt like something huge was going to happen.
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  • And i remember going up the steps
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  • And into the baptismal pool,
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  • And our pastor, he would always have a verse.
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  • He would pray before the service and say, you know,
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  • "lord, will you give me a verse for each person?”
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  • And as i came out of the water, the verse
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  • He gave me was from john's gospel.
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  • He says, "you did not choose me, but i chose you,
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  • That you abide and your fruit will abide.”
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  • And there was something about that.
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  • And i think probably because i had felt so unchosen as a child,
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  • The fact that god was saying, "now, this wasn't your idea,
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  • Sheila, this was my idea.
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  • I chose you,”
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  • Was really overwhelming to me.
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  • But then, in the years that went on,
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  • Because i had ignored a lot of the things
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  • That were painful in life because they seemed too hard
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  • To deal with--
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  • I mean, particularly when it comes to things like depression
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  • Or any kind of mental illness, we don't talk
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  • About that a whole lot within the church.
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  • We certainly didn't back then, you know,
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  • When i was dealing with it.
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  • And it was very hard for me to hold on to that verse.
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  • I said, "lord, you said that my fruit would abide.
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  • But if i fall apart, nothing's going to be left.”
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  • And i'll never forget,
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  • I mean, the one day where i went from literally being
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  • On television in the morning,
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  • And by that evening, i was in the locked ward
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  • Of a psychiatric hospital, thinking,
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  • "i don't know how i did it, but i ruined everything.”
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  • That had been god's plan.
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  • God had said, "this wasn't your idea, sheila.
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  • I chose you.”
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  • And now, i have so hugely disappointed you
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  • And let you down.
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  • And i will look back on that month
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  • That i spent in a psych ward as one
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  • Of god's greatest gifts to me.
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  • I discovered the son of god will give you a gift
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  • That makes your hand bleed when you open them,
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  • But inside is what you've been longing for all your life,
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  • A relationship with him based on nothing you bring to the table.
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  • And over that month, it was like this slowly stripping away
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  • Of all the things i'd believed about myself
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  • And the wrong ways i'd believed about god.
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  • I always thought it was a quid pro quo thing.
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  • I'll do this, and then you'll do that.
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  • And as long as i don't do this, then you won't do that.
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  • And it was just like relearning.
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  • And i remember when i was going back onto the 700 club
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  • To say goodbye to people because i was going to go back
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  • To seminary, because i went to seminary the first time
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  • To write down everything i need to do to make sure god loves me.
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  • I thought, "no, i want to go back,
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  • And i want to understand everything
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  • Christ has already done.”
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  • And so, i met with the production team that morning,
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  • And they were a little nervous because, you know, i mean,
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  • I've just spent a month in a psych hospital,
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  • But the basic thing was maybe don't tell people
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  • Where you were.
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  • Maybe just, you know, tell people you were really tired,
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  • And you need some rest.
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  • And they were trying to protect me,
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  • You know, protect your reputation.
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  • And i said, "you know what?
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  • Not being able to tell the whole truth
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  • Is what really got me in trouble.
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  • So, for the rest of my life, i just need
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  • To keep telling the whole truth.”
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  • And so, that morning, i told people, you know,
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  • Where i'd been and what god was teaching me.
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  • And the interesting thing was, maybe, i don't know,
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  • Two or three weeks later, by then i'm out in california,
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  • And i'm in seminary, one of the girls from 700 club called me,
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  • And she said, "you're just not going to believe this.
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  • We got over 5,000 letters from people saying she just
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  • Told my story on television and didn't self-combust.”
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  • And what i discovered was something
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  • That i believe with everything in me,
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  • Our brokenness is a far greater bridge
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  • To other people than our pretend wholeness ever is.
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  • And i think sometimes we think we have to be like god's pr
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  • Agents, almost like we have to protect his reputation,
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  • As opposed to saying, "no, here's what's true.
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  • And in the mess of all that was true,
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  • Here's how god met me and transformed everything."
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  • - i think all throughout the scriptures,
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  • We see a temptation for us, humanity people to hide.
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  • I think we are really good at hiding.
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  • And i think we're good at hiding
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  • Because it is an easy way to self-protect from, again,
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  • Maybe being exposed from the things that feel weak,
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  • Or ugly, or gross, or too much for the world.
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  • And yet, god even goes after us in our hiding.
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  • He goes after us because he knows
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  • That the enemy would love nothing more than to isolate
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  • And discourage us, right?
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  • We are the most discouraged when we are isolated.
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  • We are the most discouraged when we are hiding in shame.
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  • And so, i want to encourage you, friend,
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  • That thing that you feel like is weighing on you,
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  • Take it to god.
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  • Be honest with him about it.
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  • Surrender it at his feet.
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  • Know that he saw it.
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  • He loves you even in the midst of it.
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  • Nothing is too broken or too far gone
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  • For god to restore or redeem.
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  • - that was really something last night
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  • That i found really interesting because i noticed
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  • Something i'd never noticed before.
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  • In mark's gospel, mark chapter 8, it's the story
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  • Of jesus healing a blind man.
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  • I've known this story since i was a little girl
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  • In sunday school, but there was something
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  • That i noticed i'd never noticed before.
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  • It says, "when they arrived at bethsaida,
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  • Some people brought a blind man to jesus,
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  • And they begged him to touch the man and heal him.
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  • Jesus took the blind man by the hand
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  • And led him out of the village.
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  • Then, spitting on the man's eyes,
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  • He laid his hands on him and asked,
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  • 'can you see anything now?' the man looked around.
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  • 'yes,' he said, 'i see people, but
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  • I can't see them very clearly.
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  • They look like trees walking around.'
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  • Then jesus placed his hands on the man's eyes again,
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  • And his eyes were opened.
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  • His sight was completely restored,
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  • And he could see everything clearly.'“
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  • What i found myself asking the other night,
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  • Talking to the holy spirit about is, why
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  • Did jesus take him out of the town?
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  • If you think of all the miracles
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  • That jesus did, came across somebody who was lame,
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  • Across somebody who was by the pool, you know,
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  • He would touch them immediately and heal them.
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  • But it says that jesus took the blind man by the hand
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  • And led him out of the village before he prayed for him.
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  • And i was like, "well, what's that about, lord?”
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  • And then, i went over to matthew's gospel,
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  • And jesus is talking about all the different miracles he
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  • Has done in certain places, and he says,
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  • "what sorrow awaits you, korazin and bethsaida!
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  • For if the miracles i did in you had been done in wicked tyre
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  • And sidon, these people would have repented
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  • Of their sins long ago.”
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  • And i thought, "sometimes i wonder if to move on with god,
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  • We have to move out of places of unbelief.”
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  • You know, it was like in bethsaida
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  • Where jesus had done so much,
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  • And they still refused to believe.
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  • They still wouldn't acknowledge who he is.
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  • They refused to believe.
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  • And when this blind man is there,
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  • And jesus says, "no, let's get out of here.”
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  • I'm going to take you to a place
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  • Where we can be free of that, and then i'm going to heal you.”
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  • That just made me think to be careful,
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  • To be so careful in terms of what we take
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  • In, what we listen to, what company we keep even.
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  • You know, we can get caught up in conversations with people
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  • That are not edifying, they don't bring us
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  • Closer to the lord.
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  • And i think in these days, when i know it's the same
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  • For all of you, there's nothing,
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  • Nothing in life i want more than to bring glory to god, nothing.
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  • It's like my scripture verse is acts 20:24,
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  • "my life is worth nothing to me now
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  • Unless i use it for finishing the work assigned me
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  • By the lord jesus christ, the work of telling others
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  • About the marvelous grace of god.”
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  • And i think, "lord, help me by your holy spirit
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  • To remove myself from places where unbelief is easier,
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  • To find myself and put myself in situations
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  • Where i'm with people who love you, people who encourage me,
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  • And i can encourage them.”
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  • Because i think if jesus had to take a man out of a place
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  • Because of their unbelief--
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  • And i think sometimes we forget how easy it is, particularly
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  • These days with social media and stuff,
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  • Where we're just getting--
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  • And people are exposing this person and that person.
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  • But i think we get caught up in that, and then we start to read,
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  • Well, what happened to him then?
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  • What happened to her then?
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  • And i think, "no, if i want to move on with the lord,
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  • If i want to keep following after jesus,
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  • I want to remove myself from places of unbelief.”
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  • I thought that falling apart would be the end of everything.
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  • And it wasn't until everything fell apart,
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  • I discovered how much i was loved.
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  • It was like i felt like--
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  • You ever read the "velveteen rabbit,”
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  • You know, where all your fur's been loved off?
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  • It doesn't happen to people who have to be carefully kept.
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  • And i thought, "lord, let me not be carefully kept in terms
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  • Of wanting to get it all right and be seen
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  • To be doing it all right.”
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  • Because when we bring our failures,
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  • Perceived or otherwise,
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  • To the lord and he redeems them,
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  • Then other people's lives are impacted.
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  • - you know, i've worked in radio a long time,
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  • And i've seen some pretty high-profile leaders rise and
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  • Then fall, and i've gotten to talk with them
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  • After, and i asked them what happened.
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  • And they said, "you know, i got so busy working for god,
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  • I stopped walking with god.”
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  • And i think that when you walk through times of failure,
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  • When you fall on your face, scripture says,
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  • "take heed if you think you stand, lest you fall.”
  • 00:10:21.043 --> 00:10:23.713
  • I think you're safest just after you've blown it,
  • 00:10:23.713 --> 00:10:26.015
  • Because dependence on god is our superpower.
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  • When we start to think we've got
  • 00:10:28.951 --> 00:10:30.252
  • This, we are walking on thin ice.
  • 00:10:30.252 --> 00:10:32.521
  • When you get to a place of dependence, scripture says,
  • 00:10:32.521 --> 00:10:35.858
  • "blessed are the poor in spirit,”
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  • Which means blessed are those who know their need.
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  • Theirs is the kingdom of god.
  • 00:10:39.795 --> 00:10:41.597
  • When you get to that place of brokenness,
  • 00:10:41.597 --> 00:10:43.365
  • You get to that place of your limits,
  • 00:10:43.365 --> 00:10:45.234
  • And you press in to know god more, you say,
  • 00:10:45.234 --> 00:10:47.570
  • "i might have my limits, but god, you have no limits,
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  • And i'm dependent on you,”
  • 00:10:49.972 --> 00:10:51.474
  • And you're able to speak out loud about your limitation
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  • And god's unlimited power over your life,
  • 00:10:54.643 --> 00:10:57.246
  • People are drawn to you, and they're drawn to god.
  • 00:10:57.246 --> 00:10:59.482
  • - you know, i think about what i get to do today
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  • And the ministry i've been able to kind of walk out in my life.
  • 00:11:03.319 --> 00:11:06.756
  • And i don't think i would have a way to connect with women
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  • At all had i not walked through the things i'd walked
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  • Through in my life.
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  • And it is incredibly painful.
  • 00:11:16.999 --> 00:11:19.068
  • And for many years, i did perceive it as weakness.
  • 00:11:19.068 --> 00:11:21.337
  • And i think that regardless whether you are 20 years old
  • 00:11:21.337 --> 00:11:23.539
  • Or you're 80 years old, i think there are limiting beliefs,
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  • Right, that the things that have happened to us become failures
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  • That we have to live into, and they
  • 00:11:30.513 --> 00:11:32.281
  • Become the narrative of our life.
  • 00:11:32.281 --> 00:11:34.216
  • And i don't know, i think the lord for me very early
  • 00:11:34.216 --> 00:11:37.520
  • On in my faith just said, "everything you have walked
  • 00:11:37.520 --> 00:11:40.589
  • Through will become a vessel.
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  • You will be a conduit.”
