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Better Together LIVE | Episode 126

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October 19, 2020
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Better Together LIVE | Episode 126

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  • - LAURIE: SCRIPTURE
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  • - LAURIE: SCRIPTUREREMINDS US TIME AND TIME
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  • REMINDS US TIME AND TIMEAGAIN THAT WE CANNOT
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  • AGAIN THAT WE CANNOTESCAPE THE LOVE OF GOD.
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  • ESCAPE THE LOVE OF GOD.THERE IS NO PIT OF DESPAIR
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  • THERE IS NO PIT OF DESPAIRTOO DEEP FOR HIS LOVE TO
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  • TOO DEEP FOR HIS LOVE TORESCUE US.
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  • RESCUE US.TODAY WE'RE CONFRONTING
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  • TODAY WE'RE CONFRONTINGHOPELESSNESS WITH THE
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  • HOPELESSNESS WITH THEULTIMATE SOURCE OF HOPE.
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  • ULTIMATE SOURCE OF HOPE.COME ON, LET'S TALK ABOUT IT.
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  • COME ON, LET'S TALK ABOUT IT.♪ MUSIC ♪
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  • ♪ MUSIC ♪♪ MUSIC ♪
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  • ♪ MUSIC ♪- PRISCILLA: THE SHEER
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  • - PRISCILLA: THE SHEERNUMBER OF DIFFICULTIES
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  • NUMBER OF DIFFICULTIESTHAT WE HAVE ALL FACED, NO
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  • THAT WE HAVE ALL FACED, NOMATTER WHERE IN THE WORLD
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  • MATTER WHERE IN THE WORLDWE LIVE, THE SHEER NUMBER
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  • WE LIVE, THE SHEER NUMBEROF THEM HAS BEEN
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  • OF THEM HAS BEENSTAGGERING.
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  • STAGGERING.WE WAKE UP.
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  • WE WAKE UP.WE JUST GOT OVER ONE HUMP
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  • WE JUST GOT OVER ONE HUMPAND THEN WE WAKE UP AND
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  • AND THEN WE WAKE UP ANDWE'RE MET WITH ANOTHER
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  • WE'RE MET WITH ANOTHERONE.
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  • ONE.AND I'VE BEEN SO ATTRACTED
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  • AND I'VE BEEN SO ATTRACTEDTO AND ENDEARED TO PEOPLE
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  • TO AND ENDEARED TO PEOPLEI HAVE SEEN TRAVERSE THIS
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  • I HAVE SEEN TRAVERSE THISVERY DIFFICULT SEASON WITH
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  • VERY DIFFICULT SEASON WITHA SENSE OF STABILITY AND
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  • A SENSE OF STABILITY ANDPEACE AND RESOLVE AND
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  • PEACE AND RESOLVE ANDHOPEFULNESS DESPITE
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  • HOPEFULNESS DESPITEEVERYTHING THAT'S
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  • EVERYTHING THAT'SHAPPENED.
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  • HAPPENED.ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE, TO BE
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  • ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE, TO BEHONEST WITH YOU, IS MY OWN
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  • HONEST WITH YOU, IS MY OWNMOTHER.
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  • MOTHER.MY MOM PASSED AWAY ON
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  • MY MOM PASSED AWAY ONDECEMBER 30 OF 2019.
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  • DECEMBER 30 OF 2019.AND IN THE WEEK THAT WAS
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  • AND IN THE WEEK THAT WASLEADING UP TO HER DEATH,
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  • LEADING UP TO HER DEATH,I'VE GOT TO TELL YOU GUYS,
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  • I'VE GOT TO TELL YOU GUYS,THERE WAS SO MUCH HOPE IN
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  • THERE WAS SO MUCH HOPE INHER, DESPITE THE FACT
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  • HER, DESPITE THE FACTTHAT, REALLY, SHE KNEW SHE
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  • THAT, REALLY, SHE KNEW SHEWAS DYING, WE ALL DID.
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  • WAS DYING, WE ALL DID.AND SHE HAD ENOUGH INNER
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  • AND SHE HAD ENOUGH INNERRESOLVE AND PEACE AND
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  • RESOLVE AND PEACE ANDHOPEFULNESS AND EVEN
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  • HOPEFULNESS AND EVENANTICIPATION, HOLY
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  • ANTICIPATION, HOLYANTICIPATION ABOUT THE
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  • ANTICIPATION ABOUT THEFACT SHE WAS GOING TO SEE
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  • FACT SHE WAS GOING TO SEEJESUS.
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  • JESUS.THAT SHE WAS ABLE TO STILL
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  • THAT SHE WAS ABLE TO STILLBLESS US AND STILL ENCOURAGE
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  • BLESS US AND STILL ENCOURAGEUS TO KEEP OUR EYES FOCUSED
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  • US TO KEEP OUR EYES FOCUSEDON HIM AND TO NOT LOSE
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  • ON HIM AND TO NOT LOSEHEART.
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  • HEART.SO SOME OF THE GREATEST
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  • SO SOME OF THE GREATESTLESSONS THAT MY MOTHER HAS
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  • LESSONS THAT MY MOTHER HASEVER TAUGHT ME WERE NOT IN
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  • EVER TAUGHT ME WERE NOT INHER LIVING.
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  • HER LIVING.IT WAS IN HER DYING THAT
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  • IT WAS IN HER DYING THATSHE TAUGHT ME THAT EVEN IN
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  • SHE TAUGHT ME THAT EVEN INTHE FACE OF A DIFFICULTY
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  • THE FACE OF A DIFFICULTYLIKE THAT, I CAN STILL
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  • LIKE THAT, I CAN STILLHAVE HOPE.
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  • HAVE HOPE.I WANT TO LIVE LIKE THAT
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  • I WANT TO LIVE LIKE THATWITH A HOPEFULNESS.
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  • WITH A HOPEFULNESS.I'M SO EXCITED TO TALK TO
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  • I'M SO EXCITED TO TALK TOYOU GUYS ABOUT THAT TODAY.
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  • YOU GUYS ABOUT THAT TODAY.JUST SHARE AROUND THAT,
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  • JUST SHARE AROUND THAT,WHAT HAS HAPPENED THAT HAS
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  • WHAT HAS HAPPENED THAT HASCAUSED YOU TO HAVE TO
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  • CAUSED YOU TO HAVE TORECONSIDER WHAT HOPE LOOKS
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  • RECONSIDER WHAT HOPE LOOKSLIKE IN THE MIDST OF
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  • LIKE IN THE MIDST OFDIFFICULTY?
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  • DIFFICULTY?- NATALIE: OH, MY
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  • - NATALIE: OH, MYGOODNESS.
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  • GOODNESS.I THINK FOR ME IN THIS
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  • I THINK FOR ME IN THISSEASON, TOO, IT'S SO EASY
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  • SEASON, TOO, IT'S SO EASYTO SAY THESE THINGS THAT
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  • TO SAY THESE THINGS THATROLL OFF THE TONGUE SO
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  • ROLL OFF THE TONGUE SOEASILY.
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  • EASILY.RIGHT?
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  • RIGHT?AND THEN IT'S SUCH A
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  • AND THEN IT'S SUCH ADIFFERENT THING WHEN
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  • DIFFERENT THING WHENYOU'RE ACTUALLY CALLED TO
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  • YOU'RE ACTUALLY CALLED TOLIVE IT.
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  • LIVE IT.AND FOR ME, I EVEN JUST
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  • AND FOR ME, I EVEN JUSTREMEMBER NOT THAT LONG
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  • REMEMBER NOT THAT LONGAGO, IT WAS A FEW YEARS
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  • AGO, IT WAS A FEW YEARSAGO WHEN I FELT LIKE A
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  • AGO WHEN I FELT LIKE ACRISIS EVEN IN MY FAITH
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  • CRISIS EVEN IN MY FAITHTHAT I'D NEVER EXPERIENCED
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  • THAT I'D NEVER EXPERIENCEDBEFORE.
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  • BEFORE.IT WAS WHEN I WAS TOLD I
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  • IT WAS WHEN I WAS TOLD IHAD THYROID CANCER AND I
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  • HAD THYROID CANCER AND IKNEW THAT THE CANCER WAS
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  • KNEW THAT THE CANCER WASSOMETHING THEY WERE GOING
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  • SOMETHING THEY WERE GOINGTO GET OUT, BUT THAT
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  • TO GET OUT, BUT THATCANOROUS TUMOR WAS LAYING
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  • CANOROUS TUMOR WAS LAYINGAGAINST MY VOCAL NERVE.
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  • AGAINST MY VOCAL NERVE.AND SHOWS SURGEONS SAID,
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  • AND SHOWS SURGEONS SAID,HEY, YOU MAY NEVER SING
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  • HEY, YOU MAY NEVER SINGAGAIN, IN FACT, YOUR VOCAL
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  • AGAIN, IN FACT, YOUR VOCALSTRENGTH WON'T BE THE
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  • STRENGTH WON'T BE THESAME, YOUR VOICE ISN'T
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  • SAME, YOUR VOICE ISN'TGONNA WORK THE SAME.
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  • GONNA WORK THE SAME.I WAS LIKE, WAIT A SECOND,
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  • I WAS LIKE, WAIT A SECOND,NO, NO, THAT'S NOT THE WAY
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  • NO, NO, THAT'S NOT THE WAYTHIS IS.
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  • THIS IS.AND I FELT THIS SENSE OF
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  • AND I FELT THIS SENSE OFHOPELESSNESS EVEN THOUGH I
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  • HOPELESSNESS EVEN THOUGH IHAD TOLD SO MANY PEOPLE
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  • HAD TOLD SO MANY PEOPLEFOR SO LONG THROUGH SONGS
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  • FOR SO LONG THROUGH SONGSI HAD WRITTEN, HE WILL
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  • I HAD WRITTEN, HE WILLNEVER LEAVE YOU, AND NEVER
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  • NEVER LEAVE YOU, AND NEVERFORSAKE YOU.
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  • FORSAKE YOU.YOUR IDENTITY IS NOT IN
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  • YOUR IDENTITY IS NOT INWHAT YOU DO, YOUR IDENTITY
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  • WHAT YOU DO, YOUR IDENTITYIS IN WHO HE IS.
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  • IS IN WHO HE IS.AND THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN
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  • AND THEN ALL OF A SUDDENWHEN MY IDENTITY WAS
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  • WHEN MY IDENTITY WASCHALLENGED, I WAS LIKE,
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  • CHALLENGED, I WAS LIKE,I'VE ALWAYS SAID THAT
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  • I'VE ALWAYS SAID THATSINGING IS NOT WHO I AM
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  • SINGING IS NOT WHO I AMIT'S JUST WHAT I DO.
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  • IT'S JUST WHAT I DO.AND THEN I WAS LIKE, JUST
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  • AND THEN I WAS LIKE, JUSTKIDDING.
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  • KIDDING.IT'S TOTALLY WHO I AM.
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  • IT'S TOTALLY WHO I AM.(LAUGHTER)
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  • (LAUGHTER)TOTALLY WHO I AM.
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  • TOTALLY WHO I AM.I WAS JUST KIDDING.
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  • I WAS JUST KIDDING.AND THEN I HAD TO REALLY
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  • AND THEN I HAD TO REALLYHAVE A MOMENT WHERE I
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  • HAVE A MOMENT WHERE IALLOWED THE WORD OF GOD TO
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  • ALLOWED THE WORD OF GOD TOACTUALLY PENETRATE NOT
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  • ACTUALLY PENETRATE NOTJUST MY HEART, BUT MY MIND
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  • JUST MY HEART, BUT MY MINDIN A WAY THAT I NEVER HAD
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  • IN A WAY THAT I NEVER HADBEFORE AND YOU ARE IN THE
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  • BEFORE AND YOU ARE IN THEMIDDLE OF IT AND YOU ARE
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  • MIDDLE OF IT AND YOU AREOKAY, WAIT A SECOND, I
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  • OKAY, WAIT A SECOND, IDON'T FEEL HOPE.
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  • DON'T FEEL HOPE.AND THEN YOU COME BACK
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  • AND THEN YOU COME BACKAROUND TO GOING, THOSE ARE
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  • AROUND TO GOING, THOSE AREJUST MY FEELINGS, THOSE
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  • JUST MY FEELINGS, THOSEARE NOT REALITY.
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  • ARE NOT REALITY.MY REALITY IS STILL ROOTED
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  • MY REALITY IS STILL ROOTEDIN WHO HE IS AND THEN
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  • IN WHO HE IS AND THENYOU'RE IN THE MIDDLE OF IT
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  • YOU'RE IN THE MIDDLE OF ITAND YOU'RE LIKE, THIS IS
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  • AND YOU'RE LIKE, THIS ISWHAT IT ACTUALLY MEANS TO
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  • WHAT IT ACTUALLY MEANS TOHAVE A PEACE THAT PASSES
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  • HAVE A PEACE THAT PASSESUNDERSTANDING.
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  • UNDERSTANDING.BECAUSE HIS PEACE IS IN
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  • BECAUSE HIS PEACE IS INTHE MIDDLE OF THE STORM
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  • THE MIDDLE OF THE STORMNOT JUST AT THE END OF THE
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  • NOT JUST AT THE END OF THESTORM, NOT WHEN WE ARE
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  • STORM, NOT WHEN WE AREBEGGING HIM TO STOP THE
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  • BEGGING HIM TO STOP THESTORM BUT ACTUALLY HE
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  • STORM BUT ACTUALLY HEFINDS YOU IN THE MIDDLE OF
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  • FINDS YOU IN THE MIDDLE OFTHE STORM.
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  • THE STORM.- HOSANNA: I LOVE THAT SO
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  • - HOSANNA: I LOVE THAT SOMUCH.
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  • MUCH.I LOVE HOW YOU SAID THAT
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  • I LOVE HOW YOU SAID THATTHIS IS NOT ABOUT MY
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  • THIS IS NOT ABOUT MYFEELINGS, THIS IS ABOUT MY
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  • FEELINGS, THIS IS ABOUT MYREALITY.
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  • REALITY.THAT THE REALITY IS NOT
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  • THAT THE REALITY IS NOTBASED ON HOW I MIGHT BE
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  • BASED ON HOW I MIGHT BEFEELING THAT DAY OR WHAT
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  • FEELING THAT DAY OR WHATOTHER PEOPLE MIGHT BE
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  • OTHER PEOPLE MIGHT BETELLING ME THAT DAY OR
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  • TELLING ME THAT DAY ORWHAT OTHER CIRCUMSTANCES
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  • WHAT OTHER CIRCUMSTANCESMIGHT BE THAT DAY, BUT
  • 00:04:33.762 --> 00:04:34.663
  • MIGHT BE THAT DAY, BUTWHAT IS MY REALITY?
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  • WHAT IS MY REALITY?WHAT IS MY REAL IDENTITY?
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  • WHAT IS MY REAL IDENTITY?AND I REMEMBER A SEASON IN
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  • AND I REMEMBER A SEASON INMY LIFE WHERE I FELT LIKE
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  • MY LIFE WHERE I FELT LIKEI WAS REALLY ON A GREAT
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  • I WAS REALLY ON A GREATHEALING JOURNEY.
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  • HEALING JOURNEY.I FELT LIKE I WAS
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  • I FELT LIKE I WASOVERCOMING PAINS FROM WHEN
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  • OVERCOMING PAINS FROM WHENI WAS A LITTLE KID.
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  • I WAS A LITTLE KID.I FELT LIKE I WAS REALLY
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  • I FELT LIKE I WAS REALLYDEALING WITH SOME OF THE
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  • DEALING WITH SOME OF THEHARD STUFF, SOME OF THE
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  • HARD STUFF, SOME OF THEHEART STUFF INSIDE OF ME
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  • HEART STUFF INSIDE OF MEAND I WAS LIKE, LORD, I
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  • AND I WAS LIKE, LORD, IFEEL LIKE I'M THERE FOR A
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  • FEEL LIKE I'M THERE FOR ABREAKTHROUGH.
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  • BREAKTHROUGH.I'M READY FOR A
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  • I'M READY FOR ABREAKTHROUGH.
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  • BREAKTHROUGH.THERE ARE SOME OTHER
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  • THERE ARE SOME OTHERSITUATIONS FROM MY PAST I
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  • SITUATIONS FROM MY PAST IWANT TO BE SET FREE FROM.
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  • WANT TO BE SET FREE FROM.I'M SO CLOSE TO A
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  • I'M SO CLOSE TO ABREAKTHROUGH, LORD, I
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  • BREAKTHROUGH, LORD, IREMEMBER I WAS ATTENDING A
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  • REMEMBER I WAS ATTENDING ACONFERENCE WITH A BUNCH OF
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  • CONFERENCE WITH A BUNCH OFFRIENDS AND I WAS LIKE, I
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  • FRIENDS AND I WAS LIKE, IJUST KNOW AT THIS
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  • JUST KNOW AT THISCONFERENCE GOD'S GONNA
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  • CONFERENCE GOD'S GONNAGIVE ME BREAKTHROUGH.
