M'Lisa Goff - Shattered Dreams

August 8, 2025 | S25 E202 | 29:15

The author of “It’s Not Beyond Hope” shares her journey of divorce, addiction, loss, and brokenness to show the power of God’s redemption and restoration.

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Life Today with James Robison | M'Lisa Goff - Shattered Dreams | August 8, 2025

>> i actually just dove head-in to the world,
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And i just found myself in a very dark place.
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I found myself pregnant.
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I didn't even know who the father was.
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Here i had been a pastor's wife.
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I had been raised in church my whole life,
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And i thought, how did i get here?
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M'lisa goff shares her personal journey
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That reveals how our darkest moments can be transformed!
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Next!
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Tammy: hello, everybody.
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Tammy: hello, everybody. welcome to life today .
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Tammy: hello, everybody. welcome to life today . i'm tammy trent.
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Welcome to life today . i'm tammy trent. i'm so glad you're here.
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I'm tammy trent. i'm so glad you're here. i'm so glad you're here
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I'm so glad you're here. i'm so glad you're here with me again, blynda lane.
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I'm so glad you're here with me again, blynda lane. blynda lane,
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You've seen her on tv.
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You've seen her on tv. you're seeing her on tv now.
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You've seen her on tv. you're seeing her on tv now. and she's such a blessing!
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You're seeing her on tv now. and she's such a blessing! i'm glad you're here again
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And she's such a blessing! i'm glad you're here again with me.
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I'm glad you're here again with me. blynda: thank you, tammy.
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With me. blynda: thank you, tammy. i mean, it is just really
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Blynda: thank you, tammy. i mean, it is just really so fun to get to do this
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I mean, it is just really so fun to get to do this with you.
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So fun to get to do this with you. i'm telling you, i just want
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With you. i'm telling you, i just want to say you're really gifted.
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I'm telling you, i just want to say you're really gifted. the lord uses you
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To say you're really gifted. the lord uses you in really amazing ways.
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The lord uses you in really amazing ways. it's been an honor to get
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In really amazing ways. it's been an honor to get to be beside you
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It's been an honor to get to be beside you a couple of times.
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To be beside you a couple of times. really fun.
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A couple of times. really fun. and of course,
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Really fun. and of course, i love this ministry.
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And of course, i love this ministry. it's amazing to be a part
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I love this ministry. it's amazing to be a part of a ministry that
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It's amazing to be a part of a ministry that is changing so many lives
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Of a ministry that is changing so many lives around the world.
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Is changing so many lives around the world. tammy: you know, i think
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Around the world. tammy: you know, i think just what you said, it's
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Tammy: you know, i think just what you said, it's that sisterhood, especially.
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Just what you said, it's that sisterhood, especially. that means a lot.
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That sisterhood, especially. that means a lot. your words mean so much to me,
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That means a lot. your words mean so much to me, and i'm grateful for it.
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Your words mean so much to me, and i'm grateful for it. i think that's the beauty
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And i'm grateful for it. i think that's the beauty of sisters in christ,
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I think that's the beauty of sisters in christ, and the gift of friendship
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Of sisters in christ, and the gift of friendship and relationship.
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And the gift of friendship and relationship. we've only known each other
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And relationship. we've only known each other for a short, short time.
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We've only known each other for a short, short time. blynda: but it feels like
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For a short, short time. blynda: but it feels like a lot longer.
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Blynda: but it feels like a lot longer. tammy: i know it.
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A lot longer. tammy: i know it. i think that's
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Tammy: i know it. i think that's the spirit of god.
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I think that's the spirit of god. when you seek out
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The spirit of god. when you seek out relationships that are
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When you seek out relationships that are of jesus where you sharpen
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Relationships that are of jesus where you sharpen each other and you grow,
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Of jesus where you sharpen each other and you grow, that is the gift.
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Each other and you grow, that is the gift. you've been a gift to us.
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That is the gift. you've been a gift to us. and now, this ministry,
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You've been a gift to us. and now, this ministry, doing some shows with me.
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And now, this ministry, doing some shows with me. i'm grateful for you.
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Doing some shows with me. i'm grateful for you. and grateful for you!
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I'm grateful for you. and grateful for you! i'm glad you're watching.
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And grateful for you! i'm glad you're watching. but what happens when
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I'm glad you're watching. but what happens when your entire life shatters
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But what happens when your entire life shatters and falls apart, and
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Your entire life shatters and falls apart, and you wonder if it's too late
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And falls apart, and you wonder if it's too late for restoration?
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You wonder if it's too late for restoration? when pain from your past
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For restoration? when pain from your past collides with a present
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When pain from your past collides with a present that feels unrecognizable
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Collides with a present that feels unrecognizable and hope seems out of reach?
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That feels unrecognizable and hope seems out of reach? today's guest knows
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And hope seems out of reach? today's guest knows that feeling all too well.
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Today's guest knows that feeling all too well. she's lived through
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That feeling all too well. she's lived through heartbreak, loss,
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She's lived through heartbreak, loss, deep regret, but also
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Heartbreak, loss, deep regret, but also discovered the healing power
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Deep regret, but also discovered the healing power of god's grace.
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Discovered the healing power of god's grace. she's written a book
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Of god's grace. she's written a book all about it.
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She's written a book all about it. it's called
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All about it. it's called it's not beyond hope :
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It's called it's not beyond hope : "healing your shattered life."
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It's not beyond hope : "healing your shattered life." please welcome my friend,
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"healing your shattered life." please welcome my friend, m'lisa goff.
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Please welcome my friend, m'lisa goff. i'm so glad you're here.
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M'lisa goff. i'm so glad you're here. i've been waiting to have you
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I'm so glad you're here. i've been waiting to have you on the show to be able
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I've been waiting to have you on the show to be able to tell your story.
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On the show to be able to tell your story. it's crazy!
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To tell your story. it's crazy! there are so many --
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It's crazy! there are so many -- blynda: you know,
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There are so many -- blynda: you know, those stories that you hear
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Blynda: you know, those stories that you hear and you hear the story
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Those stories that you hear and you hear the story and you're like,
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And you hear the story and you're like, oh, you should write a book.
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And you're like, oh, you should write a book. you are the definition of:
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Oh, you should write a book. you are the definition of: you should write a book,
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You are the definition of: you should write a book, and you did!
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You should write a book, and you did! which is amazing!
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And you did! which is amazing! tammy: you could write a book.