  • 00:11:42.758 --> 00:11:43.759
  • And i have had such steady faith in that.
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  • Out of all the things i have not grown into with the lord,
  • 00:11:45.494 --> 00:11:49.365
  • This particular thing, i think he had to teach me right away
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  • Because it is true.
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  • You see it all throughout scripture.
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  • Our entire life is made up of the things
  • 00:11:54.937 --> 00:11:57.106
  • That we've walked through.
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  • There would be no glory to give had we
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  • Not had a need for a savior.
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  • There would be no worship to give if we were the ones
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  • That were to be worshiped.
  • 00:12:05.381 --> 00:12:06.715
  • And so, i think for many of us, as we walk through failures,
  • 00:12:06.715 --> 00:12:10.553
  • The reminder that jesus is saying,
  • 00:12:10.553 --> 00:12:12.421
  • "i need you to get to the very end
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  • Of yourself so you can see me.
  • 00:12:14.523 --> 00:12:16.325
  • You cannot win on your own.”
  • 00:12:16.325 --> 00:12:17.860
  • And i think when we try to win on our own or have success
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  • Or not fail, which i want to speak to that a little bit
  • 00:12:20.863 --> 00:12:23.933
  • Because i think for many, you know,
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  • There have been many times in my own life
  • 00:12:25.334 --> 00:12:26.468
  • Where i see somebody else and i'm like,
  • 00:12:26.468 --> 00:12:27.670
  • "god, how'd they get there?”
  • 00:12:27.670 --> 00:12:29.405
  • You know, the success and the perceived success,
  • 00:12:29.405 --> 00:12:32.675
  • The perceived peace, the perceived whatever.
  • 00:12:32.675 --> 00:12:34.877
  • And the lord has to remind me very often,
  • 00:12:34.877 --> 00:12:37.313
  • He's like, "i did not put them there.
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  • And if i did put them there, it's none of your business.
  • 00:12:39.515 --> 00:12:41.550
  • I want you to work on the things i've given you
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  • And audit the things i have called you to.”
  • 00:12:43.586 --> 00:12:46.589
  • I think there's a lot to say around looking at the moments
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  • In our lives and asking god, "yeah,
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  • What do you want to do with it?
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  • What are you teaching me about myself and you in this?”
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  • And realizing that our whole life is meant to give him glory.
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  • Our whole life is meant to say, like, look what god has done.
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  • If nothing happens, there's nothing.
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  • If i say give alex glory, give sheila glory,
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  • Right, give laurie--
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  • No, it is the lord who has done it.
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  • It is the lord who will continue to do it.
  • 00:13:10.212 --> 00:13:12.248
  • And so, he will allow us to get into positions
  • 00:13:12.248 --> 00:13:15.384
  • Where our weakness is exposed
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  • Because we have to be able to say,
  • 00:13:17.586 --> 00:13:19.455
  • "i could not do it.
  • 00:13:19.455 --> 00:13:20.890
  • I could not get myself out of the bed.
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  • I could not heal my marriage.
  • 00:13:23.492 --> 00:13:25.094
  • I could not redeem my own physical body.
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  • I could not.
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  • But let me tell you who has.”
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  • I think that's the end goal.
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  • I think that's what christ wants us to see.
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  • And the more that we allow him to position us in those places,
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  • I think the more he will give us access to people
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  • Who need to hear it.
  • 00:13:39.341 --> 00:13:41.176
  • There was a woman in target years ago,
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  • And i had just kind of started walking
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  • In my gift of discernment.
  • 00:13:44.246 --> 00:13:45.547
  • And the lord had given me a prophetic word for this woman.
  • 00:13:45.547 --> 00:13:47.283
  • And i was like, "lord, really?
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  • In target?
  • 00:13:48.317 --> 00:13:48.951
  • What a weird place.”
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  • I was like, "i don't want to do this round.”
  • 00:13:50.052 --> 00:13:51.687
  • I'm like, "i don't know her.”
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  • And, you know, i'm very careful with moments like
  • 00:13:53.188 --> 00:13:55.224
  • That, making sure i am hearing from the lord
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  • And it is his voice.
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  • And so, i'd seen a woman who was working
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  • ,and layla was very young, my oldest daughter,
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  • And i could just see the weight on her.
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  • I could see that she--
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  • I mean, she was going through an incredibly challenging season,
  • 00:14:06.201 --> 00:14:09.305
  • And the lord said, "i need you to go up to her, and i need you
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  • To tell her that i saw what happened,
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  • That i was with her when it happened,
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  • And that i am doing a new thing in her life.”
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  • It was very clear.
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  • I said, "layla, i got to go talk to this lady over by the bras.”
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  • [laughter]
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  • And so, we walk, we pass the shoe section,
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  • Head over to the left, and i'm like, "hey, i gotta talk to you.
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  • I know this is so crazy.
  • 00:14:30.626 --> 00:14:31.794
  • And the lord knows you're walking through something.
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  • And he wants me to tell you that not only--
  • 00:14:33.929 --> 00:14:36.065
  • I've experienced something similar,
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  • I'm not sure what it is, but he's doing a new thing.
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  • He saw it happen.”
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  • And she instantly, i mean, fell apart.
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  • We prayed together.
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  • You could see the overwhelming peace
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  • Just kind of fall over her.
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  • And at that moment, i thanked god for the many times
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  • That i'd endured moments in my life
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  • Where i'd gone to him to learn his voice,
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  • And to learn what suffering meant,
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  • And to lean into it in the moment so i
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  • Could be an encouragement to her.
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  • I think that's what it's all about.
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  • - yeah.
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  • - and using it, you have to practice it.
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  • I think sometimes we let failure stop us.
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  • We define ourselves by it, but we don't practice it.
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  • And we want the gift set that looks like an oak tree,
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  • And god's like, "here's an acorn."
  • 00:15:14.036 --> 00:15:15.404
  • - quite literally.
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  • There's your tree.
  • 00:15:17.673 --> 00:15:20.442
  • - and you're like, well--
  • 00:15:18.574 --> 00:15:21.877
  • Because then you flip from realizing you've been entrusted
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  • To feeling entitled.
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  • And entitled is, if you give me more of this,
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  • Then i'll use what you've entrusted me with.
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  • And god's like, "no.”
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  • God has never given me anything that looks like an oak tree.
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  • Somebody stole my husband's phone several years ago
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  • On capitol hill.
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  • He had the where's my phone app, so we could follow it.
  • 00:15:41.196 --> 00:15:43.899
  • And we were watching it go down to the subway
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  • And go to like a really bad section in dc.
  • 00:15:46.335 --> 00:15:48.837
  • So, we called the phone company,
  • 00:15:48.837 --> 00:15:51.507
  • And they were like, "there's nothing we can do.”
  • 00:15:51.507 --> 00:15:53.275
  • So, we're like, "okay, we're gonna go get our phone.”
  • 00:15:53.275 --> 00:15:55.010
  • So, we called the phone from my number, and some guy answers it.
  • 00:15:55.010 --> 00:15:59.114
  • And i said, "this is my husband's phone.”
  • 00:15:59.114 --> 00:16:00.949
  • And he said, "oh, i bought it off a guy
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  • In the metro for $200.”
  • 00:16:02.985 --> 00:16:04.753
  • And we said, "well, we'll come back and give you $200.”
  • 00:16:04.753 --> 00:16:06.955
  • It was just easier to pay $200 for this phone.
  • 00:16:06.955 --> 00:16:09.091
  • So, we go down into--
  • 00:16:09.091 --> 00:16:11.160
  • We're pretty sure he's the guy that stole it.
  • 00:16:11.160 --> 00:16:12.861
  • But anyways, so we go down into the worst part of dc.
  • 00:16:12.861 --> 00:16:16.198
  • We pull up, dennis rolls down his window.
  • 00:16:16.198 --> 00:16:18.834
  • The guy comes over to the car, and the guy's like,
  • 00:16:18.834 --> 00:16:20.369
  • "i'm telling you right now, don't stay here too long.
  • 00:16:20.369 --> 00:16:23.038
  • It's not safe.”
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  • And i looked at him, and i started sobbing,
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  • And i said, "god just gave me a word for you.”
  • 00:16:25.941 --> 00:16:28.210
  • And i started giving him this word, and he started sobbing.
  • 00:16:28.210 --> 00:16:31.113
  • And so, then we gave him $300 for the phone
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  • Because we're like, "if he's doing this--”
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  • And then, we were able to pray with him and lead him to jesus.
  • 00:16:37.820 --> 00:16:41.056
  • So, you talk about god flipping a failure, you know?
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  • [music]
  • 00:17:08.250 --> 00:17:13.555
  • - one of the questions i sometimes get asked is
  • 00:17:14.556 --> 00:17:16.592
  • People who've maybe walked through something and said,
  • 00:17:16.592 --> 00:17:18.927
  • "you know, when do i know it's the right time
  • 00:17:18.927 --> 00:17:20.395
  • To tell my story?”
  • 00:17:20.395 --> 00:17:22.231
  • To me, it's the difference between wounds and scars.
  • 00:17:22.231 --> 00:17:26.168
  • You know, you walk through something, and it's a wound,
  • 00:17:26.168 --> 00:17:28.470
  • And it's deep, and it needs healing.
  • 00:17:28.470 --> 00:17:30.906
  • And then, when you've walked through something long enough,
  • 00:17:30.906 --> 00:17:33.008
  • And you discover it's no longer an open wound, it's a scar.
  • 00:17:33.008 --> 00:17:36.512
  • And to me, scars are proof that god heals.
  • 00:17:36.512 --> 00:17:39.748
  • And if you've walked through enough of that process,
  • 00:17:39.748 --> 00:17:41.450
  • And you feel like the lord has brought real healing,
  • 00:17:41.450 --> 00:17:43.852
  • And that it's just a scar, a reminder now,
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  • Then maybe it's time for you to start telling your story.
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  • [music]
  • 00:17:50.292 --> 00:17:53.128
  • - we had just moved to washington, dc.
  • 00:17:53.228 --> 00:17:54.897
  • We hadn't been pastoring that long,
  • 00:17:54.897 --> 00:17:56.198
  • And we had congressional leaders calling us
  • 00:17:56.198 --> 00:17:57.933
  • In to pray with them.
  • 00:17:57.933 --> 00:17:59.101
  • So, it was beautiful because they were finding jesus,
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  • And we didn't go in with an agenda,
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  • We just went in to pray with them.
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  • They were learning how to hear the voice of god.
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  • The one congressional leader, congressman from the midwest,
  • 00:18:06.642 --> 00:18:10.078
  • Said to us, "hey, i want--
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  • I so love this.
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  • I'd love for this to be an example
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  • Where people from the church can come and just pray with us.
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  • We just need guidance.”
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  • So, he said, "i'm going to do a gathering
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  • With congressional leaders, some church leaders,
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  • And just talk about prayer, church and state,
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  • Stuff like that.”
  • 00:18:25.761 --> 00:18:26.728
  • So, because dennis and i led together,
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  • And i was the female part, and he'd never seen a female
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  • In leadership like that before, he's like,
  • 00:18:30.732 --> 00:18:32.367
  • "would you be willing to do it?”
  • 00:18:32.367 --> 00:18:33.735
  • Well, we'd only been in dc for two years.
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  • I mean, talk about fear of man.
  • 00:18:36.138 --> 00:18:37.639
  • I had huge fear of man.
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  • So, it's like, "sure, i'll do it.”
  • 00:18:38.874 --> 00:18:40.442
  • And so, i thought, "i'm going to wear a white--”
  • 00:18:40.442 --> 00:18:42.544
  • Remember the white power suits, big shoulder pads.