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  • GIVE ME BREAKTHROUGH.AT THAT CONFERENCE, ALL OF
  • 00:05:07.963 --> 00:05:10.165
  • AT THAT CONFERENCE, ALL OFTHESE PEOPLE WERE THERE
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  • THESE PEOPLE WERE THERETHAT I HAD NOT SEEN IN
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  • THAT I HAD NOT SEEN INYEARS THAT WERE ASSOCIATED
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  • YEARS THAT WERE ASSOCIATEDWITH ALL THESE THINGS I
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  • WITH ALL THESE THINGS IWANTED BREAKTHROUGH FROM.
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  • WANTED BREAKTHROUGH FROM.IT WAS LIKE, I THOUGHT YOU
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  • IT WAS LIKE, I THOUGHT YOUWERE GONNA SHOW UP, LORD.
  • 00:05:18.840 --> 00:05:20.175
  • WERE GONNA SHOW UP, LORD.I THOUGHT YOU WERE GONNA
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  • I THOUGHT YOU WERE GONNAGIVE ME BREAKTHROUGH AND
  • 00:05:21.176 --> 00:05:22.377
  • GIVE ME BREAKTHROUGH ANDHEAL ME AND INSTEAD I'M
  • 00:05:22.377 --> 00:05:23.779
  • HEAL ME AND INSTEAD I'MVIVIDLY REMINDED OF ALL
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  • VIVIDLY REMINDED OF ALLTHE THINGS I WAS TRYING TO
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  • THE THINGS I WAS TRYING TOHEAL FROM.
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  • HEAL FROM.AND IN THAT MOMENT WHEN
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  • AND IN THAT MOMENT WHENTHE WORSHIP LEADER SAID,
  • 00:05:28.850 --> 00:05:29.584
  • THE WORSHIP LEADER SAID,WOULD YOU STAND, WOULD YOU
  • 00:05:29.584 --> 00:05:30.752
  • WOULD YOU STAND, WOULD YOUSING?
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  • SING?I THOUGHT, I'M GONNA SIT
  • 00:05:31.319 --> 00:05:32.154
  • I THOUGHT, I'M GONNA SITDOWN BECAUSE I'M NOT
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  • DOWN BECAUSE I'M NOTHEALED YET.
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  • HEALED YET.AND IN THAT MOMENT I JUST
  • 00:05:35.424 --> 00:05:36.625
  • AND IN THAT MOMENT I JUSTREMEMBER, CAN YOU PRAISE
  • 00:05:36.625 --> 00:05:37.626
  • REMEMBER, CAN YOU PRAISEME IN THE MIDDLE OF THE
  • 00:05:37.626 --> 00:05:38.226
  • ME IN THE MIDDLE OF THESTORM?
  • 00:05:38.226 --> 00:05:39.628
  • STORM?I REMEMBER FEELING, GOD,
  • 00:05:39.628 --> 00:05:41.696
  • I REMEMBER FEELING, GOD,CAN YOU WORSHIP ME IN THE
  • 00:05:41.696 --> 00:05:43.331
  • CAN YOU WORSHIP ME IN THEMIDDLE OF THE TRIAL?
  • 00:05:43.331 --> 00:05:44.332
  • MIDDLE OF THE TRIAL?CAN YOU WORSHIP ME IN THE
  • 00:05:44.332 --> 00:05:44.866
  • CAN YOU WORSHIP ME IN THEMIDDLE OF THE FIRE?
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  • MIDDLE OF THE FIRE?THIS IS HOW YOU'RE GONNA
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  • THIS IS HOW YOU'RE GONNABE HEALED AND WHOLE WHEN
  • 00:05:49.638 --> 00:05:50.338
  • BE HEALED AND WHOLE WHENHE FIND YOUR IDENTITY IN
  • 00:05:50.338 --> 00:05:51.606
  • HE FIND YOUR IDENTITY INME EVEN WHEN NOT EVERY
  • 00:05:51.606 --> 00:05:52.941
  • ME EVEN WHEN NOT EVERYSITUATION IS PERFECT.
  • 00:05:52.941 --> 00:05:54.543
  • SITUATION IS PERFECT.NOT WHEN EVERY
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  • NOT WHEN EVERYCIRCUMSTANCE IS PERFECT
  • 00:05:55.544 --> 00:05:56.378
  • CIRCUMSTANCE IS PERFECTAND SO I HELD ON TO THAT.
  • 00:05:56.378 --> 00:05:57.345
  • AND SO I HELD ON TO THAT.I HELD ON TO THAT WHEN MY
  • 00:05:57.345 --> 00:05:58.413
  • I HELD ON TO THAT WHEN MYDADDY GOT CANCER.
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  • DADDY GOT CANCER.I THOUGHT, I'M GONNA GO
  • 00:05:59.047 --> 00:05:59.981
  • I THOUGHT, I'M GONNA GOOUT OF MY WAY TO MAKE SURE
  • 00:05:59.981 --> 00:06:02.617
  • OUT OF MY WAY TO MAKE SUREI'M PRAISING GOD EVEN WHEN
  • 00:06:02.617 --> 00:06:03.351
  • I'M PRAISING GOD EVEN WHENI DON'T FEEL LIKE IT.
  • 00:06:03.351 --> 00:06:03.852
  • I DON'T FEEL LIKE IT.EVEN WHEN CIRCUMSTANCES
  • 00:06:03.852 --> 00:06:04.920
  • EVEN WHEN CIRCUMSTANCESAREN'T WARRANTING IT.
  • 00:06:04.920 --> 00:06:05.687
  • AREN'T WARRANTING IT.I DID IT WHEN MY DADDY
  • 00:06:05.687 --> 00:06:06.688
  • I DID IT WHEN MY DADDYDIED.
  • 00:06:06.688 --> 00:06:07.689
  • DIED.I'M GOING TO WORSHIP GOD
  • 00:06:07.689 --> 00:06:08.590
  • I'M GOING TO WORSHIP GODEVEN THOUGH I DON'T FEEL
  • 00:06:08.590 --> 00:06:09.157
  • EVEN THOUGH I DON'T FEELLIKE IT.
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  • LIKE IT.EVEN THOUGH CIRCUMSTANCES
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  • EVEN THOUGH CIRCUMSTANCESABSOLUTELY DO NOT WARRANT
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  • ABSOLUTELY DO NOT WARRANTIT IN MY FEELINGS, RIGHT?
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  • IT IN MY FEELINGS, RIGHT?I'M GOING TO, AS WE GO
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  • I'M GOING TO, AS WE GOTHROUGH THESE DIFFERENT
  • 00:06:15.330 --> 00:06:16.364
  • THROUGH THESE DIFFERENTVALLEYS AND MOUNTAINS, I
  • 00:06:16.364 --> 00:06:17.466
  • VALLEYS AND MOUNTAINS, IKNOW MANY PEOPLE THAT ARE
  • 00:06:17.466 --> 00:06:18.567
  • KNOW MANY PEOPLE THAT AREWATCHING TODAY ARE GOING
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  • WATCHING TODAY ARE GOINGTHROUGH, THAT'S SOMETHING
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  • THROUGH, THAT'S SOMETHINGI HAD TO LEARN TO DO.
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  • I HAD TO LEARN TO DO.IT'S BECOME A DISCIPLINE.
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  • IT'S BECOME A DISCIPLINE.NOT SOMETHING THAT JUST
  • 00:06:23.338 --> 00:06:23.972
  • NOT SOMETHING THAT JUSTHAPPENED NATURALLY.
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  • HAPPENED NATURALLY.YOU KNOW?
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  • YOU KNOW?I'M GOING TO CHOOSE TO
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  • I'M GOING TO CHOOSE TOWORSHIP GOD EVEN THOUGH IT
  • 00:06:27.342 --> 00:06:28.477
  • WORSHIP GOD EVEN THOUGH ITDOES NOT FEEL NATURAL,
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  • DOES NOT FEEL NATURAL,THIS IS NOT MY FEELINGS,
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  • THIS IS NOT MY FEELINGS,BUT BEYOND MY
  • 00:06:31.880 --> 00:06:33.148
  • BUT BEYOND MYCIRCUMSTANCES AND MY
  • 00:06:33.148 --> 00:06:34.282
  • CIRCUMSTANCES AND MYFEELINGS AND PEOPLE'S
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  • FEELINGS AND PEOPLE'SOPINIONS, I'M GOING TO
  • 00:06:35.283 --> 00:06:36.785
  • OPINIONS, I'M GOING TOCHOOSE TO WORSHIP IN THE
  • 00:06:36.785 --> 00:06:38.753
  • CHOOSE TO WORSHIP IN THEMIDDLE OF A HARD SEASON
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  • MIDDLE OF A HARD SEASONAND THROUGH MY WORSHIP
  • 00:06:40.088 --> 00:06:41.423
  • AND THROUGH MY WORSHIPTHAT'S WHERE I'M GONNA
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  • THAT'S WHERE I'M GONNAFIND BREAKTHROUGH.
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  • FIND BREAKTHROUGH.- ANITA: I LOVE THAT
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  • - ANITA: I LOVE THATBECAUSE WORSHIP ALWAYS
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  • BECAUSE WORSHIP ALWAYSGETS OUR FOCUS BACK WHERE
  • 00:06:46.228 --> 00:06:47.762
  • GETS OUR FOCUS BACK WHEREIT NEEDS TO BE.
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  • IT NEEDS TO BE.AND FOR ME, WORSHIP HELPS
  • 00:06:49.164 --> 00:06:50.632
  • AND FOR ME, WORSHIP HELPSTO KIND OF PULL THE LENS
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  • TO KIND OF PULL THE LENSBACK AND REMEMBER HOW BIG
  • 00:06:51.700 --> 00:06:53.168
  • BACK AND REMEMBER HOW BIGGOD IS, HOW LONG GOD'S
  • 00:06:53.168 --> 00:06:54.503
  • GOD IS, HOW LONG GOD'SBEEN AROUND.
  • 00:06:54.503 --> 00:06:56.538
  • BEEN AROUND.ONE OF MY FAVORITE SAYINGS
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  • ONE OF MY FAVORITE SAYINGSOF MY MOTHER'S IS, WHEN
  • 00:06:57.639 --> 00:06:58.874
  • OF MY MOTHER'S IS, WHENALL IS DARK AND YOU
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  • ALL IS DARK AND YOUWONDER, WHERE, GOD, ARE
  • 00:06:59.774 --> 00:07:01.009
  • WONDER, WHERE, GOD, AREYOU?
  • 00:07:01.009 --> 00:07:01.843
  • YOU?GOD, WHERE ARE YOU?
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  • GOD, WHERE ARE YOU?SHE SAID REMEMBER THIS.
  • 00:07:02.878 --> 00:07:04.212
  • SHE SAID REMEMBER THIS.HE IS STILL ON THE THRONE
  • 00:07:04.212 --> 00:07:04.846
  • HE IS STILL ON THE THRONEWHERE HE HAS ALWAYS BEEN
  • 00:07:04.846 --> 00:07:05.680
  • WHERE HE HAS ALWAYS BEENSPEAKING LIGHT INTO
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  • SPEAKING LIGHT INTODARKNESS.
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  • DARKNESS.SOMETIMES I WILL HIT THAT
  • 00:07:08.083 --> 00:07:08.950
  • SOMETIMES I WILL HIT THATPOINT OF DESPAIR WHERE ALL
  • 00:07:08.950 --> 00:07:10.519
  • POINT OF DESPAIR WHERE ALLI CAN SAY IS, GOD, I KNOW
  • 00:07:10.519 --> 00:07:11.353
  • I CAN SAY IS, GOD, I KNOWYOU'RE STILL ON THE
  • 00:07:11.353 --> 00:07:11.887
  • YOU'RE STILL ON THETHRONE.
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  • THRONE.JUST TO BRING THAT BACK.
  • 00:07:13.355 --> 00:07:15.190
  • JUST TO BRING THAT BACK.THAT KEEPS US FROM GOING
  • 00:07:15.190 --> 00:07:15.891
  • THAT KEEPS US FROM GOINGOVER THAT EDGE WHICH IS
  • 00:07:15.891 --> 00:07:17.626
  • OVER THAT EDGE WHICH ISWHY WE CAN LIVE OUT WHAT
  • 00:07:17.626 --> 00:07:19.494
  • WHY WE CAN LIVE OUT WHAT2 CORINTHIANS 4 SAYS,
  • 00:07:19.494 --> 00:07:20.328
  • 2 CORINTHIANS 4 SAYS,THAT WE CAN BE PRESSED ON
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  • THAT WE CAN BE PRESSED ONEVERY SIDE BUT NOT CRUSHED.
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  • EVERY SIDE BUT NOT CRUSHED.THAT WE CAN BE PERPLEXED
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  • THAT WE CAN BE PERPLEXEDBUT NOT IN DESPAIR.
  • 00:07:24.232 --> 00:07:24.799
  • BUT NOT IN DESPAIR.SO OFTEN WE FEAR NEGATIVE
  • 00:07:24.799 --> 00:07:26.501
  • SO OFTEN WE FEAR NEGATIVEEMOTIONS.
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  • EMOTIONS.AND SO WE THINK THAT WHEN
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  • AND SO WE THINK THAT WHENTHEY SHOW UP, THAT'S IT.
  • 00:07:29.070 --> 00:07:31.306
  • THEY SHOW UP, THAT'S IT.WHEN THEY SHOW UP THEY ARE
  • 00:07:31.306 --> 00:07:32.307
  • WHEN THEY SHOW UP THEY AREGONNA HAVE THE FINAL WORD,
  • 00:07:32.307 --> 00:07:33.341
  • GONNA HAVE THE FINAL WORD,INSTEAD OF RECOGNIZING
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  • INSTEAD OF RECOGNIZINGTHIS IS NATURAL TO ME AS A
  • 00:07:34.009 --> 00:07:35.110
  • THIS IS NATURAL TO ME AS AHUMAN BEING.
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  • HUMAN BEING.I'M GOING TO EXPERIENCE
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  • I'M GOING TO EXPERIENCEPAIN.
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  • PAIN.I'M GONNA GET THROUGH
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  • I'M GONNA GET THROUGHTHIS.
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  • THIS.THERE ARE PEOPLE WALKING
  • 00:07:39.881 --> 00:07:41.016
  • THERE ARE PEOPLE WALKINGAROUND RIGHT NOW STANDING
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  • AROUND RIGHT NOW STANDINGUP STRAIGHT WITH THEIR
  • 00:07:41.950 --> 00:07:43.018
  • UP STRAIGHT WITH THEIRRIGHT MIND WHO HAVE BEEN
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  • RIGHT MIND WHO HAVE BEENIN THE PIT I HAVE BEEN IN.
  • 00:07:43.785 --> 00:07:45.186
  • IN THE PIT I HAVE BEEN IN.IT'S JUST MY TURN.
  • 00:07:45.186 --> 00:07:46.821
  • IT'S JUST MY TURN.IT'S MY TURN.
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  • IT'S MY TURN.WE ALL ARE GONNA WALK
  • 00:07:47.923 --> 00:07:49.090
  • WE ALL ARE GONNA WALKTHROUGH THINGS THAT ARE
  • 00:07:49.090 --> 00:07:49.991
  • THROUGH THINGS THAT AREDIFFICULT THAT HAVE NO
  • 00:07:49.991 --> 00:07:50.525
  • DIFFICULT THAT HAVE NOEXPLANATION.
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  • EXPLANATION.BUT REMEMBERING THAT,
  • 00:07:51.960 --> 00:07:53.228
  • BUT REMEMBERING THAT,INDEED, GOD IS STILL ON
  • 00:07:53.228 --> 00:07:56.231
  • INDEED, GOD IS STILL ONTHE THRONE AND MY FEELINGS
  • 00:07:56.231 --> 00:07:56.965
  • THE THRONE AND MY FEELINGSARE TELLING ME ABOUT THE
  • 00:07:56.965 --> 00:07:58.166
  • ARE TELLING ME ABOUT THEPAIN THAT I'M IN, BUT THEY
  • 00:07:58.166 --> 00:07:58.767
  • PAIN THAT I'M IN, BUT THEYARE NOT TELLING ME ABOUT
  • 00:07:58.767 --> 00:08:01.303
  • ARE NOT TELLING ME ABOUTWHAT THE END IS FOR ME.
  • 00:08:01.303 --> 00:08:03.505
  • WHAT THE END IS FOR ME.SO THAT, BUT NOT, IN
  • 00:08:03.505 --> 00:08:04.739
  • SO THAT, BUT NOT, IN2 CORINTHIANS 4 IS
  • 00:08:04.739 --> 00:08:08.276
  • 2 CORINTHIANS 4 ISCRITICAL, BUT NOT--
  • 00:08:08.276 --> 00:08:08.944
  • CRITICAL, BUT NOT--BUT NOT.