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Which is amazing! tammy: you could write a book. this should be a movie.
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Tammy: you could write a book. this should be a movie. you don't want to miss
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This should be a movie. you don't want to miss any of this, i'm telling you.
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You don't want to miss any of this, i'm telling you. i believe there are
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Any of this, i'm telling you. i believe there are some people that are watching
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I believe there are some people that are watching right now that god is about
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Some people that are watching right now that god is about to maybe set you free.
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Right now that god is about to maybe set you free. he's about to give you
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To maybe set you free. he's about to give you something that you need today,
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He's about to give you something that you need today, that you have been looking for
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Something that you need today, that you have been looking for for a very long time.
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That you have been looking for for a very long time. maybe some answers,
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For a very long time. maybe some answers, maybe something,
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Maybe some answers, maybe something, a breakthrough.
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Maybe something, a breakthrough. here is a sister that has
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A breakthrough. here is a sister that has gone through some things
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Here is a sister that has gone through some things and it's not wasted.
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Gone through some things and it's not wasted. nothing is wasted.
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And it's not wasted. nothing is wasted. i believe god will use this
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Nothing is wasted. i believe god will use this in your life today.
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I believe god will use this in your life today. so sit tight.
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In your life today. so sit tight. i believe god wants to speak
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So sit tight. i believe god wants to speak to you through my friend.
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I believe god wants to speak to you through my friend. so let's start
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To you through my friend. so let's start in your teenage years.
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So let's start in your teenage years. if we wanted to go
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In your teenage years. if we wanted to go all the way back
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If we wanted to go all the way back to being a teenager,
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All the way back to being a teenager, meeting a young guy,
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To being a teenager, meeting a young guy, falling in love.
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Meeting a young guy, falling in love. tell us all about that.
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Falling in love. tell us all about that. m'lisa: all right!
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And i met this guy on stage
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And i met this guy on stage who was singing,
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Who was singing, and i fell madly in love.
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And i fell madly in love. and at 18 years old,
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And at 18 years old, ten days after high school
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We got married
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We got married and we started a life.
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We got married and we started a life. we just thought we were going
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And we started a life. we just thought we were going to take the world by storm.
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We just thought we were going to take the world by storm. we thought we're going
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To take the world by storm. we thought we're going to have it all.
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We thought we're going to have it all. we're going to do it all.
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To have it all. we're going to do it all. we're going to be it all.
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We're going to do it all. we're going to be it all. we thought we had the world
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We're going to be it all. we thought we had the world by the tail.
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We thought we had the world by the tail. so we just start pastoring
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By the tail. so we just start pastoring a church after a couple
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So we just start pastoring a church after a couple of years being married.
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A church after a couple of years being married. we were young, we thought
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Of years being married. we were young, we thought we knew what to do because
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We were young, we thought we knew what to do because my dad was a pastor,
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We knew what to do because my dad was a pastor, his dad had always been
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My dad was a pastor, his dad had always been evangelist-preacher.
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His dad had always been evangelist-preacher. so we thought,
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Evangelist-preacher. so we thought, we've known ministry.
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So we thought, we've known ministry. why not?
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We've known ministry. why not? we'll just do what we have
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Why not? we'll just do what we have watched our whole life.
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We'll just do what we have watched our whole life. this can't be too hard,
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Watched our whole life. this can't be too hard, right?
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This can't be too hard, right? so, we jumped into ministry.
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Right? so, we jumped into ministry. we didn't really have
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So, we jumped into ministry. we didn't really have the right tools and
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We didn't really have the right tools and the great communication skills
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The right tools and the great communication skills that we needed.
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The great communication skills that we needed. we really found ourselves
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That we needed. we really found ourselves after seven years
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We really found ourselves after seven years of pastoring our church and
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After seven years of pastoring our church and ten years of being married,
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Of pastoring our church and ten years of being married, we found ourselves in
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Ten years of being married, we found ourselves in a really desperate situation.
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We found ourselves in a really desperate situation. but one of the things that
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A really desperate situation. but one of the things that i do see that happens a lot
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But one of the things that i do see that happens a lot of times, maybe even
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I do see that happens a lot of times, maybe even in new ministry,
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Of times, maybe even in new ministry, is where we didn't feel like
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In new ministry, is where we didn't feel like we had anybody to go to.
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Is where we didn't feel like we had anybody to go to. we are supposed to be
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We had anybody to go to. we are supposed to be the answer for
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We are supposed to be the answer for other people's problems.
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The answer for other people's problems. but where does a pastor
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Other people's problems. but where does a pastor go for answers or for problems
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But where does a pastor go for answers or for problems that they're having?
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Go for answers or for problems that they're having? so the last couple of years
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That they're having? so the last couple of years of our marriage, my husband,
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So the last couple of years of our marriage, my husband, his behavior became
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Of our marriage, my husband, his behavior became very erratic.
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His behavior became very erratic. and i kept telling him,
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Very erratic. and i kept telling him, this isn't normal.
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And i kept telling him, this isn't normal. your sleeping is not normal.
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This isn't normal. your sleeping is not normal. you don't sleep for days
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Your sleeping is not normal. you don't sleep for days on end, and then i find you
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You don't sleep for days on end, and then i find you in the bed crying.
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On end, and then i find you in the bed crying. i can't get you out of bed
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In the bed crying. i can't get you out of bed because you're depressed
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I can't get you out of bed because you're depressed and emotions were up and down.
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Because you're depressed and emotions were up and down. i didn't know what
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And emotions were up and down. i didn't know what i was going to get for the day
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I didn't know what i was going to get for the day because it was such
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I was going to get for the day because it was such a rollercoaster of emotions.
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Because it was such a rollercoaster of emotions. and i kept saying,
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A rollercoaster of emotions. and i kept saying, there's something wrong.
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And i kept saying, there's something wrong. he kept going, "you're right!
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There's something wrong. he kept going, "you're right! you're driving me crazy."
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He kept going, "you're right! you're driving me crazy." so when everything imploded,
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You're driving me crazy." so when everything imploded, my husband had
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So when everything imploded, my husband had a moral failure,
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My husband had a moral failure, and he actually had
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A moral failure, and he actually had an affair with one of
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And he actually had an affair with one of my really good friends.
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An affair with one of my really good friends. so, we completely fell apart.
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My really good friends. so, we completely fell apart. i mean, it was a devastating
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So, we completely fell apart. i mean, it was a devastating end to our marriage.