  • 00:18:42.544 --> 00:18:45.414
  • So, i go in, i'm the only female on this all-male panel,
  • 00:18:45.414 --> 00:18:49.785
  • Very distinguished pastors from large churches,
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  • Congressmen, senators, and me.
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  • And i'm like, "lord, i am sure i'm going
  • 00:18:55.290 --> 00:18:56.758
  • To fail the whole feminine part of humanity by things i say.
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  • I know i'm going to say something stupid."
  • 00:19:01.063 --> 00:19:02.798
  • - taking us all down.
  • 00:19:02.798 --> 00:19:03.565
  • - so, anyways, we get through.
  • 00:19:03.565 --> 00:19:05.601
  • They're asking a lot of questions.
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  • And we kind of get through this whole panel discussion.
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  • And it's that time of the month, and i have a white suit on.
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  • So, i'm like--
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  • So, i've gotten through that, but i still don't want
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  • To disgrace all of the feminine side of humanity.
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  • So, i get up to rush out to the restroom.
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  • And on my way out, a senator comes up to me said,
  • 00:19:22.551 --> 00:19:24.987
  • "i loved what you said.”
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  • He said, "would you and your husband be willing to come
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  • And pray with me?”
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  • And i said, "yes.”
  • 00:19:29.091 --> 00:19:30.025
  • He said, "could you give me a card?”
  • 00:19:30.025 --> 00:19:31.326
  • Well, i'm thinking about is i got to get to the bathroom.
  • 00:19:31.326 --> 00:19:33.362
  • So, i pulled out a pink sanitary pad.
  • 00:19:33.362 --> 00:19:36.331
  • - that's great.
  • 00:19:36.431 --> 00:19:37.599
  • - and we both looked at it, and i said,
  • 00:19:38.500 --> 00:19:40.035
  • "well, i could write my name, and
  • 00:19:40.035 --> 00:19:42.537
  • You would never forget who i am.”
  • 00:19:42.537 --> 00:19:44.740
  • But--
  • 00:19:44.740 --> 00:19:45.540
  • - that's incredible.
  • 00:19:45.540 --> 00:19:47.175
  • - so, anyways--
  • 00:19:47.175 --> 00:19:48.844
  • So, that would be enough.
  • 00:19:49.444 --> 00:19:50.679
  • I have so many examples of saying the wrong thing
  • 00:19:50.679 --> 00:19:53.048
  • On a platform with a microphone in my hands.
  • 00:19:53.048 --> 00:19:55.484
  • That would be enough to stop me.
  • 00:19:55.484 --> 00:19:57.586
  • But god gave me an acorn.
  • 00:19:57.586 --> 00:19:59.321
  • And he said, "you got to plant it, and you got to water it,
  • 00:19:59.321 --> 00:20:01.990
  • And you got to be rest assured that i'm not defining you
  • 00:20:01.990 --> 00:20:05.193
  • By that failure, as long as you learn some things from it.”
  • 00:20:05.193 --> 00:20:08.530
  • I think failure is one of the biggest weapons the enemy uses
  • 00:20:08.530 --> 00:20:11.833
  • Because the number of people watching the show right now,
  • 00:20:11.833 --> 00:20:14.703
  • If everybody grabbed a hold of that acorn
  • 00:20:14.703 --> 00:20:16.638
  • And started planting it, we'd see massive revival.
  • 00:20:16.638 --> 00:20:19.408
  • - amen.
  • 00:20:19.408 --> 00:20:21.209
  • - i think the first time when failure really hits,
  • 00:20:21.310 --> 00:20:23.779
  • It's very hard to see that initially as an opportunity
  • 00:20:23.779 --> 00:20:26.948
  • Because you're living with the reality.
  • 00:20:26.948 --> 00:20:28.984
  • One of the great things about being a christian is it's
  • 00:20:28.984 --> 00:20:30.886
  • Not supposed to make you more weird,
  • 00:20:30.886 --> 00:20:32.888
  • It's supposed to make you more fully human.
  • 00:20:32.888 --> 00:20:35.223
  • So, if something happens, if you fail or someone fails you,
  • 00:20:35.223 --> 00:20:38.260
  • Accept the fact that it's going to hurt,
  • 00:20:38.260 --> 00:20:40.329
  • And bring that to the lord.
  • 00:20:40.996 --> 00:20:42.197
  • You don't have to pretend.
  • 00:20:42.197 --> 00:20:43.799
  • One of the things that was so important to me as a mom
  • 00:20:43.799 --> 00:20:45.834
  • When my son was growing up was to tell him,
  • 00:20:45.834 --> 00:20:48.003
  • "you know, the bigger the mess, the faster you run home.
  • 00:20:48.003 --> 00:20:51.573
  • You don't have to try and clean yourself up to come.
  • 00:20:51.573 --> 00:20:53.742
  • Just come as you are, and we can work through this.”
  • 00:20:53.742 --> 00:20:56.244
  • And i think it's the same with the lord.
  • 00:20:56.244 --> 00:20:57.479
  • Allow that failure to hit.
  • 00:20:57.479 --> 00:20:59.548
  • Feel it.
  • 00:20:59.548 --> 00:21:00.482
  • You know, you don't have to be afraid
  • 00:21:00.482 --> 00:21:01.650
  • Of feeling what's going on in your life.
  • 00:21:01.650 --> 00:21:04.252
  • But then, you can take those broken pieces
  • 00:21:04.252 --> 00:21:07.322
  • And say to the lord,
  • 00:21:07.322 --> 00:21:08.423
  • "ok, i'm giving this to you because i believe
  • 00:21:08.423 --> 00:21:11.360
  • That you do beautiful things with broken things
  • 00:21:11.360 --> 00:21:14.296
  • When we give you all the pieces."
  • 00:21:14.296 --> 00:21:16.665
  • - you know, one of the aspects of failure that comes to my mind
  • 00:21:16.765 --> 00:21:19.501
  • That comes more naturally to me would be self-sabotage,
  • 00:21:19.501 --> 00:21:22.270
  • You know, i think where you preempt an outcome
  • 00:21:22.270 --> 00:21:24.973
  • Because you're so afraid, you know?
  • 00:21:24.973 --> 00:21:26.675
  • And this story's hard for me to share just
  • 00:21:26.675 --> 00:21:29.211
  • Because i don't want the stigma attached to me
  • 00:21:29.211 --> 00:21:32.547
  • That i deal with chronic affliction, but i do.
  • 00:21:32.547 --> 00:21:35.317
  • I always say i'm a healthy person resisting affliction.
  • 00:21:35.317 --> 00:21:37.619
  • I'm not a sick person trying to get healthy.
  • 00:21:37.619 --> 00:21:39.688
  • But the reality is i deal with some things every day,
  • 00:21:39.688 --> 00:21:41.957
  • And they're hard.
  • 00:21:41.957 --> 00:21:42.958
  • And so, people with chronic neurological
  • 00:21:42.958 --> 00:21:45.527
  • Lyme apparently also can't process mold.
  • 00:21:45.527 --> 00:21:48.830
  • And so, for a number of years in a row,
  • 00:21:48.830 --> 00:21:50.365
  • I was exposed to black mold.
  • 00:21:50.365 --> 00:21:52.267
  • And so, while i was on the air, my tongue was going numb,
  • 00:21:52.267 --> 00:21:54.736
  • My chin was going, and i was losing cognitive function.
  • 00:21:54.736 --> 00:21:57.873
  • I was like, i was putting wrong words in my sentences.
  • 00:21:57.873 --> 00:22:00.308
  • I did an mri, and i had seven areas of brain damage from mold
  • 00:22:00.308 --> 00:22:03.845
  • That my body could not process.
  • 00:22:03.845 --> 00:22:05.514
  • That was 10 years ago.
  • 00:22:05.514 --> 00:22:06.615
  • So, seven years of the last 10 were very hard.
  • 00:22:06.615 --> 00:22:09.251
  • But once i got detoxed, they just said,
  • 00:22:09.251 --> 00:22:11.119
  • "your body can't process mold.”
  • 00:22:11.119 --> 00:22:13.121
  • So, i'm like a mold detector.
  • 00:22:13.121 --> 00:22:14.556
  • I can tell you in five to 10 minutes
  • 00:22:14.556 --> 00:22:16.158
  • If there's mold in a building, like my head goes numb
  • 00:22:16.158 --> 00:22:18.794
  • Or my vision will blur.
  • 00:22:18.794 --> 00:22:20.128
  • The thing is, if it just made my body ache, i wouldn't care.
  • 00:22:20.128 --> 00:22:22.531
  • But it causes inflammation in the brain.
  • 00:22:22.531 --> 00:22:24.699
  • And then, they said, "you can't keep exposing your brain to it,
  • 00:22:24.699 --> 00:22:27.102
  • Because it's dangerous, right?”
  • 00:22:27.102 --> 00:22:28.637
  • So, i'm taking a risk every time i go speak,
  • 00:22:28.637 --> 00:22:32.140
  • Because sometimes you're in hotels that are not good.
  • 00:22:32.140 --> 00:22:34.810
  • It was a few years ago.
  • 00:22:34.810 --> 00:22:36.278
  • Kevin and i were walking into one of our rooms.
  • 00:22:36.278 --> 00:22:38.880
  • We were at a huge, beautiful camp.
  • 00:22:38.880 --> 00:22:40.515
  • And we're in the room.
  • 00:22:40.515 --> 00:22:41.883
  • And so, no one's with us, but i have to whisper for some reason.
  • 00:22:41.883 --> 00:22:43.819
  • I'm like, "i'm going to quit speaking.”
  • 00:22:43.819 --> 00:22:46.588
  • And he's like, "what?”
  • 00:22:46.588 --> 00:22:47.622
  • I'm like, "i think i think after these next
  • 00:22:47.622 --> 00:22:49.024
  • Few that we have contracts for, you know?”
  • 00:22:49.024 --> 00:22:51.259
  • And he's so smart.
  • 00:22:51.259 --> 00:22:52.027
  • He's like--
  • 00:22:52.027 --> 00:22:52.694
  • He didn't say anything.
  • 00:22:52.694 --> 00:22:54.029
  • So, the next morning i--
  • 00:22:54.029 --> 00:22:55.197
  • - wise man.
  • 00:22:55.197 --> 00:22:55.831
  • - yeah, he's very smart.
  • 00:22:55.831 --> 00:22:56.765
  • So, i do my thing, i do my message,
  • 00:22:56.765 --> 00:22:58.600
  • And then there's a break before the next session,
  • 00:22:58.600 --> 00:23:00.469
  • And there's this long line.
  • 00:23:00.469 --> 00:23:02.170
  • And i'm behind my book table, and i'm such an introvert,
  • 00:23:02.170 --> 00:23:04.840
  • So i'm one on one.
  • 00:23:04.840 --> 00:23:05.807
  • I'm just--
  • 00:23:05.807 --> 00:23:06.541
  • I hold your face, you know?
  • 00:23:06.541 --> 00:23:08.176
  • And all of a sudden, this sassy woman
  • 00:23:08.176 --> 00:23:10.212
  • From the back catches my eye.
  • 00:23:10.212 --> 00:23:11.713
  • It's like everybody else faded to gray,
  • 00:23:11.713 --> 00:23:13.248
  • Because she had, like, orange, reddish pants on,
  • 00:23:13.248 --> 00:23:16.952
  • And this silk blouse with golds and purples,
  • 00:23:16.952 --> 00:23:18.920
  • And then the sassy, silky gold scarf.
  • 00:23:18.920 --> 00:23:21.623
  • I'm watching her, and she's like a mile away.
  • 00:23:21.623 --> 00:23:23.892
  • What is happening?
  • 00:23:23.892 --> 00:23:24.659
  • Because she's just coming at me.
  • 00:23:24.659 --> 00:23:26.127
  • She gets to the book table, and i'm like dumbfounded.