  • 00:08:08.944 --> 00:08:09.477
  • BUT NOT.BUT THAT DOES NOT MEAN I
  • 00:08:09.477 --> 00:08:10.211
  • BUT THAT DOES NOT MEAN IDON'T FEEL THE PAIN.
  • 00:08:10.211 --> 00:08:11.413
  • DON'T FEEL THE PAIN.IT JUST MEANS IT'S NOT THE
  • 00:08:11.413 --> 00:08:11.913
  • IT JUST MEANS IT'S NOT THEEND OF THE SITUATION FOR
  • 00:08:11.913 --> 00:08:13.114
  • END OF THE SITUATION FORME.
  • 00:08:13.114 --> 00:08:13.648
  • ME.THAT'S WHAT MATTERS THE
  • 00:08:13.648 --> 00:08:14.983
  • THAT'S WHAT MATTERS THEMOST.
  • 00:08:14.983 --> 00:08:15.817
  • MOST.- LAURIE: I LOVE THAT,
  • 00:08:15.817 --> 00:08:17.185
  • - LAURIE: I LOVE THAT,ANITA.
  • 00:08:17.185 --> 00:08:18.253
  • ANITA.YOU KNOW, RICK RIGSBY SAID
  • 00:08:18.253 --> 00:08:18.787
  • YOU KNOW, RICK RIGSBY SAIDIN HIS BOOK, I'LL QUOTE
  • 00:08:18.787 --> 00:08:19.588
  • IN HIS BOOK, I'LL QUOTEHIM.
  • 00:08:19.588 --> 00:08:20.789
  • HIM."HOPE IS A QUALITY OF
  • 00:08:20.789 --> 00:08:23.458
  • "HOPE IS A QUALITY OFEVERY HUMAN SPIRIT THAT
  • 00:08:23.458 --> 00:08:26.261
  • EVERY HUMAN SPIRIT THATPLACES A TRANSFORMATIVE
  • 00:08:26.261 --> 00:08:29.431
  • PLACES A TRANSFORMATIVEDEMAND UPON OUR HEART TO
  • 00:08:29.431 --> 00:08:29.965
  • DEMAND UPON OUR HEART TOBELIEVE FOR THE ABSOLUTE
  • 00:08:29.965 --> 00:08:31.733
  • BELIEVE FOR THE ABSOLUTEBEST OUTCOME."
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  • BEST OUTCOME."AND THAT'S WHAT GOT ABRAHAM
  • 00:08:33.935 --> 00:08:36.071
  • AND THAT'S WHAT GOT ABRAHAMBACK IN ROMANS 4:18.
  • 00:08:36.071 --> 00:08:38.406
  • BACK IN ROMANS 4:18.IT SAYS AGAINST ALL HOPE,
  • 00:08:38.406 --> 00:08:40.241
  • IT SAYS AGAINST ALL HOPE,ABRAHAM BELIEVED GOD.
  • 00:08:40.241 --> 00:08:42.711
  • ABRAHAM BELIEVED GOD.I LOVE THAT.
  • 00:08:42.711 --> 00:08:45.080
  • I LOVE THAT.BECAUSE HOPE I THINK IS ON
  • 00:08:45.080 --> 00:08:46.548
  • BECAUSE HOPE I THINK IS ONTHE INSIDE OF US AND
  • 00:08:46.548 --> 00:08:47.415
  • THE INSIDE OF US ANDPRISCILLA, IT'S ALWAYS A
  • 00:08:47.415 --> 00:08:49.718
  • PRISCILLA, IT'S ALWAYS ACHOICE TO BELIEVE FOR THE
  • 00:08:49.718 --> 00:08:53.088
  • CHOICE TO BELIEVE FOR THEBEST OUTCOME.
  • 00:08:53.088 --> 00:08:53.521
  • BEST OUTCOME.WE AS BELIEVERS ARE
  • 00:08:53.521 --> 00:08:54.189
  • WE AS BELIEVERS ARESUPPOSED TO DO THAT.
  • 00:08:54.189 --> 00:08:55.023
  • SUPPOSED TO DO THAT.WE'RE NEVER SUPPOSED TO
  • 00:08:55.023 --> 00:08:56.591
  • WE'RE NEVER SUPPOSED TOLOSE OUR HOPE.
  • 00:08:56.591 --> 00:08:57.759
  • LOSE OUR HOPE.ALWAYS KNOWING THAT GOD IS
  • 00:08:57.759 --> 00:08:59.294
  • ALWAYS KNOWING THAT GOD ISSOVEREIGN.
  • 00:08:59.294 --> 00:09:01.363
  • SOVEREIGN.HE IS THE SUPREME BEING OF
  • 00:09:01.363 --> 00:09:04.099
  • HE IS THE SUPREME BEING OFALL THINGS WORKING IT ALL
  • 00:09:04.099 --> 00:09:05.400
  • ALL THINGS WORKING IT ALLOUT FOR OUR GOOD, ALL OUT
  • 00:09:05.400 --> 00:09:06.601
  • OUT FOR OUR GOOD, ALL OUTFOR HIS GOOD PLEASURE AND
  • 00:09:06.601 --> 00:09:07.969
  • FOR HIS GOOD PLEASURE ANDMAKING US MORE LIKE
  • 00:09:07.969 --> 00:09:09.971
  • MAKING US MORE LIKECHRIST.
  • 00:09:09.971 --> 00:09:11.006
  • CHRIST.ISN'T THAT THE WHOLE POINT
  • 00:09:11.006 --> 00:09:12.841
  • ISN'T THAT THE WHOLE POINTOF THIS WHOLE THING?
  • 00:09:12.841 --> 00:09:13.808
  • OF THIS WHOLE THING?- PRISCILLA: IT IS INDEED
  • 00:09:13.808 --> 00:09:15.410
  • - PRISCILLA: IT IS INDEEDTHE POINT.
  • 00:09:15.410 --> 00:09:16.845
  • THE POINT.I THINK THAT'S PART OF THE
  • 00:09:16.845 --> 00:09:20.615
  • I THINK THAT'S PART OF THESTRUGGLE IS REORIENTING
  • 00:09:20.615 --> 00:09:22.550
  • STRUGGLE IS REORIENTINGOUR PERSPECTIVE, RIGHT IN
  • 00:09:22.550 --> 00:09:23.251
  • OUR PERSPECTIVE, RIGHT INSO THAT OUR PURPOSE
  • 00:09:23.251 --> 00:09:24.319
  • SO THAT OUR PURPOSEBECOMES ACTUALLY IN
  • 00:09:24.319 --> 00:09:25.353
  • BECOMES ACTUALLY INALIGNMENT WITH HIS PURPOSE.
  • 00:09:25.353 --> 00:09:27.856
  • ALIGNMENT WITH HIS PURPOSE.YOU KNOW?
  • 00:09:27.856 --> 00:09:28.323
  • YOU KNOW?AND, AS I THINK ABOUT
  • 00:09:28.323 --> 00:09:29.557
  • AND, AS I THINK ABOUTTHAT, TOO, I REALLY WANTED
  • 00:09:29.557 --> 00:09:31.593
  • THAT, TOO, I REALLY WANTEDTO ASK DR. ANITA A QUESTION.
  • 00:09:31.593 --> 00:09:32.894
  • TO ASK DR. ANITA A QUESTION.I APPRECIATE HER SO MUCH
  • 00:09:32.894 --> 00:09:34.329
  • I APPRECIATE HER SO MUCHFOR THE PRACTICALITY SHE
  • 00:09:34.329 --> 00:09:37.966
  • FOR THE PRACTICALITY SHEHELPS US WITH IN THIS REGARD.
  • 00:09:37.966 --> 00:09:39.234
  • HELPS US WITH IN THIS REGARD.BUT I FEEL LIKE, HAVING A
  • 00:09:39.234 --> 00:09:41.503
  • BUT I FEEL LIKE, HAVING ASENSE OF HOPEFULNESS AND
  • 00:09:41.503 --> 00:09:42.737
  • SENSE OF HOPEFULNESS ANDNOT GETTING MUDDLED DOWN
  • 00:09:42.737 --> 00:09:44.706
  • NOT GETTING MUDDLED DOWNIN OVERWHELMING SADNESS
  • 00:09:44.706 --> 00:09:46.241
  • IN OVERWHELMING SADNESSWHEN THE STUFF OF LIFE
  • 00:09:46.241 --> 00:09:48.209
  • WHEN THE STUFF OF LIFEKIND OF MOUNTS IN ON US, I
  • 00:09:48.209 --> 00:09:50.111
  • KIND OF MOUNTS IN ON US, IFEEL LIKE IT'S EASIER FOR
  • 00:09:50.111 --> 00:09:50.645
  • FEEL LIKE IT'S EASIER FORSOME PEOPLE THAN OTHERS,
  • 00:09:50.645 --> 00:09:51.646
  • SOME PEOPLE THAN OTHERS,SOME PEOPLE ARE WIRED
  • 00:09:51.646 --> 00:09:52.881
  • SOME PEOPLE ARE WIREDTOWARD OPTIMISM.
  • 00:09:52.881 --> 00:09:54.449
  • TOWARD OPTIMISM.THEY ARE WIRED TOWARDS A
  • 00:09:54.449 --> 00:09:55.283
  • THEY ARE WIRED TOWARDS AHOPEFUL DISPOSITION.
  • 00:09:55.283 --> 00:09:56.918
  • HOPEFUL DISPOSITION.SO I FEEL LIKE IT'S EASY
  • 00:09:56.918 --> 00:09:59.020
  • SO I FEEL LIKE IT'S EASYFOR SOMEONE WHO IS ALL
  • 00:09:59.020 --> 00:10:00.088
  • FOR SOMEONE WHO IS ALLBUBBLY AND NORMALLY LOOKS
  • 00:10:00.088 --> 00:10:01.222
  • BUBBLY AND NORMALLY LOOKSAT THINGS ON THE BRIGHT
  • 00:10:01.222 --> 00:10:03.925
  • AT THINGS ON THE BRIGHTSIDE AND THE GLASS HALF
  • 00:10:03.925 --> 00:10:05.927
  • SIDE AND THE GLASS HALFFULL AND ALL THAT STUFF.
  • 00:10:05.927 --> 00:10:06.461
  • FULL AND ALL THAT STUFF.IT'S EASIER FOR SOMEONE
  • 00:10:06.461 --> 00:10:07.362
  • IT'S EASIER FOR SOMEONELIKE THAT.
  • 00:10:07.362 --> 00:10:08.430
  • LIKE THAT.BUT FOR SOMEBODY THAT IS
  • 00:10:08.430 --> 00:10:10.098
  • BUT FOR SOMEBODY THAT ISWIRED TOWARDS SADNESS OR
  • 00:10:10.098 --> 00:10:13.435
  • WIRED TOWARDS SADNESS ORMELANCHOLY, WHAT ARE THE
  • 00:10:13.435 --> 00:10:15.570
  • MELANCHOLY, WHAT ARE THEPRACTICAL WAYS WE CAN
  • 00:10:15.570 --> 00:10:17.005
  • PRACTICAL WAYS WE CANREALLY MAKE SURE THAT WE
  • 00:10:17.005 --> 00:10:19.607
  • REALLY MAKE SURE THAT WEHAVE THE PERSPECTIVE OF
  • 00:10:19.607 --> 00:10:22.510
  • HAVE THE PERSPECTIVE OFHOPEFULNESS ON AN ONGOING
  • 00:10:22.510 --> 00:10:23.111
  • HOPEFULNESS ON AN ONGOINGBASIS, ESPECIALLY WHEN
  • 00:10:23.111 --> 00:10:25.380
  • BASIS, ESPECIALLY WHENSTUFF IS STUFF?
  • 00:10:25.380 --> 00:10:25.947
  • STUFF IS STUFF?- ANITA: I LOVE THAT YOU
  • 00:10:25.947 --> 00:10:26.448
  • - ANITA: I LOVE THAT YOUBROUGHT THAT UP.
  • 00:10:26.448 --> 00:10:27.248
  • BROUGHT THAT UP.BECAUSE THAT'S ABSOLUTELY
  • 00:10:27.248 --> 00:10:27.649
  • BECAUSE THAT'S ABSOLUTELYTRUE.
  • 00:10:27.649 --> 00:10:28.917
  • TRUE.AND WE ALL TEND TO JUDGE
  • 00:10:28.917 --> 00:10:29.851
  • AND WE ALL TEND TO JUDGEOTHER PEOPLE BASED ON THE
  • 00:10:29.851 --> 00:10:30.685
  • OTHER PEOPLE BASED ON THELENS THAT IS NATURAL TO
  • 00:10:30.685 --> 00:10:31.519
  • LENS THAT IS NATURAL TOUS.
  • 00:10:31.519 --> 00:10:32.654
  • US.AND THEN WE GRAB A
  • 00:10:32.654 --> 00:10:34.355
  • AND THEN WE GRAB ASCRIPTURE AND THEN USE
  • 00:10:34.355 --> 00:10:35.290
  • SCRIPTURE AND THEN USETHAT TO SAY OUR LENS IS
  • 00:10:35.290 --> 00:10:37.225
  • THAT TO SAY OUR LENS ISRIGHT AND SOMEHOW NOW THE
  • 00:10:37.225 --> 00:10:38.359
  • RIGHT AND SOMEHOW NOW THEPERSON IS IN TROUBLE
  • 00:10:38.359 --> 00:10:38.793
  • PERSON IS IN TROUBLEEMOTIONALLY AND
  • 00:10:38.793 --> 00:10:39.627
  • EMOTIONALLY ANDSPIRITUALLY.
  • 00:10:39.627 --> 00:10:41.162
  • SPIRITUALLY.AS CHRISTIANS WE GO SO
  • 00:10:41.162 --> 00:10:42.430
  • AS CHRISTIANS WE GO SOQUICK TO THE SPIRIT AND WE
  • 00:10:42.430 --> 00:10:43.198
  • QUICK TO THE SPIRIT AND WESKIP RIGHT OVER THE PAIN
  • 00:10:43.198 --> 00:10:44.599
  • SKIP RIGHT OVER THE PAINPEOPLE ARE IN.
  • 00:10:44.599 --> 00:10:46.334
  • PEOPLE ARE IN.BUT I WANT TO ASK PEOPLE
  • 00:10:46.334 --> 00:10:47.736
  • BUT I WANT TO ASK PEOPLENUMBER ONE, NOT DO THAT,
  • 00:10:47.736 --> 00:10:49.003
  • NUMBER ONE, NOT DO THAT,AND NUMBER TWO, TO TELL
  • 00:10:49.003 --> 00:10:49.904
  • AND NUMBER TWO, TO TELLTHOSE WHO ARE SUFFERING
  • 00:10:49.904 --> 00:10:50.472
  • THOSE WHO ARE SUFFERINGIT'S OKAY FOR YOU TO HAVE
  • 00:10:50.472 --> 00:10:51.573
  • IT'S OKAY FOR YOU TO HAVEYOUR JOURNEY.
  • 00:10:51.573 --> 00:10:53.575
  • YOUR JOURNEY.YOUR JOURNEY IS YOURS WITH
  • 00:10:53.575 --> 00:10:55.143
  • YOUR JOURNEY IS YOURS WITHTHE LORD AND YOU ARE NOT
  • 00:10:55.143 --> 00:10:56.111
  • THE LORD AND YOU ARE NOTIN SIN IF YOU DON'T HAVE
  • 00:10:56.111 --> 00:10:57.312
  • IN SIN IF YOU DON'T HAVEHOPE TODAY.
  • 00:10:57.312 --> 00:10:59.347
  • HOPE TODAY.HOPE WILL COME AGAIN, I
  • 00:10:59.347 --> 00:11:01.516
  • HOPE WILL COME AGAIN, IBELIEVE IT'S A FORM OF
  • 00:11:01.516 --> 00:11:02.383
  • BELIEVE IT'S A FORM OFHOPEFULNESS TO SAY ONE DAY
  • 00:11:02.383 --> 00:11:03.752
  • HOPEFULNESS TO SAY ONE DAYI MAY FEEL HOPEFUL AGAIN,
  • 00:11:03.752 --> 00:11:04.385
  • I MAY FEEL HOPEFUL AGAIN,BUT IT'S NOT TODAY.
  • 00:11:04.385 --> 00:11:07.255
  • BUT IT'S NOT TODAY.TODAY IS NOT.