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I mean, it was a devastating end to our marriage. at that time, my husband
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End to our marriage. at that time, my husband became suicidal, and
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At that time, my husband became suicidal, and he actually realized
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Became suicidal, and he actually realized how desperate of a situation
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He actually realized how desperate of a situation he was in.
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How desperate of a situation he was in. so, he did go for counseling
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He was in. so, he did go for counseling at that point in time.
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So, he did go for counseling at that point in time. they diagnosed him
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At that point in time. they diagnosed him manic depressive, bipolar,
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They diagnosed him manic depressive, bipolar, which answered a lot
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Manic depressive, bipolar, which answered a lot of questions in my mind.
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Which answered a lot of questions in my mind. i was like, i knew
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Of questions in my mind. i was like, i knew this wasn't normal behavior.
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I was like, i knew this wasn't normal behavior. well, my husband, he went
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This wasn't normal behavior. well, my husband, he went on this healing journey
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Well, my husband, he went on this healing journey of saying, god, i don't know
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On this healing journey of saying, god, i don't know how i got here and how
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Of saying, god, i don't know how i got here and how i've made the decisions
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How i got here and how i've made the decisions like i've made in my life.
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I've made the decisions like i've made in my life. and so he went on
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Like i've made in my life. and so he went on a healing journey, which
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And so he went on a healing journey, which i'll get to in a little bit.
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A healing journey, which i'll get to in a little bit. but me, i kind of went
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I'll get to in a little bit. but me, i kind of went the opposite direction.
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But me, i kind of went the opposite direction. i had been raised
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The opposite direction. i had been raised in a pastor's home,
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I had been raised in a pastor's home, then i had been
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In a pastor's home, then i had been a pastor's wife,
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Then i had been a pastor's wife, so i was mad at my husband,
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A pastor's wife, so i was mad at my husband, i was mad at my friend,
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So i was mad at my husband, i was mad at my friend, i was mad at god.
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I was mad at my friend, i was mad at god. like i've served you
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I was mad at god. like i've served you my whole life.
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Like i've served you my whole life. how did this end up the life
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My whole life. how did this end up the life that i'm living right now?
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How did this end up the life that i'm living right now? so i actually just
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That i'm living right now? so i actually just dove head-in to the world.
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So i actually just dove head-in to the world. i just thought, you know what?
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Dove head-in to the world. i just thought, you know what? i'm going to go.
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I just thought, you know what? i'm going to go. i've always loved dancing.
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I'm going to go. i've always loved dancing. it's just been something
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I've always loved dancing. it's just been something i've always loved.
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It's just been something i've always loved. but i was from
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I've always loved. but i was from a pentecostal denomination,
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But i was from a pentecostal denomination, so it was taboo.
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A pentecostal denomination, so it was taboo. so, i was like, i'm going
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So it was taboo. so, i was like, i'm going to go dancing.
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So, i was like, i'm going to go dancing. tammy: i'm going to do
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To go dancing. tammy: i'm going to do all the things that i was
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Tammy: i'm going to do all the things that i was not supposed to do, right?
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All the things that i was not supposed to do, right? because i'm out.
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Not supposed to do, right? because i'm out. i think so many of us
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Because i'm out. i think so many of us get to that place when
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I think so many of us get to that place when we're mad at god, especially,
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You don't think about
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You don't think about the consequences.
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The consequences. so, i'm out and i'm going
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So, i'm out and i'm going to do everything that
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To do everything that i've been told not to do.
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I've been told not to do. anything you tell me that
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Blynda: you had expectations
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Blynda: you had expectations in your life of what your life
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Blynda: you had expectations in your life of what your life was going to look like,
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In your life of what your life was going to look like, and none of it
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Was going to look like, and none of it was panning out.
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And none of it was panning out. so, it's like, well,
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Was panning out. so, it's like, well, if it's not going to pan out,
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M'lisa: so i started clubbing.
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M'lisa: so i started clubbing. i started hanging out
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I started hanging out with all the wrong people.
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With all the wrong people. the thing that they say
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The thing that they say about "show me your friends,
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About "show me your friends, i'll show you your future,"
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I want you to know
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I want you to know that surrounding yourself
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I want you to know that surrounding yourself with the wrong people,
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That surrounding yourself with the wrong people, oh, it just drug me down
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With the wrong people, oh, it just drug me down into a life of --
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Oh, it just drug me down into a life of -- they introduced me to alcohol,
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Into a life of -- they introduced me to alcohol, i was drinking all the time.
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They introduced me to alcohol, i was drinking all the time. blynda: it says, "bad company
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I was drinking all the time. blynda: it says, "bad company corrupts good morals."
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Blynda: it says, "bad company corrupts good morals." m'lisa: exactly!
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Corrupts good morals." m'lisa: exactly! they introduced me to drugs.
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M'lisa: exactly! they introduced me to drugs. i started using crystal meth.
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They introduced me to drugs. i started using crystal meth. tammy: oh my goodness,
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I started using crystal meth. tammy: oh my goodness, m'lisa.
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Tammy: oh my goodness, m'lisa. m'lisa: yeah, yeah.
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M'lisa. m'lisa: yeah, yeah. i thought, you know, i could
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M'lisa: yeah, yeah. i thought, you know, i could dance all night long,
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I thought, you know, i could dance all night long, and i was even better when
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Dance all night long, and i was even better when i was drinking and on drugs.
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And i was even better when i was drinking and on drugs. but it led me in a spiraling
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I was drinking and on drugs. but it led me in a spiraling lifestyle out of control.
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But it led me in a spiraling lifestyle out of control. i was just medicating my pain;
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Lifestyle out of control. i was just medicating my pain; trying to medicate the holes
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I was just medicating my pain; trying to medicate the holes that were in my heart.
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Trying to medicate the holes that were in my heart. i was sleeping with
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That were in my heart. i was sleeping with all the guys thinking that
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I was sleeping with all the guys thinking that they're going to give me
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All the guys thinking that they're going to give me the love and acceptance
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They're going to give me the love and acceptance that i'm looking for
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The love and acceptance that i'm looking for and that i haven't found.
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That i'm looking for and that i haven't found. i just found myself
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And that i haven't found. i just found myself in a very dark place.
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I just found myself in a very dark place. i found myself pregnant.
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In a very dark place. i found myself pregnant. i didn't even know
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I found myself pregnant. i didn't even know who the father was.
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I didn't even know who the father was. and here i had been,
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Who the father was. and here i had been, a pastor's wife.