  • 00:23:26.127 --> 00:23:28.396
  • She leans over the table.
  • 00:23:28.396 --> 00:23:29.764
  • She's in my face, and she says, "suzie larson, you listen to me.
  • 00:23:29.764 --> 00:23:33.034
  • Don't you even think about quitting speaking.
  • 00:23:33.034 --> 00:23:35.370
  • God is the one who called you.
  • 00:23:35.370 --> 00:23:36.805
  • He's the one who sustained you.
  • 00:23:36.805 --> 00:23:38.139
  • It is not your call to call.”
  • 00:23:38.139 --> 00:23:39.774
  • And i looked at kevin.
  • 00:23:39.774 --> 00:23:40.675
  • He's like, "i didn't tell anybody.
  • 00:23:40.675 --> 00:23:42.511
  • - angel of the lord.
  • 00:23:42.511 --> 00:23:44.546
  • - and i was looking for her after,
  • 00:23:45.380 --> 00:23:47.215
  • And kev's like on the way out, "leave it to god
  • 00:23:47.215 --> 00:23:49.117
  • To give you a sassy little angel.”
  • 00:23:49.117 --> 00:23:51.686
  • But i'm telling you what, it confronted me so deeply
  • 00:23:51.686 --> 00:23:55.357
  • Because i was trying to s elf-protect,
  • 00:23:55.357 --> 00:23:58.093
  • Which was self-sabotage,
  • 00:23:58.093 --> 00:23:59.561
  • Which i was preempting a failure, right?
  • 00:23:59.561 --> 00:24:01.329
  • And it's hard for me that i have these things because
  • 00:24:01.329 --> 00:24:05.901
  • Before sickness, i was an athletic type of person.
  • 00:24:05.901 --> 00:24:09.471
  • I hate this.
  • 00:24:09.471 --> 00:24:10.605
  • I can't tell you how much i detest my weaknesses.
  • 00:24:10.605 --> 00:24:12.908
  • But then, one of the beatitudes says,
  • 00:24:12.908 --> 00:24:14.409
  • "blessed are the poor in spirit,”
  • 00:24:14.409 --> 00:24:15.710
  • And it means blessed are those who know their need.
  • 00:24:15.710 --> 00:24:18.113
  • And one day, the lord showed me, you know,
  • 00:24:18.113 --> 00:24:19.614
  • We come to christ by knowing our need.
  • 00:24:19.614 --> 00:24:22.117
  • You have to admit a need before you have a savior.
  • 00:24:22.117 --> 00:24:24.419
  • And i would submit, that's how you grow too.
  • 00:24:24.419 --> 00:24:27.188
  • So, now when i come to the edges of my weakness,
  • 00:24:27.188 --> 00:24:29.491
  • Because they are what they are, and i have to let people think
  • 00:24:29.491 --> 00:24:32.093
  • What they think, just means more of the kingdom to inherit.
  • 00:24:32.093 --> 00:24:34.996
  • If i can live into that and be ok with it,
  • 00:24:34.996 --> 00:24:38.066
  • Then i can watch him make up the difference, you know?
  • 00:24:38.066 --> 00:24:40.702
  • And the people who are safe and who will love me
  • 00:24:40.702 --> 00:24:42.871
  • For my defective self--
  • 00:24:42.871 --> 00:24:44.639
  • You know, my hubby keeps saying,
  • 00:24:44.639 --> 00:24:46.207
  • "you're not defective, you're effective.”
  • 00:24:46.207 --> 00:24:47.842
  • And he's like, "you have to let that be okay."
  • 00:24:47.842 --> 00:24:49.978
  • - that's really good.
  • 00:24:49.978 --> 00:24:51.313
  • - it's hard, hard for me to talk about because i don't want
  • 00:24:51.313 --> 00:24:52.847
  • To be known that way.
  • 00:24:52.847 --> 00:24:54.215
  • - we boast in our weakness
  • 00:24:54.215 --> 00:24:55.417
  • Because in that he's made strong.
  • 00:24:55.417 --> 00:24:58.186
  • - i have hated my weaknesses for so long.
  • 00:24:59.120 --> 00:25:02.424
  • And i don't know, i felt a lot of shame
  • 00:25:02.424 --> 00:25:04.826
  • And weakness around my weaknesses.
  • 00:25:04.826 --> 00:25:07.228
  • It felt very--
  • 00:25:07.228 --> 00:25:08.229
  • It felt like it would expose me, right?
  • 00:25:08.229 --> 00:25:12.567
  • Like it felt like exposure to who i really was,
  • 00:25:12.567 --> 00:25:14.869
  • Like i was gonna get found out if people really saw
  • 00:25:14.869 --> 00:25:18.173
  • Who i was and how broken i was.
  • 00:25:18.173 --> 00:25:20.175
  • And the lord had to really shake me up in that and say,
  • 00:25:20.175 --> 00:25:23.678
  • "hey, do you care more about what i have to say about you,
  • 00:25:23.678 --> 00:25:27.449
  • Or do you care more about what people have to say about you?”
  • 00:25:27.449 --> 00:25:29.718
  • And that, for me, was one of my biggest weaknesses, truly.
  • 00:25:29.718 --> 00:25:32.988
  • Like, i had to get to the end of myself
  • 00:25:32.988 --> 00:25:35.457
  • In that and say, "oh, right.
  • 00:25:35.457 --> 00:25:37.425
  • God actually loves me so much so that he takes
  • 00:25:37.425 --> 00:25:40.695
  • All of my weaknesses and uses them,”
  • 00:25:40.695 --> 00:25:43.765
  • Not because i'm something for god to use,
  • 00:25:43.765 --> 00:25:45.934
  • But because he's that good that he'll come in and redeem things
  • 00:25:45.934 --> 00:25:49.304
  • That only he can.
  • 00:25:49.304 --> 00:25:50.639
  • Like, he's not waiting for us to experience weakness and pain.
  • 00:25:50.639 --> 00:25:53.408
  • No.
  • 00:25:53.408 --> 00:25:54.576
  • He's looking for ways in which he can take our weakness,
  • 00:25:54.676 --> 00:25:57.379
  • Our humanity, because he knows we are broken,
  • 00:25:57.379 --> 00:25:59.614
  • And he comes in and says, "let me show
  • 00:25:59.614 --> 00:26:01.983
  • You what i can do with that,”
  • 00:26:01.983 --> 00:26:02.951
  • Because that's the kind of god he is.
  • 00:26:02.951 --> 00:26:04.419
  • - i know that god will diminish our resources.
  • 00:26:05.453 --> 00:26:08.189
  • He'll diminish whatever he needs so that he gets the glory
  • 00:26:08.189 --> 00:26:11.026
  • For everything.
  • 00:26:11.026 --> 00:26:12.661
  • And so, that's the best place to be, right?
  • 00:26:12.761 --> 00:26:16.097
  • And so overcoming--
  • 00:26:16.097 --> 00:26:18.033
  • You're just an overcomer.
  • 00:26:18.033 --> 00:26:19.100
  • - thank you.
  • 00:26:19.100 --> 00:26:19.801
  • - absolutely.
  • 00:26:19.801 --> 00:26:20.969
  • - you're an overcomer.
  • 00:26:20.969 --> 00:26:22.504
  • In your weakness, look what god does through you, you know?
  • 00:26:22.504 --> 00:26:28.009
  • And so, you can never fail when you walk by faith.
  • 00:26:28.009 --> 00:26:33.048
  • You always win.
  • 00:26:33.515 --> 00:26:35.216
  • A little birdie told me that.
  • 00:26:35.216 --> 00:26:36.551
  • You always win if you walk by faith.
  • 00:26:36.551 --> 00:26:38.453
  • I always say that god's office is at the end of our rope.
  • 00:26:38.453 --> 00:26:41.389
  • So, there's resources, everything that we need.
  • 00:26:41.389 --> 00:26:44.526
  • I'm pretty sure he'll let us try to get on it.
  • 00:26:44.526 --> 00:26:48.229
  • And that's when we can really mess things up in our life.
  • 00:26:48.229 --> 00:26:51.800
  • - when you look at the kind of original word,
  • 00:26:51.800 --> 00:26:53.902
  • When paul talks about that thorn in the flesh, i mean,
  • 00:26:53.902 --> 00:26:57.605
  • The word that they use in the greek, he begged.
  • 00:26:57.605 --> 00:27:00.275
  • It wasn't just like, "dear jesus,
  • 00:27:00.275 --> 00:27:01.609
  • If it's possible, take this away.”
  • 00:27:01.609 --> 00:27:03.778
  • It was serious intercessory three times,
  • 00:27:03.778 --> 00:27:07.615
  • "lord, i beg you to take this away,”
  • 00:27:07.615 --> 00:27:10.418
  • And then this realization.
  • 00:27:10.418 --> 00:27:11.920
  • And it's so funny because at one point,
  • 00:27:11.920 --> 00:27:14.255
  • When christian was still living with us,
  • 00:27:14.255 --> 00:27:16.257
  • When he was, i don't know, 16 or 17,
  • 00:27:16.257 --> 00:27:18.693
  • And i was putting clean sheets on his bed, and i looked up,
  • 00:27:18.693 --> 00:27:21.229
  • And i realized that he put that text right above his head.
  • 00:27:21.229 --> 00:27:25.066
  • "my strength is made perfect in weakness.”
  • 00:27:25.066 --> 00:27:27.302
  • And i went into the bathroom just to kind of clean up.
  • 00:27:27.302 --> 00:27:30.105
  • And he had the same text on his bathroom mirror.
  • 00:27:30.105 --> 00:27:33.174
  • And i said, "that's really interesting, babe.
  • 00:27:33.174 --> 00:27:35.076
  • Why do you have that text there?”
  • 00:27:35.076 --> 00:27:36.411
  • And he said, "because i stutter.”
  • 00:27:36.411 --> 00:27:38.613
  • He went through a time when he stuttered.
  • 00:27:38.613 --> 00:27:40.949
  • And he said, "i've asked god sincerely,
  • 00:27:40.949 --> 00:27:44.919
  • Begged him, please take this away.
  • 00:27:44.919 --> 00:27:47.455
  • And for whatever reason at the moment,
  • 00:27:47.455 --> 00:27:48.990
  • He said no, but he gave me this.
  • 00:27:48.990 --> 00:27:51.926
  • So, i live in this."
  • 00:27:51.926 --> 00:27:53.328
  • - what an exceptional young man.
  • 00:27:54.028 --> 00:27:55.764
  • - you know, i wish everybody could be with me
  • 00:27:56.765 --> 00:27:58.600
  • On a better together morning.
  • 00:27:58.600 --> 00:28:00.201
  • [laughter]
  • 00:28:00.201 --> 00:28:01.336
  • You talk about feeling unqualified to do something.
  • 00:28:01.336 --> 00:28:04.672
  • It's like, "god, if you don't give me something to say,
  • 00:28:04.672 --> 00:28:07.776
  • I'm just going to stick my foot in my mouth,
  • 00:28:07.776 --> 00:28:10.078
  • Because i don't, in myself, have the confidence
  • 00:28:10.078 --> 00:28:13.848
  • That i am a great speaker and can bring great things to life,”
  • 00:28:13.848 --> 00:28:17.585
  • But my confidence is in god.
  • 00:28:17.585 --> 00:28:20.555
  • And sometimes i've thought--
  • 00:28:20.555 --> 00:28:22.323
  • I've seen people that have great gifts,
  • 00:28:22.323 --> 00:28:24.959
  • And i see them, i just think, "oh man,
  • 00:28:24.959 --> 00:28:26.761
  • I wish i could just speak like that.