  • 00:11:07.255 --> 00:11:07.856
  • TODAY IS NOT.TODAY I'M GONNA LAY DOWN
  • 00:11:07.856 --> 00:11:08.223
  • TODAY I'M GONNA LAY DOWNIN THIS ROOM,
  • 00:11:08.223 --> 00:11:08.757
  • IN THIS ROOM,I'M GONNA
  • 00:11:08.757 --> 00:11:09.157
  • I'M GONNAEAT THIS POPCORN,
  • 00:11:09.157 --> 00:11:09.724
  • EAT THIS POPCORN,THIS ICE CREAM,
  • 00:11:09.724 --> 00:11:10.325
  • THIS ICE CREAM,WHETHER YOU ARE
  • 00:11:10.325 --> 00:11:10.892
  • WHETHER YOU ARESALTY OR SWEET.
  • 00:11:10.892 --> 00:11:12.260
  • SALTY OR SWEET.I'M GONNA CRY.
  • 00:11:12.260 --> 00:11:15.497
  • I'M GONNA CRY.I'M GONNA CRY.
  • 00:11:15.497 --> 00:11:16.064
  • I'M GONNA CRY.SOMETIMES I GO AWAY ON
  • 00:11:16.064 --> 00:11:17.265
  • SOMETIMES I GO AWAY ONWHAT I CALL A ME-CATION.
  • 00:11:17.265 --> 00:11:18.433
  • WHAT I CALL A ME-CATION.I GO AWAY BY COMPLETELY BY
  • 00:11:18.433 --> 00:11:19.134
  • I GO AWAY BY COMPLETELY BYMYSELF.
  • 00:11:19.134 --> 00:11:19.667
  • MYSELF.I TAKE NO ONE.
  • 00:11:19.667 --> 00:11:21.136
  • I TAKE NO ONE.I DON'T HAVE COMPANY.
  • 00:11:21.136 --> 00:11:23.738
  • I DON'T HAVE COMPANY.I CUT OFF MY PHONE AND I
  • 00:11:23.738 --> 00:11:24.773
  • I CUT OFF MY PHONE AND IJUST LIE AROUND.
  • 00:11:24.773 --> 00:11:27.041
  • JUST LIE AROUND.AND INEVITABLY SOMEWHERE
  • 00:11:27.041 --> 00:11:27.909
  • AND INEVITABLY SOMEWHEREIN THE FIRST 24 HOURS OF THE
  • 00:11:27.909 --> 00:11:29.210
  • IN THE FIRST 24 HOURS OF THEME-CATION TEARS WILL WELL
  • 00:11:29.210 --> 00:11:29.944
  • ME-CATION TEARS WILL WELLUP AND STREAM DOWN MY
  • 00:11:29.944 --> 00:11:30.378
  • UP AND STREAM DOWN MYFACE.
  • 00:11:30.378 --> 00:11:31.112
  • FACE.AND I WON'T KNOW WHY
  • 00:11:31.112 --> 00:11:32.046
  • AND I WON'T KNOW WHYEXACTLY.
  • 00:11:32.046 --> 00:11:33.081
  • EXACTLY.BUT BECAUSE I'VE GOTTEN
  • 00:11:33.081 --> 00:11:34.115
  • BUT BECAUSE I'VE GOTTENAWAY FROM ALL THE
  • 00:11:34.115 --> 00:11:35.183
  • AWAY FROM ALL THECRAZINESS AND HAD A CHANCE
  • 00:11:35.183 --> 00:11:36.751
  • CRAZINESS AND HAD A CHANCETO GET IN STUFF WITH MY
  • 00:11:36.751 --> 00:11:37.452
  • TO GET IN STUFF WITH MYFEELINGS, SOMETIMES THE
  • 00:11:37.452 --> 00:11:38.386
  • FEELINGS, SOMETIMES THETEARS WILL JUST COME.
  • 00:11:38.386 --> 00:11:38.920
  • TEARS WILL JUST COME.AND IT'S OKAY TO LAY AND
  • 00:11:38.920 --> 00:11:40.488
  • AND IT'S OKAY TO LAY ANDJUST CRY.
  • 00:11:40.488 --> 00:11:43.591
  • JUST CRY.LET YOUR PAIN OUT.
  • 00:11:43.591 --> 00:11:44.692
  • LET YOUR PAIN OUT.THE MORE YOU TRY TO STUFF
  • 00:11:44.692 --> 00:11:45.527
  • THE MORE YOU TRY TO STUFFIT DOWN AND THE MORE YOU
  • 00:11:45.527 --> 00:11:47.295
  • IT DOWN AND THE MORE YOUTRY TO RUSH PAST IT, THE
  • 00:11:47.295 --> 00:11:48.196
  • TRY TO RUSH PAST IT, THEMORE IT'S COMING BACK TO
  • 00:11:48.196 --> 00:11:48.730
  • MORE IT'S COMING BACK TOYOU.
  • 00:11:48.730 --> 00:11:49.631
  • YOU.MAYA ANGELOU ONCE SAID
  • 00:11:49.631 --> 00:11:51.166
  • MAYA ANGELOU ONCE SAIDTHAT EVERY CLOUD RUNS OUT
  • 00:11:51.166 --> 00:11:53.835
  • THAT EVERY CLOUD RUNS OUTOF RAIN.
  • 00:11:53.835 --> 00:11:55.303
  • OF RAIN.YOU WILL NOT CRY FOREVER
  • 00:11:55.303 --> 00:11:56.271
  • YOU WILL NOT CRY FOREVERIF YOU START.
  • 00:11:56.271 --> 00:11:57.972
  • IF YOU START.BUT PLEASE START.
  • 00:11:57.972 --> 00:11:59.607
  • BUT PLEASE START.BECAUSE THERE ARE CHEMICAL
  • 00:11:59.607 --> 00:12:00.608
  • BECAUSE THERE ARE CHEMICALCHANGES THAT HAPPEN IN
  • 00:12:00.608 --> 00:12:01.676
  • CHANGES THAT HAPPEN INYOUR BODY WHEN YOU CRY.
  • 00:12:01.676 --> 00:12:04.179
  • YOUR BODY WHEN YOU CRY.GOD BUILT A RELIEF VALVE
  • 00:12:04.179 --> 00:12:05.513
  • GOD BUILT A RELIEF VALVEINTO OUR EYEBALLS, AND
  • 00:12:05.513 --> 00:12:07.982
  • INTO OUR EYEBALLS, ANDSOME OF US REFUSE TO
  • 00:12:07.982 --> 00:12:08.683
  • SOME OF US REFUSE TOUSE WHAT GOD PLACED IN US
  • 00:12:08.683 --> 00:12:10.051
  • USE WHAT GOD PLACED IN USTO LET US RESET WHEN WE
  • 00:12:10.051 --> 00:12:11.252
  • TO LET US RESET WHEN WEARE UNDER PRESSURE.
  • 00:12:11.252 --> 00:12:12.387
  • ARE UNDER PRESSURE.BUT THAT IS PART OF BEING
  • 00:12:12.387 --> 00:12:13.087
  • BUT THAT IS PART OF BEINGFEARFULLY AND WONDERFULLY
  • 00:12:13.087 --> 00:12:13.721
  • FEARFULLY AND WONDERFULLYMADE.
  • 00:12:13.721 --> 00:12:15.056
  • MADE.TEAR DUCTS ARE PART OF
  • 00:12:15.056 --> 00:12:16.024
  • TEAR DUCTS ARE PART OFBEING FEARFULLY AND
  • 00:12:16.024 --> 00:12:18.960
  • BEING FEARFULLY ANDWONDERFULLY MADE.
  • 00:12:18.960 --> 00:12:19.527
  • WONDERFULLY MADE.DON'T REJECT WHAT GOD PUT
  • 00:12:19.527 --> 00:12:20.695
  • DON'T REJECT WHAT GOD PUTIN US TO HELP US BE BETTER.
  • 00:12:20.695 --> 00:12:22.063
  • IN US TO HELP US BE BETTER.GO AHEAD AND CRY, GIRL.
  • 00:12:22.063 --> 00:12:22.931
  • GO AHEAD AND CRY, GIRL.- NATALIE: OKAY.
  • 00:12:22.931 --> 00:12:23.631
  • - NATALIE: OKAY.DR. ANITA, I HAVE
  • 00:12:23.631 --> 00:12:28.069
  • DR. ANITA, I HAVEAPPRECIATED YOU FROM AFAR.
  • 00:12:28.069 --> 00:12:29.370
  • APPRECIATED YOU FROM AFAR.THIS IS MY FIRST TIME
  • 00:12:29.370 --> 00:12:30.471
  • THIS IS MY FIRST TIMEDOING "BETTER TOGETHER"
  • 00:12:30.471 --> 00:12:30.872
  • DOING "BETTER TOGETHER"WITH YOU.
  • 00:12:30.872 --> 00:12:32.140
  • WITH YOU.AND I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN
  • 00:12:32.140 --> 00:12:33.274
  • AND I SHOULD HAVE KNOWNYOU WERE GONNA MESS ME UP.
  • 00:12:33.274 --> 00:12:34.342
  • YOU WERE GONNA MESS ME UP.I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN YOU
  • 00:12:34.342 --> 00:12:35.543
  • I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN YOUWERE GONNA MESS ME UP IN
  • 00:12:35.543 --> 00:12:38.880
  • WERE GONNA MESS ME UP INTHE BEST POSSIBLE WAY.
  • 00:12:38.880 --> 00:12:40.248
  • THE BEST POSSIBLE WAY.I DON'T KNOW WHETHER TO
  • 00:12:40.248 --> 00:12:41.015
  • I DON'T KNOW WHETHER TOTAKE NOTES, WHETHER TO
  • 00:12:41.015 --> 00:12:41.783
  • TAKE NOTES, WHETHER TOSHOUT HALLELUJAH OR
  • 00:12:41.783 --> 00:12:43.985
  • SHOUT HALLELUJAH ORWHETHER TO BE LIKE, I'M
  • 00:12:43.985 --> 00:12:44.786
  • WHETHER TO BE LIKE, I'MGONNA GO NOW BECAUSE I GOT
  • 00:12:44.786 --> 00:12:46.855
  • GONNA GO NOW BECAUSE I GOTTO GO ON A ME-CATION.
  • 00:12:46.855 --> 00:12:47.622
  • TO GO ON A ME-CATION.(LAUGHTER)
  • 00:12:47.622 --> 00:12:48.056
  • (LAUGHTER)- ANITA: DO THAT.
  • 00:12:48.056 --> 00:12:48.523
  • - ANITA: DO THAT.ALL THE ABOVE.
  • 00:12:48.523 --> 00:12:49.624
  • ALL THE ABOVE.- NATALIE: I'M GONNA GO
  • 00:12:49.624 --> 00:12:51.025
  • - NATALIE: I'M GONNA GOON A ME-CATION.
  • 00:12:51.025 --> 00:12:51.826
  • ON A ME-CATION.I CAN'T WAIT TO TELL MY
  • 00:12:51.826 --> 00:12:52.293
  • I CAN'T WAIT TO TELL MYHUSBAND.
  • 00:12:52.293 --> 00:12:54.028
  • HUSBAND.I'M GOING ON A ME-CATION.
  • 00:12:54.028 --> 00:12:56.497
  • I'M GOING ON A ME-CATION.(LAUGHTER)
  • 00:12:56.497 --> 00:12:57.565
  • (LAUGHTER)OH, MY GOODNESS.
  • 00:12:57.565 --> 00:12:58.099
  • OH, MY GOODNESS.- LAURIE: HE'LL SAY I'M
  • 00:12:58.099 --> 00:13:00.869
  • - LAURIE: HE'LL SAY I'MGOING WITH YA!
  • 00:13:00.869 --> 00:13:01.469
  • GOING WITH YA!(LAUGHTER)
  • 00:13:01.469 --> 00:13:01.970
  • (LAUGHTER)- NATALIE: I'M LIKE,
  • 00:13:01.970 --> 00:13:04.973
  • - NATALIE: I'M LIKE,THAT'S NOT A ME-CATION, THEN.
  • 00:13:04.973 --> 00:13:05.506
  • THAT'S NOT A ME-CATION, THEN.BUT I FEEL LIKE THERE'S
  • 00:13:05.506 --> 00:13:07.041
  • BUT I FEEL LIKE THERE'SJUST SO MUCH WISDOM IN
  • 00:13:07.041 --> 00:13:08.509
  • JUST SO MUCH WISDOM INTHAT, EVEN WHERE YOU JUST
  • 00:13:08.509 --> 00:13:09.344
  • THAT, EVEN WHERE YOU JUSTFEEL LIKE, IT'S ACTUALLY
  • 00:13:09.344 --> 00:13:10.745
  • FEEL LIKE, IT'S ACTUALLYOKAY.
  • 00:13:10.745 --> 00:13:12.080
  • OKAY.IT'S OKAY TO CRY, WHICH
  • 00:13:12.080 --> 00:13:15.216
  • IT'S OKAY TO CRY, WHICHMAKES ME FEEL SO GOOD
  • 00:13:15.216 --> 00:13:16.451
  • MAKES ME FEEL SO GOODBECAUSE I AM A CRIER
  • 00:13:16.451 --> 00:13:18.219
  • BECAUSE I AM A CRIERNATURALLY.
  • 00:13:18.219 --> 00:13:19.220
  • NATURALLY.WHEN I'M SAD AND WHEN I'M
  • 00:13:19.220 --> 00:13:19.954
  • WHEN I'M SAD AND WHEN I'MHAPPY, IT TURNS OUT.
  • 00:13:19.954 --> 00:13:22.557
  • HAPPY, IT TURNS OUT.BUT, I THINK ONE OF THE
  • 00:13:22.557 --> 00:13:24.158
  • BUT, I THINK ONE OF THETHINGS I'VE ALSO LEARNED
  • 00:13:24.158 --> 00:13:25.793
  • THINGS I'VE ALSO LEARNEDWHEN I'M SITTING IN MY
  • 00:13:25.793 --> 00:13:28.129
  • WHEN I'M SITTING IN MYFEELINGS, WHICH CAN BE
  • 00:13:28.129 --> 00:13:29.731
  • FEELINGS, WHICH CAN BEOFTEN, ONE OF THE
  • 00:13:29.731 --> 00:13:31.532
  • OFTEN, ONE OF THEIMPORTANT THINGS FOR ME IS
  • 00:13:31.532 --> 00:13:33.301
  • IMPORTANT THINGS FOR ME ISTHAT I'VE LEARNED THAT
  • 00:13:33.301 --> 00:13:35.003
  • THAT I'VE LEARNED THATGRATITUDE IS ACTUALLY A
  • 00:13:35.003 --> 00:13:36.638
  • GRATITUDE IS ACTUALLY AWEAPON.
  • 00:13:36.638 --> 00:13:38.239
  • WEAPON.GRATITUDE IS A WEAPON FOR
  • 00:13:38.239 --> 00:13:40.208
  • GRATITUDE IS A WEAPON FORME.
  • 00:13:40.208 --> 00:13:40.708
  • ME.WHEN I'M SITTING IN A
  • 00:13:40.708 --> 00:13:42.277
  • WHEN I'M SITTING IN AMOMENT AND I GO, OKAY, I'M
  • 00:13:42.277 --> 00:13:44.345
  • MOMENT AND I GO, OKAY, I'MACTUALLY NOT GONNA THINK
  • 00:13:44.345 --> 00:13:46.014
  • ACTUALLY NOT GONNA THINKABOUT ALL THE THINGS I
  • 00:13:46.014 --> 00:13:46.915
  • ABOUT ALL THE THINGS IEVEN NEED GOD TO DO FOR ME
  • 00:13:46.915 --> 00:13:49.284
  • EVEN NEED GOD TO DO FOR MERIGHT NOW.
  • 00:13:49.284 --> 00:13:49.851
  • RIGHT NOW.I'M NOT GONNA COME TO HIM
  • 00:13:49.851 --> 00:13:50.551
  • I'M NOT GONNA COME TO HIMIN THIS MOMENT AND BE LIKE,
  • 00:13:50.551 --> 00:13:51.653
  • IN THIS MOMENT AND BE LIKE,I NEED THIS, AND I NEED
  • 00:13:51.653 --> 00:13:52.487
  • I NEED THIS, AND I NEEDTHIS.
  • 00:13:52.487 --> 00:13:53.054
  • THIS.I'M ACTUALLY GONNA TAKE A
  • 00:13:53.054 --> 00:13:54.289
  • I'M ACTUALLY GONNA TAKE AMOMENT AND BEGIN TO THANK
  • 00:13:54.289 --> 00:13:56.224
  • MOMENT AND BEGIN TO THANKHIM.
  • 00:13:56.224 --> 00:13:56.791
  • HIM.I'M GONNA BEGIN TO THANK
  • 00:13:56.791 --> 00:13:57.592
  • I'M GONNA BEGIN TO THANKHIM FOR MY LIFE.