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And here i had been, a pastor's wife. i'd been raised in church
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A pastor's wife. i'd been raised in church my whole life, and i thought,
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I'd been raised in church my whole life, and i thought, how did i get here?
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My whole life, and i thought, how did i get here? well, my husband, i said
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How did i get here? well, my husband, i said his journey was different.
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Well, my husband, i said his journey was different. he was leaning into god.
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His journey was different. he was leaning into god. he was trying to find his way,
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He was leaning into god. he was trying to find his way, and god miraculously
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He was trying to find his way, and god miraculously healed him.
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And god miraculously healed him. he used the scriptures.
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Healed him. he used the scriptures. he used the word of god.
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He used the scriptures. he used the word of god. god gave him a plan
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He used the word of god. god gave him a plan of discipline in his life
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God gave him a plan of discipline in his life of just leading every thought
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Of discipline in his life of just leading every thought captive to the obedience
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Of just leading every thought captive to the obedience of christ.
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Captive to the obedience of christ. he did that in a regimented
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Of christ. he did that in a regimented timeframe of every 30 minutes,
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He did that in a regimented timeframe of every 30 minutes, then every hour
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Timeframe of every 30 minutes, then every hour after a certain amount of time
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Then every hour after a certain amount of time and then every, you know,
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After a certain amount of time and then every, you know, three hours after
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And then every, you know, three hours after a certain amount of time.
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Three hours after a certain amount of time. and he was diligent
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A certain amount of time. and he was diligent in his healing journey.
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And he was diligent in his healing journey. god rewired his mind.
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In his healing journey. god rewired his mind. he healed him completely.
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God rewired his mind. he healed him completely. and 30 years later,
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He healed him completely. and 30 years later, he's never had a bout
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And 30 years later, he's never had a bout of depression.
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He's never had a bout of depression. he's never had a bout
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Of depression. he's never had a bout of anxiety.
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He's never had a bout of anxiety. he is completely
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Tammy: how did that change
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Tammy: how did that change your relationship?
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Your relationship? m'lisa: well, when i found
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M'lisa: well, when i found myself hitting rock bottom,
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Myself hitting rock bottom, it was then that i actually
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It was then that i actually went to my husband
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That took my heart and
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That took my heart and he loved me unconditionally.
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That took my heart and he loved me unconditionally. when i had the abortion,
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He loved me unconditionally. when i had the abortion, because i made the decision
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When i had the abortion, because i made the decision to not keep the baby,
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Because i made the decision to not keep the baby, i was devastated.
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To not keep the baby, i was devastated. that was my rock bottom.
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I was devastated. that was my rock bottom. he loved me and he held me.
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That was my rock bottom. he loved me and he held me. he showed me a love that
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He loved me and he held me. he showed me a love that only jesus could show me.
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He showed me a love that only jesus could show me. and i just thought, i don't
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Only jesus could show me. and i just thought, i don't think i'll ever find a man
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And i just thought, i don't think i'll ever find a man that loves me like
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Think i'll ever find a man that loves me like this man loves me.
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That loves me like this man loves me. and i also see the difference.
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This man loves me. and i also see the difference. he wasn't the man i divorced.
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And i also see the difference. he wasn't the man i divorced. he was the man that i fell
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He wasn't the man i divorced. he was the man that i fell in love with at 15 years old.
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He was the man that i fell in love with at 15 years old. i saw this old rekindling
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In love with at 15 years old. i saw this old rekindling like oh, you're back.
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I saw this old rekindling like oh, you're back. i saw what god had
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Like oh, you're back. i saw what god had actually done in his life.
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I saw what god had actually done in his life. and we started being friends
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Actually done in his life. and we started being friends and we started laughing again
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And we started being friends and we started laughing again and having fun again.
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And we started laughing again and having fun again. we started dating again.
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And having fun again. we started dating again. god miraculously got us
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We started dating again. god miraculously got us back together, redeemed us,
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God miraculously got us back together, redeemed us, restored our marriage,
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Back together, redeemed us, restored our marriage, and we absolutely got back
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Restored our marriage, and we absolutely got back together and remarried.
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And we absolutely got back together and remarried. it was a beautiful story.
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Together and remarried. it was a beautiful story. i mean, i'm not going to say
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It was a beautiful story. i mean, i'm not going to say it's butterflies and rainbows.
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I mean, i'm not going to say it's butterflies and rainbows. i mean, it was a lot of work.
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It's butterflies and rainbows. i mean, it was a lot of work. there was a lot
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I mean, it was a lot of work. there was a lot of baggage we had.
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There was a lot of baggage we had. you know, the backpack,
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Of baggage we had. you know, the backpack, the fanny pack, the roll on.
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You know, the backpack, the fanny pack, the roll on. blynda: a lot of baggage!
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In such a drastic way.
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In such a drastic way. so, we went through
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So, we went through extensive marriage counseling
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Extensive marriage counseling to get it right this time,
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To get it right this time, and to get the tools that
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Able to just have a
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Able to just have a successful marriage this time
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Able to just have a successful marriage this time because we weren't going
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Successful marriage this time because we weren't going to mess this one up again.
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Tammy: one of the things
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Tammy: one of the things you talk about
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Tammy: one of the things you talk about that impacted me a lot, too,
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You talk about that impacted me a lot, too, was everything you'd gone
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That impacted me a lot, too, was everything you'd gone through in your marriage,
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Was everything you'd gone through in your marriage, the choices that you made,
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How he came back to
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How he came back to the father just set a fire.
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How he came back to the father just set a fire. you saw that, and it began
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The father just set a fire. you saw that, and it began to do a breakthrough
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You saw that, and it began to do a breakthrough in your own life.
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To do a breakthrough in your own life. it brought you back to jesus.
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In your own life. it brought you back to jesus. and then the two of you
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It brought you back to jesus. and then the two of you began healing, and god began
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And then the two of you began healing, and god began to restore your marriage.
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Began healing, and god began to restore your marriage. but what wipes me out
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To restore your marriage. but what wipes me out is the part where
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But what wipes me out is the part where only a few months later,
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Is the part where only a few months later, was it that you were
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Only a few months later, was it that you were in a horrific car accident
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Was it that you were in a horrific car accident where your nine-year-old son
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In a horrific car accident where your nine-year-old son was killed?
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Where your nine-year-old son was killed? and i'm telling you
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Was killed? and i'm telling you that at that moment
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And i'm telling you that at that moment i think, oh, god. like, why?