  • 00:28:26.761 --> 00:28:28.763
  • If i could just get that thought across, i know i could--
  • 00:28:28.763 --> 00:28:31.299
  • I sit in this pod, and i think, "man,
  • 00:28:31.299 --> 00:28:33.601
  • That could have been said so much better by somebody else.”
  • 00:28:33.601 --> 00:28:37.238
  • But god, i know god can use it if i just give it to him,
  • 00:28:38.439 --> 00:28:42.977
  • If i have the faith enough to sit here in this chair
  • 00:28:42.977 --> 00:28:45.847
  • And speak to you.
  • 00:28:45.847 --> 00:28:47.182
  • I am walking by faith.
  • 00:28:47.182 --> 00:28:49.384
  • This is my faith in action, just sitting here doing that.
  • 00:28:49.384 --> 00:28:53.021
  • So, i encourage you.
  • 00:28:53.021 --> 00:28:54.722
  • God loves to use somebody who doesn't think
  • 00:28:54.722 --> 00:28:57.458
  • They can do it on their own.
  • 00:28:57.458 --> 00:28:59.527
  • - but i think of all the people who are watching us today
  • 00:28:59.627 --> 00:29:02.230
  • Who think, "i'm disqualified.”
  • 00:29:02.230 --> 00:29:04.232
  • And it's like, no, you either can listen to what somebody else
  • 00:29:04.232 --> 00:29:08.503
  • Says about, or you can listen to who the lord says you are.
  • 00:29:08.503 --> 00:29:11.172
  • And god loves to use the weak things
  • 00:29:11.172 --> 00:29:12.807
  • Of this world to confound the wise.
  • 00:29:12.807 --> 00:29:14.442
  • - absolutely.
  • 00:29:14.442 --> 00:29:15.777
  • I was sitting here just thinking about all the different women
  • 00:29:15.777 --> 00:29:19.013
  • Who are watching.
  • 00:29:19.013 --> 00:29:20.315
  • And i think we all carry a different version of a weakness
  • 00:29:20.315 --> 00:29:23.985
  • And a different story of a weakness.
  • 00:29:23.985 --> 00:29:26.020
  • And one of the ones for me was motherhood.
  • 00:29:26.020 --> 00:29:30.658
  • And not motherhood in and of itself,
  • 00:29:31.492 --> 00:29:33.528
  • But the fear and the weakness that
  • 00:29:33.528 --> 00:29:35.663
  • Because of how i was raised,
  • 00:29:35.663 --> 00:29:37.565
  • I wouldn't know how to mother.
  • 00:29:37.565 --> 00:29:38.867
  • And i carried years and years of that fear, and limitation,
  • 00:29:40.134 --> 00:29:45.673
  • And shame around the calling of motherhood,
  • 00:29:45.673 --> 00:29:51.279
  • And lived with so much fear of the generational
  • 00:29:51.279 --> 00:29:56.150
  • Implications of that.
  • 00:29:56.150 --> 00:29:57.285
  • Like, how am i going to come into this?
  • 00:29:57.285 --> 00:29:59.087
  • And, you know, i would seek god and was so angry with him
  • 00:29:59.087 --> 00:30:02.857
  • About the deck of cards that had been handed.
  • 00:30:02.857 --> 00:30:06.561
  • And i'm like, "how do you want me
  • 00:30:06.561 --> 00:30:07.629
  • To mother out of such an empty place?
  • 00:30:07.629 --> 00:30:10.732
  • Like, how do you want me to be a wife and a mother?
  • 00:30:10.732 --> 00:30:12.700
  • And you've given me this thing and these gifts,”
  • 00:30:12.700 --> 00:30:14.769
  • And just felt led to encourage the women
  • 00:30:14.769 --> 00:30:17.372
  • Who come from a background where you feel
  • 00:30:17.372 --> 00:30:19.173
  • Like there's nothing you can do with it.
  • 00:30:19.173 --> 00:30:20.575
  • I think we're all living testimonies
  • 00:30:20.575 --> 00:30:23.177
  • Of what god can do with a yes.
  • 00:30:23.177 --> 00:30:25.713
  • And i am the most unlikely in all the ways to have the family
  • 00:30:27.015 --> 00:30:33.154
  • That i do and the life that i do, but i have seen god do it
  • 00:30:33.154 --> 00:30:37.926
  • Because of my yes, not out of my own
  • 00:30:37.926 --> 00:30:39.861
  • Will, or strength, or power.
  • 00:30:39.861 --> 00:30:42.297
  • Certainly not because i think at every corner,
  • 00:30:42.297 --> 00:30:45.333
  • I was confronted with a pain, or a challenge,
  • 00:30:45.333 --> 00:30:49.070
  • Or a memory of how ill-equipped i
  • 00:30:49.070 --> 00:30:51.572
  • Am to do the things i've been called to do.
  • 00:30:51.572 --> 00:30:53.408
  • So, god has been so faithful.
  • 00:30:53.408 --> 00:30:57.111
  • And saying, like, "hey, your weakness has been perfect
  • 00:30:58.246 --> 00:31:00.581
  • In my power, and accessing god's power
  • 00:31:00.581 --> 00:31:02.650
  • Through my weakness has been the greatest gift.”
  • 00:31:02.650 --> 00:31:04.218
  • And i think there are many women who are watching this today,
  • 00:31:04.218 --> 00:31:07.789
  • Probably saying to themselves, "like, i'm counted out.
  • 00:31:07.789 --> 00:31:10.625
  • I'm counted out.
  • 00:31:10.625 --> 00:31:11.626
  • Like, i don't even put me in the race,”
  • 00:31:11.626 --> 00:31:12.961
  • And yet god has given you gifts, and testimonies, and dreams.
  • 00:31:12.961 --> 00:31:17.799
  • And you might be the woman in your life
  • 00:31:17.799 --> 00:31:19.968
  • Who generationally changes the pace
  • 00:31:19.968 --> 00:31:22.136
  • And the spiritual rhythm in your home.
  • 00:31:22.136 --> 00:31:23.738
  • And you might be the friend in the friend group
  • 00:31:23.738 --> 00:31:26.007
  • Who changes things because of your testimony
  • 00:31:26.007 --> 00:31:28.409
  • And the things you walk through.
  • 00:31:28.409 --> 00:31:29.877
  • Learn to walk in the weakness that god's given
  • 00:31:29.877 --> 00:31:32.280
  • You so that he can be made perfect.
  • 00:31:32.280 --> 00:31:34.048
  • There's so much power and so much freedom
  • 00:31:34.048 --> 00:31:36.617
  • When we can say like, "yeah, that is my story.
  • 00:31:36.617 --> 00:31:38.553
  • I didn't know how to do those things,
  • 00:31:38.553 --> 00:31:40.321
  • But let me tell you what god did.
  • 00:31:40.321 --> 00:31:41.556
  • Like, let me explain to you how he has shown up,
  • 00:31:41.556 --> 00:31:44.258
  • Because it certainly has not been me, it has been the lord.”
  • 00:31:44.258 --> 00:31:46.995
  • And i think there's so much power in that.
  • 00:31:46.995 --> 00:31:48.596
  • - you're talking about remembering redemptively,
  • 00:31:48.596 --> 00:31:50.431
  • And that's just exactly what you did, is you remembered a broken
  • 00:31:50.431 --> 00:31:53.134
  • Story redemptively, and now there's so much weight
  • 00:31:53.134 --> 00:31:55.770
  • To your words.
  • 00:31:55.770 --> 00:31:57.672
  • - ephesians 2:10 says, "for we are god's masterpiece created
  • 00:31:57.772 --> 00:32:01.142
  • Anew in christ jesus so that we can do the wonderful
  • 00:32:01.142 --> 00:32:04.312
  • Things he planned for us long ago.”
  • 00:32:04.312 --> 00:32:05.947
  • I like to say that you're not what
  • 00:32:05.947 --> 00:32:07.915
  • You do, you're someone god loves.
  • 00:32:07.915 --> 00:32:10.051
  • But because you're someone god loves,
  • 00:32:10.051 --> 00:32:11.786
  • He's got great things for you to do.
  • 00:32:11.786 --> 00:32:13.621
  • And you'll never really even feel like your fullest self till
  • 00:32:13.621 --> 00:32:16.457
  • You're partnering with god to live out the high call
  • 00:32:16.457 --> 00:32:18.893
  • Of god on your life.
  • 00:32:18.893 --> 00:32:20.094
  • And so, when you start to first and foremost learn
  • 00:32:20.094 --> 00:32:21.996
  • To live loved, suddenly your heart will beat in rhythm
  • 00:32:21.996 --> 00:32:24.665
  • With his, and you'll get a vision and a passion
  • 00:32:24.665 --> 00:32:27.368
  • Because your heart will beat for his heart for the world.
  • 00:32:27.368 --> 00:32:30.438
  • And as you just keep taking the next steps,
  • 00:32:30.438 --> 00:32:32.607
  • God will lead you into the fullness of your calling.
  • 00:32:32.607 --> 00:32:35.009
  • You don't have to make it happen.
  • 00:32:35.009 --> 00:32:36.544
  • He's the god who moves mountains and open doors.
  • 00:32:36.544 --> 00:32:38.746
  • So, live loved, follow his lead, just keep taking the next step,
  • 00:32:38.746 --> 00:32:42.550
  • And you will live a miraculous life.
  • 00:32:42.550 --> 00:32:44.619
  • I promise.
  • 00:32:44.619 --> 00:32:45.253
  • In fact, god promises.
  • 00:32:45.253 --> 00:32:46.621
  • Trust him.
  • 00:32:46.621 --> 00:32:47.889
  • You're a masterpiece, and you're created for great works.
  • 00:32:47.889 --> 00:32:50.792
  • - through those testimonies just means god wants to do it again.
  • 00:32:50.892 --> 00:32:53.895
  • God wants to do it for you.
  • 00:32:53.895 --> 00:32:55.663
  • God wants to do it for everyone.
  • 00:32:55.663 --> 00:32:57.832
  • God wants to redeem.
  • 00:32:57.832 --> 00:32:59.133
  • He has redeemed our stories.
  • 00:32:59.133 --> 00:33:01.235
  • He has written the final chapter.
  • 00:33:01.235 --> 00:33:03.871
  • What he starts, he finishes.
  • 00:33:03.871 --> 00:33:06.174
  • And he gets to see the end from the beginning.
  • 00:33:06.174 --> 00:33:08.776
  • When it's all said and done, i think we can all look back
  • 00:33:08.776 --> 00:33:11.712
  • At our lives and look at the worst things
  • 00:33:11.712 --> 00:33:14.015
  • That have happened to us and say,
  • 00:33:14.015 --> 00:33:15.550
  • "had it not been for that, i would not be where i am today.
  • 00:33:15.550 --> 00:33:18.453
  • Look what god has done."
  • 00:33:18.453 --> 00:33:19.487
  • - that's exactly right.
  • 00:33:19.487 --> 00:33:20.288
  • - look what the lord has done.
  • 00:33:20.288 --> 00:33:21.656
  • And so, failure is not final.
  • 00:33:21.656 --> 00:33:25.159
  • And i don't think you can ever fail when you walk by faith
  • 00:33:25.259 --> 00:33:28.362
  • Because we're always failing forward.
  • 00:33:28.362 --> 00:33:30.298
  • We're always going forward.
  • 00:33:30.298 --> 00:33:31.933
  • And when you just step out and trust god,
  • 00:33:31.933 --> 00:33:34.635
  • Failing is not doing anything.
  • 00:33:34.635 --> 00:33:36.504
  • The failing part is not trying, getting up.
  • 00:33:36.504 --> 00:33:38.539
  • The bible says that a righteous man stumbles,
  • 00:33:38.539 --> 00:33:42.110
  • But he gets back up.