  • 00:13:57.592 --> 00:13:58.693
  • HIM FOR MY LIFE.I'M GONNA BEGIN TO THANK
  • 00:13:58.693 --> 00:14:00.728
  • I'M GONNA BEGIN TO THANKHIM EVEN FOR THE HARDSHIPS
  • 00:14:00.728 --> 00:14:01.562
  • HIM EVEN FOR THE HARDSHIPSTHAT IN THE MIDDLE OF THE
  • 00:14:01.562 --> 00:14:02.597
  • THAT IN THE MIDDLE OF THEHARDSHIP, THE THING I'M
  • 00:14:02.597 --> 00:14:03.865
  • HARDSHIP, THE THING I'MHATING SO MUCH RIGHT NOW,
  • 00:14:03.865 --> 00:14:06.034
  • HATING SO MUCH RIGHT NOW,I'M GONNA THANK YOU
  • 00:14:06.034 --> 00:14:06.868
  • I'M GONNA THANK YOUBECAUSE I KNOW YOU'RE
  • 00:14:06.868 --> 00:14:07.936
  • BECAUSE I KNOW YOU'REGONNA TEACH ME MORE ABOUT
  • 00:14:07.936 --> 00:14:09.037
  • GONNA TEACH ME MORE ABOUTWHO YOU ARE IN THE
  • 00:14:09.037 --> 00:14:10.038
  • WHO YOU ARE IN THEHARDSHIP THAN YOU EVER
  • 00:14:10.038 --> 00:14:11.072
  • HARDSHIP THAN YOU EVERWILL WHEN I'M ON THE
  • 00:14:11.072 --> 00:14:11.806
  • WILL WHEN I'M ON THEMOUNTAINTOP.
  • 00:14:11.806 --> 00:14:13.441
  • MOUNTAINTOP.AND THAT GRATITUDE BEGINS
  • 00:14:13.441 --> 00:14:15.743
  • AND THAT GRATITUDE BEGINSTO BECOME A WEAPON WHERE I
  • 00:14:15.743 --> 00:14:18.613
  • TO BECOME A WEAPON WHERE IBEGIN TO FIGHT AND I FEEL
  • 00:14:18.613 --> 00:14:19.714
  • BEGIN TO FIGHT AND I FEELLIKE IT'S SOMETIMES HARD
  • 00:14:19.714 --> 00:14:21.482
  • LIKE IT'S SOMETIMES HARDTO BE GRATEFUL AND YET
  • 00:14:21.482 --> 00:14:23.151
  • TO BE GRATEFUL AND YETWHEN I ALLOW MYSELF JUST
  • 00:14:23.151 --> 00:14:25.019
  • WHEN I ALLOW MYSELF JUSTTO BEGIN SAYING THANK YOU,
  • 00:14:25.019 --> 00:14:26.387
  • TO BEGIN SAYING THANK YOU,JESUS, THANK YOU FOR
  • 00:14:26.387 --> 00:14:27.188
  • JESUS, THANK YOU FORSALVATION, THANK YOU FOR
  • 00:14:27.188 --> 00:14:28.189
  • SALVATION, THANK YOU FORLIFE.
  • 00:14:28.189 --> 00:14:29.791
  • LIFE.THANK YOU FOR THE THINGS I
  • 00:14:29.791 --> 00:14:31.626
  • THANK YOU FOR THE THINGS IKNOW YOU'RE GONNA DO FOR
  • 00:14:31.626 --> 00:14:33.361
  • KNOW YOU'RE GONNA DO FORME THAT I HAVE NOT EVEN
  • 00:14:33.361 --> 00:14:34.195
  • ME THAT I HAVE NOT EVENSEEN YET, BUT THANK YOU
  • 00:14:34.195 --> 00:14:35.229
  • SEEN YET, BUT THANK YOUFOR THOSE THINGS, IT MAKES
  • 00:14:35.229 --> 00:14:37.098
  • FOR THOSE THINGS, IT MAKESSOMETHING WELL UP INSIDE
  • 00:14:37.098 --> 00:14:38.366
  • SOMETHING WELL UP INSIDEOF ME LIKE A STRENGTH AND
  • 00:14:38.366 --> 00:14:40.068
  • OF ME LIKE A STRENGTH ANDMY AND FAITH BEGINS TO
  • 00:14:40.068 --> 00:14:40.802
  • MY AND FAITH BEGINS TOBUILD.
  • 00:14:40.802 --> 00:14:42.036
  • BUILD.SO I THINK THERE IS REALLY
  • 00:14:42.036 --> 00:14:43.137
  • SO I THINK THERE IS REALLYSOMETHING BEAUTIFUL THAT
  • 00:14:43.137 --> 00:14:44.172
  • SOMETHING BEAUTIFUL THATHAPPENS WHEN WE CAN TAKE A
  • 00:14:44.172 --> 00:14:44.906
  • HAPPENS WHEN WE CAN TAKE AMOMENT AND FOCUS ON
  • 00:14:44.906 --> 00:14:46.107
  • MOMENT AND FOCUS ONGRATITUDE.
  • 00:14:46.107 --> 00:14:47.241
  • GRATITUDE.JUST BEING GRATEFUL.
  • 00:14:47.241 --> 00:14:49.177
  • JUST BEING GRATEFUL.HAVING A GRATEFUL HEART.
  • 00:14:49.177 --> 00:14:49.978
  • HAVING A GRATEFUL HEART.- PRISCILLA: AS YOU'RE
  • 00:14:49.978 --> 00:14:50.912
  • - PRISCILLA: AS YOU'RETALKING ABOUT GRATITUDE,
  • 00:14:50.912 --> 00:14:51.446
  • TALKING ABOUT GRATITUDE,LET ME TELL YOU WHAT WAS
  • 00:14:51.446 --> 00:14:53.281
  • LET ME TELL YOU WHAT WASCOMING TO MY MIND.
  • 00:14:53.281 --> 00:14:54.215
  • COMING TO MY MIND.I MENTIONED TO YOU GUYS
  • 00:14:54.215 --> 00:14:55.550
  • I MENTIONED TO YOU GUYSTHAT WE LOST MY MOM.
  • 00:14:55.550 --> 00:14:58.286
  • THAT WE LOST MY MOM.BUT, IN THE PAST TWO YEARS
  • 00:14:58.286 --> 00:15:00.121
  • BUT, IN THE PAST TWO YEARSWE HAVE LOST EIGHT FAMILY
  • 00:15:00.121 --> 00:15:01.356
  • WE HAVE LOST EIGHT FAMILYMEMBERS, MY MOTHER-IN-LAW
  • 00:15:01.356 --> 00:15:02.790
  • MEMBERS, MY MOTHER-IN-LAWDIED EVEN JUST A COUPLE OF
  • 00:15:02.790 --> 00:15:03.691
  • DIED EVEN JUST A COUPLE OFMONTHS AGO.
  • 00:15:03.691 --> 00:15:05.460
  • MONTHS AGO.SO THERE HAS BEEN A
  • 00:15:05.460 --> 00:15:07.795
  • SO THERE HAS BEEN APROGRESSION OF TWO YEARS
  • 00:15:07.795 --> 00:15:10.064
  • PROGRESSION OF TWO YEARSOF LOSS AND ANGST AND HURT
  • 00:15:10.064 --> 00:15:11.799
  • OF LOSS AND ANGST AND HURTAND DISAPPOINTMENT AND
  • 00:15:11.799 --> 00:15:13.334
  • AND DISAPPOINTMENT ANDSHOCK.
  • 00:15:13.334 --> 00:15:14.635
  • SHOCK.OKAY?
  • 00:15:14.635 --> 00:15:17.739
  • OKAY?IN THE MIDST OF THAT, WE
  • 00:15:17.739 --> 00:15:20.274
  • IN THE MIDST OF THAT, WETHOUGHT TO OURSELVES,
  • 00:15:20.274 --> 00:15:21.009
  • THOUGHT TO OURSELVES,THERE HAVE BEEN-- I'M
  • 00:15:21.009 --> 00:15:21.509
  • THERE HAVE BEEN-- I'MGETTING READY TO BE 46
  • 00:15:21.509 --> 00:15:22.176
  • GETTING READY TO BE 46YEARS OLD.
  • 00:15:22.176 --> 00:15:25.413
  • YEARS OLD.THERE HAVE BEEN 44 YEARS
  • 00:15:25.413 --> 00:15:26.414
  • THERE HAVE BEEN 44 YEARSWHERE WE REALLY HAVEN'T
  • 00:15:26.414 --> 00:15:27.815
  • WHERE WE REALLY HAVEN'TLOST ANYBODY.
  • 00:15:27.815 --> 00:15:29.917
  • LOST ANYBODY.I LOST A GRANDPARENT,
  • 00:15:29.917 --> 00:15:30.718
  • I LOST A GRANDPARENT,I THINK, WHEN I WAS ABOUT 35.
  • 00:15:30.718 --> 00:15:31.786
  • I THINK, WHEN I WAS ABOUT 35.I THINK THAT WAS THE FIRST
  • 00:15:31.786 --> 00:15:32.353
  • I THINK THAT WAS THE FIRSTDEATH I EXPERIENCED IN OUR
  • 00:15:32.353 --> 00:15:35.823
  • DEATH I EXPERIENCED IN OURFAMILY.
  • 00:15:35.823 --> 00:15:36.691
  • FAMILY.SO WE EVEN TALKED
  • 00:15:36.691 --> 00:15:38.593
  • SO WE EVEN TALKEDCOLLECTIVELY THAT WE COULD
  • 00:15:38.593 --> 00:15:40.628
  • COLLECTIVELY THAT WE COULDEITHER BLAME GOD AND BE
  • 00:15:40.628 --> 00:15:42.163
  • EITHER BLAME GOD AND BEUPSET WITH GOD AND POINT
  • 00:15:42.163 --> 00:15:43.898
  • UPSET WITH GOD AND POINTOUR FINGER AT GOD AND HAVE
  • 00:15:43.898 --> 00:15:45.466
  • OUR FINGER AT GOD AND HAVEBITTER HARDENED HEARTS AND
  • 00:15:45.466 --> 00:15:46.667
  • BITTER HARDENED HEARTS ANDBE DESPAIRING AND UPSET
  • 00:15:46.667 --> 00:15:47.268
  • BE DESPAIRING AND UPSETAND DISAPPOINTED AND
  • 00:15:47.268 --> 00:15:50.338
  • AND DISAPPOINTED ANDFISSURED IN OUR HEARTS AND
  • 00:15:50.338 --> 00:15:51.706
  • FISSURED IN OUR HEARTS ANDMINDS OVER THE DIFFICULTY
  • 00:15:51.706 --> 00:15:54.142
  • MINDS OVER THE DIFFICULTYOF THE PAST TWO YEARS AND
  • 00:15:54.142 --> 00:15:55.443
  • OF THE PAST TWO YEARS ANDTHEY HAVE BEEN DIFFICULT.
  • 00:15:55.443 --> 00:15:57.145
  • THEY HAVE BEEN DIFFICULT.BUT IT IS NOT A DENIAL OF
  • 00:15:57.145 --> 00:15:58.446
  • BUT IT IS NOT A DENIAL OFTHAT DIFFICULTY AND THE
  • 00:15:58.446 --> 00:16:00.214
  • THAT DIFFICULTY AND THEHARDSHIP OF IT TO ALSO AT
  • 00:16:00.214 --> 00:16:01.949
  • HARDSHIP OF IT TO ALSO ATTHE SAME TIME LOOK BACK AT
  • 00:16:01.949 --> 00:16:03.217
  • THE SAME TIME LOOK BACK ATALL OF THE YEARS WHERE GOD
  • 00:16:03.217 --> 00:16:05.319
  • ALL OF THE YEARS WHERE GODHAS BEEN SO GRACIOUS TO
  • 00:16:05.319 --> 00:16:08.156
  • HAS BEEN SO GRACIOUS TOSTAVE OFF THAT AMOUNT OF
  • 00:16:08.156 --> 00:16:11.392
  • STAVE OFF THAT AMOUNT OFHURT IN THAT FORM, TO
  • 00:16:11.392 --> 00:16:12.560
  • HURT IN THAT FORM, TOCONCIOUSLY LOOK BACK AND GO,
  • 00:16:12.560 --> 00:16:13.694
  • CONCIOUSLY LOOK BACK AND GO,LORD, THANK YOU SO MUCH
  • 00:16:13.694 --> 00:16:15.530
  • LORD, THANK YOU SO MUCHTHAT FOR 70 YEARS I
  • 00:16:15.530 --> 00:16:17.865
  • THAT FOR 70 YEARS IHAD MY MOM.
  • 00:16:17.865 --> 00:16:18.866
  • HAD MY MOM.DO I WISH I WOULD HAVE HAD
  • 00:16:18.866 --> 00:16:19.500
  • DO I WISH I WOULD HAVE HADHER FOR TWENTY OR THIRTY
  • 00:16:19.500 --> 00:16:19.934
  • HER FOR TWENTY OR THIRTYMORE?
  • 00:16:19.934 --> 00:16:20.868
  • MORE?YES.
  • 00:16:20.868 --> 00:16:21.869
  • YES.BUT GOD, I'M NOT GONNA LET
  • 00:16:21.869 --> 00:16:23.071
  • BUT GOD, I'M NOT GONNA LETTHAT REALITY KEEP ME FROM
  • 00:16:23.071 --> 00:16:24.939
  • THAT REALITY KEEP ME FROMSAYING THANK YOU SO MUCH
  • 00:16:24.939 --> 00:16:27.475
  • SAYING THANK YOU SO MUCHFOR WHAT YOU HAVE DONE AND
  • 00:16:27.475 --> 00:16:29.277
  • FOR WHAT YOU HAVE DONE ANDTHAT LITTLE BIT OF
  • 00:16:29.277 --> 00:16:29.811
  • THAT LITTLE BIT OFGRATITUDE REMINDING
  • 00:16:29.811 --> 00:16:32.080
  • GRATITUDE REMINDINGOURSELVES OF THE
  • 00:16:32.080 --> 00:16:32.613
  • OURSELVES OF THEFAITHFULNESS OF GOD, IT
  • 00:16:32.613 --> 00:16:34.015
  • FAITHFULNESS OF GOD, ITCHANGES THE WHOLE
  • 00:16:34.015 --> 00:16:35.383
  • CHANGES THE WHOLETRAJECTORY OF THE WAY
  • 00:16:35.383 --> 00:16:36.350
  • TRAJECTORY OF THE WAYWE'VE BEEN WALKING THROUGH
  • 00:16:36.350 --> 00:16:38.453
  • WE'VE BEEN WALKING THROUGHTHE DIFFICULTY WE FACE.
  • 00:16:38.453 --> 00:16:39.587
  • THE DIFFICULTY WE FACE.- LAURIE: SO GOOD.
  • 00:16:39.587 --> 00:16:41.055
  • - LAURIE: SO GOOD.- HOSANNA: AMEN.
  • 00:16:41.055 --> 00:16:41.956
  • - HOSANNA: AMEN.I LOVE THAT YOU SAID,
  • 00:16:41.956 --> 00:16:43.124
  • I LOVE THAT YOU SAID,PRISCILLA THAT BEING
  • 00:16:43.124 --> 00:16:43.925
  • PRISCILLA THAT BEINGGRATEFUL AND SHARING
  • 00:16:43.925 --> 00:16:46.461
  • GRATEFUL AND SHARINGTHANKFULNESS DOES NOT MEAN
  • 00:16:46.461 --> 00:16:48.129
  • THANKFULNESS DOES NOT MEANIT'S DENIAL OF THE PAIN
  • 00:16:48.129 --> 00:16:50.965
  • IT'S DENIAL OF THE PAINYOU ARE FEELING.
  • 00:16:50.965 --> 00:16:51.532
  • YOU ARE FEELING.I LOVE THAT DISTINCTION SO
  • 00:16:51.532 --> 00:16:51.833
  • I LOVE THAT DISTINCTION SOMUCH.
  • 00:16:51.833 --> 00:16:52.567
  • MUCH.BECAUSE I THINK FOR SO MANY
  • 00:16:52.567 --> 00:16:55.837
  • BECAUSE I THINK FOR SO MANYPEOPLE THEY MAY FEEL LIKE
  • 00:16:55.837 --> 00:16:56.337
  • PEOPLE THEY MAY FEEL LIKEIF I JUST SAY ALL THESE
  • 00:16:56.337 --> 00:16:56.871
  • IF I JUST SAY ALL THESETHINGS I'M GRATEFUL FOR
  • 00:16:56.871 --> 00:16:57.438
  • THINGS I'M GRATEFUL FORI'M BEING FAKE OR I'M NOT
  • 00:16:57.438 --> 00:16:58.005
  • I'M BEING FAKE OR I'M NOTBEING REAL, BECAUSE THIS
  • 00:16:58.005 --> 00:16:58.539
  • BEING REAL, BECAUSE THISIS WHAT I'M REALLY GOING
  • 00:16:58.539 --> 00:16:59.340
  • IS WHAT I'M REALLY GOINGTHROUGH.
