5 Minutes with Jesus is a daily devotional series for people in the midst of real life, whether facing anxiety, grief, questions of purpose, or simply needing encouragement and connection. Hosted by Sheila Walsh, each five-minute episode offers Biblical truth, honest reflections on faith and emotions, and closes with a moment of prayer.
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| Sheila Walsh: Bring Your Pain To Your Father | 5 Minutes with Jesus | April 3, 2026
- Jesus was in
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- Such agony that he sweat drops of blood.
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- That's a condition called hematohydrosis, a condition
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- That still sometimes happens today.
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- Sometimes when people are being marched to their execution,
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- Jesus didn't pretend that what was ahead of him
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- Was going to be easy.
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- He was fully god, but he was also fully man.
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- And the grief was so intense he thought he actually might die
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- Before he ever made it to the cross.
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- I don't know what you're going through right
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- Now, but i want you to know that you can bring your pain,
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- Your anger, your confusion to the father.
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- On the night when he was betrayed,
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- Jesus brought his pain
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- And his surrender to his father.
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- When our son was four years old.
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- His papa moved in with us.
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- Barry's mum eleanor had liver cancer
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- And after she passed, we invited william to live with us.
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- It was pure joy.
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- He would let christian do things but never allow.
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- Which of course was a four year old boy's dream.
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- But christian and i
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- Were the only ones home the night that william died.
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- He'd gone up to have a bath,
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- And when he didn't come back down to say good night,
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- I was concerned. so i went upstairs
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- To his bathroom and knocked on the door.
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- And then when there was no response,
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- I opened the door and william was laying on the floor
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- With his head in a pool of blood.
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- I didn't know
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- If he'd had a heart attack or if he'd just slipped and fallen.
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- But as i had my phone in my pocket, i dialed 911.
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- But while i was talking to the 911 operator,
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- I could hear that christian was coming up
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- The stairs and i tried to stop him,
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- But by the time the call was over,
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- Christian was standing in the doorway.
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- He asked me what had happened to his papa,
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- And i told him
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- He wasn't feeling very well, but we were getting help.
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- He asked if he could help.
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- You know, i remembered when my father had
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- His brain injury being kept in the dark about everything.
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- And i think what children imagine is actually worse
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- Than facing what's true.
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- So i asked christian to get a wash rag and sit
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- Beside his papa and put it on his forehead
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- When the ambulance arrived and took william downstairs.
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- Christian and i followed the hospital,
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- But by the time we arrived, welcome safely home with jesus.
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- Well, over the next few days and weeks, christian did
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- What i expected.
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- He cried and talked about how much he missed his papa.
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- But then one day he did something
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- That was really out of character for him.
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- We had adopted this huge cat from the humane society
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- And he loved this cat. but i saw him
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- Push lillie off the sofa so that's not like you.
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- So i said, let's go for a walk.
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- I asked christian that
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- Day if he was angry and he said he was.
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- He said, mum, you told me that god answers prayers
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- And when were you following the ambulance?
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- I asked god to make my papa better and he didn't.
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- So i don't like him and i don't want to talk to him anymore.
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- I told my son i understood those feelings.
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- I actually drove him to a sports store,
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- And i bought him a punching bag and boxing gloves.
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- And i said, maybe
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- When you're angry, hit that thing as hard as you can,
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- But then you get to fall into the arms of a god
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- Who is big enough for you to be angry with them.
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- I don't know where we ever got the idea that were supposed
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- To clean ourselves up.
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- When we come to god,
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- Edit our speech, you know half of ourselves.
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- On the night when christ was betrayed,
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- He poured out his pain in the presence of his father.
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- We read in matthew's gospel, chapter 26.
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- Then jesus went with them to the olive grove called gethsemane.
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- And he said,
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- Sit here while i go over there to pray.
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- He took peter and zebedee, two sons, james and john,
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- And he became anguished and distressed.
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- He told them,
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- My soul is crushed with grief to the point of death.
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- Stay here and keep watch with me.
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- He went on a little further and bowed with his face
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- To the ground, praying.
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- My father, if it is possible, let
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- This cup of suffering be taken away from me.
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- Yet i want your will to be done, not mine.
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- Luke, the physician gives us a detail
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- That would be significant to him as a doctor.
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- He wrote that
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- Jesus was in such agony that he sweat drops of blood.
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- That's a condition called hematohydrosis
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- A condition that still sometimes happens today.
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- Sometimes when
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- People are being marched to their execution,
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- Jesus didn't pretend that what was ahead of him
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- Was going to be easy.
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- He was fully god, but he was also fully man.
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- And the grief was so intense he thought he actually might die
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- Before he ever made it to the cross.
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- I don't know what you're going through right
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- Now, but i want you to know that you can bring your pain,
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- Your anger, your confusion to the father.
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- On the night when he was betrayed,
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- Jesus brought his pain
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- And his surrender to his father.
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- Let's pray.
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- Father god, i want to thank you that
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- We get to tell you the whole truth.
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- And jesus.
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- I want to thank you that you allowed us
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- Into those most intimate moments when you were in such agony,
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- And you let us see what that looked like.
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- But i thank you
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- That you processed your pain and your father's presence.
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- Holy spirit, will you give us the grace to do that too?
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- In jesus name,
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- Amen.
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