  • 00:33:42.110 --> 00:33:43.878
  • We're encouraging you to get back up
  • 00:33:43.878 --> 00:33:46.314
  • And pray that your faith is strong.
  • 00:33:46.314 --> 00:33:49.150
  • And when we see each other going through things,
  • 00:33:49.150 --> 00:33:52.420
  • Or i see sheila going through something,
  • 00:33:52.420 --> 00:33:55.256
  • I pray that her faith is strong, and that doesn't fail.
  • 00:33:55.256 --> 00:33:59.660
  • And to think that jesus would do that for us and
  • 00:33:59.660 --> 00:34:05.233
  • That we were given the holy spirit to overcome,
  • 00:34:05.233 --> 00:34:09.003
  • And the same spirit that raised christ from the dead lives
  • 00:34:09.003 --> 00:34:13.307
  • On the inside of us, dwells there.
  • 00:34:13.307 --> 00:34:15.877
  • He's not there just watching us try to get through life,
  • 00:34:15.877 --> 00:34:19.747
  • Suffering through life.
  • 00:34:19.747 --> 00:34:20.748
  • He's there to help us overcome.
  • 00:34:20.748 --> 00:34:22.683
  • He's there to help us guide.
  • 00:34:22.683 --> 00:34:23.918
  • He's there to lead us and guide us into all truth
  • 00:34:23.918 --> 00:34:27.555
  • And revelation.
  • 00:34:27.555 --> 00:34:28.723
  • And i kind of say the worse it is, the better it is.
  • 00:34:28.723 --> 00:34:32.426
  • - that's the mystery of the kingdom of god.
  • 00:34:33.394 --> 00:34:34.629
  • - that's the mystery of the kingdom of god,
  • 00:34:34.629 --> 00:34:36.330
  • Because it's amazing.
  • 00:34:36.330 --> 00:34:37.732
  • All of it's amazing.
  • 00:34:37.732 --> 00:34:39.033
  • You can be amazed at god in the worst season of your life.
  • 00:34:39.033 --> 00:34:42.537
  • And god will get the glory for it all.
  • 00:34:43.404 --> 00:34:45.973
  • - you just need some spiritual mamas saying to you,
  • 00:34:45.973 --> 00:34:49.477
  • "you can do this.”
  • 00:34:49.477 --> 00:34:51.145
  • And at this juncture of my life,
  • 00:34:51.145 --> 00:34:54.015
  • Everything i walked through was so worth it.
  • 00:34:54.015 --> 00:34:57.185
  • Even the mistakes i made, even the stupid
  • 00:34:57.185 --> 00:34:59.620
  • Things i did that god redeemed.
  • 00:34:59.620 --> 00:35:02.323
  • So, worth it.
  • 00:35:02.757 --> 00:35:04.091
  • And whether you're a mama who didn't have an example or a mama
  • 00:35:04.091 --> 00:35:06.227
  • Who did have a good example and still felt like i was failing,
  • 00:35:06.227 --> 00:35:09.230
  • Failure is always going to be right there trying
  • 00:35:09.230 --> 00:35:10.998
  • To tell you a different story.
  • 00:35:10.998 --> 00:35:12.567
  • But just get up and keep going.
  • 00:35:12.567 --> 00:35:14.235
  • - grace is sufficient for you.
  • 00:35:14.235 --> 00:35:15.703
  • - i am with you today, mothers and fathers out there.
  • 00:35:16.837 --> 00:35:20.541
  • You might feel like a failure.
  • 00:35:20.541 --> 00:35:22.210
  • You know what?
  • 00:35:22.210 --> 00:35:23.444
  • With god's help, you can be the best mom
  • 00:35:23.444 --> 00:35:27.248
  • And the best dad by just being you.
  • 00:35:27.248 --> 00:35:30.051
  • God will help you.
  • 00:35:30.051 --> 00:35:32.019
  • Give your child exactly what he needs.
  • 00:35:32.019 --> 00:35:34.288
  • He made you for that child.
  • 00:35:34.288 --> 00:35:35.656
  • He made that child for you.
  • 00:35:35.656 --> 00:35:37.692
  • And so, he's giving you a gift.
  • 00:35:37.692 --> 00:35:39.894
  • He's giving you gifts to take care of.
  • 00:35:39.894 --> 00:35:42.496
  • And so, i just bless your life today.
  • 00:35:42.496 --> 00:35:44.298
  • I bless your life with the words that god says over your life,
  • 00:35:44.298 --> 00:35:49.036
  • That you can do all seasons through christ
  • 00:35:49.036 --> 00:35:51.305
  • Who strengthens you,
  • 00:35:51.305 --> 00:35:53.174
  • That you have the holy spirit within you to lead you,
  • 00:35:53.174 --> 00:35:55.977
  • To guide you, to help you raise your kids.
  • 00:35:55.977 --> 00:35:59.213
  • All the things that you have to take the discipline
  • 00:35:59.213 --> 00:36:01.949
  • And all the things that you need to do today, god will help.
  • 00:36:01.949 --> 00:36:05.353
  • The holy spirit will help you, and you
  • 00:36:05.353 --> 00:36:08.623
  • Are the perfect parent for that child.
  • 00:36:08.623 --> 00:36:10.458
  • [music]
  • 00:36:10.458 --> 00:36:16.130
  • - i remember as a young mom, hooked up to iv
  • 00:36:17.131 --> 00:36:19.934
  • That was costing us hundreds of dollars a day,
  • 00:36:19.934 --> 00:36:21.669
  • Taking place in our refrigerator where food should have been.
  • 00:36:21.669 --> 00:36:24.805
  • And i wondered if there was any kind of plan or future,
  • 00:36:24.805 --> 00:36:27.275
  • If there was anything that i could do.
  • 00:36:27.275 --> 00:36:28.776
  • And i remember the lord just speaking in my heart, going,
  • 00:36:28.776 --> 00:36:31.012
  • "how about instead of focusing on what you can't do, focus
  • 00:36:31.012 --> 00:36:33.681
  • On what you can do?”
  • 00:36:33.681 --> 00:36:34.915
  • So, i started to think, "i can pray.
  • 00:36:34.915 --> 00:36:36.417
  • I can send notes.
  • 00:36:36.417 --> 00:36:38.519
  • I can love.
  • 00:36:38.519 --> 00:36:39.453
  • I can speak god's truth to my boys.”
  • 00:36:39.453 --> 00:36:41.789
  • And i'm telling you, that made a difference.
  • 00:36:41.789 --> 00:36:43.391
  • I did what i could do instead of focused on what i couldn't do.
  • 00:36:43.391 --> 00:36:46.260
  • Many years later, as a radio host,
  • 00:36:46.260 --> 00:36:48.062
  • I got to interview joni eareckson tada.
  • 00:36:48.062 --> 00:36:50.164
  • And she talked about when she had the diving accident,
  • 00:36:50.164 --> 00:36:52.833
  • She broke her neck as a young teen.
  • 00:36:52.833 --> 00:36:54.835
  • When she got moved to her home, and she said the days blurred
  • 00:36:54.835 --> 00:36:58.039
  • Together, she fell into a deep depression because she thought,
  • 00:36:58.039 --> 00:37:00.274
  • "what use am i to god now?”
  • 00:37:00.274 --> 00:37:02.176
  • Someone came to visit her and said,
  • 00:37:02.176 --> 00:37:03.544
  • "joni, now remember a day with the lord is like a thousand
  • 00:37:03.544 --> 00:37:06.047
  • Years, and a thousand years is like a day.”
  • 00:37:06.047 --> 00:37:08.082
  • She said, "i've heard that so many times
  • 00:37:08.082 --> 00:37:09.650
  • Before, and i knew that a day is like a thousand years,
  • 00:37:09.650 --> 00:37:13.054
  • But i never thought a thousand years is like a day.”
  • 00:37:13.054 --> 00:37:16.023
  • And it was like the lord spoke to her heart and said,
  • 00:37:16.023 --> 00:37:18.492
  • "joni, i'm such a god of multiplication.
  • 00:37:18.492 --> 00:37:20.895
  • You can bear a thousand years' worth of fruit in a single day.”
  • 00:37:20.895 --> 00:37:24.165
  • You know, god is not bound by time.
  • 00:37:24.165 --> 00:37:25.966
  • So, whatever you're in, whatever circumstance feels binding,
  • 00:37:25.966 --> 00:37:29.470
  • You must know that your prayers move mountains.
  • 00:37:29.470 --> 00:37:32.640
  • Your thoughts towards god can't even come close
  • 00:37:32.640 --> 00:37:35.343
  • To his thoughts towards you.
  • 00:37:35.343 --> 00:37:36.744
  • You can bear so much fruit in the place that you're in.
  • 00:37:36.744 --> 00:37:39.714
  • And if i were you, i would focus on what you can do rather than
  • 00:37:39.714 --> 00:37:43.150
  • On what you can't do,
  • 00:37:43.150 --> 00:37:44.385
  • Because you'll be amazed at how effective and fruitful
  • 00:37:44.385 --> 00:37:46.654
  • You can be as a believer if you trust god right where you live.
  • 00:37:46.654 --> 00:37:50.191
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  • [music]
  • 00:38:02.999 --> 00:38:08.576
  • - there is no weakness and no inadequacy
  • 00:38:09.477 --> 00:38:12.813
  • That is too big for god to redeem.
  • 00:38:12.813 --> 00:38:14.982
  • Let me tell you of my own life, being sexually abused as a child
  • 00:38:14.982 --> 00:38:19.186
  • And being told over and over again that it was my fault,
  • 00:38:19.186 --> 00:38:22.423
  • And honestly, the number of failures i've had in my life,
  • 00:38:22.423 --> 00:38:26.026
  • Things i wished i had done perfectly that i didn't.
  • 00:38:26.026 --> 00:38:28.896
  • God is the redeemer.
  • 00:38:28.896 --> 00:38:30.631
  • Don't think that you're too far gone or too far broken.
  • 00:38:30.631 --> 00:38:33.734
  • I want to speak to you right now.
  • 00:38:33.734 --> 00:38:35.503
  • God can heal, restore, redeem anything.
  • 00:38:35.503 --> 00:38:38.606
  • All you got to do is turn towards him,
  • 00:38:38.606 --> 00:38:40.441
  • Because he's already inviting you in, and say,
  • 00:38:40.441 --> 00:38:43.144
  • "god, have your way.”
  • 00:38:43.144 --> 00:38:45.679
  • [music]
  • 00:38:46.013 --> 00:38:48.015
  • - aren't you grateful for the failures?
  • 00:38:48.916 --> 00:38:50.351
  • - oh, totally.
  • 00:38:50.351 --> 00:38:51.685
  • But what i love about that, i can't remember who mentioned it,
  • 00:38:51.685 --> 00:38:53.788
  • But when jesus is talking to peter,
  • 00:38:53.788 --> 00:38:55.856
  • When he turns and says, "satan has asked to sift you.”
  • 00:38:55.856 --> 00:38:58.893
  • And then, he goes on to say, "and when you come back,
  • 00:38:58.893 --> 00:39:02.563
  • It's like he already knew.
  • 00:39:03.197 --> 00:39:05.099
  • Peter, this is going to happen.
  • 00:39:05.099 --> 00:39:07.101
  • You're going to feel this way, and you're going to fall flat
  • 00:39:07.101 --> 00:39:09.537
  • On your face, and it's going to seem like everything's over.
  • 00:39:09.537 --> 00:39:11.705
  • But when you come back, it's like--”
  • 00:39:11.705 --> 00:39:14.308
  • I think of people like the lord who speak that over right now.
  • 00:39:14.308 --> 00:39:18.779
  • Yeah.
  • 00:39:18.779 --> 00:39:19.814
  • Falling down, thinking, "i promised the lord
  • 00:39:19.814 --> 00:39:22.249
  • I'd never do this, and here i am.”