  • 00:16:59.340 --> 00:16:59.774
  • THROUGH.WE ARE CERTAINLY NOT
  • 00:16:59.774 --> 00:17:01.309
  • WE ARE CERTAINLY NOTADVOCATING THAT SOMEONE'S
  • 00:17:01.309 --> 00:17:02.143
  • ADVOCATING THAT SOMEONE'SNOT REAL WITH WHAT THEY
  • 00:17:02.143 --> 00:17:02.543
  • NOT REAL WITH WHAT THEYARE GOING THROUGH.
  • 00:17:02.543 --> 00:17:03.277
  • ARE GOING THROUGH.THE BEST THINGS ABOUT
  • 00:17:03.277 --> 00:17:04.011
  • THE BEST THINGS ABOUTJESUS IS HE IS EMANUEL,
  • 00:17:04.011 --> 00:17:06.080
  • JESUS IS HE IS EMANUEL,GOD WITH US, THE POWER OF
  • 00:17:06.080 --> 00:17:07.949
  • GOD WITH US, THE POWER OFJESUS IS MANIFESTED IN
  • 00:17:07.949 --> 00:17:08.883
  • JESUS IS MANIFESTED INWHAT WE'RE REALLY GOING
  • 00:17:08.883 --> 00:17:09.917
  • WHAT WE'RE REALLY GOINGTHROUGH AND BEING HONEST
  • 00:17:09.917 --> 00:17:10.651
  • THROUGH AND BEING HONESTWITH WHAT WE'RE REALLY
  • 00:17:10.651 --> 00:17:11.185
  • WITH WHAT WE'RE REALLYGOING THROUGH.
  • 00:17:11.185 --> 00:17:12.186
  • GOING THROUGH.SO I LOVE THAT DISTINCTION
  • 00:17:12.186 --> 00:17:12.653
  • SO I LOVE THAT DISTINCTIONYOU MADE.
  • 00:17:12.653 --> 00:17:14.021
  • YOU MADE.BUT WHAT I LOVE ABOUT
  • 00:17:14.021 --> 00:17:15.256
  • BUT WHAT I LOVE ABOUTGRATITUDE, NOT DENYING
  • 00:17:15.256 --> 00:17:16.424
  • GRATITUDE, NOT DENYINGWHAT WE'RE GOING THROUGH,
  • 00:17:16.424 --> 00:17:18.593
  • WHAT WE'RE GOING THROUGH,BUT BEING GRATEFUL IN THE
  • 00:17:18.593 --> 00:17:19.160
  • BUT BEING GRATEFUL IN THEMIDDLE OF WHAT WE'RE GOING
  • 00:17:19.160 --> 00:17:20.695
  • MIDDLE OF WHAT WE'RE GOINGTHROUGH IS THAT, WHILE WE
  • 00:17:20.695 --> 00:17:21.796
  • THROUGH IS THAT, WHILE WEWANT TO BE REAL WITH THE
  • 00:17:21.796 --> 00:17:23.131
  • WANT TO BE REAL WITH THEPAIN WE'RE FEELING, WE
  • 00:17:23.131 --> 00:17:24.532
  • PAIN WE'RE FEELING, WEARE TAKING POWER FROM THE
  • 00:17:24.532 --> 00:17:26.934
  • ARE TAKING POWER FROM THEENEMY.
  • 00:17:26.934 --> 00:17:27.502
  • ENEMY.WE'RE TAKING POWER FROM
  • 00:17:27.502 --> 00:17:28.703
  • WE'RE TAKING POWER FROMTHE ENEMY BY SAYING, WE'RE
  • 00:17:28.703 --> 00:17:29.270
  • THE ENEMY BY SAYING, WE'RENOT GONNA FOCUS ON ALL THE
  • 00:17:29.270 --> 00:17:29.937
  • NOT GONNA FOCUS ON ALL THETHINGS WE DO NOT HAVE.
  • 00:17:29.937 --> 00:17:30.771
  • THINGS WE DO NOT HAVE.ALL THE THINGS WE WISH WE
  • 00:17:30.771 --> 00:17:31.606
  • ALL THE THINGS WE WISH WEHAD.
  • 00:17:31.606 --> 00:17:32.673
  • HAD.BECAUSE, CERTAINLY,
  • 00:17:32.673 --> 00:17:33.774
  • BECAUSE, CERTAINLY,WHATEVER WE ARE FOCUSING
  • 00:17:33.774 --> 00:17:34.976
  • WHATEVER WE ARE FOCUSINGON WE WILL FIND.
  • 00:17:34.976 --> 00:17:36.577
  • ON WE WILL FIND.WHATEVER DOOR WE'RE
  • 00:17:36.577 --> 00:17:38.212
  • WHATEVER DOOR WE'REKNOCKING ON WE'LL OPEN.
  • 00:17:38.212 --> 00:17:40.148
  • KNOCKING ON WE'LL OPEN.WHATEVER WE ARE ASKING
  • 00:17:40.148 --> 00:17:40.615
  • WHATEVER WE ARE ASKINGFOR, WE'LL SEE.
  • 00:17:40.615 --> 00:17:41.649
  • FOR, WE'LL SEE.IF WE ARE LOOKING FOR ALL
  • 00:17:41.649 --> 00:17:42.517
  • IF WE ARE LOOKING FOR ALLTHE THINGS WE DON'T HAVE,
  • 00:17:42.517 --> 00:17:43.084
  • THE THINGS WE DON'T HAVE,WE WILL BE VERY SUCCESSFUL
  • 00:17:43.084 --> 00:17:43.818
  • WE WILL BE VERY SUCCESSFULIN FINDING IT.
  • 00:17:43.818 --> 00:17:44.485
  • IN FINDING IT.SO WHAT I LOVE ABOUT THE
  • 00:17:44.485 --> 00:17:47.488
  • SO WHAT I LOVE ABOUT THEFOCUS OF GRATITUDE IS THE
  • 00:17:47.488 --> 00:17:49.457
  • FOCUS OF GRATITUDE IS THETHOUGHT THAT I'M GOING TO
  • 00:17:49.457 --> 00:17:51.225
  • THOUGHT THAT I'M GOING TOFOCUS ON STEALING THE
  • 00:17:51.225 --> 00:17:52.560
  • FOCUS ON STEALING THEENEMY'S VICTORY.
  • 00:17:52.560 --> 00:17:54.729
  • ENEMY'S VICTORY.I'M GONNA FOCUS ON TAKING
  • 00:17:54.729 --> 00:17:55.997
  • I'M GONNA FOCUS ON TAKINGBACK WHAT HE STOLE FROM
  • 00:17:55.997 --> 00:17:56.464
  • BACK WHAT HE STOLE FROMME.
  • 00:17:56.464 --> 00:17:57.532
  • ME.I'M GONNA FOCUS ON WHAT DO
  • 00:17:57.532 --> 00:17:58.966
  • I'M GONNA FOCUS ON WHAT DOI HAVE, THE YEARS I HAD
  • 00:17:58.966 --> 00:18:01.202
  • I HAVE, THE YEARS I HADWITH MY PARENTS, THE YEARS
  • 00:18:01.202 --> 00:18:02.370
  • WITH MY PARENTS, THE YEARSI HAD WITH MY SPOUSE.
  • 00:18:02.370 --> 00:18:03.704
  • I HAD WITH MY SPOUSE.THE YEARS I HAD FINANCIAL
  • 00:18:03.704 --> 00:18:04.705
  • THE YEARS I HAD FINANCIALSTABILITY.
  • 00:18:04.705 --> 00:18:05.973
  • STABILITY.THE YEARS I HAD WITH MY
  • 00:18:05.973 --> 00:18:06.974
  • THE YEARS I HAD WITH MYKIDS, THE YEARS I HAD GOOD
  • 00:18:06.974 --> 00:18:07.475
  • KIDS, THE YEARS I HAD GOODHEALTH.
  • 00:18:07.475 --> 00:18:08.976
  • HEALTH.GOD, WHAT DO I HAVE?
  • 00:18:08.976 --> 00:18:10.344
  • GOD, WHAT DO I HAVE?WHAT OPPORTUNITIES DO I
  • 00:18:10.344 --> 00:18:11.412
  • WHAT OPPORTUNITIES DO IHAVE IN THE MIDDLE OF A
  • 00:18:11.412 --> 00:18:12.947
  • HAVE IN THE MIDDLE OF AFIRE, IN THE MIDDLE OF A
  • 00:18:12.947 --> 00:18:14.315
  • FIRE, IN THE MIDDLE OF ASTORM, OR IN THE MIDDLE OF
  • 00:18:14.315 --> 00:18:15.116
  • STORM, OR IN THE MIDDLE OFTHIS HARD SITUATION THAT I
  • 00:18:15.116 --> 00:18:16.517
  • THIS HARD SITUATION THAT IDID NOT EVEN HAVE BEFORE.
  • 00:18:16.517 --> 00:18:17.418
  • DID NOT EVEN HAVE BEFORE.LORD, LET ME FIGHT WHAT
  • 00:18:17.418 --> 00:18:20.821
  • LORD, LET ME FIGHT WHATTHE ENEMY IS THROWING AT
  • 00:18:20.821 --> 00:18:21.822
  • THE ENEMY IS THROWING ATME WITH THE FOCUS OF
  • 00:18:21.822 --> 00:18:22.723
  • ME WITH THE FOCUS OFGRATITUDE.
  • 00:18:22.723 --> 00:18:24.659
  • GRATITUDE.TO ACKNOWLEDGE THE PAIN
  • 00:18:24.659 --> 00:18:25.793
  • TO ACKNOWLEDGE THE PAINI'M GOING THROUGH AND ALSO
  • 00:18:25.793 --> 00:18:26.861
  • I'M GOING THROUGH AND ALSOTO CHOOSE TO BE THANKFUL
  • 00:18:26.861 --> 00:18:27.929
  • TO CHOOSE TO BE THANKFULIN THE MIDDLE OF THIS
  • 00:18:27.929 --> 00:18:28.729
  • IN THE MIDDLE OF THISSEASON.
  • 00:18:28.729 --> 00:18:29.363
  • SEASON.I THINK THAT IS SO
  • 00:18:29.363 --> 00:18:30.198
  • I THINK THAT IS SOPOWERFUL.
  • 00:18:30.198 --> 00:18:30.831
  • POWERFUL.WHAT DO YOU THINK,
  • 00:18:30.831 --> 00:18:31.532
  • WHAT DO YOU THINK,DR. ANITA?
  • 00:18:31.532 --> 00:18:32.066
  • DR. ANITA?IS THERE A WAY FOR US TO
  • 00:18:32.066 --> 00:18:32.733
  • IS THERE A WAY FOR US TOBALANCE THAT?
  • 00:18:32.733 --> 00:18:33.467
  • BALANCE THAT?THE DENIAL.
  • 00:18:33.467 --> 00:18:35.236
  • THE DENIAL.PRETEND EVERYTHING'S FINE
  • 00:18:35.236 --> 00:18:37.004
  • PRETEND EVERYTHING'S FINEAND AFTER THE GRATITUDE.
  • 00:18:37.004 --> 00:18:37.672
  • AND AFTER THE GRATITUDE.IS THERE A WAY FOR US TO
  • 00:18:37.672 --> 00:18:39.941
  • IS THERE A WAY FOR US TOBALANCE OR SUCCEED AT
  • 00:18:39.941 --> 00:18:41.709
  • BALANCE OR SUCCEED ATBOTH?
  • 00:18:41.709 --> 00:18:42.877
  • BOTH?- ANITA: YOU HIT IT ON
  • 00:18:42.877 --> 00:18:43.377
  • - ANITA: YOU HIT IT ONTHE HEAD.
  • 00:18:43.377 --> 00:18:45.513
  • THE HEAD.IT IS THE THEME OF 2020.
  • 00:18:45.513 --> 00:18:46.981
  • IT IS THE THEME OF 2020.THE WORD WE HAVE NOT USED
  • 00:18:46.981 --> 00:18:47.782
  • THE WORD WE HAVE NOT USEDYET IN THIS CONVERSATION
  • 00:18:47.782 --> 00:18:48.649
  • YET IN THIS CONVERSATIONIS GRIEF.
  • 00:18:48.649 --> 00:18:50.418
  • IS GRIEF.WE HAVE NOT USED THE WORD
  • 00:18:50.418 --> 00:18:51.719
  • WE HAVE NOT USED THE WORDGRIEF JUST YET, BUT THAT'S
  • 00:18:51.719 --> 00:18:52.787
  • GRIEF JUST YET, BUT THAT'SWHAT WE'RE ALL TALKING
  • 00:18:52.787 --> 00:18:53.821
  • WHAT WE'RE ALL TALKINGABOUT.
  • 00:18:53.821 --> 00:18:55.089
  • ABOUT.WHEN YOU HAVE A SUDDEN
  • 00:18:55.089 --> 00:18:56.824
  • WHEN YOU HAVE A SUDDENLOSS WHETHER IT IS
  • 00:18:56.824 --> 00:18:57.992
  • LOSS WHETHER IT ISPRISCILLA LOST HER MOM OR
  • 00:18:57.992 --> 00:18:59.160
  • PRISCILLA LOST HER MOM ORNATALIE'S VOICE WAS
  • 00:18:59.160 --> 00:19:00.127
  • NATALIE'S VOICE WASTHREATENED, THERE IS A
  • 00:19:00.127 --> 00:19:01.562
  • THREATENED, THERE IS AGRIEF IN THAT MOMENT.
  • 00:19:01.562 --> 00:19:02.730
  • GRIEF IN THAT MOMENT.THREAT BRINGS A GRIEF.
  • 00:19:02.730 --> 00:19:03.731
  • THREAT BRINGS A GRIEF.LIKE YOU SAID, FINANCIAL
  • 00:19:03.731 --> 00:19:04.832
  • LIKE YOU SAID, FINANCIALDIFFICULTIES.
  • 00:19:04.832 --> 00:19:06.500
  • DIFFICULTIES.THIS YEAR PEOPLE HAVE
  • 00:19:06.500 --> 00:19:07.635
  • THIS YEAR PEOPLE HAVEMISSED OUT ON WEDDINGS,
  • 00:19:07.635 --> 00:19:08.569
  • MISSED OUT ON WEDDINGS,FUNERALS WITH LOVED ONES,
  • 00:19:08.569 --> 00:19:10.071
  • FUNERALS WITH LOVED ONES,BABY SHOWERS, GRADUATIONS.
  • 00:19:10.071 --> 00:19:10.671
  • BABY SHOWERS, GRADUATIONS.WE ALL GRIEVED SOMETHING
  • 00:19:10.671 --> 00:19:12.940
  • WE ALL GRIEVED SOMETHINGIN THIS YEAR.
  • 00:19:12.940 --> 00:19:14.108
  • IN THIS YEAR.AND WHAT WE'RE BEING
  • 00:19:14.108 --> 00:19:16.611
  • AND WHAT WE'RE BEINGCHALLENGED TO DO IS TO
  • 00:19:16.611 --> 00:19:17.378
  • CHALLENGED TO DO IS TOLIVE AT THE INTERSECTION
  • 00:19:17.378 --> 00:19:18.946
  • LIVE AT THE INTERSECTIONOF GRIEF AND GRATITUDE.
  • 00:19:18.946 --> 00:19:20.448
  • OF GRIEF AND GRATITUDE.IT'S NOT AN EITHER OR.
  • 00:19:20.448 --> 00:19:21.882
  • IT'S NOT AN EITHER OR.WE'RE NOT IN A BINARY
  • 00:19:21.882 --> 00:19:23.284
  • WE'RE NOT IN A BINARYSTATE RIGHT NOW.
  • 00:19:23.284 --> 00:19:25.553
  • STATE RIGHT NOW.WE ARE LEARNING TO LIVE AT
  • 00:19:25.553 --> 00:19:26.220
  • WE ARE LEARNING TO LIVE ATTHE INTERSECTION OF GRIEF
  • 00:19:26.220 --> 00:19:27.688
  • THE INTERSECTION OF GRIEFAND GRATITUDE.
  • 00:19:27.688 --> 00:19:28.856
  • AND GRATITUDE.YOU CAN BE GRATEFUL AND
  • 00:19:28.856 --> 00:19:30.458
  • YOU CAN BE GRATEFUL ANDSTILL HAVE SOME PAIN IN
  • 00:19:30.458 --> 00:19:31.993
  • STILL HAVE SOME PAIN INTHE SAME MOMENT.
  • 00:19:31.993 --> 00:19:34.562
  • THE SAME MOMENT.AND YOU'RE NOT FAILING TO
  • 00:19:34.562 --> 00:19:35.663
  • AND YOU'RE NOT FAILING TOBE GRATEFUL IF THERE'S
  • 00:19:35.663 --> 00:19:36.731
  • BE GRATEFUL IF THERE'SSTILL SOME PAIN PRESENT IN
  • 00:19:36.731 --> 00:19:37.231
  • STILL SOME PAIN PRESENT INTHAT MOMENT.