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That at that moment i think, oh, god. like, why? like, i think i would
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I think, oh, god. like, why? like, i think i would be like, why?
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Like, i think i would be like, why? i've gone through all of this.
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Be like, why? i've gone through all of this. i've gotten this far.
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I've gone through all of this. i've gotten this far. i'm restoring my life.
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I've gotten this far. i'm restoring my life. i'm doing everything right.
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I'm restoring my life. i'm doing everything right. and then this.
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I'm doing everything right. and then this. how do you reconcile
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And then this. how do you reconcile a good god with a moment
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How do you reconcile a good god with a moment like that?
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A good god with a moment like that? m'lisa: exactly.
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Like that? m'lisa: exactly. it is a moment of questioning
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M'lisa: exactly. it is a moment of questioning your faith,
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It is a moment of questioning your faith, questioning everything
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Your faith, questioning everything i've done, everything that
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Questioning everything i've done, everything that i knew to do to bring myself
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I've done, everything that i knew to do to bring myself back to a place
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I knew to do to bring myself back to a place of being obedient to him,
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Back to a place of being obedient to him, of being in the life that
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Of being obedient to him, of being in the life that i know he called us to.
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Of being in the life that i know he called us to. we wanted to have a church
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I know he called us to. we wanted to have a church that cares where you're going
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We wanted to have a church that cares where you're going and not where you've been.
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That cares where you're going and not where you've been. we've made that the motto of
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And not where you've been. we've made that the motto of our church for our own lives;
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We've made that the motto of our church for our own lives; to just accept people
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Our church for our own lives; to just accept people and love people
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To just accept people and love people right where they're at,
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And love people right where they're at, and know that there's hope
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Right where they're at, and know that there's hope and redemption for them.
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And know that there's hope and redemption for them. so, when we started the church
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And redemption for them. so, when we started the church -- four months after starting
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So, when we started the church -- four months after starting the church is when we had
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-- four months after starting the church is when we had a horrific car accident.
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The church is when we had a horrific car accident. but not only was
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A horrific car accident. but not only was brandon killed
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But not only was brandon killed in that car accident,
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Brandon killed in that car accident, i was in the passenger side,
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In that car accident, i was in the passenger side, and i wound up on top
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I was in the passenger side, and i wound up on top of the boys in the back seat.
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And i wound up on top of the boys in the back seat. and in that, i sustained
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Of the boys in the back seat. and in that, i sustained so many injuries myself.
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And in that, i sustained so many injuries myself. i must have hit the dash
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So many injuries myself. i must have hit the dash or something with my face
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I must have hit the dash or something with my face because my face was
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Or something with my face because my face was completely crushed.
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Because my face was completely crushed. i had no cartilage left
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Completely crushed. i had no cartilage left in my nose.
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I had no cartilage left in my nose. they had to cut me from ear
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In my nose. they had to cut me from ear to ear and pull
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They had to cut me from ear to ear and pull my face off in two
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To ear and pull my face off in two reconstructive surgeries.
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My face off in two reconstructive surgeries. they had to rebuild my nose
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Reconstructive surgeries. they had to rebuild my nose with the grafting from
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They had to rebuild my nose with the grafting from my skull bone to give me
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With the grafting from my skull bone to give me a new nose.
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My skull bone to give me a new nose. they had to replace
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A new nose. they had to replace the plates with -- i mean,
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They had to replace the plates with -- i mean, they replaced the eye sockets
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The plates with -- i mean, they replaced the eye sockets with plates and screws
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They replaced the eye sockets with plates and screws to put them back together.
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With plates and screws to put them back together. my face was like a jigsaw
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To put them back together. my face was like a jigsaw puzzle to put back together.
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My face was like a jigsaw puzzle to put back together. blynda: you're a walking
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Puzzle to put back together. blynda: you're a walking miracle.
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Blynda: you're a walking miracle. m'lisa: i'm a walking miracle.
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Miracle. m'lisa: i'm a walking miracle. i have plates and screws
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M'lisa: i'm a walking miracle. i have plates and screws in my neck; i broke
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I have plates and screws in my neck; i broke two vertebrae in my neck
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In my neck; i broke two vertebrae in my neck and i have 14-inch rods,
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Two vertebrae in my neck and i have 14-inch rods, titanium rods down my back
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And i have 14-inch rods, titanium rods down my back where i broke three vertebrae
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Titanium rods down my back where i broke three vertebrae in my back.
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Where i broke three vertebrae in my back. so i was unconscious
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In my back. so i was unconscious and i come to and
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So i was unconscious and i come to and that was the first thing
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And i come to and that was the first thing that i find out,
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That was the first thing that i find out, coming to was that my son
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That i find out, coming to was that my son brandon was killed.
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Coming to was that my son brandon was killed. i remember hearing that
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Brandon was killed. i remember hearing that and experiencing the worst
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I remember hearing that and experiencing the worst horrific moment in my life.
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And experiencing the worst horrific moment in my life. i'm pulling tubes out
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Horrific moment in my life. i'm pulling tubes out and i'm screaming.
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I'm pulling tubes out and i'm screaming. i'm thinking, if i can get
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And i'm screaming. i'm thinking, if i can get to my son, i can save him.
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I'm thinking, if i can get to my son, i can save him. in that moment, they came in
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To my son, i can save him. in that moment, they came in and they sedated me
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In that moment, they came in and they sedated me with morphine,
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And they sedated me with morphine, and they knocked me out.
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With morphine, and they knocked me out. but i just knew when
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And they knocked me out. but i just knew when i came back, i was like,
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On my own.
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On my own. i'm not going
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I'm not going to be able to heal.
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To be able to heal. because, of course, my body
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Because, of course, my body is just broken
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Is just broken into a million pieces.
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Into a million pieces. but it had nothing, the pain
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But it had nothing, the pain of that had nothing
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Of my momma's heart
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Of my momma's heart of my son being ripped
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Of my momma's heart of my son being ripped from my life.
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Of my son being ripped from my life. i just think, god,
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From my life. i just think, god, why did you leave me here?
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I just think, god, why did you leave me here? why would i be in this
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Why did you leave me here? why would i be in this kind of condition,
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Why would i be in this kind of condition, in this kind of pain,
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Kind of condition, in this kind of pain, why didn't you let me
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In this kind of pain, why didn't you let me go be with brandon?
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Why didn't you let me go be with brandon? i remember him specifically
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Go be with brandon? i remember him specifically saying, "i left you here
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I remember him specifically saying, "i left you here on purpose with a purpose."