  • 00:39:22.249 --> 00:39:24.084
  • But when you come back, god will use your story
  • 00:39:24.084 --> 00:39:27.154
  • To strengthen your brothers and sisters.
  • 00:39:27.154 --> 00:39:29.290
  • - i love the story when jesus rose again, and he says--
  • 00:39:29.290 --> 00:39:34.295
  • Here's peter that has denied him.
  • 00:39:34.295 --> 00:39:36.163
  • He has disqualified himself for all eternity.
  • 00:39:36.163 --> 00:39:39.934
  • You've blown it.
  • 00:39:39.934 --> 00:39:40.901
  • I have done the worst of the worst.
  • 00:39:40.901 --> 00:39:42.703
  • Think of how he felt.
  • 00:39:42.703 --> 00:39:44.371
  • You know, here i'm going to die with you.
  • 00:39:44.371 --> 00:39:46.006
  • I'll die for you.
  • 00:39:46.006 --> 00:39:47.308
  • And then he, you know, cusses and rejects jesus.
  • 00:39:47.308 --> 00:39:51.979
  • And jesus says, "go tell my disciples to meet me,
  • 00:39:51.979 --> 00:39:55.649
  • And then get peter.”
  • 00:39:55.649 --> 00:39:56.484
  • [crosstalk]
  • 00:39:56.484 --> 00:39:59.720
  • Because nothing is going--
  • 00:39:59.720 --> 00:40:01.522
  • God does not forget destiny and purpose in your life.
  • 00:40:01.522 --> 00:40:05.426
  • - i think that's so important to remind women
  • 00:40:05.426 --> 00:40:07.862
  • That god is coming after you.
  • 00:40:07.862 --> 00:40:10.364
  • He's got a calling over your life.
  • 00:40:10.364 --> 00:40:12.166
  • He wants you to move forward more than anyone.
  • 00:40:12.166 --> 00:40:14.802
  • He wants you to heal more than you do, right?
  • 00:40:14.802 --> 00:40:17.571
  • And so, to remember that there is--
  • 00:40:17.571 --> 00:40:19.807
  • God had a purpose from the very beginning of time for your life,
  • 00:40:19.807 --> 00:40:22.610
  • For your destiny, for your--
  • 00:40:22.610 --> 00:40:24.411
  • Even in the midst of your failures and pain, right?
  • 00:40:24.411 --> 00:40:26.847
  • - and why do we know that?
  • 00:40:26.847 --> 00:40:28.415
  • Because of the cross.
  • 00:40:28.415 --> 00:40:29.316
  • - because of the cross.
  • 00:40:29.316 --> 00:40:30.451
  • Absolutely.
  • 00:40:30.451 --> 00:40:31.118
  • Because of the cross.
  • 00:40:31.118 --> 00:40:32.586
  • - he already stakes his claim on humanity.
  • 00:40:32.586 --> 00:40:36.090
  • - so, from my personal experience,
  • 00:40:36.924 --> 00:40:39.026
  • I have seen failure in a completely different way
  • 00:40:39.026 --> 00:40:42.096
  • Than i used to when i was younger.
  • 00:40:42.096 --> 00:40:43.797
  • So, i'm 66 this year, and i used to see failure as final.
  • 00:40:43.797 --> 00:40:47.635
  • It defined me.
  • 00:40:47.635 --> 00:40:48.736
  • I would spend days overthinking, regurgitating,
  • 00:40:48.736 --> 00:40:52.973
  • And thinking about what could have,
  • 00:40:52.973 --> 00:40:54.708
  • Should have, would have been better.
  • 00:40:54.708 --> 00:40:55.776
  • But i have discovered failure is not final.
  • 00:40:55.776 --> 00:40:58.546
  • And god, if you look through the scriptures from genesis
  • 00:40:58.546 --> 00:41:01.782
  • To revelation, god gets the glory
  • 00:41:01.782 --> 00:41:05.085
  • When we are unable to produce on our own.
  • 00:41:05.085 --> 00:41:08.556
  • It makes us lean into him even more so than
  • 00:41:08.556 --> 00:41:11.792
  • We would have if we hadn't had a failure.
  • 00:41:11.792 --> 00:41:13.827
  • And so, for me, every single failure now,
  • 00:41:13.827 --> 00:41:16.764
  • I'm like, "what did you want to teach me?
  • 00:41:16.764 --> 00:41:18.632
  • What do i need to do?
  • 00:41:18.632 --> 00:41:19.500
  • What are you doing inside of me?
  • 00:41:19.500 --> 00:41:21.101
  • And how do i need to see this situation differently?”
  • 00:41:21.101 --> 00:41:23.737
  • And i'm grateful for the failures.
  • 00:41:23.737 --> 00:41:26.407
  • I'm grateful for them because they helped me to see god,
  • 00:41:26.407 --> 00:41:29.176
  • And myself, and my situation completely different.
  • 00:41:29.176 --> 00:41:32.079
  • - there's the death, right?
  • 00:41:32.746 --> 00:41:34.348
  • And then, there's this resurrection piece of it.
  • 00:41:34.348 --> 00:41:36.016
  • Oh, he dies for us, but then he also resurrects.
  • 00:41:36.016 --> 00:41:37.851
  • And with that resurrection, we resurrect.
  • 00:41:37.851 --> 00:41:39.920
  • - that's right.
  • 00:41:39.920 --> 00:41:41.055
  • - our vision for life and our purpose resurrects,
  • 00:41:41.055 --> 00:41:44.124
  • And our hearts heal.
  • 00:41:44.124 --> 00:41:45.559
  • - and then, that resurrection comes
  • 00:41:45.559 --> 00:41:47.328
  • Where he sends the holy spirit to dwell us.
  • 00:41:47.328 --> 00:41:49.463
  • - yes.
  • 00:41:49.463 --> 00:41:50.497
  • - because resurrection isn't just a noun
  • 00:41:50.497 --> 00:41:52.766
  • Or an event, it's a verb.
  • 00:41:52.766 --> 00:41:55.102
  • It is a practice and a lifestyle.
  • 00:41:55.102 --> 00:41:56.870
  • So, living, not just living resurrected,
  • 00:41:56.870 --> 00:41:59.473
  • But jesus told mary, "go tell my brothers
  • 00:41:59.473 --> 00:42:02.276
  • That i've risen from the dead.”
  • 00:42:02.276 --> 00:42:03.377
  • He put resurrection in her mouth.
  • 00:42:03.377 --> 00:42:05.412
  • So, he's speaking resurrection over our failures, right?
  • 00:42:05.412 --> 00:42:09.450
  • God, bring life out of whatever feels like death right now.
  • 00:42:09.450 --> 00:42:13.053
  • - there's so much mercy tucked into that story.
  • 00:42:13.053 --> 00:42:16.624
  • Because i don't think if he included,
  • 00:42:16.624 --> 00:42:18.559
  • If they hadn't said, "go tell the disciples and peter,”
  • 00:42:18.559 --> 00:42:21.362
  • I don't think he would have gone otherwise.
  • 00:42:21.362 --> 00:42:23.230
  • He would have thought, "no, i really blew it.
  • 00:42:23.230 --> 00:42:25.165
  • I'm sure they all want to go."
  • 00:42:25.165 --> 00:42:26.400
  • - i think they probably said like,
  • 00:42:26.400 --> 00:42:27.835
  • "hey, jesus asked for you by name."
  • 00:42:27.835 --> 00:42:29.837
  • - yeah.
  • 00:42:29.837 --> 00:42:31.238
  • - think about that, like, jesus asked you by name.
  • 00:42:31.338 --> 00:42:34.208
  • And peter was probably like, "i don't want to go.
  • 00:42:34.208 --> 00:42:36.143
  • He's probably mad at me.”
  • 00:42:36.143 --> 00:42:37.244
  • And they're like, "no, no, he specifically asked
  • 00:42:37.244 --> 00:42:39.546
  • For you by name, and he wants to see you.”
  • 00:42:39.546 --> 00:42:42.483
  • What a calling, what a reminder, like god calls us by name.
  • 00:42:42.483 --> 00:42:45.719
  • - and then when jesus is making breakfast on the beach,
  • 00:42:45.719 --> 00:42:48.689
  • And peter's like--
  • 00:42:48.689 --> 00:42:49.923
  • I can just see him just, you know,
  • 00:42:49.923 --> 00:42:51.125
  • Paddling through the water.
  • 00:42:51.125 --> 00:42:52.259
  • I mean, how hasty he is anyway to get to jesus.
  • 00:42:52.259 --> 00:42:55.796
  • A lot of scholars say that jesus brought him back
  • 00:42:55.796 --> 00:42:57.865
  • To a charcoal fire to have a new sensory experience
  • 00:42:57.865 --> 00:43:00.167
  • Because that's where he failed.
  • 00:43:00.167 --> 00:43:02.136
  • And they just said there's going to be a neurological connection
  • 00:43:02.136 --> 00:43:04.338
  • Because there's charcoal fires everywhere in those times.
  • 00:43:04.338 --> 00:43:07.174
  • So, every time he has a sudden reminder.
  • 00:43:07.174 --> 00:43:09.677
  • And so, here he recommissions him with that smell
  • 00:43:09.677 --> 00:43:12.880
  • Of charcoal fire in his nose.
  • 00:43:12.880 --> 00:43:14.181
  • I mean, how beautiful.
  • 00:43:14.181 --> 00:43:15.249
  • God will bring you back to propel you forward,
  • 00:43:15.249 --> 00:43:18.152
  • To redeem it, to redeem the story.
  • 00:43:18.152 --> 00:43:20.487
  • - because peter had gone back to fishing.
  • 00:43:20.487 --> 00:43:22.423
  • So, jesus had called him a fisher of men,
  • 00:43:22.423 --> 00:43:24.425
  • And he's like, "forget this.
  • 00:43:24.425 --> 00:43:25.726
  • I'm going to go back to what i know,
  • 00:43:25.726 --> 00:43:27.027
  • What i know is comfortable and feels good.”
  • 00:43:27.027 --> 00:43:29.830
  • And jesus still shows up on the shoreline, has a fire burning,
  • 00:43:29.830 --> 00:43:33.667
  • And then hasn't forgotten, and then redeems and restores it
  • 00:43:33.667 --> 00:43:37.438
  • Because it's only going to be what?
  • 00:43:37.438 --> 00:43:39.073
  • Just a couple of weeks later that he's going
  • 00:43:39.073 --> 00:43:40.441
  • To be preaching to thousands.
  • 00:43:40.441 --> 00:43:42.209
  • - yeah.
  • 00:43:42.209 --> 00:43:43.243
  • - moving into his calling.
  • 00:43:43.243 --> 00:43:45.279
  • But isn't that--
  • 00:43:45.279 --> 00:43:46.213
  • It is stunning.
  • 00:43:46.213 --> 00:43:47.081
  • And i think that god does that.
  • 00:43:47.081 --> 00:43:49.116
  • He takes the very smell of failure and redeems it.
  • 00:43:49.116 --> 00:43:52.653
  • - makes it a fragrance.
  • 00:43:52.653 --> 00:43:53.454
  • - yeah, an aroma.
  • 00:43:53.454 --> 00:43:55.489
  • - i love that jesus is always saying, "come.”
  • 00:43:56.523 --> 00:43:59.793
  • He's never pushing.
  • 00:43:59.793 --> 00:44:01.595
  • He's never forcing himself on you.
  • 00:44:01.595 --> 00:44:03.263
  • He's always drawing you close.
  • 00:44:03.263 --> 00:44:05.265
  • Come, you know?
  • 00:44:05.265 --> 00:44:06.767
  • The future is bright.
  • 00:44:07.334 --> 00:44:09.470
  • The kingdom of god is here right now.