  • 00:19:37.231 --> 00:19:38.599
  • THAT MOMENT.MY FOOT MIGHT HURT BUT
  • 00:19:38.599 --> 00:19:39.533
  • MY FOOT MIGHT HURT BUTTHAT DOES NOT MEAN MY HAND
  • 00:19:39.533 --> 00:19:40.468
  • THAT DOES NOT MEAN MY HANDHURTS.
  • 00:19:40.468 --> 00:19:41.402
  • HURTS.AND IF MY FOOT HURTS, I'M
  • 00:19:41.402 --> 00:19:42.403
  • AND IF MY FOOT HURTS, I'MSTILL GONNA FIND A WAY TO
  • 00:19:42.403 --> 00:19:43.437
  • STILL GONNA FIND A WAY TOUSE MY HAND FOR SOMETHING.
  • 00:19:43.437 --> 00:19:44.505
  • USE MY HAND FOR SOMETHING.I'M NOT GONNA ALLOW MY
  • 00:19:44.505 --> 00:19:45.706
  • I'M NOT GONNA ALLOW MYWHOLE BODY TO PARALYZED
  • 00:19:45.706 --> 00:19:46.574
  • WHOLE BODY TO PARALYZEDBECAUSE I HAVE A PAIN IN
  • 00:19:46.574 --> 00:19:47.642
  • BECAUSE I HAVE A PAIN INONE SPACE.
  • 00:19:47.642 --> 00:19:48.976
  • ONE SPACE.IN THE SAME WAY THERE CAN
  • 00:19:48.976 --> 00:19:50.411
  • IN THE SAME WAY THERE CANBE GRIEF AND SOME PAIN AND
  • 00:19:50.411 --> 00:19:51.679
  • BE GRIEF AND SOME PAIN ANDEVE DESPAIR IN YOUR SOUL.
  • 00:19:51.679 --> 00:19:52.880
  • EVE DESPAIR IN YOUR SOUL.YOU CAN ALSO SPEAK
  • 00:19:52.880 --> 00:19:53.614
  • YOU CAN ALSO SPEAKGRATEFULNESS AND STAY IN
  • 00:19:53.614 --> 00:19:55.116
  • GRATEFULNESS AND STAY INTOUCH WITH THAT.
  • 00:19:55.116 --> 00:19:57.084
  • TOUCH WITH THAT.IF WE WOULD STRIVE TO BE
  • 00:19:57.084 --> 00:20:00.254
  • IF WE WOULD STRIVE TO BEWILLING TO EXPERIENCE
  • 00:20:00.254 --> 00:20:01.522
  • WILLING TO EXPERIENCEBOTH, GRIEF AND GRATITUDE
  • 00:20:01.522 --> 00:20:03.591
  • BOTH, GRIEF AND GRATITUDESIMULTANEOUSLY, YOU WILL
  • 00:20:03.591 --> 00:20:05.059
  • SIMULTANEOUSLY, YOU WILLSEE THAT GRADUALLY, OVER
  • 00:20:05.059 --> 00:20:06.661
  • SEE THAT GRADUALLY, OVERTIME GRIEF DOES BEGIN TO
  • 00:20:06.661 --> 00:20:08.362
  • TIME GRIEF DOES BEGIN TOWORK ITSELF OUT AND
  • 00:20:08.362 --> 00:20:09.664
  • WORK ITSELF OUT ANDTRANSFORM ITS SHAPE AND
  • 00:20:09.664 --> 00:20:12.333
  • TRANSFORM ITS SHAPE ANDMAYBE BE A LITTLE LESS
  • 00:20:12.333 --> 00:20:12.833
  • MAYBE BE A LITTLE LESSACUTE, EVEN IF IT'S
  • 00:20:12.833 --> 00:20:13.701
  • ACUTE, EVEN IF IT'SPRESENT, AND GRATITUDE
  • 00:20:13.701 --> 00:20:14.735
  • PRESENT, AND GRATITUDEGAINS STRENGTH.
  • 00:20:14.735 --> 00:20:16.270
  • GAINS STRENGTH.SO IT'S NOT AN EITHER OR
  • 00:20:16.270 --> 00:20:17.738
  • SO IT'S NOT AN EITHER ORIN ANY INDIVIDUAL MOMENT.
  • 00:20:17.738 --> 00:20:18.673
  • IN ANY INDIVIDUAL MOMENT.LIVE AT THE INTERSECTION
  • 00:20:18.673 --> 00:20:20.474
  • LIVE AT THE INTERSECTIONOF GRIEF AND GRATITUDE.
  • 00:20:20.474 --> 00:20:21.509
  • OF GRIEF AND GRATITUDE.- NATALIE: I LOVE THAT SO
  • 00:20:21.509 --> 00:20:22.777
  • - NATALIE: I LOVE THAT SOMUCH.
  • 00:20:22.777 --> 00:20:23.678
  • MUCH.IF I COULD INTERJECT.
  • 00:20:23.678 --> 00:20:25.079
  • IF I COULD INTERJECT.IT ACTUALLY MADE ME THINK
  • 00:20:25.079 --> 00:20:26.147
  • IT ACTUALLY MADE ME THINKOF A SCRIPTURE THAT I
  • 00:20:26.147 --> 00:20:27.315
  • OF A SCRIPTURE THAT IQUICKLY LOOKED UP.
  • 00:20:27.315 --> 00:20:29.216
  • QUICKLY LOOKED UP.IT'S IN LAMENTATIONS 3.
  • 00:20:29.216 --> 00:20:30.618
  • IT'S IN LAMENTATIONS 3.IT SAYS IN LAMENTATIONS
  • 00:20:30.618 --> 00:20:32.053
  • IT SAYS IN LAMENTATIONS3:20.
  • 00:20:32.053 --> 00:20:33.187
  • 3:20."I WILL NEVER FORGET THIS
  • 00:20:33.187 --> 00:20:36.223
  • "I WILL NEVER FORGET THISAWFUL TIME AS I GRIEVE
  • 00:20:36.223 --> 00:20:38.726
  • AWFUL TIME AS I GRIEVEOVER MY LOSS, YET--" I
  • 00:20:38.726 --> 00:20:39.493
  • OVER MY LOSS, YET--" ILOVE THAT WORD "YET" IN
  • 00:20:39.493 --> 00:20:40.695
  • LOVE THAT WORD "YET" INSCRIPTURE SO MUCH.
  • 00:20:40.695 --> 00:20:43.030
  • SCRIPTURE SO MUCH."YET, I STILL DARE TO HOPE
  • 00:20:43.030 --> 00:20:45.800
  • "YET, I STILL DARE TO HOPEWHEN I REMEMBER THIS.
  • 00:20:45.800 --> 00:20:48.436
  • WHEN I REMEMBER THIS.THE FAITHFUL LOVE OF THE
  • 00:20:48.436 --> 00:20:50.104
  • THE FAITHFUL LOVE OF THELORD NEVER ENDS.
  • 00:20:50.104 --> 00:20:52.073
  • LORD NEVER ENDS.HIS MERCIES NEVER CEASE.
  • 00:20:52.073 --> 00:20:53.374
  • HIS MERCIES NEVER CEASE.GREAT IS HIS FAITHFULNESS.
  • 00:20:53.374 --> 00:20:55.543
  • GREAT IS HIS FAITHFULNESS.HIS MERCIES BEGIN AFRESH
  • 00:20:55.543 --> 00:20:56.644
  • HIS MERCIES BEGIN AFRESHEACH MORNING.
  • 00:20:56.644 --> 00:20:58.646
  • EACH MORNING.I SAY TO MYSELF, THE LORD
  • 00:20:58.646 --> 00:20:59.780
  • I SAY TO MYSELF, THE LORDIS MY INHERITANCE,
  • 00:20:59.780 --> 00:21:01.048
  • IS MY INHERITANCE,THEREFORE, I WILL HOPE IN HIM."
  • 00:21:01.048 --> 00:21:02.350
  • THEREFORE, I WILL HOPE IN HIM."SO EVEN THAT JUST
  • 00:21:02.350 --> 00:21:03.984
  • SO EVEN THAT JUSTRIGHT THERE, THAT EXAMPLE
  • 00:21:03.984 --> 00:21:04.652
  • RIGHT THERE, THAT EXAMPLEFOR US THAT SAYS, I'M
  • 00:21:04.652 --> 00:21:06.454
  • FOR US THAT SAYS, I'MNEVER GONNA FORGET AND I'M
  • 00:21:06.454 --> 00:21:08.856
  • NEVER GONNA FORGET AND I'MGRIEVING IN THIS MOMENT,
  • 00:21:08.856 --> 00:21:12.259
  • GRIEVING IN THIS MOMENT,YET I STILL DARE TO HOPE.
  • 00:21:12.259 --> 00:21:13.461
  • YET I STILL DARE TO HOPE.AND I LOVE THAT SO MUCH.
  • 00:21:13.461 --> 00:21:14.428
  • AND I LOVE THAT SO MUCH.IT IS POSSIBLE FOR BOTH.
  • 00:21:14.428 --> 00:21:16.230
  • IT IS POSSIBLE FOR BOTH.YOU KNOW?
  • 00:21:16.230 --> 00:21:18.532
  • YOU KNOW?AND YET HOPE PREVAILS.
  • 00:21:18.532 --> 00:21:20.568
  • AND YET HOPE PREVAILS.HOPE PREVAILS.
  • 00:21:20.568 --> 00:21:21.369
  • HOPE PREVAILS.- PRISCILLA: NATALIE,
  • 00:21:21.369 --> 00:21:21.902
  • - PRISCILLA: NATALIE,THAT'S SO COOL WHEN YOU
  • 00:21:21.902 --> 00:21:24.238
  • THAT'S SO COOL WHEN YOUSAY DARE TO HOPE.
  • 00:21:24.238 --> 00:21:24.739
  • SAY DARE TO HOPE.BECAUSE I IMMEDIATELY
  • 00:21:24.739 --> 00:21:25.906
  • BECAUSE I IMMEDIATELYTHINK OF YOU IN CHARLOTTE
  • 00:21:25.906 --> 00:21:27.508
  • THINK OF YOU IN CHARLOTTEAND DARE TO BELIEVE.
  • 00:21:27.508 --> 00:21:28.075
  • AND DARE TO BELIEVE.IT'S JUST THE WHOLE POINT
  • 00:21:28.075 --> 00:21:29.076
  • IT'S JUST THE WHOLE POINTOF YOUR MINISTRY IS
  • 00:21:29.076 --> 00:21:29.944
  • OF YOUR MINISTRY ISDARING.
  • 00:21:29.944 --> 00:21:31.345
  • DARING.THERE IS AN AUDACITY.
  • 00:21:31.345 --> 00:21:33.547
  • THERE IS AN AUDACITY.THERE IS AN AUDACITY AND A
  • 00:21:33.547 --> 00:21:35.983
  • THERE IS AN AUDACITY AND ADARING TO HOPE AGAINST THE
  • 00:21:35.983 --> 00:21:37.385
  • DARING TO HOPE AGAINST THEODDS.
  • 00:21:37.385 --> 00:21:38.619
  • ODDS.AND I REALLY DO THINK
  • 00:21:38.619 --> 00:21:39.854
  • AND I REALLY DO THINKTHAT, PARTICULARLY THOSE
  • 00:21:39.854 --> 00:21:40.788
  • THAT, PARTICULARLY THOSEOF US WHO LIVE IN THE
  • 00:21:40.788 --> 00:21:41.822
  • OF US WHO LIVE IN THEWESTERN PART OF THE WORLD,
  • 00:21:41.822 --> 00:21:43.090
  • WESTERN PART OF THE WORLD,AND WE'VE GOT TO BE
  • 00:21:43.090 --> 00:21:44.425
  • AND WE'VE GOT TO BECAREFUL ABOUT THIS WITH
  • 00:21:44.425 --> 00:21:46.060
  • CAREFUL ABOUT THIS WITHOUR CHILDREN, TO HELP THEM
  • 00:21:46.060 --> 00:21:46.727
  • OUR CHILDREN, TO HELP THEMTO UNDERSTAND THAT
  • 00:21:46.727 --> 00:21:48.062
  • TO UNDERSTAND THATSUFFERING AND GRIEF AND
  • 00:21:48.062 --> 00:21:51.098
  • SUFFERING AND GRIEF ANDDIFFICULT STUFF IS A PART
  • 00:21:51.098 --> 00:21:52.299
  • DIFFICULT STUFF IS A PARTOF LIFE, HAVING A
  • 00:21:52.299 --> 00:21:54.769
  • OF LIFE, HAVING ARELATIONSHIP WITH JESUS
  • 00:21:54.769 --> 00:21:56.670
  • RELATIONSHIP WITH JESUSDOES NOT CHANGE THE FACT
  • 00:21:56.670 --> 00:21:57.171
  • DOES NOT CHANGE THE FACTTHAT YOU LIVE ON PLANET
  • 00:21:57.171 --> 00:21:58.239
  • THAT YOU LIVE ON PLANETEARTH.
  • 00:21:58.239 --> 00:21:59.140
  • EARTH.WE ARE NOT GONNA BE IN
  • 00:21:59.140 --> 00:21:59.673
  • WE ARE NOT GONNA BE INHEAVEN UNTIL WE GET TO
  • 00:21:59.673 --> 00:22:00.241
  • HEAVEN UNTIL WE GET TOHEAVEN.
  • 00:22:00.241 --> 00:22:01.242
  • HEAVEN.SO WE HAVE TO EXPECT THE
  • 00:22:01.242 --> 00:22:02.543
  • SO WE HAVE TO EXPECT THESTUFF OF EARTH WHILE WE'RE
  • 00:22:02.543 --> 00:22:03.377
  • STUFF OF EARTH WHILE WE'REHERE.
  • 00:22:03.377 --> 00:22:05.079
  • HERE.I THINK IF OUR CHILDREN
  • 00:22:05.079 --> 00:22:06.680
  • I THINK IF OUR CHILDRENARE RAISED AND IF THIS
  • 00:22:06.680 --> 00:22:07.982
  • ARE RAISED AND IF THISGENERATION COMING UP
  • 00:22:07.982 --> 00:22:09.417
  • GENERATION COMING UPBEHIND US, IF EASE AND
  • 00:22:09.417 --> 00:22:10.351
  • BEHIND US, IF EASE ANDCONVENIENCE AND COMFORT
  • 00:22:10.351 --> 00:22:11.552
  • CONVENIENCE AND COMFORTISN'T THEIR MAIN GOAL AND
  • 00:22:11.552 --> 00:22:13.154
  • ISN'T THEIR MAIN GOAL ANDPRIORITY BUT THEY
  • 00:22:13.154 --> 00:22:14.488
  • PRIORITY BUT THEYRECOGNIZE THAT HAVING
  • 00:22:14.488 --> 00:22:16.824
  • RECOGNIZE THAT HAVINGABUNDANT LIFE WHICH IS THE
  • 00:22:16.824 --> 00:22:17.858
  • ABUNDANT LIFE WHICH IS THEBEAUTY OF THE HOLY SPIRIT,
  • 00:22:17.858 --> 00:22:20.261
  • BEAUTY OF THE HOLY SPIRIT,THE PEACE THAT PASSES
  • 00:22:20.261 --> 00:22:21.896
  • THE PEACE THAT PASSESUNDERSTANDING, FAITH, A
  • 00:22:21.896 --> 00:22:23.464
  • UNDERSTANDING, FAITH, AFIRM BELIEF, HOPE IN THE
  • 00:22:23.464 --> 00:22:25.433
  • FIRM BELIEF, HOPE IN THEMIDST OF ADVERSITY.
  • 00:22:25.433 --> 00:22:26.567
  • MIDST OF ADVERSITY.THAT'S PROOF OF THE
  • 00:22:26.567 --> 00:22:27.301
  • THAT'S PROOF OF THEHOLY SPIRIT.
  • 00:22:27.301 --> 00:22:29.236
  • HOLY SPIRIT.IT'S A MOM ON HER DEATH
  • 00:22:29.236 --> 00:22:31.739
  • IT'S A MOM ON HER DEATHBED SAYING, I CAN'T WAIT
  • 00:22:31.739 --> 00:22:32.373
  • BED SAYING, I CAN'T WAITTO MEET JESUS.
  • 00:22:32.373 --> 00:22:33.507
  • TO MEET JESUS.THAT RIGHT THERE IS PROOF
  • 00:22:33.507 --> 00:22:34.442
  • THAT RIGHT THERE IS PROOFOF THE HOLY SPIRIT.
  • 00:22:34.442 --> 00:22:35.676
  • OF THE HOLY SPIRIT.THAT'S ABUNDANT LIFE.