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Saying, "i left you here on purpose with a purpose." when he whispered that
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I was like, okay, god,
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I was like, okay, god, i'm going to make it
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I'm going to make it my life's mission
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My life's mission to not waste this pain.
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To not waste this pain. i'm going to make it
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People know that they can live
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People know that they can live beyond the pain of
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People know that they can live beyond the pain of a loss of a child.
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Beyond the pain of a loss of a child. they can not only have hope
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A loss of a child. they can not only have hope after a marriage that's been
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They can not only have hope after a marriage that's been destroyed and back together,
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After a marriage that's been destroyed and back together, and god restored that.
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Destroyed and back together, and god restored that. a lot of marriages never,
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And god restored that. a lot of marriages never, ever make it through
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A lot of marriages never, ever make it through a loss of a child.
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Ever make it through a loss of a child. so that's when we know
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A loss of a child. so that's when we know that god superglued us
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So that's when we know that god superglued us back together.
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That god superglued us back together. i mean, he just miraculously
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Back together. i mean, he just miraculously did such an amazing job
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I mean, he just miraculously did such an amazing job on our marriage.
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Did such an amazing job on our marriage. i just had to keep my focus
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On our marriage. i just had to keep my focus on saying, god,
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I just had to keep my focus on saying, god, you were the one
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On saying, god, you were the one that healed our marriage,
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You were the one that healed our marriage, you can heal my heart
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That healed our marriage, you can heal my heart through this, too.
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You can heal my heart through this, too. i have to hold on to you.
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Through this, too. i have to hold on to you. you've never left me, but
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I have to hold on to you. you've never left me, but that's the only way that
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You've never left me, but that's the only way that i'm going to make it through
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That's the only way that i'm going to make it through this is holding on to you.
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I'm going to make it through this is holding on to you. i remember being
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This is holding on to you. i remember being in my hospital bed,
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I remember being in my hospital bed, tears rolling from my eyes
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In my hospital bed, tears rolling from my eyes and just thinking, god,
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Tears rolling from my eyes and just thinking, god, i don't know how i'm going
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And just thinking, god, i don't know how i'm going to make it another day.
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I don't know how i'm going to make it another day. i would just have to raise up
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To make it another day. i would just have to raise up my hands like i'm holding
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I would just have to raise up my hands like i'm holding onto him because i couldn't
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My hands like i'm holding onto him because i couldn't make it without the praise
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Onto him because i couldn't make it without the praise and the worship saturating
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Make it without the praise and the worship saturating my heart and holding on
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And the worship saturating my heart and holding on to knowing that eternity
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My heart and holding on to knowing that eternity was going to be with my son.
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To knowing that eternity was going to be with my son. and god was going to carry me
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Was going to be with my son. and god was going to carry me through these moments that
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And god was going to carry me through these moments that i wouldn't have him
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Through these moments that i wouldn't have him on earth with me.
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I wouldn't have him on earth with me. tammy: i've been there
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So many times, m'lisa.
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So many times, m'lisa. you know, where i can
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So many times, m'lisa. you know, where i can remember being in church, too,
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You know, where i can remember being in church, too, and feeling like i just didn't
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Remember being in church, too, and feeling like i just didn't have the strength.
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Holding my own hand up
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Holding my own hand up one time because i'm like,
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Holding my own hand up one time because i'm like, i know that if i praise,
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One time because i'm like, i know that if i praise, if i worship, it will
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I know that if i praise, if i worship, it will push back the darkness
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If i worship, it will push back the darkness that i'm feeling right now.
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Push back the darkness that i'm feeling right now. i would i would tell myself,
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That i'm feeling right now. i would i would tell myself, even if you don't feel now
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I would i would tell myself, even if you don't feel now like you want to do this
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Even if you don't feel now like you want to do this or the presence of god,
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Like you want to do this or the presence of god, just push through it.
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Or the presence of god, just push through it. exactly.
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Just push through it. exactly. and i would just sometimes
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Exactly. and i would just sometimes just hold up my own hands
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And i would just sometimes just hold up my own hands till i could finally let go
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Just hold up my own hands till i could finally let go and find the strength to just
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Till i could finally let go and find the strength to just worship and praise god
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And find the strength to just worship and praise god in those moments.
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Worship and praise god in those moments. because it does push back
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In those moments. because it does push back the darkness.
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Because it does push back the darkness. that's exactly what you did
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The darkness. that's exactly what you did in that moment.
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That's exactly what you did in that moment. i think for people that feel
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In that moment. i think for people that feel so much pain right now,
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I think for people that feel so much pain right now, maybe feel like their life
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So much pain right now, maybe feel like their life is too messy, maybe they feel
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Maybe feel like their life is too messy, maybe they feel too far gone, you're the one
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Is too messy, maybe they feel too far gone, you're the one person, i think that could
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Too far gone, you're the one person, i think that could speak to them that might
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Person, i think that could speak to them that might feel like that.
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Speak to them that might feel like that. what would you say
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Feel like that. what would you say to somebody that just,
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What would you say to somebody that just, that just feels like
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To somebody that just, that just feels like it's great for her,
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That just feels like it's great for her, but it's too late for me.
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It's great for her, but it's too late for me. m'lisa: there isn't a life
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But it's too late for me. m'lisa: there isn't a life that's too far gone.
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M'lisa: there isn't a life that's too far gone. if anybody knows that,
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That's too far gone. if anybody knows that, i know that because
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If anybody knows that, i know that because i knew all the things
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I know that because i knew all the things to do right and i walked away.
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I knew all the things to do right and i walked away. it wasn't like i just did it
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To do right and i walked away. it wasn't like i just did it innocently, and like
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It wasn't like i just did it innocently, and like i didn't know better.
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Innocently, and like i didn't know better. i walked away, and i rejected
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I didn't know better. i walked away, and i rejected the life that i knew that
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I walked away, and i rejected the life that i knew that god had called me to.
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The life that i knew that god had called me to. when he was able
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God had called me to. when he was able to just wipe all that away
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When he was able to just wipe all that away and forgive me, i was like,
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To just wipe all that away and forgive me, i was like, who am i to ever even stand
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And forgive me, i was like, who am i to ever even stand in a pulpit and give him
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Who am i to ever even stand in a pulpit and give him the opportunity
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But i was like, man, okay,
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But i was like, man, okay, god, if you can do this
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God, if you can do this for me, as low as i've gone,
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For me, as low as i've gone, and i'm not even scratching
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And i'm not even scratching the surface of really where
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The surface of really where i went to in the darkness
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I was like, god, if you
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I was like, god, if you can do this for me,
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I was like, god, if you can do this for me, there isn't any person
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Can do this for me, there isn't any person that's too far gone.