  • 00:44:09.470 --> 00:44:12.139
  • And everything, every decision that we make right here
  • 00:44:12.139 --> 00:44:14.975
  • And now is a part of the kingdom of god.
  • 00:44:14.975 --> 00:44:18.178
  • So, it's important what we do now.
  • 00:44:18.178 --> 00:44:20.147
  • So, if you fall, then get up again.
  • 00:44:20.147 --> 00:44:22.483
  • Get up and do it again.
  • 00:44:22.483 --> 00:44:24.284
  • Just keep going.
  • 00:44:24.284 --> 00:44:25.285
  • If you don't know what to do, do the last
  • 00:44:25.285 --> 00:44:27.554
  • Thing jesus told you to do.
  • 00:44:27.554 --> 00:44:29.156
  • The last thing you heard, the last thing you felt,
  • 00:44:29.156 --> 00:44:31.425
  • Do it again.
  • 00:44:31.425 --> 00:44:32.726
  • You know, and let god take your nothingness, your inability,
  • 00:44:32.726 --> 00:44:37.331
  • Your incapability, your empty, your bitterness, your struggle,
  • 00:44:37.331 --> 00:44:44.838
  • Your pain, and let him let you realize
  • 00:44:44.838 --> 00:44:48.742
  • He's already redeemed it.
  • 00:44:48.742 --> 00:44:50.077
  • It's already done.
  • 00:44:50.077 --> 00:44:51.211
  • Receive the gift that god has given,
  • 00:44:51.211 --> 00:44:54.148
  • That jesus died for you on the cross.
  • 00:44:54.148 --> 00:44:56.683
  • Receive the gift of life.
  • 00:44:56.683 --> 00:44:58.519
  • It's like, it was just in the last day or two, someone said,
  • 00:44:58.519 --> 00:45:01.388
  • "it's like i saw a picture of people that had gone to hell,
  • 00:45:01.388 --> 00:45:06.226
  • And there was this huge gift that they
  • 00:45:06.226 --> 00:45:08.395
  • Had rejected sitting there beside them.”
  • 00:45:08.395 --> 00:45:11.231
  • God has given us this gift of redemption, of salvation,
  • 00:45:12.399 --> 00:45:17.104
  • And we've ignored it when it's sitting right there.
  • 00:45:17.104 --> 00:45:20.641
  • And so, open it up.
  • 00:45:20.641 --> 00:45:22.075
  • Receive the perfect gift that jesus died for you.
  • 00:45:23.076 --> 00:45:26.480
  • You stumble, that's just a way of life.
  • 00:45:26.480 --> 00:45:29.082
  • The bible says we'll do that, that we stumble,
  • 00:45:29.082 --> 00:45:32.186
  • We get back up again and go with god.
  • 00:45:32.186 --> 00:45:35.222
  • - you know, you hear so many stories about people coming
  • 00:45:35.322 --> 00:45:38.192
  • To the end of their dream.
  • 00:45:38.192 --> 00:45:39.393
  • We took it to the end, and then it just failed.
  • 00:45:40.394 --> 00:45:43.130
  • But then, this opportunity opened up,
  • 00:45:43.130 --> 00:45:45.866
  • And you just think, "had it not died and had it not failed,
  • 00:45:45.866 --> 00:45:50.771
  • You would not be where you're at today.”
  • 00:45:50.771 --> 00:45:53.273
  • I encourage you, you've got to keep going.
  • 00:45:53.273 --> 00:45:56.410
  • When something seems like it fails, say,
  • 00:45:56.410 --> 00:46:00.347
  • "that is seed in the ground.
  • 00:46:00.347 --> 00:46:02.149
  • I took that step of faith.
  • 00:46:02.149 --> 00:46:03.450
  • That is seed sown.
  • 00:46:03.450 --> 00:46:05.252
  • I give that to the lord.”
  • 00:46:05.252 --> 00:46:07.487
  • All the pain, all the hard work,
  • 00:46:07.487 --> 00:46:09.523
  • Everything that we put into that,
  • 00:46:09.523 --> 00:46:11.491
  • We're going to bury it now,
  • 00:46:11.491 --> 00:46:12.726
  • And we're going to wait for resurrection life
  • 00:46:12.726 --> 00:46:14.761
  • To come out of the ground
  • 00:46:14.761 --> 00:46:16.063
  • Because i have sowed that seed in faith
  • 00:46:16.063 --> 00:46:18.565
  • Believing that god will resurrect something far beyond
  • 00:46:18.565 --> 00:46:22.002
  • What i've ever imagined or dreamed or even prayed for.
  • 00:46:22.002 --> 00:46:25.806
  • God can do that.
  • 00:46:25.806 --> 00:46:27.207
  • - so, that's our prayer, everyone,
  • 00:46:27.975 --> 00:46:30.811
  • That we will move forward with god, you know,
  • 00:46:30.811 --> 00:46:33.480
  • That we will have this one thing,
  • 00:46:33.480 --> 00:46:34.982
  • This one thing i've asked of the lord,
  • 00:46:34.982 --> 00:46:37.150
  • This one thing paul said i know, that we will follow after him,
  • 00:46:37.150 --> 00:46:41.388
  • That we will close our ears to the distractions of the world,
  • 00:46:41.388 --> 00:46:45.259
  • And there's so many of them at the moment,
  • 00:46:45.259 --> 00:46:47.394
  • And learn how to redeem our time,
  • 00:46:47.394 --> 00:46:49.596
  • Be in places that will bring us closer to jesus,
  • 00:46:49.596 --> 00:46:52.432
  • Spend time in things that will help us understand his heart
  • 00:46:52.432 --> 00:46:55.802
  • For us, and stay with us, better together community,
  • 00:46:55.802 --> 00:46:59.940
  • Because we've only just begun.
  • 00:46:59.940 --> 00:47:02.042
  • Let's pray.
  • 00:47:02.442 --> 00:47:04.244
  • Lord, how do we find the words to even begin to thank you
  • 00:47:05.445 --> 00:47:09.349
  • For everything that you have done and for who you are?
  • 00:47:09.349 --> 00:47:12.953
  • I know that we'll never get it down here.
  • 00:47:13.887 --> 00:47:16.590
  • What it must have been like for you to leave the worship
  • 00:47:16.590 --> 00:47:20.494
  • Of all the myriad of angels, the beauty of holiness,
  • 00:47:20.494 --> 00:47:26.366
  • And be willing to come down and walk where we walk,
  • 00:47:26.366 --> 00:47:30.704
  • And experience what we experience, and be rejected,
  • 00:47:30.804 --> 00:47:33.507
  • And to be betrayed, and to go and to do it all, and still
  • 00:47:33.507 --> 00:47:38.412
  • On your final words from the cross is, "father, forgive them.
  • 00:47:38.412 --> 00:47:42.950
  • They don't have a clue what they're doing.”
  • 00:47:42.950 --> 00:47:45.285
  • Lord, i just pray right now for our whole community.
  • 00:47:46.386 --> 00:47:49.656
  • Lord, we just want to say together,
  • 00:47:49.656 --> 00:47:51.558
  • We want to move on in you.
  • 00:47:51.558 --> 00:47:53.927
  • We want our lives to glorify you.
  • 00:47:53.927 --> 00:47:57.230
  • Lord, help us just burn up everything
  • 00:47:57.230 --> 00:48:00.667
  • In our life that's not pleasing.
  • 00:48:00.667 --> 00:48:02.636
  • Let it burn away.
  • 00:48:02.636 --> 00:48:03.870
  • Let it fall away, lord, as dross.
  • 00:48:03.870 --> 00:48:06.340
  • We want to know that one day, we'll actually get to stand
  • 00:48:06.340 --> 00:48:10.143
  • Before you and see you face to face,
  • 00:48:10.143 --> 00:48:12.913
  • And we want our life to have left things that matter,
  • 00:48:14.014 --> 00:48:17.517
  • Not hay and straw and stubble, those jewels
  • 00:48:18.518 --> 00:48:21.922
  • That we can make into a crown and cast at your feet
  • 00:48:21.922 --> 00:48:25.258
  • Because you are worthy.
  • 00:48:25.258 --> 00:48:26.860
  • And we thank you, lord.
  • 00:48:26.860 --> 00:48:28.729
  • Thank you for loving us.
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  • In jesus' name.
  • 00:48:30.897 --> 00:48:32.332
  • Amen.
  • 00:48:32.332 --> 00:48:34.634
  • - connect with us on social media
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  • And let us know how our team can pray for you.
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  • [music]
  • 00:48:39.906 --> 00:48:45.112
  • - dorothea, who watches us on youtube, right?
  • 00:48:46.146 --> 00:48:48.582
  • I love that.
  • 00:48:48.582 --> 00:48:49.716
  • "i have walked with god since i was a teenager,
  • 00:48:49.716 --> 00:48:51.785
  • But my life has felt like one failure after another.”
  • 00:48:51.785 --> 00:48:54.788
  • I feel you, girl.
  • 00:48:54.788 --> 00:48:56.823
  • "i have fasted and prayed, and i feel like god enjoys ignoring
  • 00:48:56.823 --> 00:49:00.127
  • My prayers and rubbing my failures
  • 00:49:00.127 --> 00:49:02.429
  • In my face every time he blesses someone else
  • 00:49:02.429 --> 00:49:05.232
  • With the things i have been asking him for, for years.
  • 00:49:05.232 --> 00:49:08.668
  • How do i stop feeling this way?"
  • 00:49:08.668 --> 00:49:10.670
  • - gosh.
  • 00:49:10.670 --> 00:49:11.772
  • First of all, dorothea, our hearts are with you.
  • 00:49:11.772 --> 00:49:14.074
  • That is so hard.
  • 00:49:14.074 --> 00:49:15.442
  • I have to say, i mean, i wish we could sit down with you
  • 00:49:15.442 --> 00:49:18.111
  • And have a cup of coffee and talk to you face to face.
  • 00:49:18.111 --> 00:49:21.515
  • But it sounds to me like the enemy is trying to torment you,
  • 00:49:21.515 --> 00:49:24.484
  • You know, because you're trying to do everything,
  • 00:49:24.484 --> 00:49:26.053
  • You're fasting and you're praying,
  • 00:49:26.053 --> 00:49:27.220
  • And you're still feeling like, you know,
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  • I'm an absolute failure.
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  • That is not who jesus says you are.
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  • - that's right.
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  • - he says that you're loved, you're his daughter,
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  • That you are treasured, that you're seen, that you're known.
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  • And sometimes it takes--
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  • I don't know whether they used to use wallpaper in venezuela,
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  • Where you grew up, but in scotland,
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  • Where i grew up, we wallpapered every wall.
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  • If you ever tried to take wallpaper off,
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  • It is so hard because it's been stuck on there.
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  • You have to scrape and scrape.
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  • It's the same with our minds sometimes.
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  • We're so used to the things that are stuck there,
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  • But it takes time and intentionality
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  • To scrape the lies off and replace them
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  • With the truth of who god says you are.
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  • - yeah, that's so good, sheila.
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  • I would add to know that the enemy is an accuser.
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  • Like, that's who he is, right?
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  • And so, in jesus' name, remind yourself in those moments,
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  • Take an audit of what you are believing,
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  • And remind yourself that, as sheila said,
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  • You are his beloved daughter.
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  • Your failures, even the worst of them, sis,
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  • Are moments where god is waiting to redeem them.
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  • Every moment in your life that has felt like it's too far gone
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  • Or a failure, god has already made a way
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  • And has a purpose for it.
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  • And truly, the more that you're able to rehearse that truth,
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  • You'll be able to see just the beauty of god
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  • In your life so much more clearly.
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  • - we're with you, dorothea.
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  • - we're with you, girl.
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