  • 00:22:35.676 --> 00:22:37.878
  • THAT'S ABUNDANT LIFE.THAT'S DARING TO HOPE IN
  • 00:22:37.878 --> 00:22:39.280
  • THAT'S DARING TO HOPE INTHE MIDST OF ADVERSITY.
  • 00:22:39.280 --> 00:22:40.581
  • THE MIDST OF ADVERSITY.I THINK WE HAVE TO BE SO
  • 00:22:40.581 --> 00:22:41.515
  • I THINK WE HAVE TO BE SOCAREFUL THAT THAT'S OUR
  • 00:22:41.515 --> 00:22:42.516
  • CAREFUL THAT THAT'S OURFRAMEWORK.
  • 00:22:42.516 --> 00:22:43.484
  • FRAMEWORK.THAT EVERYTHING AIN'T
  • 00:22:43.484 --> 00:22:45.419
  • THAT EVERYTHING AIN'TGONNA BE EASY, BUT LIKE
  • 00:22:45.419 --> 00:22:46.654
  • GONNA BE EASY, BUT LIKEDR. ANITA SAID, WE CAN
  • 00:22:46.654 --> 00:22:47.955
  • DR. ANITA SAID, WE CANGRIEVE AND ACKNOWLEDGE THE
  • 00:22:47.955 --> 00:22:50.357
  • GRIEVE AND ACKNOWLEDGE THEDIFFICULTY AND AT THE SAME
  • 00:22:50.357 --> 00:22:51.525
  • DIFFICULTY AND AT THE SAMETIME SAY, THANK YOU, LORD,
  • 00:22:51.525 --> 00:22:53.294
  • TIME SAY, THANK YOU, LORD,THAT THIS IS NOT THE END
  • 00:22:53.294 --> 00:22:55.729
  • THAT THIS IS NOT THE ENDOF MY STORY.
  • 00:22:55.729 --> 00:22:57.031
  • OF MY STORY.- ANITA: AMEN.
  • 00:22:57.031 --> 00:22:57.531
  • - ANITA: AMEN.WE'RE JUST GONNA PRAY
  • 00:22:57.531 --> 00:22:58.866
  • WE'RE JUST GONNA PRAYRIGHT NOW ON THAT MOMENT.
  • 00:22:58.866 --> 00:23:01.168
  • RIGHT NOW ON THAT MOMENT.I'M GETTING MYSELF
  • 00:23:01.168 --> 00:23:01.669
  • I'M GETTING MYSELFTOGETHER FROM WHAT YOU
  • 00:23:01.669 --> 00:23:02.369
  • TOGETHER FROM WHAT YOUJUST SAID ABOUT YOUR MOM,
  • 00:23:02.369 --> 00:23:03.571
  • JUST SAID ABOUT YOUR MOM,LOOKING FORWARD TO SEEING
  • 00:23:03.571 --> 00:23:04.672
  • LOOKING FORWARD TO SEEINGJESUS IN THAT MOMENT,
  • 00:23:04.672 --> 00:23:05.739
  • JESUS IN THAT MOMENT,BECAUSE IT'S SOMETHING FOR
  • 00:23:05.739 --> 00:23:06.907
  • BECAUSE IT'S SOMETHING FORUS ALL TO ASPIRE TO THAT
  • 00:23:06.907 --> 00:23:07.942
  • US ALL TO ASPIRE TO THATKIND OF PEACE BUT ALSO
  • 00:23:07.942 --> 00:23:10.044
  • KIND OF PEACE BUT ALSOHANGING ON TO THE BIG
  • 00:23:10.044 --> 00:23:10.911
  • HANGING ON TO THE BIGPICTURE, EVEN AT THIS
  • 00:23:10.911 --> 00:23:12.446
  • PICTURE, EVEN AT THISINTERSECTION OF GRACE AND
  • 00:23:12.446 --> 00:23:14.381
  • INTERSECTION OF GRACE ANDOF GRATEFULNESS AND GRIEF
  • 00:23:14.381 --> 00:23:14.915
  • OF GRATEFULNESS AND GRIEFWHERE WE ARE LIVING.
  • 00:23:14.915 --> 00:23:15.549
  • WHERE WE ARE LIVING.SO LET'S JUST PRAY FOR
  • 00:23:15.549 --> 00:23:16.383
  • SO LET'S JUST PRAY FOREVERYONE RIGHT NOW.
  • 00:23:16.383 --> 00:23:17.384
  • EVERYONE RIGHT NOW.FATHER, GOD, I JUST THANK
  • 00:23:17.384 --> 00:23:19.220
  • FATHER, GOD, I JUST THANKYOU FOR EVERYONE WATCHING
  • 00:23:19.220 --> 00:23:20.955
  • YOU FOR EVERYONE WATCHINGRIGHT NOW WHOSE HEART HAS
  • 00:23:20.955 --> 00:23:23.023
  • RIGHT NOW WHOSE HEART HASFELT OPENED UP JUST BY
  • 00:23:23.023 --> 00:23:23.691
  • FELT OPENED UP JUST BYHEARING US TALK ABOUT
  • 00:23:23.691 --> 00:23:26.427
  • HEARING US TALK ABOUTTHEIR PAIN.
  • 00:23:26.427 --> 00:23:28.162
  • THEIR PAIN.THANK YOU, GOD, THAT IN
  • 00:23:28.162 --> 00:23:28.696
  • THANK YOU, GOD, THAT INTHIS MOMENT YOU'VE GIVEN
  • 00:23:28.696 --> 00:23:30.431
  • THIS MOMENT YOU'VE GIVENSOME VOICE TO THEIR PAIN
  • 00:23:30.431 --> 00:23:31.699
  • SOME VOICE TO THEIR PAINAND THEY'RE FEELING SEEN
  • 00:23:31.699 --> 00:23:32.733
  • AND THEY'RE FEELING SEENAND FEELING HEARD BY THEIR
  • 00:23:32.733 --> 00:23:33.267
  • AND FEELING HEARD BY THEIRSISTERS IN THE LORD AND BY
  • 00:23:33.267 --> 00:23:34.401
  • SISTERS IN THE LORD AND BYYOU.
  • 00:23:34.401 --> 00:23:35.469
  • YOU.FATHER, GOD, I THANK YOU
  • 00:23:35.469 --> 00:23:36.470
  • FATHER, GOD, I THANK YOUFOR YOUR STRENGTH.
  • 00:23:36.470 --> 00:23:37.071
  • FOR YOUR STRENGTH.I THANK YOU FOR YOUR
  • 00:23:37.071 --> 00:23:38.005
  • I THANK YOU FOR YOURCOMFORT.
  • 00:23:38.005 --> 00:23:38.806
  • COMFORT.I THANK YOU FOR YOUR
  • 00:23:38.806 --> 00:23:39.673
  • I THANK YOU FOR YOURPEACE.
  • 00:23:39.673 --> 00:23:40.107
  • PEACE.I THANK YOU FOR YOUR
  • 00:23:40.107 --> 00:23:41.141
  • I THANK YOU FOR YOURENDURANCE.
  • 00:23:41.141 --> 00:23:41.642
  • ENDURANCE.I THANK YOU FOR YOUR
  • 00:23:41.642 --> 00:23:43.444
  • I THANK YOU FOR YOURUNCONDITIONAL LOVE, THAT
  • 00:23:43.444 --> 00:23:44.912
  • UNCONDITIONAL LOVE, THATYOU DON'T LOVE US LESS
  • 00:23:44.912 --> 00:23:46.180
  • YOU DON'T LOVE US LESSWHEN WE'RE WEEPING.
  • 00:23:46.180 --> 00:23:47.448
  • WHEN WE'RE WEEPING.YOU DON'T LOVE US LESS ON
  • 00:23:47.448 --> 00:23:48.983
  • YOU DON'T LOVE US LESS ONA HOPELESS DAY.
  • 00:23:48.983 --> 00:23:49.617
  • A HOPELESS DAY.THAT WE HAVEN'T FAILED
  • 00:23:49.617 --> 00:23:50.818
  • THAT WE HAVEN'T FAILEDYOU.
  • 00:23:50.818 --> 00:23:51.385
  • YOU.YOU KNOW OUR HUMAN
  • 00:23:51.385 --> 00:23:52.987
  • YOU KNOW OUR HUMANFRAILTIES.
  • 00:23:52.987 --> 00:23:53.854
  • FRAILTIES.BUT THAT YOU ARE STILL
  • 00:23:53.854 --> 00:23:55.289
  • BUT THAT YOU ARE STILLSTANDING BY AS AN EVER
  • 00:23:55.289 --> 00:23:56.724
  • STANDING BY AS AN EVERPRESENT HELP.
  • 00:23:56.724 --> 00:23:57.925
  • PRESENT HELP.THAT EVEN THOSE DARK
  • 00:23:57.925 --> 00:23:59.293
  • THAT EVEN THOSE DARKMOMENTS AREN'T AS DARK AS
  • 00:23:59.293 --> 00:24:00.828
  • MOMENTS AREN'T AS DARK ASTHEY WOULD BE WITHOUT YOU.
  • 00:24:00.828 --> 00:24:02.329
  • THEY WOULD BE WITHOUT YOU.AND SO WE ARE GRATEFUL FOR
  • 00:24:02.329 --> 00:24:04.131
  • AND SO WE ARE GRATEFUL FORYOUR LIGHT WHICH CONFUSES
  • 00:24:04.131 --> 00:24:05.099
  • YOUR LIGHT WHICH CONFUSESTHE DARKNESS OF OUR PAIN
  • 00:24:05.099 --> 00:24:06.734
  • THE DARKNESS OF OUR PAINAND ALWAYS LEADS US BACK
  • 00:24:06.734 --> 00:24:08.669
  • AND ALWAYS LEADS US BACKTO YOUR FEET.
  • 00:24:08.669 --> 00:24:09.436
  • TO YOUR FEET.WE ANTICIPATE ARRIVING
  • 00:24:09.436 --> 00:24:11.539
  • WE ANTICIPATE ARRIVINGTHERE EVEN IF WE'RE NOT
  • 00:24:11.539 --> 00:24:13.340
  • THERE EVEN IF WE'RE NOTTHERE IN THIS MOMENT.
  • 00:24:13.340 --> 00:24:13.874
  • THERE IN THIS MOMENT.WE KNOW THAT IT IS A DONE
  • 00:24:13.874 --> 00:24:16.010
  • WE KNOW THAT IT IS A DONEDEAL THAT YOU ARE THERE
  • 00:24:16.010 --> 00:24:17.578
  • DEAL THAT YOU ARE THEREFOR US AND WE RECEIVE THAT
  • 00:24:17.578 --> 00:24:18.913
  • FOR US AND WE RECEIVE THATUNCONDITIONAL LOVE RIGHT
  • 00:24:18.913 --> 00:24:20.314
  • UNCONDITIONAL LOVE RIGHTNOW IN THE NAME OF JESUS.
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  • NOW IN THE NAME OF JESUS.AMEN.
  • 00:24:23.117 --> 00:24:24.251
  • AMEN.- LAURIE: AMEN.
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  • - LAURIE: AMEN.I DON'T KNOW ABOUT YOU,
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  • I DON'T KNOW ABOUT YOU,BUT I'VE LAID ON THE FLOOR
  • 00:24:27.154 --> 00:24:28.088
  • BUT I'VE LAID ON THE FLOORA FEW TIMES THIS YEAR.
  • 00:24:28.088 --> 00:24:28.756
  • A FEW TIMES THIS YEAR.TEARS STREAMING DOWN MY
  • 00:24:28.756 --> 00:24:29.857
  • TEARS STREAMING DOWN MYFACE.
  • 00:24:29.857 --> 00:24:31.058
  • FACE.LET THOSE TEARS FLOW--
  • 00:24:31.058 --> 00:24:31.792
  • LET THOSE TEARS FLOW--YOU KNOW WHEN YOU WERE A
  • 00:24:31.792 --> 00:24:33.260
  • YOU KNOW WHEN YOU WERE ALITTLE KID OR IF YOU HAVE
  • 00:24:33.260 --> 00:24:34.261
  • LITTLE KID OR IF YOU HAVELITTLE CHILDREN, SOMETIMES
  • 00:24:34.261 --> 00:24:35.362
  • LITTLE CHILDREN, SOMETIMESYOU JUST WANT TO GO,
  • 00:24:35.362 --> 00:24:35.863
  • YOU JUST WANT TO GO,YOU KNOW WHAT,
  • 00:24:35.863 --> 00:24:36.497
  • YOU KNOW WHAT,IT'S OKAY TO CRY.
  • 00:24:36.497 --> 00:24:37.298
  • IT'S OKAY TO CRY.JUST HAVE A GOOD CRY.
  • 00:24:37.298 --> 00:24:38.832
  • JUST HAVE A GOOD CRY.BECAUSE IT ALWAYS SEEMS
  • 00:24:38.832 --> 00:24:39.800
  • BECAUSE IT ALWAYS SEEMSLIKE IT REFRESHES AND
  • 00:24:39.800 --> 00:24:40.868
  • LIKE IT REFRESHES ANDRENEWS.
  • 00:24:40.868 --> 00:24:44.505
  • RENEWS.JUST LAID ON THE FLOOR AND
  • 00:24:44.505 --> 00:24:45.773
  • JUST LAID ON THE FLOOR ANDSAID, GOD, MY HOPE, MY
  • 00:24:45.773 --> 00:24:46.807
  • SAID, GOD, MY HOPE, MYTRUST IS IN YOU.
  • 00:24:46.807 --> 00:24:48.842
  • TRUST IS IN YOU.HE IS NEVER FAILING.
  • 00:24:48.842 --> 00:24:50.778
  • HE IS NEVER FAILING.HE IS EVER PRESENT AND
  • 00:24:50.778 --> 00:24:52.279
  • HE IS EVER PRESENT ANDHE'S THERE FOR YOU.
  • 00:24:52.279 --> 00:24:53.514
  • HE'S THERE FOR YOU.YOU KNOW, OUR "BETTER
  • 00:24:53.514 --> 00:24:54.081
  • YOU KNOW, OUR "BETTERTOGETHER" COMMUNITY IS
  • 00:24:54.081 --> 00:24:55.149
  • TOGETHER" COMMUNITY ISALWAYS HERE FOR YOU.
  • 00:24:55.149 --> 00:24:56.116
  • ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU.YOU CAN CONNECT WITH US ON
  • 00:24:56.116 --> 00:24:57.151
  • YOU CAN CONNECT WITH US ONSOCIAL MEDIA AND LET US
  • 00:24:57.151 --> 00:24:58.218
  • SOCIAL MEDIA AND LET USKNOW HOW WE CAN PRAY.
  • 00:24:58.218 --> 00:24:59.186
  • KNOW HOW WE CAN PRAY.THANKS FOR JOINING US
  • 00:24:59.186 --> 00:25:00.454
  • THANKS FOR JOINING USTODAY.
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  • TODAY.I LOVE YOU GIRLS, YOU JUST
  • 00:25:01.822 --> 00:25:03.591
  • I LOVE YOU GIRLS, YOU JUSTMAKE MY DAY SO MUCH BETTER
  • 00:25:03.591 --> 00:25:05.726
  • MAKE MY DAY SO MUCH BETTERWHEN I'M WITH YOU.
  • 00:25:05.726 --> 00:25:07.661
  • WHEN I'M WITH YOU.SCROLLING THROUGH
  • 00:25:07.661 --> 00:25:08.729
  • SCROLLING THROUGHINSTAGRAM WISHING YOU HAD
  • 00:25:08.729 --> 00:25:09.897
  • INSTAGRAM WISHING YOU HADSOMEONE ELSE'S HAIR OR
  • 00:25:09.897 --> 00:25:12.600
  • SOMEONE ELSE'S HAIR ORCLOTHES SEEMS INNOCENT AT
  • 00:25:12.600 --> 00:25:14.201
  • CLOTHES SEEMS INNOCENT ATFIRST BUT COMPARISON IS A
  • 00:25:14.201 --> 00:25:15.235
  • FIRST BUT COMPARISON IS ATOXIC GAME.
  • 00:25:15.235 --> 00:25:16.770
  • TOXIC GAME.TOMORROW WE WILL BE
  • 00:25:16.770 --> 00:25:17.705
  • TOMORROW WE WILL BELEARNING HOW TO STOP ENVY
  • 00:25:17.705 --> 00:25:19.239
  • LEARNING HOW TO STOP ENVYIN ITS TRACKS.
  • 00:25:19.239 --> 00:25:20.007
  • IN ITS TRACKS.WE WILL SEE YOU THEN.
  • 00:25:20.007 --> 00:25:21.075
  • WE WILL SEE YOU THEN.I LOVE YOU ALL.
  • 00:25:21.075 --> 00:25:23.944
  • I LOVE YOU ALL.BYE BYE.
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