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There isn't any person that's too far gone. every day when i didn't want
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That's too far gone. every day when i didn't want to get out of bed,
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Every day when i didn't want to get out of bed, when i didn't want
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To get out of bed, when i didn't want to keep living,
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When i didn't want to keep living, god's close to
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To keep living, god's close to the brokenhearted.
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God's close to the brokenhearted. he never leaves us.
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The brokenhearted. he never leaves us. he never forsakes.
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He never leaves us. he never forsakes. when we hold on to him,
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He never forsakes. when we hold on to him, he shows up for us every day
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When we hold on to him, he shows up for us every day in the little things.
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He shows up for us every day in the little things. the whispers, the moments,
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In the little things. the whispers, the moments, he's always there to bring
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The whispers, the moments, he's always there to bring that comfort and that peace
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He's always there to bring that comfort and that peace and that direction
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That comfort and that peace and that direction that we need in our life.
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And that direction that we need in our life. tammy: scripture says, he's
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That we need in our life. tammy: scripture says, he's near to the brokenhearted,
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Tammy: scripture says, he's near to the brokenhearted, but he saves those
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Near to the brokenhearted, but he saves those whose spirits are crushed.
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But he saves those whose spirits are crushed. and if you're watching today
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Whose spirits are crushed. and if you're watching today and you feel like your spirit
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And if you're watching today and you feel like your spirit is absolutely crushed,
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And you feel like your spirit is absolutely crushed, you've run out of words,
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Is absolutely crushed, you've run out of words, you don't even know
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You've run out of words, you don't even know what to pray anymore.
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You don't even know what to pray anymore. but you're sitting there
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What to pray anymore. but you're sitting there in that space
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But you're sitting there in that space and you're feeling something.
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In that space and you're feeling something. you're feeling a tug.
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And you're feeling something. you're feeling a tug. god is doing something
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You're feeling a tug. god is doing something in your life, in your heart
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God is doing something in your life, in your heart right now.
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In your life, in your heart right now. i believe holy spirit
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Right now. i believe holy spirit is wanting to set you free
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I believe holy spirit is wanting to set you free from whatever it is that took
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Is wanting to set you free from whatever it is that took from you, that tried to rob
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From whatever it is that took from you, that tried to rob from you, that stole from you.
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From you, that tried to rob from you, that stole from you. he's wanting to replace that
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From you, that stole from you. he's wanting to replace that with something that is whole.
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He's wanting to replace that with something that is whole. he wants to restore your life.
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With something that is whole. he wants to restore your life. he wants to restore the
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He wants to restore your life. he wants to restore the broken pieces of your life.
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He wants to restore the broken pieces of your life. he says that he will go
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Broken pieces of your life. he says that he will go everywhere he needs to go
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He says that he will go everywhere he needs to go to pick up
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Everywhere he needs to go to pick up those scattered pieces.
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To pick up those scattered pieces. everywhere that you have been
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Those scattered pieces. everywhere that you have been scattered and shattered,
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Everywhere that you have been scattered and shattered, he will pick every one
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Scattered and shattered, he will pick every one of them up,
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He will pick every one of them up, and he collects them in a jar,
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Of them up, and he collects them in a jar, in a bottle.
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And he collects them in a jar, in a bottle. he knows every single tear
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In a bottle. he knows every single tear that you have shed,
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He knows every single tear that you have shed, that you have cried.
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That you have shed, that you have cried. he's in every detail
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That you have cried. he's in every detail of your life right now.
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He's in every detail of your life right now. you might feel overlooked.
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Of your life right now. you might feel overlooked. you might feel abandoned,
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You might feel overlooked. you might feel abandoned, but you can never interpret
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You might feel abandoned, but you can never interpret your numbness as god's absence
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But you can never interpret your numbness as god's absence in your life.
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Your numbness as god's absence in your life. jesus is with you right now
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In your life. jesus is with you right now and i believe he wants
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Jesus is with you right now and i believe he wants to walk out whatever it is
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And i believe he wants to walk out whatever it is you're still hanging on to.
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To walk out whatever it is you're still hanging on to. you're still holding on,
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You're still hanging on to. you're still holding on, asking god to take it, but
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You're still holding on, asking god to take it, but you're still hanging on
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Asking god to take it, but you're still hanging on to just a little bit.
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You're still hanging on to just a little bit. let it go today.
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To just a little bit. let it go today. surrender everything.
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I want to let you know
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I want to let you know that we want to be here
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That we want to be here for you through that.
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For you through that. so how can we do that?
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So how can we do that? pick up the phone.
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Pick up the phone. call that number
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Call that number on your screen right now.
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On your screen right now. let us pray with you.
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Let us pray with you. we might not have all
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We might not have all the answers, but we do know
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The answers, but we do know the one that does,
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The one that does, and we will always point you
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And we will always point you to jesus, who will
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To jesus, who will be the answer to all
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Be the answer to all the questions you have.
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The questions you have. so let's start there.
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So let's start there. let us come alongside you
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Let us come alongside you and pray with you.
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And pray with you. if you feel without answers,
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If you feel without answers, we're going to pray
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We're going to pray with you today.
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With you today. go online.
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Go online. please make that call now!
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This book, it's not
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This book, it's not beyond hope by m'lisa goff,
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This book, it's not beyond hope by m'lisa goff, there's a lot of stuff
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Beyond hope by m'lisa goff, there's a lot of stuff we couldn't cover.
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There's a lot of stuff we couldn't cover. there might be some things
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We couldn't cover. there might be some things in this book that will be able
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There might be some things in this book that will be able to help you; some tools
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In this book that will be able to help you; some tools that she talked about that
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To help you; some tools that she talked about that she needed and didn't have,
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That she talked about that she needed and didn't have, they're going to be
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She needed and didn't have, they're going to be in the book to help you
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They're going to be in the book to help you walk this next season
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In the book to help you walk this next season of your life out.
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Walk this next season of your life out. so make sure to pick up
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Of your life out. so make sure to pick up a copy of that.
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And as i transition,
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The truth is there is a lot
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Of people in this world
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That feel like there's a lot
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Of pieces of their life
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Scattered all over,
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And they've been praying
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And looking for answers and
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Trusting god for provision,
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For healing, for restoration.
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And just as we sit here today,
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There are millions of people
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All around the world
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Who are struggling right now,
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Maybe asking god
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To come through,
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To be the answer.
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And he is the answer!
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He is the very source
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Of living water.
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What they need right now
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Is our help to step in,
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To say, we've got some tools
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And some answers for you.
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If you're listening today
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And you are in a position
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To give, then my heart
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Would just say,
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Would you just do it?
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Don't hesitate.
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Just step in.
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There are people in need
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Right now that need us
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Desperately.
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Let me tell you what
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That's going to look like.
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It's so simple.
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We're wanting to drill
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350 wells in 20 nations,
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And we can do it.
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We've drilled
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Over 8000 wells so far.
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It's an incredible
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Opportunity and outreach.
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But today, we need you
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To come alongside us.
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So, for $48, you will help
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Provide water for ten people
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For the rest of their lives.
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For $144, you will help
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Provide water for 30 people
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For the rest of their lives.
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If you can do today, $4,800,
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Guess what?
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You're going to drill a well
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For that entire village
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For probably about
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A thousand people for
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The rest of their lives.
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Come on!
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Let's get involved,
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Every one of us.
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Let's do something today
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To change the lives
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Of hundreds of thousands
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Of people around the world
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By bringing them
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Water for life.
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Every day, thousands of lives are lost
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To waterborne disease,
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And nearly half of those are children
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Under the age of five.
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Through mission: water for life
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You can give mothers hope and children a future
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As we provide clean, life-giving water
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For thousands of children and their families
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Before it's too late.
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With your gift today, you can help drill
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And establish 350 water wells this year.
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Will help provide clean water for five children.
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A gift of $48 will help provide for ten.
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And $144 will help provide
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Life-giving water for 30 people
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For a lifetime.
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Tammy: i hope you're going
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Tammy: i hope you're going online and giving the best
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Tammy: i hope you're going online and giving the best gift that god has laid
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Online and giving the best gift that god has laid on your heart today to give.
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Gift that god has laid on your heart today to give. i'm so glad that you're here.
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On your heart today to give. i'm so glad that you're here. wasn't this good?
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I'm so glad that you're here. wasn't this good? blynda: this was so good.
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Wasn't this good? blynda: this was so good. i mean, truly, your story
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Blynda: this was so good. i mean, truly, your story has been so enlightening
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I mean, truly, your story has been so enlightening and so encouraging.
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Has been so enlightening and so encouraging. but even you, tammy.
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And so encouraging. but even you, tammy. we were saying earlier,
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But even you, tammy. we were saying earlier, you both have experienced
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We were saying earlier, you both have experienced such devastating loss.
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You both have experienced such devastating loss. and to see the hope
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Such devastating loss. and to see the hope that resides in both of you.
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And to see the hope that resides in both of you. m'lisa, thank you so much
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That resides in both of you. m'lisa, thank you so much for joining us today.
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M'lisa, thank you so much for joining us today. i want to know where
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For joining us today. i want to know where can someone find this book?
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I want to know where can someone find this book? because it's not beyond hope
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Can someone find this book? because it's not beyond hope needs to be
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Because it's not beyond hope needs to be in everyone's hands.
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Needs to be in everyone's hands. not even just somebody
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In everyone's hands. not even just somebody who's gone through as much as
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Not even just somebody who's gone through as much as you've gone through, but
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Who's gone through as much as you've gone through, but every single one of us has
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You've gone through, but every single one of us has had brokenness in our lives.
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Every single one of us has had brokenness in our lives. we could all use
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Had brokenness in our lives. we could all use encouragement about hope.
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We could all use encouragement about hope. m'lisa: and they know
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Encouragement about hope. m'lisa: and they know somebody that they can
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M'lisa: and they know somebody that they can give the book to.
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Somebody that they can give the book to. that's what i love about it.
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But they can find it on
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But they can find it on my website: m'lisagoff.com.
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But they can find it on my website: m'lisagoff.com. or they can go straight
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My website: m'lisagoff.com. or they can go straight to amazon and just pull it up
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Or they can go straight to amazon and just pull it up and find it there.
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To amazon and just pull it up and find it there. tammy: get the book!
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And find it there. tammy: get the book! get the book!
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Tammy: get the book! get the book! girls, i'm glad you're here.
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Get the book! girls, i'm glad you're here. i'm glad you're here.
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I've had such a great time.
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I've had such a great time. i pray it was a blessing,
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I've had such a great time. i pray it was a blessing, in jesus' name, to every
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I pray it was a blessing, in jesus' name, to every single one of you today.
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In jesus' name, to every single one of you today. we'll see you next time
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Single one of you today. we'll see you next time on life today. goodbye.
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♪ how far is too far? ♪
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♪ i thought i'd be there by now ♪
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♪ followed shame to the place ♪
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♪ i was sure your grace ran out ♪
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♪ i kept running and running and running ♪
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♪ you kept chasing and chasing and chasing ♪
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♪ a million miles of my mistakes ♪
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♪ still couldn't keep your love away ♪
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♪ however far away i am from home ♪
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♪ that's how far your love will go ♪
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♪ go ♪
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♪ i turn around and i see ♪
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♪ pure compassion in your eyes ♪
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♪ savior's voice says to me ♪
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♪ "time to come back home, my child" ♪
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♪ so i came running and running and running ♪
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♪ and you kept reaching and reaching and reaching, ♪
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♪ lord, a million miles of my mistakes ♪
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♪ still couldn't keep your love away ♪
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♪ however far away i am from home ♪
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♪ that's how far your love will go ♪
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♪ go ♪
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♪ mercy's arms stretched open wide ♪
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♪ you paid it all ♪
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♪ what kind of love lays down his life? ♪
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♪ willing to cross ♪
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♪ a million miles of my mistakes ♪
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♪ still couldn't keep your love away ♪
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♪ however far away i am from home ♪
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♪ that's how far your love will go ♪
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♪ oh, i couldn't keep your love away ♪
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♪ however far away i am from home ♪
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♪ that's how far your love will go ♪
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♪ how far your love will go ♪
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♪ arms stretched open wide ♪
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♪ that's how far your love will go ♪
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♪ how far your love will go ♪
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♪ that's how far your love will go ♪
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M'Lisa Goff - Shattered Dreams

August 8, 2025 | S25 E202 | 29:15

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